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SOME THINGS ARE BEST LEFT BURIED . . .

This Cursed House

Del Sandeen lives in north-east Florida, where she works as a copy editor and writes speculative fiction. Her work has appeared in FIYAH : Magazine of Black Speculative Fiction, Nightlight podcast and Gay Magazine. This Cursed House is her debut novel.

This Cursed House

This Cursed House

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OUT OF THE corner of Jemma Barker’s eye, the woman fl ickered, a shadow of light shimmering at the edges  of her vision.

Don’t look at ’em, Jemma. That was Mama’s voice.

Ain’t nothing but the devil’s work if you look. And that was Daddy’s.

Taking a slow breath (  fi ve, four, three, two, and one on the exhale),  shakier than usual due to the train’s rattling, Jemma stared into her  light-  wool-  skirted lap, where twisting fi ngers worked wrinkles into  a white handkerchief. When she glanced over at the empty seat next  to her, the woman was gone.

Jemma smoothed the handkerchief, then her already smooth skirt, then her bobbed hair, the  hot-  combed bangs fl uffi  ng in the  Southern heat, humidity intent on disarray. The man who’d sat in  that seat, who’d boarded with her when she’d left Chicago two days ago, had gotten off  somewhere in southern Missouri, right when  one of the white-jacketed porters had hung a CoLoReD sign in their car. The sign wasn’t necessary, as only Black passengers inhabited

the car anyway. No white folks would sit in this space, without a  luggage rack but with a fl attened mouse in one corner.

the car anyway. No white folks would sit in this space, without a  luggage rack but with a fl attened mouse in one corner.

No  one—  no living person,  anyhow—  had sat in the seat since. The car had steadily emptied as they traveled south. Jemma  opened her black patent leather handbag and pulled out an envelope. She’d read the letter inside dozens of times, but she wanted to  see it again, to make sure it was real. It was dated less than a week  after Marilyn Monroe had died, and even now, the papers were still making much of the actress’s death.

No  one—  no living person,  anyhow—  had sat in the seat since. The car had steadily emptied as they traveled south. Jemma  opened her black patent leather handbag and pulled out an envelope. She’d read the letter inside dozens of times, but she wanted to  see it again, to make sure it was real. It was dated less than a week  after Marilyn Monroe had died, and even now, the papers were still making much of the actress’s death.

The letter read:

The letter read:

August 10, 1962

August 10, 1962

Dear Miss Jemma Barker,

Dear Miss Jemma Barker,

I am writing to offer you a position with the Duchon family in New Orleans, Louisiana. The Duchons are a prominent family in the city and believe you have the qualities we are seeking. You would have free room and board and be expected to live on the property. The pay is $300 per week. This is nonnegotiable.

You must call by August 31 should you wish to accept.

I am writing to offer you a position with the Duchon family in New Orleans, Louisiana. The Duchons are a prominent family in the city and believe you have the qualities we are seeking. You would have free room and board and be expected to live on the property. The pay is $300 per week. This is nonnegotiable. You must call by August 31 should you wish to accept.

Sincerely,

Sincerely,

Honorine Duchon

Honorine Duchon

Of all the details in the letter, Jemma stared at the three hundred-  dollar weekly pay the most. It was more than three times  what she’d earned as a teacher in Chicago, before everything had

Of all the details in the letter, Jemma stared at the three hundred-  dollar weekly pay the most. It was more than three times  what she’d earned as a teacher in Chicago, before everything had

fallen apart. So she had called Honorine Duchon one afternoon in  mid-August, a few weeks ago.

fallen apart. So she had called Honorine Duchon one afternoon in  mid-August, a few weeks ago.

“Next stop, New Orleans. New Orleans, next stop!” a porter  announced, strolling down the  wood-  fl oor aisles. He stopped next  to a dozing woman and touched her shoulder, making sure she woke up in time. She, like Jemma, had a single square suitcase between her feet. Jemma put the letter away and smoothed her hair  again before slipping white gloves onto her hands and a pillbox hat onto her head.

“Next stop, New Orleans. New Orleans, next stop!” a porter  announced, strolling down the  wood-  fl oor aisles. He stopped next  to a dozing woman and touched her shoulder, making sure she woke up in time. She, like Jemma, had a single square suitcase between her feet. Jemma put the letter away and smoothed her hair  again before slipping white gloves onto her hands and a pillbox hat onto her head.

Half an hour later, she joined a line of passengers who shared  her color, disembarking after the white ones had already gotten off .  Jemma stood for a minute on the concrete, purse in one hand, suitcase hanging from the other, the clean, modern lines of the Union Passenger Terminal looming ahead of her.

Half an hour later, she joined a line of passengers who shared  her color, disembarking after the white ones had already gotten off .  Jemma stood for a minute on the concrete, purse in one hand, suitcase hanging from the other, the clean, modern lines of the Union Passenger Terminal looming ahead of her.

The heat was a womb. She’d thought summers in Chicago were  bad, but nothing had prepared her for this.

The heat was a womb. She’d thought summers in Chicago were  bad, but nothing had prepared her for this.

A white man in stovepipe slacks and a fedora jostled her as he hurried past, and then he turned back, perhaps to excuse himself.

A white man in stovepipe slacks and a fedora jostled her as he hurried past, and then he turned back, perhaps to excuse himself.

The beginnings of a frown set between Jemma’s brows, and chiding words formed behind her lips. Before she could say anything, however, his expression upon seeing a lone Black woman in last season’s jacket and skirt, the indiff erence that dulled his eyes, reminded her  that she wasn’t in Chicago. She remembered the  CoLoReD sign hanging in the train car as she pressed her lips together, watching the man continue to his destination, the encounter probably already seeping from his mind even as it brought a fl ush to her burning skin.

The beginnings of a frown set between Jemma’s brows, and chiding words formed behind her lips. Before she could say anything, however, his expression upon seeing a lone Black woman in last season’s jacket and skirt, the indiff erence that dulled his eyes, reminded her  that she wasn’t in Chicago. She remembered the  CoLoReD sign hanging in the train car as she pressed her lips together, watching the man continue to his destination, the encounter probably already seeping from his mind even as it brought a fl ush to her burning skin.

The man’s hurriedness was familiar to her, something that, along with his rudeness, reminded her of home. But when she took in the  rest of the place, she was reminded of the diff erentness.

The man’s hurriedness was familiar to her, something that, along with his rudeness, reminded her of home. But when she took in the  rest of the place, she was reminded of the diff erentness.

Early September in Chicago was a wave of cool weather, wool jackets and scarves at the ready. It was unpacking heavy sweaters,

Early September in Chicago was a wave of cool weather, wool jackets and scarves at the ready. It was unpacking heavy sweaters,

thermals and mittens. Gray skies and biting winds settled in for a  long haul, and the taste of snow was always in the air.

thermals and mittens. Gray skies and biting winds settled in for a  long haul, and the taste of snow was always in the air.

So Jemma’s attire was completely out of place. Women of all  colors swirled around in silks and linens (linens!), cottons and organdies. The tones were suitable for  fall—  light gray, sky blue, deep  pink,  cream—  but she was the only one in navy blue anything. And  very few of the women she saw were wearing gloves. Moisture  sprouted in her armpits, and not only from the heat. She removed  her gloves and tucked them into her purse.

So Jemma’s attire was completely out of place. Women of all  colors swirled around in silks and linens (linens!), cottons and organdies. The tones were suitable for  fall—  light gray, sky blue, deep  pink,  cream—  but she was the only one in navy blue anything. And  very few of the women she saw were wearing gloves. Moisture  sprouted in her armpits, and not only from the heat. She removed  her gloves and tucked them into her purse.

“Get you a cab, miss?”

“Get you a cab, miss?”

Jemma looked to her right, where a porter smiled at her.

Jemma looked to her right, where a porter smiled at her.

“No, thank you,” she said. “But can you tell me where I can get  some coff ee?”

“No, thank you,” she said. “But can you tell me where I can get  some coff ee?”

“Best for you to bypass the French Quarter. They’re still boycotting over there on Canal, and you don’t want to get mixed up in that. Make your way to this neighborhood called Tremé. You can  catch the bus over there.”

“Best for you to bypass the French Quarter. They’re still boycotting over there on Canal, and you don’t want to get mixed up in that. Make your way to this neighborhood called Tremé. You can  catch the bus over there.”

“Boycotting?”

“Boycotting?”

He cocked his head. “Yeah. They don’t want to hire none of us  to work on Dryades ’less we’re sweeping out the back room or scrubbing the toilets. We can’t eat nowhere on Canal. So it’s been  some  sit-  ins and little marches and things.”

He cocked his head. “Yeah. They don’t want to hire none of us  to work on Dryades ’less we’re sweeping out the back room or scrubbing the toilets. We can’t eat nowhere on Canal. So it’s been  some  sit-  ins and little marches and things.”

A smile tugged at Jemma’s lips. Although not immune to the  oftentimes inexplicable whims of white people in Chicago who didn’t want Black people to experience full citizenhood, she’d had more freedom there than the folks who lived across the South. And  they were fi ghting back. Good.

A smile tugged at Jemma’s lips. Although not immune to the  oftentimes inexplicable whims of white people in Chicago who didn’t want Black people to experience full citizenhood, she’d had more freedom there than the folks who lived across the South. And  they were fi ghting back. Good.

“Can you give me directions to Tremé if I’m walking?” “It’ll take you a minute.”

“Can you give me directions to Tremé if I’m walking?”

“It’ll take you a minute.”

“I got time.”

“I got time.”

He gave her careful directions. Jemma pressed her handkerchief, now bearing blotches of brown powder, to her face and thanked him as she set off , the handle of the suitcase slick in her  hand. Rivers of sweat ran freely down her body, and her legs itched  in the thick stockings. Cobblestone streets stretched in every direction. There were no skyscrapers or tall  housing-  project buildings  here, only walls of balconied structures and wrought iron railings.

He gave her careful directions. Jemma pressed her handkerchief, now bearing blotches of brown powder, to her face and thanked him as she set off , the handle of the suitcase slick in her  hand. Rivers of sweat ran freely down her body, and her legs itched  in the thick stockings. Cobblestone streets stretched in every direction. There were no skyscrapers or tall  housing-  project buildings  here, only walls of balconied structures and wrought iron railings.

Jemma passed yellow, blue and pink stone buildings, with ivy and fl owers trailing down from second fl oors or growing up brick sides  like delicate fi ngers. The smells of soft bread, strong coff ee, sweet  pastries and thick roux fi lled the air, a jumble of scents that pulled  Jemma’s tongue between her lips. She’d eaten nothing since lunch  the day before, the last of the roast beef sandwiches she’d packed, as there were no colored dining cars or other places where they were allowed to eat once they’d reached Tennessee. Glancing through  the restaurant windows, she saw only white patrons.

Jemma passed yellow, blue and pink stone buildings, with ivy and fl owers trailing down from second fl oors or growing up brick sides  like delicate fi ngers. The smells of soft bread, strong coff ee, sweet  pastries and thick roux fi lled the air, a jumble of scents that pulled  Jemma’s tongue between her lips. She’d eaten nothing since lunch  the day before, the last of the roast beef sandwiches she’d packed, as there were no colored dining cars or other places where they were allowed to eat once they’d reached Tennessee. Glancing through  the restaurant windows, she saw only white patrons.

