The Phoenix
Spring 2026
Editor-in-Chief
Alexa Beck
Assistant Editor
Anna Kavulla
Editors of Lay-Out & Content
Alexa Beck
Anna Kavulla
Olivia Cedar
Copy Editors
Muncie Canon
Madalyn Triskett
Summer Stitt
LyndzeeAmory
Editors ofArt & Publicity
Neira Laird
Katherine Cooper
Kayley Risser
Director ofAudio & Media
Kyleigh Coy
Peer Reviewers
LyndzeeAmory
Muncie Canon
Olivia Cedar
Katherine Cooper
Kyleigh Coy
Dr. Mary Theresa Hall
Jacob Hoffman
Trent Igims
Anna Kavulla
Neira Laird
Kaylee Risser
Maveree Stanley
Summer Stitt
Maddy Triskett
Sydney Green
FacultyAdvisor
Dr. Mary Theresa Hall
*All works in this publication are the sole property of their authors and are not to be reproduced* in any manner. These works do not reflect the opinions or the Mission Statement of Thiel College.
Table of Contents
Poetry
“Alma Mater” ..................................................p. 5
“Dearest” p. 6
“The Phoenix” .................................................p. 7
“Ghosts of Trickery and Charm”.....................p. 7
“College Buzz”................................................p. 8
“Scripted Thinkers”.........................................p. 9
“The Files: From a Teacher’s Perspective” p. 10
“The Student’s Ledger” p. 10
“An Ode to Environmental Science” ............p. 11
“An Ode to My Major”..................................p. 11
“BUSINESS”.................................................p. 12
“An Ode to Human Resources”.....................p. 12
“Ode to PA’s” p. 12
“The Front Line”............................................p. 13
“They promise strength inside a pill”............p. 13
“An Ode to Heath Systems (Pathway I PA): The Cost of Broken Promises” ............................p. 14
“The Culmination of a Young Lifetime’s Worth of Dreams, Delusion, and Destruction” p. 15
“ENG 282: Poetry Writing Class Poem” ......p. 16
“The Brightest Minds are the Darkest dimmed” .......................................................p. 16
“AReturn to the Garden” p. 17
“ANight at the Table” p. 17
“Who is Patience?” .......................................p. 18
“Once Upon a Dead Man” ............................p. 19
“To the Critics of Women” ...........................p. 19
“The Endless Waltz” p. 19
“Try Hard: In Memoriam to Toby Atwood” p. 20
“Love’s Symphony” ......................................p. 20
“overdramatic musings” ............................... p. 21
“APoem for Trifles” p. 21
“The Diary of Ken’s Doll” ........................... p. 22
“All the ‘She’s’that Sail the Sea” ................ p. 23
“ARose for Emily” ...................................... p. 24
“PROTECTION” ......................................... p. 24
“AGlass Pane” p. 25
“Oh, Mother…” p. 26
“My Superhero” ........................................... p. 26
“My Sister, My Dearest Friend” .................. p. 27
“Becoming” .................................................. p. 27
“Sestina to my Niece” ...........................pp. 28-29
“Cerebral” p. 29
“North Manitou Island” ............................... p. 30
“Currents” .................................................... p. 31
“Architect of Dust” ...................................... p. 31
“Kairos forAgape” ...................................... p. 32
“The Faithful Shepherd” p. 32
“Just Breathe” p. 33
“Stanley” ...................................................... p. 34
“it’s a secret” ................................................ p. 34
“Home”......................................................... p. 35
“Urban Paradise” p. 36
“Still the Stupid Tongue” p. 37
“Idiosyncratic” ............................................. p. 37
“I will sing a sad song” ................................ p. 37
“On the Field” .............................................. p. 38
“TheArtist in me is Dead” p. 39
“brown” p. 39
“Bidden to the Dirt” p. 39
“Heartbreak tastes like grave dirt ” ........... p. 40
“Moondreams, or Tidal Dynamics” ..............p. 41
“The Quiet Art of Standing Still”..................p. 41
“Another Life”..............................................p. 42
“What Comes” p. 42
“Neutrality” p. 42
“Struggle NowAgainst the River’s Flow” ....p. 43
“The first morning ” ....................................p. 43
“I Will Find You:AGame”............................p. 44
“Reverence in Details: In Memoriam to Rev. Martin M. Roth” p. 45
“APoem in Six Hours”..................................p. 46
“Enarmored” .................................................p. 46
“Before the Death of His Only Wife”............p. 47
“Soul’s Sword” pp. 48
“I am just a dog” p. 48
“Three Little Babes” p. 49
“Happy Heavenly Birthday” .........................p. 50
“Time” ...........................................................p. 50
“Within the hush where time itself grows still” p. 51
“Ehlers Danlos Syndrome” p. 51
“Fancy” .........................................................p. 51
“Bothered Lives” ..........................................p. 52
“wrath of the lamb” ......................................p. 52
Short Stories
“My Favorite Thiel Moment”......................................................................................................p. 6
“The Gold Bracelet” ..................................................................................................................p. 53
“Next in Line” pp. 54-56
“godslayer” ........................................................................................................................pp. 57-59
“The End of a Traveler”.....................................................................................................pp. 60-63
“Noxious” ..........................................................................................................................pp. 64-65
“The Place of Destruction” pp 66-68
Artwork
ByAnna Kavulla
ByAlexa Beck ................................................................................................................
Photographs
*Throughout publication
Photographs submitted by:
• Allison Cannon
• Muncie Canon
• Kalina Moreno
• Abreanna Thompson
Audiobook:
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Introduction & Dedication
Every year, the editors of The Phoenix include an introduction that serves as a reminder to all readers that the contents of The Phoenix are unique, creative, and worthy of admiration and respect. It exemplifies why The Phoenix is treasured annually by so many members of the Thiel community.
For the 2026 edition of this publication, editor-in-chiefAlexa Beck ’26 has written the introduction on behalf of the editorial board. Her writing, featured below, is not only a tribute to the work and creativity put forth by the contributing students, faculty, staff, and alumni who allowed for the creation of this year’s issue of The Phoenix, but it also serves especially as a tribute to the 160th Anniversary of Thiel College and the young scholars it fosters. Such beautiful minds are what enable us to create a beloved publication like The Phoenix
This year’s edition of The Phoenix encapsulates what it means to be a Tomcat. One hundred and sixty years ago, Thiel College was established and welcomed its first group of students. Many alumni, staff, and faculty have stories to share about their Thiel experience, whether it be planting one of the many trees along Brother Martin’s Walk, remembering their freshman Opening Convocation, or simply getting involved in the many groups available on campus.
When looking back on the history of the College itself, the history of The Phoenix emerges. After a hiatus, The Phoenix resumed published in 2000 by the students of Sigma Tau Delta and the English Department. Twenty-six years later, the tradition lives on.
Stated in its earliest editions, The Phoenix “testifies to the courage of the Thiel community to create, to use our intellects and imagination, and to share the power and wisdom of the writing process.” This tradition still stands, as each rendition of The Phoenix encourages and showcases the creativity of Thiel.
As a liberal arts college, Thiel fosters an environment where The Phoenix gives voice to a wide range of departments and scholarly minds. What’s great about The Phoenix is that it has never been limited to English majors or the English Department. The Phoenix has always opened its submissions to all disciplines.As you explore this year’s edition, you are guaranteed to see various areas of study. How many can you spot?
All in all, we as an editorial board thank you for your unwavering support. We stand on the shoulders of giants and those who came before us in creating this publication. We hope to uphold the integrity of The Phoenix and encourage the incoming classes of Thiel College to continue this annual publication.
As editor-in-chief, I have been blessed to see all of the leadership and hard work that goes into this publication. May this edition inspire you, dear reader, to submit a piece to The Phoenix and share your voice with the Thiel community. In doing so, you ensure that The Phoenix continues to rise from the ashes, year after year.
Alma Mater
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
People in my life now ask sometimes Why is Thiel College so important?
You graduated there twenty years ago. It is just a small chapter of your life.
Some answers are unbearably complex. It was more than a place, more than a time. More than any person or a group. Thiel was the fulcrum, a forge to temper.
I arrived a callow youth, unprepared For all the wider world had to offer. I had lived life by reading about it. So many missteps and mistakes to come.
At Thiel, I began my life from nothing, Surrounded by mentors from all walks.
I made my first friendships, tried everything, Had experiences that opened my mind.
Met and valued the worth of diversity, Changed my viewpoint on my future.
I fell in love, found a place to belong. I held on so tight, not wanting it to end.
All things do, and that journey ended, Aglorious age that I will treasure.
Memories that will not fade easily Because part of it lives inside me.
Thiel’s greatest gift to me was illumination, The passion to create something beyond
The limitations of the person I was.
Expression that pervades my existence.
She was my mother when I needed her. She was my shelter when I had none. She nourished me, granted her wisdom, And she has never abandoned me,
I met her when I was young and fearful. In her embrace, I entered adulthood, Where I became the person I am now. For that, Thiel has my eternal gratitude.
