Gò0dNews on Identity
Who am I? by Sarah Gizzard
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ho am I? I am going to be honest with you. I have been struggling with an identity
anxiety became ever-present in my daily life. Where I once knew my purpose, there was doubt and fear. It seemed as though I had lost my identity.
crisis for the last year. When the Covid-19 pandemic
So, who am I?
hit, the busy coming-and-going life at the Grizzard
I received an important reminder from a friend.
house came to a grinding halt, as I am sure many of
She said, “it’s not who we think we are that is
you experienced also. Suddenly, there was no more
important, it is who the Lord says we are that is
going to school, no more piano lessons, no more band
important.” Within the Word of God, we find many
practice, and no more church. What did this mean for us? This meant that everything was now going to happen at home. This meant that I assumed the role of school teacher, piano teacher, band director, and worship leader—all while also working my full-time job from home. Along with these new roles were the old roles of mother, wife, daughter, and neighbor that I still needed to fulfill daily. As I look back on those first few months, all I can think of is the daily chaos that ensued at the Grizzard house and the many hats that I needed
reminders of who we are. In Genesis, we are told
to wear daily. It was difficult for me to differentiate
that we are created in His image. Psalm 139:13-14
between the teacher hat and the mother hat. I needed
tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made.
to throw on the full-time employee hat and have a
John 1:12 tells us that we are children of God. When
Zoom meeting, while making sure the kids were
the insecurity and fear resurface, I only need to
doing their schoolwork. Throughout the day, it was
remember who created me. My comfort comes from
a constant interchanging of hats as I took on one role
knowing who the Lord says I am. My identity is only
after another. Pretty soon all the roles were blending
found through Him.
the end of most days, I was left feeling exhausted, overwhelmed, and sometimes broken. Insecurities and
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About The Author
together and it was hard to keep up each day. At Sarah Grizzard is a wife to William and mother to Patrick and Wesley. She works for WinShape Foundation Teams Ministry.