As she navigated her way north, the smell of the Mississippi River gradually faded, although not completely. Colorful buildings  and storefronts gave way to row houses. On Rampart Street, she  turned down an alleyway, her feet in the black heels seeming to grow blisters against the cobblestones with every step. Jemma  stopped and leaned against the brick wall between two nondescript buildings, setting her suitcase down and mopping her face again.  All her powder had been wiped clean off , the remnants of her carefully made- up face soiling the handkerchief. She glanced around,  now sure she was in the wrong alleyway. The porter had told her of  a café down a specifi c backstreet but had also cautioned her,  Stay away from dark alleys where you don’t see nobody else. She’d wanted to remind him that it was morning, but something in his face kept the words inside. As she slipped one foot out of her shoe and rubbed her

As she navigated her way north, the smell of the Mississippi River gradually faded, although not completely. Colorful buildings  and storefronts gave way to row houses. On Rampart Street, she  turned down an alleyway, her feet in the black heels seeming to grow blisters against the cobblestones with every step. Jemma  stopped and leaned against the brick wall between two nondescript buildings, setting her suitcase down and mopping her face again.  All her powder had been wiped clean off , the remnants of her carefully made- up face soiling the handkerchief. She glanced around,  now sure she was in the wrong alleyway. The porter had told her of  a café down a specifi c backstreet but had also cautioned her,  Stay away from dark alleys where you don’t see nobody else. She’d wanted to remind him that it was morning, but something in his face kept the words inside. As she slipped one foot out of her shoe and rubbed her

toes, a door in the building in front of her opened. Jemma tensed at  the sight of the light man in a chef’s apron until she took in the crinkled hair, the almost imperceptible wideness in his nose.

toes, a door in the building in front of her opened. Jemma tensed at  the sight of the light man in a chef’s apron until she took in the crinkled hair, the almost imperceptible wideness in his nose.

“You lost?” he asked her after tossing dirty dishwater out of a  huge pot into a nearby grate. Hazel eyes appraised her, lingering  over her heavy clothing before coming back to her face.

“You lost?” he asked her after tossing dirty dishwater out of a  huge pot into a nearby grate. Hazel eyes appraised her, lingering  over her heavy clothing before coming back to her face.

“I’m looking for Lulu’s Café.”

“I’m looking for Lulu’s Café.”

“Next alleyway over,” he said, jerking his chin to the right.  “There’s no sign, but you’ll see a window with some dolls inside.”

“Next alleyway over,” he said, jerking his chin to the right.  “There’s no sign, but you’ll see a window with some dolls inside.”

Jemma had wanted to rest for a few minutes, maybe even cool off  before moving on, but she felt like an intruder here, where the  man now pulled a rolled cigarette from his apron pocket and lit it with a match. He didn’t off er her one. Clouds of smoke obscured his  face, but she felt his eyes on her.

Jemma had wanted to rest for a few minutes, maybe even cool off  before moving on, but she felt like an intruder here, where the  man now pulled a rolled cigarette from his apron pocket and lit it with a match. He didn’t off er her one. Clouds of smoke obscured his  face, but she felt his eyes on her.

She put her shoe back on, hitched up her suitcase and moved on to the next alley, fi nding the bright  blue–  painted café by the collection of brown- skinned dolls sitting inside the window, just as the cook had said. Jemma passed two yellow wrought iron  table-  and-  chair sets as she walked inside, the coolness of the dim space so welcoming she shut her eyes, wanting only to breathe it in for a while. Ceiling fans turned overhead, spreading delicious smells  around the room, all hot coff ee, pralines, beignets and roux.

She put her shoe back on, hitched up her suitcase and moved on to the next alley, fi nding the bright  blue–  painted café by the collection of brown- skinned dolls sitting inside the window, just as the cook had said. Jemma passed two yellow wrought iron  table-  and-  chair sets as she walked inside, the coolness of the dim space so welcoming she shut her eyes, wanting only to breathe it in for a while. Ceiling fans turned overhead, spreading delicious smells  around the room, all hot coff ee, pralines, beignets and roux.

“Ooh, baby, I know you burning up.” A woman’s voice brought  Jemma back. She found herself looking into the deep brown face  and eyes of a middle-aged woman in a light blue dress and with a white apron around her waist. “Come on in here and sit down.”

“Ooh, baby, I know you burning up.” A woman’s voice brought  Jemma back. She found herself looking into the deep brown face  and eyes of a middle-aged woman in a light blue dress and with a white apron around her waist. “Come on in here and sit down.”

Jemma happily obeyed, taking a spot in a  stiff -  backed chair by  the window. The table was small, made for two, and as Jemma took  in her surroundings, she spied nothing but Black patrons at half a dozen tables, hunched over white cups of coff ee or plates of bread  and sausage.

Jemma happily obeyed, taking a spot in a  stiff -  backed chair by  the window. The table was small, made for two, and as Jemma took  in her surroundings, she spied nothing but Black patrons at half a dozen tables, hunched over white cups of coff ee or plates of bread  and sausage.

“You want some chicory, honey?”

“You want some chicory, honey?”

“I’m  sorry—  what?”

“I’m  sorry—  what?”

The woman smiled down at her. “It’s a coff ee. I’ll get you one.”

The woman smiled down at her. “It’s a coff ee. I’ll get you one.”

Before Jemma could protest, the woman walked off  and disappeared through a set of swinging doors that led to the kitchen.  Jemma opened her handbag and pulled out her coin purse, the peeling red leather petal-soft beneath her fi ngers. Snapping it open,  she made sure she still had fi ve wrinkled singles, along with a small  handful of change. A chalkboard hanging on one wall advertised  everything from chicory café au lait, pain perdu, beignets, croissants and calas to gumbo, crawfi sh etouff ee, red beans and rice and  croque monsieur. Jemma didn’t recognize all the words, but the  mix of sweet and spicy smells fl oating through the air reminded her  how hungry she was.

Before Jemma could protest, the woman walked off  and disappeared through a set of swinging doors that led to the kitchen.  Jemma opened her handbag and pulled out her coin purse, the peeling red leather petal-soft beneath her fi ngers. Snapping it open,  she made sure she still had fi ve wrinkled singles, along with a small  handful of change. A chalkboard hanging on one wall advertised  everything from chicory café au lait, pain perdu, beignets, croissants and calas to gumbo, crawfi sh etouff ee, red beans and rice and  croque monsieur. Jemma didn’t recognize all the words, but the  mix of sweet and spicy smells fl oating through the air reminded her  how hungry she was.

“This is on the house.” The woman, her head tilted as she looked  down at her, slid a cup of coff ee in front of Jemma. “Are you visiting?”

“This is on the house.” The woman, her head tilted as she looked  down at her, slid a cup of coff ee in front of Jemma. “Are you visiting?”

“No. I just moved here. I’m working for the Duchon family.”  Jemma pronounced it Du-chun, emphasis on the fi rst syllable, unable  to keep the breathy pride out of her voice. The woman stared at her  for a moment before a look of recognition washed over her face.

“No. I just moved here. I’m working for the Duchon family.”  Jemma pronounced it Du-chun, emphasis on the fi rst syllable, unable  to keep the breathy pride out of her voice. The woman stared at her  for a moment before a look of recognition washed over her face.

“Oh, the Doo- chone family,” she enunciated, the soft smile  shrinking away. Her back straightened, all the friendly intimacy of  their conversation disappearing along with the grandmotherly tone.  “You want something to eat?”

“Oh, the Doo- chone family,” she enunciated, the soft smile  shrinking away. Her back straightened, all the friendly intimacy of  their conversation disappearing along with the grandmotherly tone.  “You want something to eat?”

Jemma’s mouth worked (What just happened here?), but after a moment, she asked for grits and eggs, knowing the breakfast cost just forty cents. She sipped her coff ee, and before long, the woman returned, sliding a plate loaded with grits, eggs and toast onto the table. Alongside it, she placed a small plate with a couple of sugary  confections.

Jemma’s mouth worked (What just happened here?), but after a moment, she asked for grits and eggs, knowing the breakfast cost just forty cents. She sipped her coff ee, and before long, the woman returned, sliding a plate loaded with grits, eggs and toast onto the table. Alongside it, she placed a small plate with a couple of sugary  confections.

“Oh, I didn’t ask  for— ” Jemma started.

“Oh, I didn’t ask  for— ” Jemma started.

“It’s on me, baby. You’re new to New Orleans. You got to try  Lulu’s beignets.” She turned to go but stopped and looked at Jemma  again, the softness back in her eyes. “You’re working for the Duchons, you say?”

“It’s on me, baby. You’re new to New Orleans. You got to try  Lulu’s beignets.” She turned to go but stopped and looked at Jemma  again, the softness back in her eyes. “You’re working for the Duchons, you say?”

“Yes. I was going to ask how to get to  the . . . plantation.” That’s  what Honorine had called the property when Jemma had talked to  her a few weeks ago.

“Yes. I was going to ask how to get to  the . . . plantation.” That’s  what Honorine had called the property when Jemma had talked to  her a few weeks ago.

“It’s not in the parish  proper—  it’s out toward Metairie. You can  take the bus, but it’s going to let you off  before you get there. Cab’ll  take you straight through, but it’ll cost.”

“It’s not in the parish  proper—  it’s out toward Metairie. You can  take the bus, but it’s going to let you off  before you get there. Cab’ll  take you straight through, but it’ll cost.”

“I can take the bus. If I have to walk a ways, that’s okay.”

“I can take the bus. If I have to walk a ways, that’s okay.”

Lulu glanced away for a second before turning back, her deep brown eyes full of something disquieting Jemma couldn’t quite place.

Lulu glanced away for a second before turning back, her deep brown eyes full of something disquieting Jemma couldn’t quite place.

“Miss, it’s not my business, but if I was you, I’d go the other way.  Get back on the train or bus or whatever you came here on and go back to where you from.”

“Miss, it’s not my business, but if I was you, I’d go the other way.  Get back on the train or bus or whatever you came here on and go back to where you from.”

“I . . . I have a job with the Duchons. They hired me to be  a . . .  tutor.”

“I . . . I have a job with the Duchons. They hired me to be  a . . .  tutor.”

“Like I said, it’s not my business.” She left Jemma to eat in peace.

She had been so hungry, but what Lulu said dampened her appetite. Still, she had a bus ride and a walk ahead of her, so Jemma  ate. The food was delicious, especially the sweet and fl aky beignets,  their powdered- sugar coating drifting down on the plate and her lap.

“Like I said, it’s not my business.” She left Jemma to eat in peace. She had been so hungry, but what Lulu said dampened her appetite. Still, she had a bus ride and a walk ahead of her, so Jemma  ate. The food was delicious, especially the sweet and fl aky beignets,  their powdered- sugar coating drifting down on the plate and her lap.

Afterward, Jemma found the bus she needed and settled herself in the back. White passengers fi lled the front, and a couple of Black  men stood when Jemma and another woman boarded. The woman  sat next to her, looking very cool in a striped dress, the skirt full and belted, her hair short and teased high at the crown, bangs swept to one side. Despite the heat, Jemma had put her gloves back on. She  tugged the cuff  over her right wrist, hiding the scar beneath, the

Afterward, Jemma found the bus she needed and settled herself in the back. White passengers fi lled the front, and a couple of Black  men stood when Jemma and another woman boarded. The woman  sat next to her, looking very cool in a striped dress, the skirt full and belted, her hair short and teased high at the crown, bangs swept to one side. Despite the heat, Jemma had put her gloves back on. She  tugged the cuff  over her right wrist, hiding the scar beneath, the

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skin raised and riverlike, evidence of an unsure hand. Hot air and  dust blew in through the open windows, and with each hard stop Jemma’s feet tightened on the sides of the suitcase so that it wouldn’t slide away.

skin raised and riverlike, evidence of an unsure hand. Hot air and  dust blew in through the open windows, and with each hard stop Jemma’s feet tightened on the sides of the suitcase so that it wouldn’t slide away.