I may never see it on the hill again.
Make my walk along with Brother Martin,
Enjoy the fellowship of my former peers, Yet a piece of my heart always abides.
Dearest
ByAshlee Osterberg ’08
Every moment
Every memory
Every smile
Every tear
Never forget
Those who are dear
ByAbreanna Thompson
My Favorite Thiel Moment
By DonAchenbach ’77
My favorite nostalgia for Thiel begins just as dawn is breaking on a cool mid-fall day. The mist from the river over the cemetery gives the appearance of specters returning to their graves after a night of chicanery. The sun sleepily peeks over the Science Building, desperate for another hour’s slumber itself, but that’s not possible. The sun, you see, has an important role to play. It is GAME DAY atAlumni Stadium and the sun, even when covered by clouds, has its purposes.
Ateam of honking geese overhead greedily penetrate the hush. Geese flying in a disorganized manner are called a team, somewhat ironic given the plethora of seemingly disorganized Tomcat teams I have observed over the past 50 years or so, but the persistent disorder remains immaterial to the splendor of the Day. Once the honking fades and quiet returns, if you listen hard enough you can almost make out the shrill of a whistle and the barking of orders only a former player can recognize. Orders from legends like DiFebo, Stoeber, McCullough, and Leipheimer-the Mount Rushmore of Tomcat Football!
As the campus slowly comes to life, so doesAlumni Stadium. Game Managers arrive to deck out the field with goal post pads and end zone markers. The clinking of chains tells me that the Chain Gang is on the job. Hydration experts (known simply as managers in my day) impartially deliver water containers to both benches while the first smells of burning charcoal suggest tailgating has begun anew. Band practice commences in earnest as half uniformed sleepyheads go through their paces in anticipation of their pre-game and halftime contributions.
Slowly, Tomcat players in various stages of uniform take the field to begin their individual pregame rituals-each as unique and personal as their glove-covered fingerprints. Soon they will retreat to their sanctuary beneath the gym, only to return fully geared and in ballet-like coordination with their coach’s drills.After a brief meeting at mid-field with officials and the loyal opposition, the teams align and the ball is booted into the air. Game Day is officially underway, although for me it is nearly four hours old!
More than a thousand fans share my experience from various locales throughout the stands and whether we are hunting Wolverines, swatting Yellow Jackets, or even debating Presidents on the field doesn’t really matter. In fact, the outcome is only of passing interest to me. Win or lose, Game Day is my favorite memory of Thiel. (Truth be told, winning is preferred.)
ByAllison Cannon
“The
By Sylvia Patterson ’25
The Phoenix flies low above my head, Scrapes her talons through my hair,
Asharp-toothed comb
I reach for her
but she has no trouble dodging my grasping, stretching
If I cannot make her touch me, then why am I burning?
My art burns like her pretty red feathers
Blue-black under flame
I wish for it to rise from the ashes, triumphant!
But no diceall grey forever, I think, at least for me and mine.
Ghosts of Trickery and Charm
By Dr. Mary Theresa Hall
Who and where are the ghosts of Greenville Hall?
Do they lurk in the rafters of the roof?
Or do their clouded forms float through classrooms’
One-hundred-sixty-year-old chambers where Students’and professors’clear voices glide
Past each other and where art, hist’ry, lit,
Philos, religion, once vied for laurels
Deep and hidden in the warm classroom air?
Do vengeful spirits emerge when slighted
From the fog of hist’ry or swirling light
Of art? Do Poe, Plath, Picasso pass through Luther’s ninety-five tacked poems trav’ling
From Wittenberg for Thiel’s ivy towers?
Are you a future ghost of Greenville Hall?
Phoenix”
College Buzz
By Brianna Whaley
The class droned on the teacher spoke of subjects they slaved to possess.
Students listened to the buzz; few locked on, others drank the lesson like rain, catching bits and pieces.
Some drifted from reality, others dozed in carefree nature or willing boredom. Afaint gulp one end of the room a student quenched thirst, a distraction from the endless hum. No bell would sound; life had passed the block most knew too well. The clock ticked endlessly, mocking those struggling, disengaged.
Though not shackled in place as in years before, they remained by will, or by pressure expected.
Money weighed heavy, though little was held.
Bills drank greedily the luxuries once taken for granted.
Then, a wave they rose, like bees at work, onto the next class, sluggish forms in motion.
Day in, day out, stretched to the limit: some cracked, others flourished. Not all made it through, unable to climb the conditions.
One after another, minds changed, regrets spawned. Will it get easier or will the storm rage on?
Scripted Thinkers
ByAlexa Beck
The young thinkers are seated one by one. Their gears, masked by hair, wish to be oiled. Instead of grinding, they prepare for a performance.
Asingular audience member watches on. The routine act stirs the yellow atmosphere of the desolate classroom. For a moment, Aristotle, Plato, and even Einstein are impressed. Suddenly, all falls quiet the performance stops. Balloons of thought fly high into the sky. The audience claps, matching the ringing of the bell.
The thinkers, satisfied with themselves, store away their scripts and exit the room.
Their next performance is in ENG 120 and they know just what script to use.
By Kalina Moreno
“The
Files”: From a Teacher’s Perspective
By Dr. Mary Theresa Hall
The files sit redacted now accusing their victims of crimes unspeakable in linguistic “chambers of horror” where friendships seem to nod in familiar smiles and grammar constructions transform language into universal innateness that preys on deep structures. To teach or not to teach?
To introduce language theories to unsuspecting students or to leave them in the darkness of the cave?
The Student’s Ledger
By Josie Gadsby
This ledger reflects my reality Assets: caffeine and ambition, Liabilities: stress and student loans, Equity: whatever’s left after taxes. Knowledge accrues, Sleep depreciates, And deadlines compound like interest.
But still the books must close, Weighted with returns yet unseen, One day it will all pay off, When the bottom line turns green.
An Ode to Environmental Science
By Tegan Daugherty
I look up at the stars
Except that's not what they are.
Street lamps illuminating the grass,
But it's nothing but hardness and crass.
I walk a short distance to see what I find, Finally I found the mountain of mine.
I climb up the steep, rocky sides peering down at some deep blue tides.
Why don't people see the beauty in this?
It's nothing new, but they just might miss.
Mother nature might soon be gone,
Laid down like a little deer dawn.
What can I do to make her stay?
I don't know but, "surely it's not enough pay."
Here I am at the top,
Don't look down, it's such a far drop.
There they are the stars and moon,
I'm so sorry, Earth, for your scars and doom.
An Ode to My Major
By Nola Blose
Ode to my major, so complex and profound. The classes, the lectures, and late nights abound
Ode to my major, of healthcare I learned, an understanding of the human body, was diligently learned.
Ode to my major, Biology, Chemistry, healing abound.
Body-brain connections, all can be found,
Ode to my major, helping people is the rule, Supreme care for patients is the ultimate goal.
BUSINESS
ByAnna Kavulla
Beginning from scratch, determined to start something new
Understanding was the beginning; my passion only grew
Spreadsheets, supply chains, marketing, and more
I realized there is still so much to explore!
Navigating the program, thanks to faculty members
Excited to graduate this coming December
So many memories and lessons learned
Soon, I will have a degree that was hard-earned
~An ode to my major, the one that I adore, thank you for shaping the person I am and more.
An Ode to Human Resources
By Kendall McLaughlin
Workplace violation?
Doth hath no place.
You’re getting fired, I say with grace.
Workplace violation?
Doth hath no place.
You’re a bitch,
They reply to my face.
Workplace violation?
Doth hath no place.
Time to find a new employee, Find one with haste.
Ode to PA’s
By Ethan Narby
Coffee is cold, Notes are scattered, My skull can't decide if its broken or shattered
Late nights in Pedas have burned me out, lots of chem mechanisms, each a different route
In only a few years I should be ready to go but with becoming a PA how could I know?
The Front Line
By Hayden Tucker
We are your front line
When fear of the unknown impacts your life physically and you need answers, we are there
We are your front line
When families are in danger and the longevity of what they hold dear is put into question, we are there
We are your front line
No matter the time, place, person, or happenstance, we are there
We are your front line
But what happens if we disappear? When our equipment is defunded, or research disregarded, our help denied, will we be there?
Can you be your front line?
“They promise strength inside a pill”
By Kaleb McDowell
They promise strength inside a pill, Ashortcut to a brighter glow, Yet real health takes more time and will, Then what the glossy labels show.
For fitness climbs an uphill way, Apath more winding than they tell, It’s built in effort, day by day, Not in the powder stores will they sell.
So, skip the gimmicks, skip the craze, True strength is slower, built to last.
The glow you seek is in the days
Of steady steps and trials passed.
An Ode to Health Systems (Pathway 1 PA): The Cost of Broken Promises
By Isabella Zahner
They arrived with bright eyes, Books carefully placed in their bags, Their hearts are set on healing.
Through various dissections and chemistry’s flame, Through neuroscience experiments and ethical questioning, They built their futures class by class, struggle by struggle.