Just before noon, she disembarked at the last stop, a two-mile trek ahead of her, according to her seatmate on the bus. Jemma’s  feet ached, her body felt wrung out and the breakfast she’d eaten had shriveled into a hard knot in her stomach. If she’d had the  money, she would’ve taken a cab then and there. She folded her  jacket and placed it inside her suitcase, wiping her forehead with the back of her ungloved hand. Although there was no breeze, just having her arms out in the  short-  sleeved blouse was a relief.

Just before noon, she disembarked at the last stop, a two-mile trek ahead of her, according to her seatmate on the bus. Jemma’s  feet ached, her body felt wrung out and the breakfast she’d eaten had shriveled into a hard knot in her stomach. If she’d had the  money, she would’ve taken a cab then and there. She folded her  jacket and placed it inside her suitcase, wiping her forehead with the back of her ungloved hand. Although there was no breeze, just having her arms out in the  short-  sleeved blouse was a relief.

She’d walked about a quarter mile when she heard someone call  behind her. She turned to see a  brown-  skinned man driving a  one-   horse wagon, the wooden bed fi lled with hay.

She’d walked about a quarter mile when she heard someone call  behind her. She turned to see a  brown-  skinned man driving a  one-   horse wagon, the wooden bed fi lled with hay.

“You need a lift?” he asked.

“You need a lift?” he asked.

Jemma quickly dismissed her disorientation at seeing a  horse-  drawn wagon in this day and age, reminding herself once again that she’d left a big city far behind.

Jemma quickly dismissed her disorientation at seeing a  horse-  drawn wagon in this day and age, reminding herself once again that she’d left a big city far behind.

“I’m going to the Duchon plantation. Is that on your way?”

“I’m going to the Duchon plantation. Is that on your way?”

“It is.” Something in the careful way he said it made Jemma  think of Lulu back at the café. “Swing that case in the back. I’ll help  you up.”

“It is.” Something in the careful way he said it made Jemma  think of Lulu back at the café. “Swing that case in the back. I’ll help  you up.”

The man’s name was Charlie, he told her, as she nestled on the bench seat next to him. The sleeves of his dress shirt were rolled up  his arms, suspenders hanging off , sweat stains bleeding through the  T- shirt he wore underneath. His planter’s hat was pushed back on  his head. Once he’d made sure Jemma was settled, he snapped the  reins, and the bay horse moved its slow way down the dirt road.

The man’s name was Charlie, he told her, as she nestled on the bench seat next to him. The sleeves of his dress shirt were rolled up  his arms, suspenders hanging off , sweat stains bleeding through the  T- shirt he wore underneath. His planter’s hat was pushed back on  his head. Once he’d made sure Jemma was settled, he snapped the  reins, and the bay horse moved its slow way down the dirt road.

“What you walking to the Duchons’ for?”

“What you walking to the Duchons’ for?”

“The bus line stopped back there. It’s only a couple miles.”

“The bus line stopped back there. It’s only a couple miles.”

“More like almost four.” His sidelong glance raked over her in  seconds. “You woulda melted out here before you made it.”

“More like almost four.” His sidelong glance raked over her in  seconds. “You woulda melted out here before you made it.”

“I’m extra thankful for the ride, then.”

“I’m extra thankful for the ride, then.”

They passed patchy woods and a long stretch of pasture, as well as the occasional towering oak tree, Spanish moss trailing from branches and brushing the ground like spiderwebs, the shade they cast a welcome gift. At Charlie’s prompting, Jemma had told him  she was from Chicago and was here to work for the family.

They passed patchy woods and a long stretch of pasture, as well as the occasional towering oak tree, Spanish moss trailing from branches and brushing the ground like spiderwebs, the shade they cast a welcome gift. At Charlie’s prompting, Jemma had told him  she was from Chicago and was here to work for the family.

“A tutor? For who?”

“A tutor? For who?”

Jemma almost said she would be a tutor for their child, but no one had actually told her whom she’d be tutoring. In fact, no one  had said she was hired to be a tutor.

Jemma almost said she would be a tutor for their child, but no one had actually told her whom she’d be tutoring. In fact, no one  had said she was hired to be a tutor.

Ever since she’d gotten the letter, she’d assumed the Duchons knew she’d taught fourth grade, further assuming they must have a child around that age. When she’d called Honorine to accept the position, she hadn’t asked many questions. The money had dazzled her.  She’d been scared that if she asked too much, the woman with the clipped voice would change her mind about her, renege on the off er.

Ever since she’d gotten the letter, she’d assumed the Duchons knew she’d taught fourth grade, further assuming they must have a child around that age. When she’d called Honorine to accept the position, she hadn’t asked many questions. The money had dazzled her.  She’d been scared that if she asked too much, the woman with the clipped voice would change her mind about her, renege on the off er.

“Their child,” she answered now, frowning.

“Their child,” she answered now, frowning.

Charlie looked at her for a brief moment. “Well, maybe something’s changed out there.”

Charlie looked at her for a brief moment. “Well, maybe something’s changed out there.”

“Do you know the family well?”

“Do you know the family well?”

“No. They keep to themselves.”

“No. They keep to themselves.”

He didn’t seem to want to talk much after that. He leaned forward, and something in the way he hitched his shoulders and whistled under his breath shut Jemma out.

He didn’t seem to want to talk much after that. He leaned forward, and something in the way he hitched his shoulders and whistled under his breath shut Jemma out.

A cream- colored Buick Roadmaster swerved around them,  white-  walled tires spinning up dust that hung in its wake. After a  while, she concentrated on the dirt lane and the wooden fence running alongside it. Her world became the dappled light poking  through the trees, and the horse in front of her, the soft clop of its

A cream- colored Buick Roadmaster swerved around them,  white-  walled tires spinning up dust that hung in its wake. After a  while, she concentrated on the dirt lane and the wooden fence running alongside it. Her world became the dappled light poking  through the trees, and the horse in front of her, the soft clop of its

hooves and its animal scent pushing the ghost woman on the train out of Jemma’s mind.

hooves and its animal scent pushing the ghost woman on the train out of Jemma’s mind.

“This is as far as I go,” Charlie said.

“This is as far as I go,” Charlie said.

They were stopped in front of a wrought iron gate, a huge expanse of lawn behind it. Well behind the gate was a white antebellum house, four pillars standing tall across the front, straight like soldiers. Black shutters framed the large windows, two on either  side of the black doors on the fi rst fl oor, and six spanning the second. A wide porch ran along the fi rst fl oor, enclosed by a white  railing. Oak trees lined the pathway up to the house, and more trees  hugged the building, keeping it in shade.

They were stopped in front of a wrought iron gate, a huge expanse of lawn behind it. Well behind the gate was a white antebellum house, four pillars standing tall across the front, straight like soldiers. Black shutters framed the large windows, two on either  side of the black doors on the fi rst fl oor, and six spanning the second. A wide porch ran along the fi rst fl oor, enclosed by a white  railing. Oak trees lined the pathway up to the house, and more trees  hugged the building, keeping it in shade.

Jemma climbed down and retrieved her suitcase. She opened  her handbag, but before she could pull out her coin purse or thank Charlie for the ride, he snapped the reins, sending his horse on a quick trot down the road, dust swirling up in Jemma’s face.

Jemma climbed down and retrieved her suitcase. She opened  her handbag, but before she could pull out her coin purse or thank Charlie for the ride, he snapped the reins, sending his horse on a quick trot down the road, dust swirling up in Jemma’s face.

She stared after him for a moment, spitting out sand. Picking up  her suitcase, she pushed the gate, which opened with a creak. As she  drew closer to the house, she noticed details not visible from the road. The white wasn’t as pristine as it had appeared from a distance. A light coat of dirt, like settled neglect, tarnished it some, as  did the weeds sprouting between porch boards. A large number of  tiles on the gabled roof were loosened, their edges not lying fl at on  their neighbors but curled up like snarling lips. A huge dogwood  tree to the left of the lane should have been in bloom in this climate, but pink petals littered the grass below it, leaving most of the branches bare, reaching into the air like crooked and clutching fi ngers.

She stared after him for a moment, spitting out sand. Picking up  her suitcase, she pushed the gate, which opened with a creak. As she  drew closer to the house, she noticed details not visible from the road. The white wasn’t as pristine as it had appeared from a distance. A light coat of dirt, like settled neglect, tarnished it some, as  did the weeds sprouting between porch boards. A large number of  tiles on the gabled roof were loosened, their edges not lying fl at on  their neighbors but curled up like snarling lips. A huge dogwood  tree to the left of the lane should have been in bloom in this climate, but pink petals littered the grass below it, leaving most of the branches bare, reaching into the air like crooked and clutching fi ngers.

Jemma slipped her gloves back on, and at the front door she hesitated before touching the dull knocker in the shape of a grotesque head. She turned to look over her shoulder at the iron gate,  still open, as if waiting for her to run back through it. Instead, she lifted the knocker and banged it against the door.

Jemma slipped her gloves back on, and at the front door she hesitated before touching the dull knocker in the shape of a grotesque head. She turned to look over her shoulder at the iron gate,  still open, as if waiting for her to run back through it.

Instead, she lifted the knocker and banged it against the door.

IIN THE BRIEF second between the door opening a crack and widening further to reveal a woman, an unshaped wisp

N THE BRIEF second between the door opening a crack and widening further to reveal a woman, an unshaped wisp

fl itted by, escaping the house and whipping around Jemma  before disappearing in the air. She shut her eyes, breathed deeply  and then focused on who’d opened the door.

fl itted by, escaping the house and whipping around Jemma  before disappearing in the air. She shut her eyes, breathed deeply  and then focused on who’d opened the door.

A maid stood there, her black dress and white apron announcing her station. Her slick hair was divided down the center of her  scalp with a  pin-  straight part, a bun sitting at the nape of her neck.  Hazel eyes shined out of her bright face.

A maid stood there, her black dress and white apron announcing her station. Her slick hair was divided down the center of her  scalp with a  pin-  straight part, a bun sitting at the nape of her neck.  Hazel eyes shined out of her bright face.

“Hello,” Jemma said. “I’m Jemma Barker, the tutor.”

“Hello,” Jemma said. “I’m Jemma Barker, the tutor.”

The maid stared at her, neither extending a hand nor opening the door any wider and stepping aside. Her light eyes barely moved,  and yet it seemed they took in all of Jemma, from the sweat lines that had disintegrated her carefully applied powder (the little that  was left on her face instead of on her handkerchief) to her  heat-   frizzed hair to the wool suit. Compared to the Duchons’ maid, who  looked to be in her early forties, Jemma’s shabbiness all but crowed.

The maid stared at her, neither extending a hand nor opening the door any wider and stepping aside. Her light eyes barely moved,  and yet it seemed they took in all of Jemma, from the sweat lines that had disintegrated her carefully applied powder (the little that  was left on her face instead of on her handkerchief) to her  heat-   frizzed hair to the wool suit. Compared to the Duchons’ maid, who  looked to be in her early forties, Jemma’s shabbiness all but crowed.

“Agnes!” came a voice from inside the home. “Are you going to  let our visitor in or are you going to stand there all day? Either let her in or shut the door. The last thing we need in here is more fl ies.”

“Agnes!” came a voice from inside the home. “Are you going to  let our visitor in or are you going to stand there all day? Either let her in or shut the door. The last thing we need in here is more fl ies.”

The door opened just enough for Jemma to squeeze inside, her  suitcase bumping the frame. In the next moment, another woman  approached, swathed in deep pink silk all the way to the fl oor, heels  clicking and right hand out.

The door opened just enough for Jemma to squeeze inside, her  suitcase bumping the frame. In the next moment, another woman  approached, swathed in deep pink silk all the way to the fl oor, heels  clicking and right hand out.

“Honorine Duchon. We spoke on the phone,” she said, shaking  Jemma’s hand.

“Honorine Duchon. We spoke on the phone,” she said, shaking  Jemma’s hand.

Now Jemma had a face to match the voice. She took the woman  to be in her seventies. Her eyes were dark green, and beneath a  heavy dusting of white powder, freckles dotted her cheeks. Thinning silver hair was pulled into a French roll. She stood only a couple of inches taller than Jemma’s fi ve foot three, but the woman’s  erect posture suggested much more stature.

Now Jemma had a face to match the voice. She took the woman  to be in her seventies. Her eyes were dark green, and beneath a  heavy dusting of white powder, freckles dotted her cheeks. Thinning silver hair was pulled into a French roll. She stood only a couple of inches taller than Jemma’s fi ve foot three, but the woman’s  erect posture suggested much more stature.

“Ah, Miss Barker, you’ve fi nally arrived. The heat doesn’t seem  to have agreed with you.” A gentle chuckle at the end did nothing  to lessen the sting.

“Ah, Miss Barker, you’ve fi nally arrived. The heat doesn’t seem  to have agreed with you.” A gentle chuckle at the end did nothing  to lessen the sting.

A warmth unconnected with the climate fl ushed Jemma’s cheeks  as she wondered how poor she must look. Before she could even  think of a reply, the woman continued.

A warmth unconnected with the climate fl ushed Jemma’s cheeks  as she wondered how poor she must look. Before she could even  think of a reply, the woman continued.

“Not like our ancestors in Africa, hmm?”

“Not like our ancestors in Africa, hmm?”

Jemma blinked. Our ancestors in Africa?

Jemma blinked. Our ancestors in Africa?

A high voice carried into the room. “Oh, you must excuse  Grandmère! She forgets herself sometimes.” And a younger woman  swept into the foyer, just as pale as Honorine but with black hair  trailing in loose waves down her back. “Here you are, only just arrived, and she’s already started in on Africa, as if we’ve forgotten we’re all colored. You must be Jemma Barker. I’m Fosette.” She  clasped one of Jemma’s hands in both her own.

A high voice carried into the room. “Oh, you must excuse  Grandmère! She forgets herself sometimes.” And a younger woman  swept into the foyer, just as pale as Honorine but with black hair  trailing in loose waves down her back. “Here you are, only just arrived, and she’s already started in on Africa, as if we’ve forgotten we’re all colored. You must be Jemma Barker. I’m Fosette.” She  clasped one of Jemma’s hands in both her own.

Jemma’s mind stumbled over the word “colored.” These pale

Jemma’s mind stumbled over the word “colored.” These pale

ghosts of women were Black? The three of them stood almost shoulder to shoulder, even Agnes the maid continuing to stare. Fosette’s  gray eyes danced. Jemma took her to be about her age, but as she  studied her face more closely, just beneath the face powder fi ne lines  tried to hide, as if too ashamed to be seen. Like her grandmother,  she dressed in a style that hadn’t been in fashion in twenty years.

Her blue dress draped to midcalf, soft gathers sweeping across the  wide shoulders. A double strand of pearls hung to her waist.

ghosts of women were Black? The three of them stood almost shoulder to shoulder, even Agnes the maid continuing to stare. Fosette’s  gray eyes danced. Jemma took her to be about her age, but as she  studied her face more closely, just beneath the face powder fi ne lines  tried to hide, as if too ashamed to be seen. Like her grandmother,  she dressed in a style that hadn’t been in fashion in twenty years.  Her blue dress draped to midcalf, soft gathers sweeping across the  wide shoulders. A double strand of pearls hung to her waist.

Nothing about them suggested that they shared her race. Their  skin color served as an unpleasant reminder of even harsher times in the nation, when terms like “octoroon,” “quadroon” and “house  slave” often hinted at a life that wasn’t quite as cruel as it was for  people who looked like Jemma.

Nothing about them suggested that they shared her race. Their  skin color served as an unpleasant reminder of even harsher times in the nation, when terms like “octoroon,” “quadroon” and “house  slave” often hinted at a life that wasn’t quite as cruel as it was for  people who looked like Jemma.

“Agnes,” Honorine said out of the corner of her mouth, “her  bag.”

“Agnes,” Honorine said out of the corner of her mouth, “her  bag.”

Jemma wilted under their direct gaze until Honorine turned to  the maid, her stare fi nally prompting the woman to move. As  Jemma started to follow Agnes, to see where she would be staying, Fosette slipped her arm through Jemma’s, directing her deeper into the space of the fi rst fl oor as Agnes carried the suitcase up the wide,  grand stairway, red carpet under her feet. Fosette led Jemma past  the banister, dark wood showing through chipped white paint, while Jemma thought how desperately she wanted to freshen up, to wipe the moisture from under her arms, to blot her face.

Jemma wilted under their direct gaze until Honorine turned to  the maid, her stare fi nally prompting the woman to move. As  Jemma started to follow Agnes, to see where she would be staying, Fosette slipped her arm through Jemma’s, directing her deeper into the space of the fi rst fl oor as Agnes carried the suitcase up the wide,  grand stairway, red carpet under her feet. Fosette led Jemma past  the banister, dark wood showing through chipped white paint, while Jemma thought how desperately she wanted to freshen up, to wipe the moisture from under her arms, to blot her face.

“The trip must have been brutal,” Fosette said. “You’re sweating like a fi eld hand.” A light tinkle of laughter, like a knife tapping  crystal, fl ew from her.

“The trip must have been brutal,” Fosette said. “You’re sweating like a fi eld hand.” A light tinkle of laughter, like a knife tapping  crystal, fl ew from her.

“I . . . I’d like to visit the washroom fi rst, if that’s all right.”

“I . . . I’d like to visit the washroom fi rst, if that’s all right.”

“We’ll get  there—  don’t you worry.” Fosette glanced behind  them, where Honorine remained in the same spot, watching Agnes,  as her and Jemma’s shoes clacked on the dusty hardwood fl oor. “I

“We’ll get  there—  don’t you worry.” Fosette glanced behind  them, where Honorine remained in the same spot, watching Agnes,  as her and Jemma’s shoes clacked on the dusty hardwood fl oor. “I

wanted to apologize for Grandmère. She’s used to doing things the  old way. She doesn’t understand that some of the things she says can   be . . . ridiculous. I mean, Africa! And she doesn’t mean to say such  silly things sometimes. She’s  just . . . old. Ah, here is the kitchen!”

wanted to apologize for Grandmère. She’s used to doing things the  old way. She doesn’t understand that some of the things she says can   be . . . ridiculous. I mean, Africa! And she doesn’t mean to say such  silly things sometimes. She’s  just . . . old. Ah, here is the kitchen!”

She allowed Jemma a quick peek inside the expansive space. A  slightly burnt odor hung in the air. Jemma had time to see only the  white Philco refrigerator, the stove, the sink and the black-and white tiled fl oor before Fosette directed her onward, to the parlor,  the dining room with its table for ten, the living room and the solarium. Jemma looked longingly at the water closet they passed, and  then Fosette threw open the French doors off  the solarium to reveal  a large back garden.

She allowed Jemma a quick peek inside the expansive space. A  slightly burnt odor hung in the air. Jemma had time to see only the  white Philco refrigerator, the stove, the sink and the black-and white tiled fl oor before Fosette directed her onward, to the parlor,  the dining room with its table for ten, the living room and the solarium. Jemma looked longingly at the water closet they passed, and  then Fosette threw open the French doors off  the solarium to reveal  a large back garden.

Squat magnolia shrubs lined both sides of the fl at green lawn,  the drone of bumblebees an undercurrent to the conversation between a group of three people farther out, a woman and two men.  The magnolias drooped, the edges of many of their petals curled and brown. As in the front, dogwood trees crowded together behind the shrubs, and in the far distance, about a hundred yards out, more oaks formed a line in front of wild woods.

Squat magnolia shrubs lined both sides of the fl at green lawn,  the drone of bumblebees an undercurrent to the conversation between a group of three people farther out, a woman and two men.  The magnolias drooped, the edges of many of their petals curled and brown. As in the front, dogwood trees crowded together behind the shrubs, and in the far distance, about a hundred yards out, more oaks formed a line in front of wild woods.

“Who are they?” Jemma pointed to the group. From here, they  appeared white, but she assumed they were Black, just very light skinned like everyone else she’d met thus far. The woman held a  croquet mallet in her hands, her slim neck bent, the toe of one foot  on top of a  red-  striped ball.

“Who are they?” Jemma pointed to the group. From here, they  appeared white, but she assumed they were Black, just very light skinned like everyone else she’d met thus far. The woman held a  croquet mallet in her hands, her slim neck bent, the toe of one foot  on top of a  red-  striped ball.

“My uncle, mother and brother. You’ll meet them at dinner.”

“My uncle, mother and brother. You’ll meet them at dinner.”

“And the child?”

“And the child?”

A blank stare met this question. “Child?”

A blank stare met this question. “Child?”

“Who I’m tutoring.” At Fosette’s continued confusion, Jemma  went on. “What I was hired for.”

“Who I’m tutoring.” At Fosette’s continued confusion, Jemma  went on. “What I was hired for.”

“Oh!” That tinkling laugh again, all champagne bubbles and  sparkling gems, contrasting with the hot press of her hands. Jemma

“Oh!” That tinkling laugh again, all champagne bubbles and  sparkling gems, contrasting with the hot press of her hands. Jemma

wanted to shake her off . “Of course, your job here. We’ll get this all  sorted out at dinner. Come on. I’ll show you your room.”

wanted to shake her off . “Of course, your job here. We’ll get this all  sorted out at dinner. Come on. I’ll show you your room.”

As the two of them walked up the stairs, their footsteps muted by the thick rug while they passed tall portraits of Duchon ancestors in gilded frames, Fosette apologized. “Forgive me for saying what I  said back there, about you being a fi eld hand. Sometimes I’m as bad  as Grandmère! We don’t get a lot of visitors and I’m afraid we’ve  forgotten how to talk to people. It’s so wonderful having someone  younger here. Besides Laurence, I mean. You’re  twenty— ?”

As the two of them walked up the stairs, their footsteps muted by the thick rug while they passed tall portraits of Duchon ancestors in gilded frames, Fosette apologized. “Forgive me for saying what I  said back there, about you being a fi eld hand. Sometimes I’m as bad  as Grandmère! We don’t get a lot of visitors and I’m afraid we’ve  forgotten how to talk to people. It’s so wonderful having someone  younger here. Besides Laurence, I mean. You’re  twenty— ?”