But one sorrowful evening, Aphone call was made Their unique program was ending. No alternative solutions, no safety nets, Only the fear of what was to come The unknown.
They would not be failures, They would not give up.
They wanted to be future healers, They were a determined young bunch. Yet, they were left adrift by an institution, That forgot the cost of broken promises.
The Culmination of a Young Lifetime’s Worth of Dreams, Delusion, and Destruction
By Colin Schroyer
Hanging on by Earth’s only effort to keep me down,
Akickback sending mother away, I, cascading up, Higher, Tears crawling above my eyes, Sliding through my hair, Flying back home, To tend soil, Ashared Soul,
Mother moves out of the way for the sun, Afalling star cracking into space, Melting the rainbow for me, Illuminating beauty, Giving me this,
To witness, So I don’t Blind,
Terminal velocity is null without any air, The sound of openness to my ears, “Accelerando,” it says, The conductor, He says, “Go,”
Around I somersault in the starkisses, Perceiving a world revolving, The revolution comes, Brace for impact, This is where I touch, Down,
Aproduct of myself and infinite acceleration, Eris becomes my springboard, My footstep, Acrater, I go,
As sounds of epicentric shockwaves propel me, My glitter of screams the only evidence, Going beyond reality, Missing the stars, Going farther, Momentum, Take me, Away
ENG 282: Poetry Writing Class Poem
ByAlexa Beck, Emmett Gill, Maveree Stanley, Maddy Triskett, Dr. Hall
Apoet’s chair, glass of nectar, and thee
Still holding a fountain of black ink. It
Glides on the paper, creating stories
Ones that will be passed down through centuries.
But what stroke of the quill could conquer time?
Amethyst words on February day
Welcome the weary poet whose lyrics
Dance in a purple mist and bid farewell.
The poets have much to say on this day
Sharing their deepest inquiries with all,
Using words as bibliotherapy.
Rhythm and rhyme relieve the poet’s soul.
As snow melts, inspiration springs forth.
Sit and enjoy with me the drink of gods!
“The Brightest Minds are the Darkest dimmed”
By Mariah Moody
The Brightest Minds are the Darkest dimmed
For when we thinkers think too highly, Destroyers sit by, crushing us idly;
And though our Brains may triumph theirs, We bow to their domineering airs.
For the Brightest Minds are the Darkest dimmed, And the dimmest Brains are mistakenly lit.
We choose to accept rather than fight it;
For the Brightest Minds must never Shine
In a light shined soley on an Ignorant Eye
AReturn to the Garden
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
How long would it take? How long to erase The stain of human civilization?
Surely not a century.Amillennium?
No. Drastic measures would be needed.
The terrors of technology would fall.
All things modern would crumble to mere dust. Steel, glass, and polymetric rubble
Strewn about haphazardly, waiting.
Waiting for Mother Nature to reclaim
All the land ravaged by humanity, But the works of theAncients endure, Even those that are magnificent ruins.
ANight at the Table Anonymous
We sit and eat our dinner together
The feast we’ve made to enjoy each other. I cook our meat for you, because you can’t
Stand the blood red or the stench of fresh beef. Instead, you offered that I cook, you clean.
As the night begins to wind toward its end, You join me for a night at the table.
I sit and write about unending praise
As you kneel, praying for blessed eves. It’s a beautiful night to share with you.
Walls that travelled miles in silent stone
Crumble eventually, but patterns exist.
The lust, verdant jungle would camouflage, Yet the marvels underneath would remain.
In the driest deserts, pyramids preserved
For eons until oceans obliterate.
Cryptic lines carved to be seen high above, Amessage that man was here once.
Five million years from now, a red giant
Will consume the revered Mother. Who knows where her children will be? Will they weep or notice her passing?
ByAllison Cannon
Who is Patience?
By Summer Stitt
Who is Patience?
Is She the silhouette of who is yet to come?
The tears of wonder for what has yet not begun?
Is She waiting in line despite being in a hurry?
Slowing down when the roads are icy on a cold, dark morning?
Is She that student in class who makes you bite your tongue itching to say something She may regret?
Is She boiling water, sizzling mightily on the stove?
Agrowling stomach, Tastebuds hungry for contentment.
Who is Patience?
Does She meet us in our dreams, reaching for a dance struggling to achieve, anxiously weeping?
Is She the exhale we hesitate to release?
Astomach tangled in knots, a heart sprinting for escape?
She is a teacher.Aparent. Maybe even a friend whispering reminders that peace does not have to end.
She is our shadow, following quietly behind, urging us gently to collect, pause, and unwind.
She is a harp, a violin, maybe even a flute a garden, a river, green grass, and sandy dunes. Patience is chocolate cake.
Ababy’s feet.Agraduation cap.
Does Her arrival come with warning or catch us off track?
Who is Patience?
Is She the warm hug received with tears in our eyes?
Or the scrape on our knees after a fall?
Maybe Patience is not far away but waiting for your return after all.
Reaching for your hand, she asks to dance. Her steady, unwavering, longing eyes meet your gaze.
Like the morning sunrise, the star-filled sky, the moon kissing the sun goodbye.
She is waiting for your silhouette to come home. Patience.
Once Upon a Dead Man
By Sam Mitchell
There was a Man who lived and He used his time to help others just to be crucified by those who opposed Him.
There was a President who lived who started a civil war to free the enslaved and his reward was a spiteful bullet.
There was a King who lived with so much courage and persistence that he intimidated his oppressors into waking him from his dreams.
There was a Debater who lived, spread his truth, and died for it.
I have yet to make an impact but dare I say: live for your truth, but do not kill for it!
To the Critics of Women:
By Maddy Triskett
They say women are free, Until freedom makes them uncomfortable. They say women are free, Yet question their uniqueness.
They tried to silence Sappho, Leaving her voice fragmented, Burning her stories, Silencing her history.
They ridiculed Emily Dickinson. Leading her to become a recluse, Disregarding her mental state, Judging her inside confinement
But women are not completely freeIt is staged, rehearsed, and regulated. However, these women chose defiance: To create, live, and act how they pleased.
The Endless Waltz
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
I have been walking my entire life. When I was a child, I skipped to school, I ran from bullies, I flew to my books, Journeying on countless adventures.
As a young man, I trudged onward Through the harsh trials of adolescence. I shuffled, danced, and pirouetted, Finding love and hope in a girl’s eyes.
I strode into middle age, unafraid. Walking hand in hand with the one I love, Traveling life’s paths with purpose and joy. Hearing the steps of children tracing our own.
At last, I will slow to a gentle glide, As I wander, full of wonder, into heaven.
Try Hard: In Memoriam to TobyAtwood
By Sean Oros ’15
Trying hard
Sparks fire
The light of which Attracts attention, And inevitably Both praise And critique.
Being a try-hard Is often judged, But some people Try hard anyway, Living life fully
Even if ended young, Running the race With boundless energy And enthusiasm And unashamedly Individual.
If Toby had been allowed
To run longer
How far She would have gone
But we can look to her
To inspire our steps And try hard
To live up
To her example, To take the torch
Of a life
Lived so brightly And relay it on,
She was Unafraid
To let her light shine
Unafraid to try hard, Unafraid to be genuine, And we, too, Can be
Unafraid; We never know How long we have, But in living unafraid
Love's Symphony
By Neira Laird
In the stillness of the night, where shadows dance in soft moonlight, two hearts entwine, a sacred rite, where love's sweet melody takes flight.
With every beat, their souls ignite, a symphony of pure delight, in love's embrace, so pure, so right.
overdramatic musings
By Dylan Foster
What is the soul?
Ashadow splayed out on the wall
Incapable of communicating its own complexity
Its insane, winding pathways
Atesseract impossible to interpret
What is the soul?
Greedy and willing to gnaw at its brother
To bare its teeth at inconvenience
And yet
To pour love into great tragedy
To shed blood for another
Both urges in the same heartbeat
What is the soul?
It demands loneliness
Only to insist on an ache
When we are alone
Petulant baby
What is the soul?
It must be what was sundered at Babel
All of human tongues incapable of mapping it out
Even the merest inch of its vastness
So terrible and deep that we can't know ourselves
Trapped though we are inside us
I would throw it all away
To know precisely what my neighbor wants
For breakfast
APoem for Trifles
By Jordyn Sobotka
In a kitchen small and bare, Women notice what men don’t care.
Abroken bird, a tangled thread, Secrets hiding, words unsaid.
The quilt’s uneven, the jars unloved, Clues are there if you just look above. The men dismiss what seems so small, But women see the truth in it all.
Alonely life, a silent cry, Behind the walls where sorrows lie. They understand what’s really wrong, In quiet things that don’t belong.
In trifles, power quietly grows, In hidden pain that no one knows. The women’s voices soft but strong, Tell the story that rights the wrong.
“The Diary of Ken’s Doll”
By Mariah Moody
Carcinogens and menthol cigarettes
Drowning in despondent tears.
How many crunches does it take to get to the center?
Minor trifles of Our teenage years.