“Twenty-  seven.”

“Twenty-  seven.”

“Right.” She stopped Jemma with a light touch on her arm at  the top of the stairs. “Please don’t think the worst of us.”

“Right.” She stopped Jemma with a light touch on her arm at  the top of the stairs. “Please don’t think the worst of us.”

“It’s all right,” Jemma said. “I’ve said things out of turn plenty  of times.”

“It’s all right,” Jemma said. “I’ve said things out of turn plenty  of times.”

Perhaps it had been a taxing day for Fosette, too. To have a  stranger in the house could upset all sorts of things. Jemma looked  into Fosette’s eyes and off ered a small smile. Yes, let this fi rst day at  least be a drip of honey and the brush of soft fi ngertips. Maybe  things could stay that way.

Perhaps it had been a taxing day for Fosette, too. To have a  stranger in the house could upset all sorts of things. Jemma looked  into Fosette’s eyes and off ered a small smile. Yes, let this fi rst day at  least be a drip of honey and the brush of soft fi ngertips. Maybe  things could stay that way.

“It would be wonderful if we could be friends.” Fosette gave her  hand a quick squeeze and led Jemma to the left, passing several  closed doors, until they reached the end of the hallway. To the right  was a small bathroom. “You can have this washroom all to yourself. And this is your room. It’s right next to mine.”

“It would be wonderful if we could be friends.” Fosette gave her  hand a quick squeeze and led Jemma to the left, passing several  closed doors, until they reached the end of the hallway. To the right  was a small bathroom. “You can have this washroom all to yourself. And this is your room. It’s right next to mine.”

When they entered, Agnes straightened up from smoothing the covers, placing her hands together in front of her. The maid’s gaze  moved across Jemma’s face, her eyes eager and quick, making  Jemma think of little insects crawling over her skin.

When they entered, Agnes straightened up from smoothing the covers, placing her hands together in front of her. The maid’s gaze  moved across Jemma’s face, her eyes eager and quick, making  Jemma think of little insects crawling over her skin.

“Agnes, if you’re done here, it’s time to get back to the kitchen,”  Fosette said in a tight voice completely unlike the light one Jemma had heard for the past fi fteen minutes. The maid gave a brief nod

“Agnes, if you’re done here, it’s time to get back to the kitchen,”  Fosette said in a tight voice completely unlike the light one Jemma had heard for the past fi fteen minutes. The maid gave a brief nod

and left the room, Fosette’s narrowed eyes watching her go before she turned to Jemma, her smile reappearing in fi ts and starts. “She  doesn’t talk. You’ll get used to it. Well, this is it, where you’ll be staying.” She swept a slim arm in the air. “Dinner is at six. Sharp. So  you have time to freshen up and rest a bit. We’re so happy to have  you here.”

and left the room, Fosette’s narrowed eyes watching her go before she turned to Jemma, her smile reappearing in fi ts and starts. “She  doesn’t talk. You’ll get used to it. Well, this is it, where you’ll be staying.” She swept a slim arm in the air. “Dinner is at six. Sharp. So  you have time to freshen up and rest a bit. We’re so happy to have  you here.”

Fosette shut the door on her way out, leaving Jemma in blessed silence. She sank onto the soft white chenille bedspread, under the  mournful eyes of Jesus hanging on a small silver cross. Agnes had  placed her suitcase in front of the green chiff orobe in the corner. A  small desk and a high-backed chair faced the open window, where no breeze disturbed the gauzy curtains or the yellow brocade drapes.

Fosette shut the door on her way out, leaving Jemma in blessed silence. She sank onto the soft white chenille bedspread, under the  mournful eyes of Jesus hanging on a small silver cross. Agnes had  placed her suitcase in front of the green chiff orobe in the corner. A  small desk and a high-backed chair faced the open window, where no breeze disturbed the gauzy curtains or the yellow brocade drapes.

Jemma slipped her hat, shoes and gloves off , wishing the languid  spinning of the ceiling fan would do more than move the heat around. She placed her watch on the nightstand, under a milk glass  hurricane lamp, yellow fl owers dancing across its surface. She stood  and grabbed the towel and washcloth from the bench at the foot of the bed and went to the bathroom.

Jemma slipped her hat, shoes and gloves off , wishing the languid  spinning of the ceiling fan would do more than move the heat around. She placed her watch on the nightstand, under a milk glass  hurricane lamp, yellow fl owers dancing across its surface. She stood  and grabbed the towel and washcloth from the bench at the foot of the bed and went to the bathroom.

When Jemma returned to her room, her face and underarms wiped clean, she removed her clothes and hung them in the chiff orobe, enjoying the cooler sensation now that she was just in her slip.  Movement outside caught her attention and she went to the window, wondering if the rest of the family was still out there, playing croquet. She hoped to get a better look at them, but the lawn was  empty.

When Jemma returned to her room, her face and underarms wiped clean, she removed her clothes and hung them in the chiff orobe, enjoying the cooler sensation now that she was just in her slip.

Movement outside caught her attention and she went to the window, wondering if the rest of the family was still out there, playing croquet. She hoped to get a better look at them, but the lawn was  empty.

No. It wasn’t.

No. It wasn’t.

A ghostly fi gure walked out of a shrub and crossed the short expanse to another shrub, disappearing inside it before emerging again and continuing on her way. Jemma swallowed, her eyes following the form, unable to tell the age or color, simply recognizing

A ghostly fi gure walked out of a shrub and crossed the short expanse to another shrub, disappearing inside it before emerging again and continuing on her way. Jemma swallowed, her eyes following the form, unable to tell the age or color, simply recognizing

that it was a woman, her long skirts trailing over the grass without disturbing it. Sweat beaded along Jemma’s forehead and bloomed  under her arms, the tangy musk of fright rising in the air. She  backed away, her hands over her chest.

that it was a woman, her long skirts trailing over the grass without disturbing it. Sweat beaded along Jemma’s forehead and bloomed  under her arms, the tangy musk of fright rising in the air. She  backed away, her hands over her chest.

Ever since she’d boarded the train in Chicago, she’d been seeing them. She’d tried to ignore them, had practiced the breathing Mama  had taught her, had averted her  eyes . . . but they were still here.

Ever since she’d boarded the train in Chicago, she’d been seeing them. She’d tried to ignore them, had practiced the breathing Mama  had taught her, had averted her  eyes . . . but they were still here.

This was her chance at a fresh start, her opportunity to leave the ghosts of Chicago behind—the real ones and the ones that haunted only her  mind—  and they’d followed her. Jemma rubbed the scar on  her wrist, trying to calm her ragged breathing. She wouldn’t let  them ruin this chance for her. The only chance she had.

This was her chance at a fresh start, her opportunity to leave the ghosts of Chicago behind—the real ones and the ones that haunted only her  mind—  and they’d followed her. Jemma rubbed the scar on  her wrist, trying to calm her ragged breathing. She wouldn’t let  them ruin this chance for her. The only chance she had.

The idea of a nap had slipped away, much like the way that lost soul had slipped through the shrubs.

The idea of a nap had slipped away, much like the way that lost soul had slipped through the shrubs.

Jemma sat on the edge of the bed, facing the chiff orobe in the  corner but not seeing it.

Jemma sat on the edge of the bed, facing the chiff orobe in the  corner but not seeing it.

What she did see was Marvin in the pool hall back in Chicago, smoke so thick she could taste it. He was leaning on the bar and  talking to a woman in a tight red dress. Jemma saw Marvin’s fi ngers  on the woman’s thigh, rubbing in small circles. She saw the wide  eyes of two other men around the pool table as Jemma grabbed a cue and swung it with all her might across Marvin’s back. The  damn thing hadn’t broken, but she’d thought it might if she could only get another crack at it, but by then someone had wrestled the stick out of her hands, while Marvin stood up straight and backhanded Jemma so hard she was afraid she’d lose a tooth.

What she did see was Marvin in the pool hall back in Chicago, smoke so thick she could taste it. He was leaning on the bar and  talking to a woman in a tight red dress. Jemma saw Marvin’s fi ngers  on the woman’s thigh, rubbing in small circles. She saw the wide  eyes of two other men around the pool table as Jemma grabbed a cue and swung it with all her might across Marvin’s back. The  damn thing hadn’t broken, but she’d thought it might if she could only get another crack at it, but by then someone had wrestled the stick out of her hands, while Marvin stood up straight and backhanded Jemma so hard she was afraid she’d lose a tooth.

Her tongue moved to that spot now, the tooth in place although  still a little wobbly.

Her tongue moved to that spot now, the tooth in place although  still a little wobbly.

The chiff orobe came back into view, pushing aside brick row  houses, housing projects reaching for nothing, broken concrete and the green tiled fl oor of an elementary school.

The chiff orobe came back into view, pushing aside brick row  houses, housing projects reaching for nothing, broken concrete and the green tiled fl oor of an elementary school.

Checking her watch, she had half an hour before dinner. On her  way back from the bathroom, she’d found no one in the hall, heard no voices. Jemma washed up again, patting her hair, which had  completely given up in the face of the humidity. Unlike the Duchons’, at least the ones she’d met so far, her hair didn’t lie in gentle waves. She doubted any of them even owned a hot comb, let alone  used one. There was no time to do anything more than get ready  for dinner, so she slipped into the lightest cotton dress she owned and hurried downstairs, getting turned around and walking into the empty parlor before she remembered where the dining room was.

Checking her watch, she had half an hour before dinner. On her  way back from the bathroom, she’d found no one in the hall, heard no voices. Jemma washed up again, patting her hair, which had  completely given up in the face of the humidity. Unlike the Duchons’, at least the ones she’d met so far, her hair didn’t lie in gentle waves. She doubted any of them even owned a hot comb, let alone  used one. There was no time to do anything more than get ready  for dinner, so she slipped into the lightest cotton dress she owned and hurried downstairs, getting turned around and walking into the empty parlor before she remembered where the dining room was.

Six pairs of eyes met hers when she walked in, all varying shades of gray or green or hazel. Like Honorine and Fosette, the remaining  members of the family were all incredibly light, their hair either straight or barely waved.

Six pairs of eyes met hers when she walked in, all varying shades of gray or green or hazel. Like Honorine and Fosette, the remaining  members of the family were all incredibly light, their hair either straight or barely waved.

Jemma wasn’t  late—  she had a good fi ve minutes  left—  but with  everyone else already seated, she felt uncomfortably like she wasn’t on time.

Jemma wasn’t  late—  she had a good fi ve minutes  left—  but with  everyone else already seated, she felt uncomfortably like she wasn’t on time.

“This is Jemma Barker,” Honorine said from her place at the  head of the table. “Jemma, do come in and sit down.”

“This is Jemma Barker,” Honorine said from her place at the  head of the table. “Jemma, do come in and sit down.”

There were fi ve empty seats at the gleaming table, wood shined  to a bright glare. A lacy runner extended down the center, and six  places were set, silverware and crystal shimmering. The sticky  gazes of the Duchons and Agnes pressed against Jemma’s skin as she settled next to Fosette, at the opposite end from Honorine. A  rich smell hung in the air, reminding Jemma of Lulu’s, but underneath, she detected that same old burnt odor.