Bubblegum Barbies blow big bubbles
Sugar free, of course Our only meal today
Unless You count Tylenol and water,
The idol of all teenage girls:
Light, invisible, flexible;
Held by someone, yet never truly.
It collects like raindrops in the well of Our bodies, shallow like Our early graves.
Twiggy made it look real easy,
But the hours We spend at the mirror
Scrutinizing Our image, fishing for imperfections
Takes more skill than You think.
“Thinner,” You say? “Skinny is in!”
The push-ups are crushing Our bones,
So We stop to count the calories
In threeAdvil capsules.
You’ll never understand Our pain. Our friends say size is just a Number, but Theirs barely exists. We prefer solace to disappointing company.
Our pants are baggy and held up by Our femurs, Our shirts droop below Our prepubescent breasts
And We think it’s working…
Until Our ribs start to beautifully ache
And Our spines run down Our backs
Like the serpent’s tail. There is Nothing left of Us, but that was the goal, Right?Atoms instead of a body?
Our beauty standards sting like Tuberculosis
Yet we entice You in Our illness.
Make love to Our skeletons, That’s all We ever were anyways.
We were made for You. From ribs We come, So ribs We must remain. We’re all Barbie dolls, With our stiff limbs–tanned and wiry–and our painted faces.
Let’s face it: You can’t spell diet without die.
All the “She’s” that Sail the Sea
By Sam Mitchell
How dare you call a woman the weaker sex after all she has done for you!
Mother dearest to your ignorant heart carried you in her womb, allowed you to rip your way through her, and soothed you anyway!
When has a man the stronger sex loved one who tore his genitals?
As history recalls: pirates believed Woman was cursed on the sea banning all with a vulva to the land yet referred to their ships as She!
More ships have sailed the ocean blue as the sky, and it is thanks to those three She’s We are here, you and I.
The Titanic, unsinkable ship, carrying many in her womb, steered by Man who sent her to her watery tomb. Do not call her weak!
She rocked millions of sailors to sleep, ensured safe passage through rough seas, not for her body to be beaten by Pirates!
Do not call a woman weak as she has carried more than a man. She took Pilgrims from sea to shining sea, cherish Her: La Nina, La Pinta, and Santa Maria.
ARose for Emily
By Jordan Sobotka
Emily lives in an old, quiet house, Where time feels slow and shadows drowse.
She has a rose, soft and red, But it feels lonely, almost dead.
She stays inside all by herself, With dusty memories on every shelf. The rose is pretty but a little sad, Just like Emily, feeling bad.
No one comes to see her there, Her world is empty, quiet, bare. The rose is still, not growing strong, Like Emily, holding on too long.
Arose for Emily, gentle and slow, Aflower that doesn’t want to grow.
She stays inside and hides away, With her rose that fades day by day.
ByAbreanna Thompson
PROTECTION
By Gracie Mosko
Fall into me
You shattered and broken soul
I will be your lighthouse
And shine for you until you grow old Ill hold you close and patch you up And protect you from the cold
“A
Glass Pane”
By Mariah Moody
I remember the day mother put me up. Her prominent round belly bumping me.
I reflected the sun’s smiles upon you while she Spun in circles, scrutinizing my image.
I remember when the bump disappeared Mom drew lines over the scars, perplexed How creation left destruction. She Gazed with anguish, praying for deception.
I watched you grow, the young and innocent Eyes looking inside themselves.
I remember when you went silent, the Weight of the world floated above your head like
An accumulating cloud of melancholy.
I didn’t understand why you Loathed me so, for I only ever Told the truth. But I was your nemesis.
Your eyes desperately fished inside me for Something, a buried treasure or lost memory; but You never found it, did you? Venus Strained for perfection too though.
I remember the day you came to me with Eyes drowning in a flood and a voice Bellowing curses at my pane. Then, Aswift kiss from your knuckles.
Life flowed between my cracks, but the tears Stopped. You stood back to admire the Crimson audience through glistening knives.
And with a shard, you
Left me in pieces.A Battered corpse lying Broken on the carpet, Awaiting an unlikely return.
Every life is a Shard of glass. It’s your choice Whether to Destroy or Reflect.
Oh, Mother… Anonymous
Sometimes I forget mother tried her best. I think about the time she gave to us-
The way she taught us how to walk and fuss, To speak with care, to love, to grow, to rest. We overlook the hours she invests, Those lost beneath the faults we still discuss. Yet judged by standards harshly placed on us, We too would fall and fail beneath that test.
My mother tried with all her patient heart And holds a quiet pride in what we’ve grown.
When she feels bound to just those four short years, I wish to show her life torn far apart:
She’s more than time that sorrow claims its own.
She is our mother, constant through our fears.
My Superhero
By Maddy Triskett
She helps me in numerous ways. She always answers my calls, shows up for me, And listens, never turning me away. But when does anyone acknowledge her feelings? When do her worries get a place to land?
Hardships cling to her viciously, Prying at her confidence, her will, She wakes each day, putting on her armor, And she never lets her bruises show.
Thank you, Mom, for your heroic gestures. You deserve a medal for perseverance.
Adaughter, wife, sister, and caretaker, a superhero: Unbreakable, like the tempered steel, Who endures and remains.
ByAllison Cannon
My Sister, My Dearest Friend Anonymous
You’re the first ray of sunshine in the morning, the last voice to say goodnight. the one who knows all my secrets, even without me saying them outright.
We’ve shared whispered stories in the dark, far past midnight. We’ve turned tears into inside jokes, all the wrongs into “it’s alright.”
You’ve seen me at my messiest, my ugliest, my worst, but somehow love me louder when I feel like I might burst.
We fight over the little thingswho did what, who’s music, who’s to blamebut within five minutes later, we’re laughing like our arguments were just a silly game.
You’re my built-in teammate, my partner through it all, the one who stands behind me, when I fear I may fall.
If lifelong best friends are hard to find, then somehow, I’ve been blessedbecause I didn’t have to look far, I grew up next to the absolute best.
Becoming: By IrelandAnderson
As the river flows so do I, Carrying memories in my ribs, Learning the language of leaving Without ever arriving whole.
I bend where the earth insists, Polish my grief against stone, Let time press its thumb
Into my back until I curve.
Once, I tried to be still
Aheld breath, a dam of bone
But even silence has a current, Even prayer erodes.
I have loved like water loves: Reckless, Reflective, Returning. I have drowned and called it devotion, Called survival a miracle.
If I am lost, let it be downstream, Where light breaks itself open, Where motion is not a failure But a form of Faith.
Sestina to my Niece
Anonymous
My tone becomes softer when I’m around you. You look up with a gummy smile, reaching for my hands.
An overwhelming emotion fills my heart- it’s love.
Wide eyes full of joy, you make me want to be a better person.
I am not your mother, but I will always be here.
As I hold you, I quietly swear to myself a lifelong promise.
I will always show up early and leave late- I promise.
No matter the circumstance, I’d put anything aside for you.
When you’re scared, I’ll be waiting with open handsthere to catch you, protect you, and shower you with love.
I cannot wait to see who you become as a person.
As I write this, I think of your first birthday being here.
As you reach this milestone, I recall the day you arrived here.
I told my sister- your mother- I’d be there, it was a promise. Hours quickly turned to days, then I finally got to meet you.
I held you, wrapped in warmth, as I analyzed your little hands.
When I first met you, my eyes watered, for I’d never felt such love. I couldn’t believe my sister had birthed the most perfect little person.
I found it easier to believe, once I realized your mother is my person. Your presence has made me beyond grateful to be here. These moments are to be treasured, which I promise to do. I remember a time I didn’t adore you.
I’m constantly amazed by you, as you learn to use your hands. You’ve become so expressive, a little bundle of love.
The first emotion you learned was from your parents’love.
I’m so thankful they’re raising you to be an outstanding person. With you at this moment, I prefer to be here.
Though one day, you’ll grow old enough to understand a pinky promise. It is at those ages; you will begin to understand you.
Knowing that, I will cherish this interim full of little clapping hands.
The future makes me appreciate all the times your little hands reached for mine. One day, they won’t be as little, but will still hold all the love they did the first time we met. You will outgrow me and become your own person.
Even then, when you’re there and I’m hereI will always be your aunt, that’s a promise.
No matter what, I will always root for you.
I’ll cherish you always, even when distance empties my hands.
My love for you will show, even if it’s not in person.
I’ll always be here for you, that’s a promise I’ll always keep.
Cerebral
By Maddy Triskett
My mind races– ruminating rapidly. Thoughts slide through synapses, Consciousness cascades into the cortex, Sending signals through my nervous system.
Acurrent, a change, a cerebral wave That refuses stillness.
The frequency reminds me–I am alive
North Manitou Island
ByAlana Rudolf
I open my tent to the bird’s chirping overhead, wishing to be as lively as they are.
I place my hat on my head and slip my radio into my pocket. Catching my reflection, I give a small, insecure smile.
As I walk, the lake glimmers. I sigh, longing to be as deep, as endless. The sun beats down upon me, oh, to be as warm and welcoming as the rays.
I reach my destination, but those I’m searching for aren’t there, I sign again, wishing to be as free as they are.
As I wait, throwing rocks is my pastime, hoping I could be as soft and gentle as the sand below.
I stare into the swaying tree line, jealous of their careless yet sturdy dance. The gentle waves creep toward the shore, but I only wish to be as dynamic, as unbounded.
Out of the corner of my eye, my friend arrives, I pull out my notebook and record their arrival. “See you tomorrow!” I say aloud.
The bird just stares back at me, knowing everything I long to be, I already am.
Currents
By Maddy Triskett
Life moves in tides and surges
One day I feel like I am pulled into the riptide
While the next day I am swimming back to the shore
Trauma taunts me like a memory that I can’t outswim.
Anxiety annihilates me, making me hold my breath.
I worry that one day I’ll forget how to stay above water.
But healing is not linear, Nor is growth.
Continue to learn new swimming styles,
Enjoy the sunrises and endless sand,
Shift your perspective like a drifting sail.
After all, no current ever remains the same
Architect of Dust
By Dylan Foster
The lines are drawn with utmost care
Their meanings are not yet revealed
My face betrays a sense of calm
Astagnant mask to hide what's real
My castles crumble in the dirt
My words are fading on the page
My mind is numbed beyond the pain
Receding place is my escape
“Kairos forAgape”
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
So much gratitude for God given gifts, The beauty and stillness of nature.
The love and joy of friends and family. The blessing of a community united in faith.
Somedays it is too large to hold in heart. Somedays stress and the mundane obscure it.
The cult of individuality outpaces it.
The baseness of overthought and indulgence.
Yet this morning refreshed and energized the soul.
Dissonant voices became one in purpose, Interwoven in the reinforcement of creed.
Asong communing in the Worship of the Lord.
It is a font of strength for God’s children, One we so desperately need but can neglect. The first duty to self, is to align with God, Find the place where He is, build that Foundation.
All the good begins with that moment, Aflicker of the flame of belief fanned.
Whose motes are as the stars in the sky. Worship transcending individuals
Into something greater than the sum. Allowing the construction of Brotherhood, Mirroring the reunion with the Creator,
Apath that leads to everlasting life.
The Faithful Shepherd
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
Adream, however brief, still has value. Putting good out into the world, the same. My friend had a wonderful dream. Even though it is over for now, Faith and life have a way of opening doors.
An unexpected opportunity arose.
The Lord asked him to step forward, To open his heart to four angels. He listened, and acted as a shepherd, Welcoming the flock into his life.
Their time was short but meaningful,
For one who helps the innocent, helps the Lord, Walking in the footsteps of theAlmighty.
I saw the bond between them with my eyes, Ablessed moment of love and commitment.
You were there when you didn’t have to be.
Ashelter to those who needed you, Arespite full of love and security
For these little girls who had none.
Hopefully, bad memories will fade in time. Maybe they will remember all the good. Know and cherish this, in solace, my brother. You were the first step in their new life
Just Breathe
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
Here lies the last gasp, creative fervor
Amidst the stagnation of modern times.
We are a race driven by instant pleasure, Adopamine drip stuck at maximum.
Everything within the grasp of wi-fi. Questions of all sorts answered immediately. Effort a mere pathway to idleness, Days-long fatigue, and empty malaise.
So many spending life racing to the end, Embracing the nothingness of dreamlessness. Finding meaningless filler, killing time, Committing unwitting suicide.
Choosing self-isolation as coping, Sliding into an indifferent abyss.
Fight. Fight now! Throw off the yoke of apathy.
Shatter disillusionment with a roar.
Abandon despair. Open your eyes.
Inhale deeply of the fresh air.
Grasp the warm hand of another person. Establish connections with society. Stand for a cause, participate in life. Make a difference for someone else.
Pick up a pen, be the instrument. Find inspiration in the waking world.
The path to happiness lies in the first step. Your joy will free the hearts of others.
It will not be easy. Nothing of worth Ever is. To not try is the tragedy. I believe in all of you. Take courage. Together, your efforts will save us all.
By Muncie Canon
Stanley Anonymous
He’s always been the one who knows the way, The steady voice that solves what feels undone.
The hand that lifts each burden day by day,
The call I trust will never end begun.
So many times, he’s picked up the phone to stay, Aconstant through the silence and the strain.
Though we may clash, those moments fade awayI learned my strength through him, through joy and pain.
He taught me more than books could ever give,
Through quiet work and patience deeply shown.
I dread the day his voice may cease to live,
When I must stand and face the world alone.
Though time will dim his flame, his name remains-
Apart of me no ending ever claims.
it’s a secret
By Dylan Foster
How can I show you anything
When you look at me like that
When I know you will think about it
When you will have to see me in the words
And see me even after
I'd sooner crack my ribs
Split them open
And reveal to you the marrow
Than let you in my mind
Home Anonymous
Whatever happens to a nest when all the chicks learn to fly?
As the parents of the chicks say their farewells, the once strident nest is replaced by the creaking of oak- the wood their world once revolved around. Where will mother and father go?
Will they stay, reminiscing about the time they spent keeping their eggs warm?
Will they be reminded of their hatchlings as their wobbly legs took their first steps?
Will they reflect on their nestlings as they all started to grow feathers and flap?
Will they remember when their fledglings still relied on them for dinner?
Or will they simply recall their juvenile chicks, as they took flight?
Will they feel a sense of relief?
Maybe they will hope to see them again sometime soon?
Or will they leave the nest in hopes to start all over?
Leaving the home that once held so much life, so much love- to rot.
Urban Paradise
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
Each day I go to the silent city, I stand awe struck by its sleeping beauty.
Twin rivers run in azure and umber. The skies a grey tempest of swirling clouds.
The buildings mark the once glorious past. The faces of its people show the decline, The wear and tear of civilization, The worries of uncertain tomorrows.
I walk the streets in a cascade of time. Things change, but the underlying truth does not. Yes, I see the faces of indifference, But the good-natured hearts remain.
Perhaps the slow fall has its benefits.
New life often revives from decay, Nature replaces the hustle and bustle, Healing the wounds we have inflicted.
My footsteps echo across its bones, Its treasured memories become my own. It has my love even in decadence, Yet in the future, it may rise again,
Two decades lapse like fog over water, The march of time waiting for no one.
I speed over the bridges for brevity, The days of reflection past for me.
Always moving in time to the story,
In which I have become the narrator
Instead of the main protagonist. Family makes it easy to share the stage.
Apersonal contribution to renewal.
My children will know the restoration
With their own eyes, experience its Revitalization in their lives.
As for me, the current has come. Its gentle pull inevitable. So much joy in this second half. Never regret as we continue.
The infinite streams to the river, The river leads slowly to the sea, Where one mote of consciousness Ceases to be, transfiguring
Into being everything all at once.
We all have a place of origin,
Ahometown, where we became who we are. I proudly call this urban paradise mine, The City of Rivers and Bridges.
Still the Stupid Tongue
By Dylan Foster
Nail the tongue
Where it hurts
Pin the bastard
Watch it lurch
Struggle, squirm
Stop it now
Quiet your verse
Shut you up
Restrain it
Bleed its nerves
Punish the thing
For how it works
Stupid blurts
Rolling dumb
Never speaking
What it wants
Stigmata Is no curse
To keep the words In reverse
Idiosyncratic
By Kierstin Barger
Ones and zeros blind my eyes
The price of progress is finding time
When you are identified by a number instead of your name
And your face is owned by the common domain
When Identity is so important
That privacy is overlooked
And you can’t make a mistake
Without being called fake
They are quick to scream they care
But they turn on you just as soon
When they ask who are you
We all respond I am you
When individualism turns into collectivism
we are all the same
Yet no one is as unique as you
“I will sing a sad song”
By Gracie Mosko
I will sing a sad song
An eerie kind of tune
I will go to the depths of everything
To please and honor you
On the Field
ByAlexa Beck
The sweltering sun beats down on the turf. Despite it, the seven-day work awaits rigorous and unavoidable.
Hundreds of feet are locked in.
Roll steps, heel-toe, slides, and crabwalks all of these forms are rehearsed.
Abass drum’s heartbeat is felt, while the soul of a saxophone is ignited. Alongside these, colors swirl across the field.
Ametronome marks the air:
Dut-dut-dut-dut, Dut-dut-dut-dut. Here, muscle memory overrides thought.
Again and again, the metronome beats on Faces tighten as the director says “One more time,” not “Last time.”
Some members of the hive share a history of many years, while some are still learning the names of their fellow members and instruments.
This mixed family does not know what they have given each other the quiet gift of momentum, a reason to rise instead of fall. They are unaware of the darkness that once loomed over a member.
Like the metronome, life must dut on.
“TheArtist in me is Dead”
By Mariah Moody
The artist in me is dead:
She has replaced her paintbrushes with black pens;
Her canvas has become misshapen, portable, and limited to Phonetics;
She can’t find inspiration in nature anymore, but in the endless hubbub of textbooks.