There were fi ve empty seats at the gleaming table, wood shined  to a bright glare. A lacy runner extended down the center, and six  places were set, silverware and crystal shimmering. The sticky  gazes of the Duchons and Agnes pressed against Jemma’s skin as she settled next to Fosette, at the opposite end from Honorine. A  rich smell hung in the air, reminding Jemma of Lulu’s, but underneath, she detected that same old burnt odor.

Across from her, a young man stared, his dark hair slicked back, curiosity widening his hazel eyes for a brief moment as Honorine introduced him as her grandson, Laurence. He gave a quick nod. He  was about Jemma’s age, so not the child she’d come here to tutor. Next  to Laurence sat a  green-  eyed older man with  salt-  and-  pepper hair.

Across from her, a young man stared, his dark hair slicked back, curiosity widening his hazel eyes for a brief moment as Honorine introduced him as her grandson, Laurence. He gave a quick nod. He  was about Jemma’s age, so not the child she’d come here to tutor. Next  to Laurence sat a  green-  eyed older man with  salt-  and-  pepper hair.

“My eldest, Russell Duchon,” Honorine said before fi nally gesturing to the woman sitting closest to her, a woman whose dark hair was swept into an unfashionable updo. “And this is Simone Duchon  Lemont, my daughter, and Fosette and Laurence’s mother.”

“My eldest, Russell Duchon,” Honorine said before fi nally gesturing to the woman sitting closest to her, a woman whose dark hair was swept into an unfashionable updo. “And this is Simone Duchon  Lemont, my daughter, and Fosette and Laurence’s mother.”

Jemma tried not to stare at these people, who wore their beauty like comfortable designer coats. It took an eff ort to pull her gaze  away, to resist the enchanting pull of them.

Jemma tried not to stare at these people, who wore their beauty like comfortable designer coats. It took an eff ort to pull her gaze  away, to resist the enchanting pull of them.

“Pleased to meet you all,” Jemma said, nodding to the others in  turn. She unfolded her napkin and laid it across her lap, more to  direct her attention down and still her shaky fi ngers than anything  else. The family members’ gazes scuttled over her. And although  they were Black, she felt as out of place in their company as she would in a roomful of whites.

“Pleased to meet you all,” Jemma said, nodding to the others in  turn. She unfolded her napkin and laid it across her lap, more to  direct her attention down and still her shaky fi ngers than anything  else. The family members’ gazes scuttled over her. And although  they were Black, she felt as out of place in their company as she would in a roomful of whites.

Childish voices sounded in her head:

Childish voices sounded in her head:

If you’re light, you’re all right. If you’re brown, stick around. If you’re Black, stay back!

If you’re light, you’re all right. If you’re brown, stick around. If you’re Black, stay back!

How many times had she heard that on playgrounds and row  house stoops? And how many times had she felt relief to be brown enough to be able to stick around?

How many times had she heard that on playgrounds and row  house stoops? And how many times had she felt relief to be brown enough to be able to stick around?

“I was hoping to meet my student. Is he here? Or she?” she  asked, looking toward Honorine. On their phone call a few weeks  ago, the woman hadn’t mentioned anything about a student. Jemma  had been so stunned by the pay, and now it was too late to ask for details like a name or sex. She should have been paying more  attention.

“I was hoping to meet my student. Is he here? Or she?” she  asked, looking toward Honorine. On their phone call a few weeks  ago, the woman hadn’t mentioned anything about a student. Jemma  had been so stunned by the pay, and now it was too late to ask for details like a name or sex. She should have been paying more  attention.

But who noticed the color of the life preserver when one was drowning?

But who noticed the color of the life preserver when one was drowning?

“Who, my dear?” Simone asked, leaning forward, the thick blue

“Who, my dear?” Simone asked, leaning forward, the thick blue

lace on her  ill-  fi tting gown bunched around her neck and shoulders.

lace on her  ill-  fi tting gown bunched around her neck and shoulders.

Next to Jemma, Fosette’s hands twisted the napkin in her lap.

Next to Jemma, Fosette’s hands twisted the napkin in her lap.

“My . . . my student? I’m  sorry—  I’ve forgotten the name.” Jemma’s gaze darted over to Agnes, standing in the corner, her eyes downcast. The maid suddenly disappeared through the doorway to  the kitchen.

“My . . . my student? I’m  sorry—  I’ve forgotten the name.” Jemma’s gaze darted over to Agnes, standing in the corner, her eyes downcast. The maid suddenly disappeared through the doorway to  the kitchen.

“Ah, that,” Honorine said, folding her hands in front of her  empty plate. “What made you think you were hired to be a tutor  exactly?”

“Ah, that,” Honorine said, folding her hands in front of her  empty plate. “What made you think you were hired to be a tutor  exactly?”

“I  thought . . . you said there was  a . . .” Her voice trailed off , the  word “child” slipping back. Because Honorine hadn’t said there  was a child. Jemma thought of the letter. The phone call. At no time  had a child been mentioned. Or the title of tutor. How presumptuous she had been.

“I  thought . . . you said there was  a . . .” Her voice trailed off , the  word “child” slipping back. Because Honorine hadn’t said there  was a child. Jemma thought of the letter. The phone call. At no time  had a child been mentioned. Or the title of tutor. How presumptuous she had been.

“We will get to your duties in due time, Miss Barker. For your  fi rst dinner with us, why don’t you get comfortable and settled? We  have ample time to discuss what you’re here to do.”

“We will get to your duties in due time, Miss Barker. For your  fi rst dinner with us, why don’t you get comfortable and settled? We  have ample time to discuss what you’re here to do.”

Before Jemma could reply, Agnes returned, rolling a cart in front of her. She placed covered silver tureens and platters on the  table, and once she left, the family blessed themselves in the Catholic fashion and said grace.

Before Jemma could reply, Agnes returned, rolling a cart in front of her. She placed covered silver tureens and platters on the  table, and once she left, the family blessed themselves in the Catholic fashion and said grace.

Amid the heady aromas fi lling the room, Jemma’s hunger  pushed any questions out of her mind. Bowls and platters of steaming red beans and rice, gumbo, fried shrimp, stewed okra and tomatoes, crawfi sh etouff ee and French bread covered the table. But  from the fi rst bite, the diff erence between Agnes’s cooking and  Lulu’s at the café was distastefully evident. The curious undercurrent of smokiness that hung in the air came across in the gumbo, the etouff ee, even the bread. And yet opposite Jemma, Russell and  Laurence ate as if this were their last meal. Although Simone took  only tiny bites of everything, she did eventually clear her plate, as

Amid the heady aromas fi lling the room, Jemma’s hunger  pushed any questions out of her mind. Bowls and platters of steaming red beans and rice, gumbo, fried shrimp, stewed okra and tomatoes, crawfi sh etouff ee and French bread covered the table. But  from the fi rst bite, the diff erence between Agnes’s cooking and  Lulu’s at the café was distastefully evident. The curious undercurrent of smokiness that hung in the air came across in the gumbo, the etouff ee, even the bread. And yet opposite Jemma, Russell and  Laurence ate as if this were their last meal. Although Simone took  only tiny bites of everything, she did eventually clear her plate, as

did Honorine. Fosette had only a small amount of food, and despite  her spending much of the meal pushing it around, she managed to eat most of it.

did Honorine. Fosette had only a small amount of food, and despite  her spending much of the meal pushing it around, she managed to eat most of it.

“Do tell us about Chicago,” Honorine invited, patting the corners of her mouth with her napkin.

“Do tell us about Chicago,” Honorine invited, patting the corners of her mouth with her napkin.

At that, everyone turned to Jemma, Russell’s mouth half open, a crumb hanging off  his bottom lip. Laurence and Fosette appeared  unnaturally interested.

At that, everyone turned to Jemma, Russell’s mouth half open, a crumb hanging off  his bottom lip. Laurence and Fosette appeared  unnaturally interested.

Jemma didn’t know what to say at fi rst, as the family stared at  her like she was a specimen on a microscope slide, but a quick  glance at Fosette’s open face warmed her.

Jemma didn’t know what to say at fi rst, as the family stared at  her like she was a specimen on a microscope slide, but a quick  glance at Fosette’s open face warmed her.

“It’s nothing like here, especially the weather.” A short laugh  escaped Jemma’s lips, too loud in the quiet room. “Not a lot of big  houses like this, at least not where I grew up.”

“It’s nothing like here, especially the weather.” A short laugh  escaped Jemma’s lips, too loud in the quiet room. “Not a lot of big  houses like this, at least not where I grew up.”

“What are they wearing up there?” Simone asked.

“What are they wearing up there?” Simone asked.

“What kind of foods do you eat?” That was Russell.

“What kind of foods do you eat?” That was Russell.

They lobbed questions at her, some of them odd (like Honorine’s  “What type of jobs do colored people do up there?”) and some intrusive (Fosette: “How many boyfriends have you had?”).

They lobbed questions at her, some of them odd (like Honorine’s  “What type of jobs do colored people do up there?”) and some intrusive (Fosette: “How many boyfriends have you had?”).

And then, without warning, as if Jemma had provided them all the answers they needed, the Duchons talked among themselves, shutting her out with a simple, subtle turn of their faces toward one another. She listened as they discussed Thurgood Marshall’s fi nally  being confi rmed as a judge in a US appellate court and President  Kennedy’s promise to get a man on the moon. They talked about  croquet and the weather, and argued over whether the priests  should speak English at Mass.

And then, without warning, as if Jemma had provided them all the answers they needed, the Duchons talked among themselves, shutting her out with a simple, subtle turn of their faces toward one another. She listened as they discussed Thurgood Marshall’s fi nally  being confi rmed as a judge in a US appellate court and President  Kennedy’s promise to get a man on the moon. They talked about  croquet and the weather, and argued over whether the priests  should speak English at Mass.

“They’ve spoken Latin since the beginning,” Simone said, pulling a cigarette from a slim silver case. “It’s scandalous that the  council is even thinking of changing things.”

“They’ve spoken Latin since the beginning,” Simone said, pulling a cigarette from a slim silver case. “It’s scandalous that the  council is even thinking of changing things.”

“Maman,” Laurence said, the fi rst time Jemma heard him  speak, “you know that things are changing, not just with the church, with everything.”

“Maman,” Laurence said, the fi rst time Jemma heard him  speak, “you know that things are changing, not just with the church, with everything.”

“And you want to be one of those radicals, do you?” she asked  with a small smile, and blew a stream of smoke out the side of her mouth. “You want to go to those  sit-  ins and demonstrations and  marches? And how would you take part in any of that?”

“And you want to be one of those radicals, do you?” she asked  with a small smile, and blew a stream of smoke out the side of her mouth. “You want to go to those  sit-  ins and demonstrations and  marches? And how would you take part in any of that?”

“Those demonstrations and marches work,” Jemma said, tearing her eyes away from Laurence to address his mother. “You see  what they did in Montgomery.”

“Those demonstrations and marches work,” Jemma said, tearing her eyes away from Laurence to address his mother. “You see  what they did in Montgomery.”

“Why am I not surprised that you’d say such a thing?” Simone  turned to her.

“Why am I not surprised that you’d say such a thing?” Simone  turned to her.

“What does that mean?”

“What does that mean?”

“I’ve never ridden a bus, so I damn sure wouldn’t know how it feels to ride in the back.”

“I’ve never ridden a bus, so I damn sure wouldn’t know how it feels to ride in the back.”