She is buried 6 feet below her essays, exams, interviews, business attire, office hours
The artist in me is dead.
She has given away her creativity for conformity,
Her palette has become monotone and symmetrical,
Her once messy mind is now organized suffering
The artist in me is dead and I killed her.
Bidden to the Dirt
By Dylan Foster
Bidden to the dirt
One and one in hand
Lovers laying still
Given to the land
Agrin on the face
Ahymn and then not
Buried in their lace
Together but not
Gave it all their worth
Footsteps in the sand
Neither had the will
To revoke the plan
Alife spent in hate
Lovers and then not
Trapped in a place
Together but not
brown
By Dylan Foster
It's brown
Of course it's brown, but what shade
I would call it chestnut
Really? I'd say umber
But the masses agree
Over 67%
That it is chestnut
Alright, it's decided
But what shade of chestnut?
22% is the highest consensus
On a single hex code color
They say it is a perfect match
Alright, it's decided
But even that can be broken down
What imperfections of your eyes
Might tweak the color a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction brighter or darker?
Aneuron explodes in connection one way or another
And suddenly there is no consensus
No two men agreeing on a point
In the infinity between zero and one
I rest smugly at a point proven
They sigh
Look man
It's brown
Just brown
Do you want the car or not
“Heartbreak tastes like grave dirt "
By Mariah Moody
Heartbreak tastes like grave dirt
Like moonlight-bathed candles
Illuminating smudged letters
From philosophers long dead.
It clings like grief, Sobbing set to Mozart. The notes are fleeting but Eternal, like candles’smoke.
It smells like rotted roses, Petals painted red with thorns
Awaiting their next victim:
Ignorant yet blissful.
Heartbreak is an art
Perfected by solitary women.
They pray for their suitors
Then are left with shadows.
We fall in love with the smoke, But the candle grows dimmer, Forgotten in a wave of passion
Only fools fall for.
I am Heartbreak, I am the Smoke
Barely seen, but always here
I lurk in the darkness; Watching, waiting, scheming…
Rather than compare me to a Summer’s Eve, worship me as you Do the transient moon. She who Incessantly transforms shall never be whole.
I sting like a serpent’s tongue And strike like a flogger’s whip.
I'll always die, but you treat me as your Lazarus, resuscitated by lustful men.
Drown me in your bottle, Sting me with your needle,
Echo my pain in your pleasure; Just remember who I am.
I am Heartbreak: Stronger than Death, Weaker than Life, Forever residing in my victims.
Moondreams, or Tidal Dynamics
By Emmett Gill
An empty sky, filled with stars and the dark
Rises from the depths with slivers of light
Silver shines on loan from the auburn sun,
Slowly growing, sugar-sweet radiance
Giving way to hope’s brightest guiding white
Starlight fills the sky as minds fill with dreams
Of great ambition not yet fully seen
Like all else, our dreams have an end;
Changing truths are something we can’t ignore
“I can do it” slips into “I just can’t”
As their faith, ever-waxing, loses grip
Dreamers can’t do what they could once before.
How can anything we do ever last?
We fall to the dark, and we start anew.
The QuietArt of Standing Still
By Dylan Foster
I'm struggling and standing still
I'm hoping that they pass me by
I'm terrified to make a sound
I'm horrified of asking why
The quiet art of standing still
The subtle skill of fading fast
There's no embarrassment for you
There's nothing left of much to say
Awhispered woe before the end:
I wish you saw me now and then
Another Life
By Neira Laird
Born into the world one way,
But lived life another
My destiny changed,
From a decision not of my own
I see others with the life I could have led, I hold anger towards you
Vivid memories of destruction
Confusion filled me when young
The older I grow, the wiser I become
My pain is from you and all the lies promised I put on a mask to appease you I’ll never heal from the wound I’ve been given
Neutrality
ByAbreanna Thompson
I plead neutrality.
In a world of hostility and corruption, I block it out and live my life, while others suffer.
What Comes
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
I never ask why. It is not polite. Who am I to question the backbrain, The imagination factory that Grafts perceptions and ideas freely, Coalescing them into forethought. Sifting and shaping is my purpose.
To craft from subconscious memory, Extrapolating the randomness Of everyday experiences. It is a mystery in how it works. Agift to be cherished, not questioned. One can only hope for worthiness.
I follow my tenets in the work.
Not all journeys need to be epic, Nor adventures that range eternally. Beauty can be divined directly.
Yet as the evening ebbs to ending, My eyes close to dream what may come.
I hear screams for freedom and cries for revolution, I smile and move on, they want change.
I watch them on the news being killed for speaking their minds, I changed the channel and forgot, their movements and protests on mute.
I have never enjoyed conflict, it is not in my best interest, but I question my words when I am asked.
“Where do I stand?”
I plead neutrality.
Struggle NowAgainst the River’s Flow
By Dylan Foster
Struggle now against the river’s flow
Endless time in whiter water’s rage
Worldly wrath will beat upon you so
The sword of life leaves cuts that only grow
Thrashing now the wires snap about your cage
Struggle now against the river’s flow
Ensnare the pain that fate upon thee does bestow
Noble wrath your temper cannot assuage
Worldly wrath will beat upon you so
Earthen fangs snap and tear far deeper than you know
Struggle now to bleed the bolded blots upon the page
Struggle now against the river’s flow
Watching, winding, whipping, waning water goes
Sickly wrath and poison is thou just life’s wage
Worldly wrath will beat upon you so
Do not allow the water’s sting to lay you low
Do please witness the hollow words of this lowly sage
Struggle now against the river’s flow
Worldly wrath will beat upon you so
The first morning –
By Neira Laird
The first morning had come –
Such a dreadful thing
Relentless storm –had been suffered –
I beseech my Soul to mourn, lamenting –
Cutting of her Thread –
Her spindle –shattered –
And so, to rebuild her – needs dedication
Another morning spread –
Go on – a momentous day
Following multiple morns, not all tears are evil –
Darkness passes but, beauty remains –
It can be a burden –but also an anchor –
The melody – lingers on –
Time – heals all –
But not scars –they are drawn.
Just a smaller version –
Adifferent me today–
Little by little –becomes a lot –
Is this – okay?
I Will Find You:AGame
By Sam Mitchell
Who am I? Who am I? What are you even saying? I’m the loser of the game you didn’t know you were playing. Let’s play another game, this time I get to win. Lives on the line, winner takes all, ready or not, let’s begin!
-Steven Universe
I played a game in the dark, one we all recall loving as children: Hide and Seek.
Elected as seeker, I waited for several minutes, giving time to hide, and myself a moment of respite.
Tired eyes watched dusk turn to dawn as they searched for others. Lefts, rights, highs and lows. Dawn evolved into dusk.
After restless days without nourishment, I switched the light on and saw the other player looking back at me in the mirror.
I switched the light on and saw the other player looking back at me in the mirror.
ByAbreanna Thompson
Reverence in Details: In Memoriam to Rev. Martin M. Roth
By Sean Oros
Servant Leadership
Lived fully Opposes The siren call Of Self. In attention to details Can be a reverence And service No detail Too small To overlook In service Of Faith And community.
Such a man Was Pastor Martin Roth, Apillar of the community, Alife of disciplined example, Lived faith alone, By Scripture alone, By grace alone. The world was a better place For having had him But his legacy Lives large And echoes onwards.
Astar, Even after it dies Can be seen for lifetimes And inspire Well beyond Its own passing, Infinitesimally small atoms And star dust Bursting outwards, Sparking life And hope Across ages
APoem in Six Hours
Anonymous
We sit and meet to discuss what to do
About how so many became so few. What could we do to get our numbers back?
We will have to plan a course of attack.
We’re still talking, brainstorming how to find Those out there who could be a likened mind. We plan out another week of events As we leave for our event in suspense.
I stop to see my love, and she decides That she wants to come along for the ride. Then, we reconvene in a different space To hopefully gather crowds in the place.
Nobody shows up besides our kin, So the event is just us once again.
We play our games, a challenge to all
To best my prowess let pride be my fall.
As I sit and wait, I make a call home
As my beloved and I sit alone.
“We are doing well, love, but we miss you!”
“I’ll have to visit soon; I miss you too.”
The event winds down, and it’s time to go
I must get ready for live radio.
The songs are all chosen, and I’ve done my part
To journal six hours into this art.
Enarmored
ByAlexa Beck
As shaky breaths exit my lips, my mind races with bleeding thoughts. Or is this wound an illusion?
Guarded by chainmail of my own, I flinch at every coming blow. Like you, my soul feels bare and ill.
Your arms that once never let go, now carve a wicked spell into bone. I always wound myself too tight.
I cannot imagine what went wrong. When we were inseparable, I was wounded with laughter.
Again, I ask, is this an illusion?
Are we meant to have a grand conclusion?
ByAllison Cannon
Before the Death of His Only Wife
ByAllison Cannon
Replication Poem of “To My Dear and Loving Husband” byAnne Bradstreet
Although all things within this world hath end, Love for you stays, my dear beloved friend. And the parting by death, it feels not sweet, But in my dreams, we shall forever meet.