Jemma’s hands tightened around her napkin. “Reverend King  isn’t just fi ghting for people who look like me, if that’s what you  mean. We’re all Negroes here, whether you like it or not.”

Jemma’s hands tightened around her napkin. “Reverend King  isn’t just fi ghting for people who look like me, if that’s what you  mean. We’re all Negroes here, whether you like it or not.”

“We’re very proud to be colored,” Fosette chimed in, the words  skipping out in an irregular beat.

“We’re very proud to be colored,” Fosette chimed in, the words  skipping out in an irregular beat.

“ ‘Colored’? Why do you keep saying that?” Jemma asked.

“ ‘Colored’? Why do you keep saying that?” Jemma asked.

“There’s nothing wrong with the word,” Simone said. “Are you  not colored?”

“There’s nothing wrong with the word,” Simone said. “Are you  not colored?”

Jemma looked at the woman’s frumpy dress, her hair. She then  took in Honorine’s gown, a deep blue number with style details  from the thirties. Fosette, the youngest of them, seemed affl  icted by  the same old-fashioned dress sense, as were the two men at the table. None of them, it seemed, embraced what was happening now,  so of course they’d still refer to themselves as colored.

Jemma looked at the woman’s frumpy dress, her hair. She then  took in Honorine’s gown, a deep blue number with style details  from the thirties. Fosette, the youngest of them, seemed affl  icted by  the same old-fashioned dress sense, as were the two men at the table. None of them, it seemed, embraced what was happening now,  so of course they’d still refer to themselves as colored.

“I’m a Negro. That’s the term I prefer,” Jemma said.

“I’m a Negro. That’s the term I prefer,” Jemma said.

Russell, whose second helping was now eaten, sucked his teeth before jabbing at them with a toothpick. “What diff erence does it  make, huh? ‘Negro,’ ‘colored,’ ‘Black’—they’re all words that mean the same thing.”

Russell, whose second helping was now eaten, sucked his teeth before jabbing at them with a toothpick. “What diff erence does it  make, huh? ‘Negro,’ ‘colored,’ ‘Black’—they’re all words that mean the same thing.”

“But words matter, Mr. Duchon. Not that long ago, white people were calling us ‘nigger’ like it was our names. Even now, especially here, they still do. Surely you all know that.”

“But words matter, Mr. Duchon. Not that long ago, white people were calling us ‘nigger’ like it was our names. Even now, especially here, they still do. Surely you all know that.”

He waved a hand at her. “As long as you know who you are,  does it matter what anyone else calls you?”

He waved a hand at her. “As long as you know who you are,  does it matter what anyone else calls you?”

“To me, it does.” And it seemed she was alone in this, as Russell  continued his tooth picking, Simone her smoking, Laurence his studying an empty plate and Fosette her napkin twisting. Only  Honorine seemed engaged with Jemma, her cool green eyes locked  on her.

“To me, it does.” And it seemed she was alone in this, as Russell  continued his tooth picking, Simone her smoking, Laurence his studying an empty plate and Fosette her napkin twisting. Only  Honorine seemed engaged with Jemma, her cool green eyes locked  on her.

“We are a proud family, Miss Barker, colored or Negro. The  Duchons were free people of color in this city when Africans were still setting foot on this land, chains around their ankles. We may  have a slave ancestor somewhere, but his name certainly wasn’t Duchon. All this debate has been most interesting. As this is your  fi rst day here, I’ve granted you a little leeway. Beginning tomorrow,  however, you’ll be expected to behave as an employee, with the exception of dinner. You’ll dine in here with us and I’ll expect you to  be on time.”

“We are a proud family, Miss Barker, colored or Negro. The  Duchons were free people of color in this city when Africans were still setting foot on this land, chains around their ankles. We may  have a slave ancestor somewhere, but his name certainly wasn’t Duchon. All this debate has been most interesting. As this is your  fi rst day here, I’ve granted you a little leeway. Beginning tomorrow,  however, you’ll be expected to behave as an employee, with the exception of dinner. You’ll dine in here with us and I’ll expect you to  be on time.”

Jemma opened her mouth to ask for details on her employment, but the fi ve Duchons pushed their chairs back as one, rose from the  table and fi led out of the dining room, leaving her alone.

Jemma opened her mouth to ask for details on her employment, but the fi ve Duchons pushed their chairs back as one, rose from the  table and fi led out of the dining room, leaving her alone.

She stayed in place for several moments, her mind working to process the meal and the conversation. The family was certainly  backward, but it wasn’t her fi rst time dealing with diff erent types of  people. Maybe, if they liked her enough, she would infl uence them

She stayed in place for several moments, her mind working to process the meal and the conversation. The family was certainly  backward, but it wasn’t her fi rst time dealing with diff erent types of  people. Maybe, if they liked her enough, she would infl uence them

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to come into the present and stop using terms like “colored.” Perhaps even help them update their style.

to come into the present and stop using terms like “colored.” Perhaps even help them update their style.

As Jemma tossed her napkin on the table and rose out of her seat, an amorphous form fl ashed in front of her. She worked to still  her trembling, following the spirit’s movements as it meandered along the wall, until she remembered to shut her eyes and count.

As Jemma tossed her napkin on the table and rose out of her seat, an amorphous form fl ashed in front of her. She worked to still  her trembling, following the spirit’s movements as it meandered along the wall, until she remembered to shut her eyes and count.

Five, four, three, two, one.

Five, four, three, two, one.

Go away. Please.

Go away. Please.

When she opened her eyes, it was gone. On a wave of relief,  Jemma raced upstairs and shut herself in her room, peeling herself from the door only when her breathing slowed to normal.

When she opened her eyes, it was gone. On a wave of relief,

Jemma raced upstairs and shut herself in her room, peeling herself from the door only when her breathing slowed to normal.

Later, settled in bed but unable to sleep, Jemma listened to the quiet sounds of Fosette’s humming through the wall. She pretended  the lullaby was for her.

Later, settled in bed but unable to sleep, Jemma listened to the quiet sounds of Fosette’s humming through the wall. She pretended  the lullaby was for her.

JJEMMA WAS BACK in the one-bedroom walk-up in Chicago, the dingy space she’d shared with Marvin.

EMMA WAS BACK in the one-bedroom walk-up in Chicago, the dingy space she’d shared with Marvin.

She’d been wrestling her key in the front door, a bag of groceries balanced in one arm, the sound of ringing from inside rushing her. She’d made it in, set the bag on the small kitchen table  and snatched the phone up.

She’d been wrestling her key in the front door, a bag of groceries balanced in one arm, the sound of ringing from inside rushing her. She’d made it in, set the bag on the small kitchen table  and snatched the phone up.

“Hello?”

“Hello?”

“Is Marvin there?” a woman’s voice asked.

“Is Marvin there?” a woman’s voice asked.

“Who is this?”

“Who is this?”

“You tell him that I couldn’t go through with it, okay? I’m gonna  have this baby. He can either be a man about it or not. Either way,  me and this baby gonna be just fi ne. You tell him that.”

“You tell him that I couldn’t go through with it, okay? I’m gonna  have this baby. He can either be a man about it or not. Either way,  me and this baby gonna be just fi ne. You tell him that.”

A loud click ended the call.

A loud click ended the call.

Jemma didn’t know the woman’s name, but she knew it was the same one from the pool hall, the one in the red dress, with the red lipstick and the long neck, head thrown back in laughter at something Marvin said.

Jemma didn’t know the woman’s name, but she knew it was the same one from the pool hall, the one in the red dress, with the red lipstick and the long neck, head thrown back in laughter at something Marvin said.

No one had been arrested that night, not him for splitting her lip or her for whacking him across the back with a cue. People in  the neighborhood knew when to get gone. He’d run in one direction  and she’d run in another, but they’d both circled back to their apartment, where Jemma’s mind broke and bled, same as that one wrist.

No one had been arrested that night, not him for splitting her lip or her for whacking him across the back with a cue. People in  the neighborhood knew when to get gone. He’d run in one direction  and she’d run in another, but they’d both circled back to their apartment, where Jemma’s mind broke and bled, same as that one wrist.

If Marvin hadn’t come in when he did, she would’ve fi nished the  job. Her anger at his interruption was worse than her fury at his  deception.

If Marvin hadn’t come in when he did, she would’ve fi nished the  job. Her anger at his interruption was worse than her fury at his  deception.

Afterward, her friend Betty had been there. And now, Jemma  reasoned that had she listened to Betty, she’d still be there and not here, surrounded by an eerily beautiful group of people who, despite their charms— with the exception of that rude Simone—  struck her as more than a little odd. She’d probably still be in  Chicago, never mind the nervous breakdown, the suicide attempt and the fi ring from her teaching job.

Afterward, her friend Betty had been there. And now, Jemma  reasoned that had she listened to Betty, she’d still be there and not here, surrounded by an eerily beautiful group of people who, despite their charms— with the exception of that rude Simone—  struck her as more than a little odd. She’d probably still be in  Chicago, never mind the nervous breakdown, the suicide attempt and the fi ring from her teaching job.

If she could have forgiven Marvin.

If she could have forgiven Marvin.

“A man’s going to do what a man’s going to do,” Betty had said  after Jemma told her about the other woman. “Ain’t no changing  that, and the sooner you realize it, the sooner you can go about your life. Take what happiness you can, but don’t depend on a man to  give it to you.”

“A man’s going to do what a man’s going to do,” Betty had said  after Jemma told her about the other woman. “Ain’t no changing  that, and the sooner you realize it, the sooner you can go about your life. Take what happiness you can, but don’t depend on a man to  give it to you.”

Jemma had been in bed, her wrist heavily bandaged, her bottom lip swollen. Betty had just come back into the bedroom with a  fresh, cool washcloth, trying to press it to Jemma’s mouth, but she put her hand up.

Jemma had been in bed, her wrist heavily bandaged, her bottom lip swollen. Betty had just come back into the bedroom with a  fresh, cool washcloth, trying to press it to Jemma’s mouth, but she put her hand up.

“He promised me a family, that we’d make a family together. He  knows my daddy just died. Why would  he . . .” Unable to fi nd the  words to complete her mixed-up thoughts, Jemma took the washcloth and put it to her aching lips.

“He promised me a family, that we’d make a family together. He  knows my daddy just died. Why would  he . . .” Unable to fi nd the  words to complete her mixed-up thoughts, Jemma took the washcloth and put it to her aching lips.

“Why do they do anything? You’ll go crazy for real trying to  fi gure that out. Half the time, they don’t know why they do the shit

“Why do they do anything? You’ll go crazy for real trying to  fi gure that out. Half the time, they don’t know why they do the shit

they do. Marvin loves you, right? I know, I know, it don’t seem that  way all the time, but you’re here, ain’t you? And where’s that chick? It’s some men would’ve kicked you out, so think about that. What  you can live with and what you can’t. If you can forgive  him . . . yes,  fi nd it in yourself to forgive him. It’s freedom in that.”

they do. Marvin loves you, right? I know, I know, it don’t seem that  way all the time, but you’re here, ain’t you? And where’s that chick? It’s some men would’ve kicked you out, so think about that. What  you can live with and what you can’t. If you can forgive  him . . . yes,  fi nd it in yourself to forgive him. It’s freedom in that.”

And while Jemma had taken the fi rst chance she’d been given  to run, to break free, she hadn’t done it by forgiving.

And while Jemma had taken the fi rst chance she’d been given  to run, to break free, she hadn’t done it by forgiving.

Betty, Chicago and the mess she’d left behind faded. Her current surroundings included sea green fl oral wallpaper, creamy  wainscoting and gilded mirrors. If she didn’t inspect things too  closely, she didn’t see the peeling corners or the cracks.

Betty, Chicago and the mess she’d left behind faded. Her current surroundings included sea green fl oral wallpaper, creamy  wainscoting and gilded mirrors. If she didn’t inspect things too  closely, she didn’t see the peeling corners or the cracks.

O N JEMMA’S SECOND day in the house, she’d been disappointed to learn that she hadn’t been hired as a tutor at all. Instead, she was  an assistant of sorts to Honorine.

O N JEMMA’S SECOND day in the house, she’d been disappointed to learn that she hadn’t been hired as a tutor at all. Instead, she was  an assistant of sorts to Honorine.

“You’ll keep track of my calendar, be on call should I require  anything further and eventually organize the shelves in the library,”  the matriarch said after breakfast. “Other times, please keep Fosette occupied. She loves having a young lady her own age here.”

“You’ll keep track of my calendar, be on call should I require  anything further and eventually organize the shelves in the library,”  the matriarch said after breakfast. “Other times, please keep Fosette occupied. She loves having a young lady her own age here.”

It didn’t take Jemma long to see that Honorine’s calendar had  very little on it. No visits from acquaintances, no trips into town.

It didn’t take Jemma long to see that Honorine’s calendar had  very little on it. No visits from acquaintances, no trips into town.

Instead, many of her days consisted of morning and afternoon tea, croquet with the family and short siestas before dinner. Jemma  couldn’t imagine why Honorine couldn’t set these appointments  herself.

Instead, many of her days consisted of morning and afternoon tea, croquet with the family and short siestas before dinner. Jemma  couldn’t imagine why Honorine couldn’t set these appointments  herself.

Chicago had been a bustle— of work, transportation and people. Jemma had often felt like she had no spare time for herself, no  quiet.

Chicago had been a bustle— of work, transportation and people. Jemma had often felt like she had no spare time for herself, no  quiet.

Here, she was kept busy but in diff erent ways.

Here, she was kept busy but in diff erent ways.

When Jemma wasn’t assisting Honorine, she played card games

When Jemma wasn’t assisting Honorine, she played card games

or assembled puzzles or helped Fosette decide what to wear for dinner. It was nothing like preparing lesson plans and taking two buses  in the morning and two more in the afternoon to go to and from work. Once, after Fosette pulled a frumpy light green gown from  her armoire and pressed it against herself while she admired her refl ection in the long mirror, Jemma caught herself staring at the  young woman’s hair, hanging in a thick sheet down her back. Not  fashionable at all, but still beautiful, the type of hair that could turn a plain girl into a pretty one in Jemma’s neighborhood. She studied  Fosette’s pale arm, wondering why she wasn’t married and why no men her age came around to ask after her.

or assembled puzzles or helped Fosette decide what to wear for dinner. It was nothing like preparing lesson plans and taking two buses  in the morning and two more in the afternoon to go to and from work. Once, after Fosette pulled a frumpy light green gown from  her armoire and pressed it against herself while she admired her refl ection in the long mirror, Jemma caught herself staring at the  young woman’s hair, hanging in a thick sheet down her back. Not  fashionable at all, but still beautiful, the type of hair that could turn a plain girl into a pretty one in Jemma’s neighborhood. She studied  Fosette’s pale arm, wondering why she wasn’t married and why no men her age came around to ask after her.

Jemma thought about her fi rst day in New Orleans, about Lulu  at the café and Charlie who’d driven her here. She couldn’t imagine  why they’d reacted so strangely when she’d told them she was working for the Duchons. They might be a little odd, and yes, they did  keep to themselves— not one visitor had come to the door since Jemma had been there, and none of the Duchons left the property—  but they seemed harmless.

Jemma thought about her fi rst day in New Orleans, about Lulu  at the café and Charlie who’d driven her here. She couldn’t imagine  why they’d reacted so strangely when she’d told them she was working for the Duchons. They might be a little odd, and yes, they did  keep to themselves— not one visitor had come to the door since Jemma had been there, and none of the Duchons left the property—  but they seemed harmless.

Each morning was the same. Ever since Fosette had invited  Jemma to sit with her at breakfast the day after she arrived, she’d been taking all her meals—not just dinner— with the family, marveling at how they greedily pored over the Times-Picayune in the morning and the States-Item in the afternoon. Each read a section  of the newspaper from front to back before silently exchanging it with the person next to them. And while the family didn’t treat her  as they did Agnes— as if she were almost invisible— the only Duchon who made her feel truly welcome was Fosette, with the endless chatter about nothing and the laugh bubbling up at things both amusing and serious. She kept Jemma occupied with games of  cribbage or rummy. Sometimes Laurence joined them.

Each morning was the same. Ever since Fosette had invited  Jemma to sit with her at breakfast the day after she arrived, she’d been taking all her meals—not just dinner— with the family, marveling at how they greedily pored over the Times-Picayune in the morning and the States-Item in the afternoon. Each read a section  of the newspaper from front to back before silently exchanging it with the person next to them. And while the family didn’t treat her  as they did Agnes— as if she were almost invisible— the only Duchon who made her feel truly welcome was Fosette, with the endless chatter about nothing and the laugh bubbling up at things both amusing and serious. She kept Jemma occupied with games of  cribbage or rummy. Sometimes Laurence joined them.

This afternoon was the fi rst she’d had to herself, begging off

This afternoon was the fi rst she’d had to herself, begging off

Fosette’s request for yet another game of cribbage. As soon as  Jemma heard the woman go into her bedroom and shut the door, she’d raced downstairs, relief spreading over her at not running into anyone. The older family members often napped before dinner;  maybe Fosette would do the same, or whatever she did when she hummed that song in her room. Jemma usually heard the humming  through the wall that separated their rooms late at night, when quiet settled over the rest of the house.

Fosette’s request for yet another game of cribbage. As soon as  Jemma heard the woman go into her bedroom and shut the door, she’d raced downstairs, relief spreading over her at not running into anyone. The older family members often napped before dinner;  maybe Fosette would do the same, or whatever she did when she hummed that song in her room. Jemma usually heard the humming  through the wall that separated their rooms late at night, when quiet settled over the rest of the house.

But now, all that mattered was that Jemma fi nally had the  chance to explore the grounds on her own.

But now, all that mattered was that Jemma fi nally had the  chance to explore the grounds on her own.

She made her way outside, the heat sticking to her skin like suckling lips despite the lightness of her cotton dress, one of the few items of clothing she had suitable for the climate. She hoped to run  into the gardener, a brown-skinned man she’d spied from upstairs a couple of days ago. By the time she’d rushed downstairs, with no  idea what her intentions were besides to talk to someone diff erent,  someone who looked like her, he’d disappeared.

She made her way outside, the heat sticking to her skin like suckling lips despite the lightness of her cotton dress, one of the few items of clothing she had suitable for the climate. She hoped to run  into the gardener, a brown-skinned man she’d spied from upstairs a couple of days ago. By the time she’d rushed downstairs, with no  idea what her intentions were besides to talk to someone diff erent,  someone who looked like her, he’d disappeared.

Several buildings dotted the huge expanse, including what Fosette had explained were the carriage house, chapel and old washhouse. She’d briefl y mentioned a family burial vault, and Jemma  recalled the way Fosette’s gaze had shifted then. At the time, Jemma  assumed it was a painful subject; maybe she’d lost a beloved family  member recently. Jemma approached the  one-  story structure, behind the croquet pitch and set off  against a jumble of bushes that  appeared ready to overtake it.

Several buildings dotted the huge expanse, including what Fosette had explained were the carriage house, chapel and old washhouse. She’d briefl y mentioned a family burial vault, and Jemma  recalled the way Fosette’s gaze had shifted then. At the time, Jemma  assumed it was a painful subject; maybe she’d lost a beloved family  member recently. Jemma approached the  one-  story structure, behind the croquet pitch and set off  against a jumble of bushes that  appeared ready to overtake it.

Over the door was the family name DUCHON  etched in stone.  Bronze plaques dotted the exterior in neat columns.

Over the door was the family name DUCHON  etched in stone.  Bronze plaques dotted the exterior in neat columns.

LUCIE DUCHON LEMONT OUR LITTLE ANGEL

LUCIE DUCHON LEMONT

OUR LITTLE ANGEL

JANUARY 4, 1932– MARCH 12, 1935

JANUARY 4, 1932– MARCH 12, 1935

Lemont, Jemma thought. Simone’s surname. This must be her  daughter, gone so young. Jemma frowned at the date of death,  which so happened to be her exact birth date.

Lemont, Jemma thought. Simone’s surname. This must be her  daughter, gone so young. Jemma frowned at the date of death,  which so happened to be her exact birth date.

She scanned nearby plaques.

She scanned nearby plaques.

RAYMOND FRANCIS DUCHON

RAYMOND FRANCIS DUCHON

BELOVED FATHER AND HUSBAND

BELOVED FATHER AND HUSBAND

AUGUST 3, 1890– MARCH 12, 1942

AUGUST 3, 1890– MARCH 12, 1942

ANDRÉ RAYMOND DUCHON

ANDRÉ RAYMOND DUCHON

BELOVED SON AND BROTHER

BELOVED SON AND BROTHER

APRIL 8, 1913– MARCH 12, 1949

APRIL 8, 1913– MARCH 12, 1949

They’d all died on March 12, Jemma’s birthday. Just as her mind  tried to work its way around the bizarre coincidence, as her gaze began to move to the next plaque, someone grabbed her from behind. A short scream erupted from her as she twisted around to fi nd  Fosette smiling at her, too many teeth gleaming between stiff  lips.

They’d all died on March 12, Jemma’s birthday. Just as her mind  tried to work its way around the bizarre coincidence, as her gaze began to move to the next plaque, someone grabbed her from behind. A short scream erupted from her as she twisted around to fi nd  Fosette smiling at her, too many teeth gleaming between stiff  lips.

“What are you doing in this gloomy old place?” she asked, tugging Jemma’s hand even as Jemma stood rooted to the spot.

“What are you doing in this gloomy old place?” she asked, tugging Jemma’s hand even as Jemma stood rooted to the spot.

Jemma pointed behind her. “Those dates. They all  died . . . on  my birthday.”

Jemma pointed behind her. “Those dates. They all  died . . . on  my birthday.”

Fosette turned back to the house, Jemma’s hand tightly held in her own. She wouldn’t even look at the vault.

Fosette turned back to the house, Jemma’s hand tightly held in her own. She wouldn’t even look at the vault.

“Fosette, that Lucie— she was your sister? She died the same day I was born.”

“Fosette, that Lucie— she was your sister? She died the same day I was born.”

“I was a little girl. I don’t even remember her. Come on. I want  to play a game of rummy and I can’t fi nd Laurence anywhere.”

“I was a little girl. I don’t even remember her. Come on. I want  to play a game of rummy and I can’t fi nd Laurence anywhere.”

Jemma turned back to the vault, unsure of what she wanted, and in light of Fosette’s strange behavior, she didn’t move. She  wanted answers.

Jemma turned back to the vault, unsure of what she wanted, and in light of Fosette’s strange behavior, she didn’t move. She  wanted answers.