You call the sentence past irrevocable,
You claim that such fate is inevitable.
Yet your deathbed I do not wish to tend
I do not dream the loss of my best friend.
Ignorant though we both may seem to be, Sad farewell lines I will not write to thee.
The knot that is tied, it keeps us as one.
My wife you’ll always be, my heart has been won.
Convinced as I am you’ll see all you are due, Alife without you would only ever be blue.
Though to you it seems, you are nearing the grave,
For you, for always, my love will be saved.
Faults though you have, they too be found in me.
Yet none, I pray, would convince us to flee. Were thou to die, I would take up the arms
Until Hades himself allowed me back to your charms.
To lose you, my love, would bring me great pain.
Our babes would ache for their mam in vain.
To love again, with someone who isn’t thee, Is a path I cannot bring myself to see.
You’ll stay alive, I know, to read my verse.
For you to pass could be only a curse.
By your bed I shall stay, no matter the stake.
My love for you stays, the farewells shall not take.
Anonymous
Why is living never simple
When simple is what we need most?
We fade far from our graces
As nightmares haunt our souls like ghosts.
Why is unsheathing from the forge
Something we’re never ready for Even after years of smithing, We are brittle ore at our cores. Why must we always take defense
To the ravenous assaulting Of our senses by offenses
Others could ignore to parry?
We strike, parry, then strike again
Just to see another day pass. Every chip and crack, reminding Us to reinforce our soul’s sword
I am just a dog
ByAlexa Beck Dedicated to Maddison Rose
Why is it that you cry over me?
For I am just a dog.
I soil your things with my slobber and cause discord when I’m alone.
I scratch you with my nails but do not intend to hurt you.
For I am just a dog.
I like to eat from my bowls, but I do not mind pressing my tongue to your salted skin when your spirit wavers.
For I am just a dog.
I love to hear your laugh when we romp through the autumn leaves or break the stillness of the newly fallen snow.
For I am just a dog.
I may not move as much as I once did, but it is still you whom I cherish most.
As long as my nose is wet, I am your dog.
Until one day, I am the one who waits at the rainbow bridge. For you to return home.
Three Little Babes
By Jason C. Merriam ’04
If ever you could bend your will to mine, I pray that now is the time to listen. Hear me, for though I am a mere humble man, On this day, I am the richest among them.
For my children are more precious to me
Than all the wonders of God’s Creation. In them, my faith in God has been restored. And even if they are called home to Him,
The memories outshine any sorrows. But this is not my message to you all.
My peers, my fellow fathers, I ask you. Is not faith weightier than darkest doubt? Is not hope mightier than your despair? We live in times of gross uncertainty.
I am no paragon of virtue without sin. I stray in thoughts, words, and even my deeds. What I do know, my friends, is that we live, And as long we still breathe, there is hope.
I see you, walk amongst you, hear your words, The stories of frustration and struggle.
The tearing apart of family and faith. Inner turmoil causing outer sorrow.
My heart and mind bend in deep sympathy. You are never alone my friends. For God Walks with you in the deadliest terrain. There is no place where you cannot be heard.
I read a true tale that shook my very soul. Many years ago, a father, fraught with doubt, Took the lives of his children, to spare them From the ravages of slow starvation.
I would walk with that man, I would reason With him. I would tell him that it is always Darkest before the dawn. That evil Whispers to us when we are most vulnerable.
If he said that God has ignored his prayers, I would refute that God works mysteriously, Through indirect means. That sometimes you must trust In Humanity’s innate benevolence.
We are far from perfect, flawed in many ways. Yet we possess a great capacity For tremendous mercy and compassion. Even in the harshest times, you would be welcome.
Embrace hope and risk, break with deadly pride. Know that one truth is certain in this world. You are never alone without a choice.
Love and Faith listen for a whisper of Hope.
Happy Heavenly Birthday
By Justice Ludy
"Sixteen candles, glowing bright, Abrother’s day, a shining light.
My heart is full, though hard to say, The love I feel won’t fade away.
Through every laugh, through every fight,
I’m by your side, day, and night.
This birthday marks the path you’re on, Ajourney new, though some fears dawn.
But know this truth, forever near, My love for you will conquer fear.
Though hard it feels, I’ll hold you tight, Happy 16th, my guiding light.
Sixteen years, a light so bright, Now shining softly in heaven’s light.
Though you’re gone, your spirit stays, In hearts that love you all our days.
Abirthday there, beyond the sky,
Where tears are wiped and angel's fly.
I feel your love, though hard to bear, Abond that time can never tear.
Though here below, I miss you so, Your memory helps my heart to grow.
Happy birthday, up above, Forever held in endless love."
Time
ByAshlee Osterberg ’08
As day fades into night
As darkness into light
The change of time is lasting Time she is a-wasting
For every thing change will attend For every problem it will mend
The change of tie is lasting Time, she is a-wasting
Make the best of all in place
Decorate all in lace
The change of time is lasting Time, she is a-wasting
Time is precious and it’s too short
Time is telling and hard to sort
The change of time is lasting Time is not worth wasting
ByAbreanna Thompson
Within the hush where time itself grows still,
By Jordyn Sobotka
Within the hush where time itself grows still,
Aleaf descends like whispered thought, discreet;
The self dissolves beneath a quiet will, And finds in nothingness its own retreat.
The hourglass spills sand without a sound,
Yet in its fall, a universe expands;
Asoul, in solitude, is loosely bound
Not by the earth, but by unseen commands.
Immortal questions hover in the air:
What lies beyond the veil we dare not part?
No answer waits, but silence and despair, And yet the heart persists, a patient art.
To die, perhaps, is simply to become
Afinal breath, a soft, eternal hum.
Fancy
ByAshlee Osterberg ’08
Walking into a room crowded to the brim
I felt all alone with merely a whim
Afancy of dancing alone with a prince
Then, I open my eyes and began to rinse
The clamoring was loud the clattering of dishes
It brought me reality instead of my wishes
Ehlers Danlos Syndrome: Anonymous
My body fails quietly So, no one calls it an emergency.
Joints slip. I reset them myself.
Pain is constant enough
To be dismissed.
If I scream, I’m dramatic. If I don’t, I’m fine.
I am praised for flexibility Like it isn’t damage.
I did not choose this body. I maintain it out of spite.
Do not call this strength. Call it endurance
Under disbelief.
Bothered Lives
ByAbreanna Thompson
Am I next?
Before it all, I walked my street, one full of life and joy, where my neighbors once waved to me,
their lives once unbothered.
The strangers came at night without warning or sound, No noise other than stomping boots in dewy grass, My neighbors wailed, “Why me?”
Their lives now bothered.
I walk my street; it is empty and dull.
Where the vacant houses echo with hollow noise, no neighbors to wave to.
Surely, I am fine, I reassure myself,
I knew what I was voting for, it is not my fault.
Yet I still ask myself,
Deep in my head, where my sense hides,
I hear the question creeping around:
Am I next?
wrath of the lamb
By Dylan Foster
I have heard the people of the valley cry out
In the hopes that they will be buried, hidden from the light
That they may not be known by what they think lives in the stars
I have never met the Lamb
I have only met the jeering of His sons and daughters
Who live in the valley in fear of Him
Of what worth is a God who grows angry with His creation
Of what value is a life spent in fear of the sky
Let them be buried in their pious hovels
I will sit in the rain and speak with the Clouds
The Gold Bracelet
By Sam Mitchell
We- my older sister and I- walked down the street to a local coffee shop one morning in mid-July. Our shorts rode too high and our tank tops too small, not quite reaching the waistlines of our jeans. We reached the crosswalk when Talia pointed out a shining object lying stranded on the sidewalk. Shaking my arm, she hissed, “Amelia, look! It’s gold. Your favorite kind of jewelry. You should grab it!” I stared at the bracelet, transfixed by its splendor. Nothing in the world existed besides my unblinking eyes and that mesmerizing gold bracelet.
“Amelia! Hello? Earth toAmelia!” I blinked and looked around me, whipping my head to see my sister crossing her arms over her chest. “Just grab it already! You’ve been staring at it for five minutes. Grab it or I will.”Anger and possessiveness bubbled deeply within my stomach at the thought of someone else having the bracelet. It made me feel even angrier thinking about her having the bracelet. She hated gold and I knew the bracelet would be lost soon if under her possession. It deserved to be cared for and worn every day. I snatched it up and instructed Talia to fasten the clasp around my wrist. She obeyed and the anger burned as bright as the gold in the sun when her fingers touched my new jewelry. I snatched my wrist back the second she was finished.
It was my bracelet, and only mine. My eyes were glued, memorizing the intricate pattern of the dainty bracelet. My bracelet, my bracelet, my bracelet…
I had never been much of a possessive person before. Even now, I would not call myself possessive. However, the thought of Talia’s wrist bearing my bracelet disturbed me deeply. Talia was taller than I am, her hair had more length and volume than mine, she was more beautiful than I. Talia’s hazel eyes, which had hints of gold flecks near her irises, would have gleamed if complemented by the bracelet. I always knew I was in her shadow. I was not as smart as my older sister, not as kind-hearted or friendly, or as visually interesting. We were only eleven months apart, and I was always far behind her, never able to catch up. I knew that if I ever wanted to be anything outside of her shadow, I needed to wear this bracelet everywhere.
Talia pressed the button for the crosswalk signal to turn to the white man. “Amelia,” Talia grabbed my wrist with the bracelet. “Stop staring at the bracelet. We have to cross the road now.” No matter how much I tried, I could not pull my eyes away from the bracelet. My wrist grew warmer, as if my bracelet could sense someone else’s touch. The bracelet did not like her touch. I did not like her touch anymore. The gold bracelet did not like Talia. I realized at that moment that I did not like Talia.
“Aw, man…” she scolded me. “We missed our chance to cross safely because you kept looking at that stupid bracelet. Take it off and leave it if you can’t handle it.”
The bracelet burned my skin, and I pushed Talia.
Next in Line
By Muncie Canon
“I don’t understand why I have to do this. I didn’t chose to be Santa’s son!” I rant.
“You’re being ridiculous!” exclaims Farah. “You know how many kids would love to be a child of a seasonal figure? They would kill to have your job!”
“Well, they can have it,” I say, “cause I don’t want it.”
“That’s horrible! The whole point of being Santa Claus is to make children happy; who wouldn’t want that?And you don’t even have to touch gross teeth to do that, unlike me,” Farah shudders. “Or hop around town like Easton, son of the Easter bunny. There are children all over the world who are counting on you, don’t you wanna be their hero?”
“I’m not their hero because most of the children won’t even believe in me or care about me,” I retort.
“Unbelievable,” Farrah mutters under her breath as she exits the room.
Whatever. I gotta go grab the updated naughty and nice list for my dad anyways. I tear out of the room, keeping my head down and ignoring all the cheer filling the workshop as tonight is Christmas Eve. I soon realize I should have been paying attention to where I was going as I run right into Ellie. I apologize as Ellie chuckles.
“It’s okay, Kris,” she says with a cute, dimpled smile, “I’m sure you’re a bit stressed; I heard tonight’s the first time your dad’s taking you out on the sleigh for Christmas Eve; how exciting! You know, when we were younger, I used to be really jealous of you,” Ellie says. “Like, wow he’s the son of Santa, how cool. I’m just the daughter of some elves. Elves are of course important too, but I’m sure nothing compares to actually going out to deliver presents to the children and knowing that they are going to wake up to have the best day because of you.”
“It’s not all cracked up as it seems to be,” I inform her.
She frowns at this as I continue on my way. I grab the naughty and nice list and head straight to my dad’s office. I enter to see him cheerful as ever.
“Ah thanks, Kris,” he says, taking the list with a smile. “You don’t know how excited I am to be taking you out for your first Christmas Eve on the sleigh!”
“Yeah, uh, that’s great Dad but I better get back downstairs,” I tell him as I start for the door.
“Wait Kris don’t go just yet!” He smiles ear to ear. “We’re having a ceremony for you to celebrate this very special occasion!”
“That’s great, Dad, but I mean it’s Christmas Eve so we probably don’t have time to-”
“Nonsense, of course we have time to celebrate your special day. Be in Snowflake Hall in ten minutes!”
Snowflake Hall is packed when I arrive. The room is chattering with excitement, but as my dad approaches the podium at the front of the room, it quickly dies down.
“Ladies and gentlemen, I am overjoyed to officially present my very own son as the new Santa in training!” He beams as the room fills with applause. “Why don’t you come up here and say a few words?” He motions me over.
I take the podium, feeling hundreds of eyes on me.
“Now Kris, tell us how you’re feeling,” dad prompts me.
“Uh…I…”
“I know super excited right? I was too when my time came!”
“Yeah...uh…I…”
“Don’t get too excited yet, Son, I still have quite a few years left in me; you’ll eventually get your own time in the spotlight”
“I DON’T WANT TO BE SANTACLAUSE!” The words scream out of my mouth.
The audience lets out a loud gasp, followed by dead silence.
“Sorry,” I say. I’m embarrassed, and I feel bad, but I just couldn’t take it anymore.
I head out to the reindeer barn to clear my head.A little while later, I see a shadow in the doorway. It’s Ellie.
She stands there for a second, then speaks: “I think everyone calmed down now, so you should be safe to head back inside.”
“Thanks, but I think I’ll stay out here,” I say.
“I just don’t understand why you don’t want to be Santa Claus,” she says.
“Because every year I see how hard my dad works and for what? Half the kids he delivers to don’t even believe in him. He’s not a hero, not to them anyways. He’s underappreciated, and I don’t want that to be me,” I let it all out.
“Have you ever been to the naughty and nice camera rooms?” she asks.
When I shake my head no, she motions for me to follow her.
We enter the room and are surrounded by walls containing rows and rows of screens depicting children from all around the world.
“Here, look at this,” she points to a screen of a little boy, probably about age five.
“See what I mean?” I ask. “They didn’t even bother to leave out milk and cookies, or even decorate for Christmas.”
“It’s not that they didn’t bother,” she points out, “it’s that they can’t. This little boy’s family can’t afford the cookies and the decorations. But tomorrow is going to be the best day ever for him, because he knows Santa is going to come and make it better.”
“I never thought about it that way,” I say. “Man, I messed up, big time.”
“It’s okay,” Ellie assures me, “There’s still time to fix it. The sleigh hasn’t left yet.”
“Thanks,” I tell her as I turn to go, then turn back, “Wait, come with me.”
“Really?” She asks, surprised.
“It’s the least I can do. Now come on, we don’t have any time to waste!”
We sprint to the sleigh garage as fast as we can. My dad is nowhere in sight when we get there. We ask an elf if anybody saw him. He points towards my dad’s office.
I slowly open his office door it to see him staring glumly out the window.
“Dad, what are you doing? It’s almost time to go!” I exclaim.
“I’ll leave you two alone,” Ellie says, quietly exiting the room.
“Dad, I’m sorry. I was wrong. I want to be Santa Clause,” I say.
“It’s okay Kris, you were right. No one even cares about Santa anymore,” he sighs.
“Yes, they do,” I insist. “It might not seem like it, but the children adore you. For some of them, you are everything they have. They might not be able to afford decorations, or to have Christmas parties, but they have Santa Clause. You are their hero, dad, and I can’t wait to have your job, so that one day I can be a hero too.”
Tears fill my dad’s eyes as he speaks, “Kris, you bravely shared your feelings in front of everybody even when you know they were controversial. Then you came up here to cheer me up so I can go bring joy to the children of the world. You, son, are my hero.”
He rises and wraps me in a giant bear hug.
We suit up and head to the sleigh. The elves cheer at the arrival of Santa.
“You ready for your first sleigh ride?” I ask Ellie with a grin.
The three of us get settled in the sleigh as a crowd lines up to see us off. I look around to see all the joy filled faces, and for that alone, being Santa Claus is worth it.
"godslayer"
By Dylan Foster
"I only witnessed Heaven after I had purged it of its angels."
The decrepit figure languished in its throne. It was clearly humanoid, although any trace of humanity had long since left its hollow body. Despite the semblance of strength in its great, hefty armor and the mighty stature of the man, his skin betrayed a frailty it looked akin to papyrus, paper-thin, as though it might crumble to dust at the slightest touch.
The hero steadied himself. He had always been told to be wary of the lies he would hear at this moment. This monster had destroyed the world, rendered all of time to a stand-still. It could not be fixed, but it could be avenged.
The giant figure spoke under the watchful glare of the hero.
"It was devoid of light. I was never sure whether this was due to the lack of its population or a sign of the state of its master. I'm still not."Amoment of contemplation and a shifting of weight, great and vile plate armor whining under its own mass in protest of the movement. "Nevertheless, I pushed onward through the dark and dreary kingdom of God the Master. Buildings crumbled away into the void as I passed them.And as I reached the final citadel where I knew he would be resting in his throne, I took a moment to behold what was behind me." He paused, staring into the middle distance, as though he could see it still. "Nothing. Nothing was left."
"So I continued up the stairs, each step a more laborious task than the last, until the final step robbed me of all stamina. It was all I could do to continue walking into the titanic antechamber that lay beyond. 'It will be over soon', I recall thinking. Over and over. 'It will be over soon, it will be over soon, it will be over soon.'"
The hero felt a wave of exhaustion wash over him. For a moment he wondered if this was a trickbut, no. In these moments of calm before the final strike, he realized he, too, was so, so tired. When was the last time he had rested?
Without knowing what would come next, would he ever rest?
It will be over soon, he thought grimly.
"I stood before the throne of God. It was the only source of light left- not God himself, but the throne, perhaps infused with some divine light of its own.
I was petty then, prideful in my wrath. I held a blade that snuffed out the angels- so too did I snuff out the final light in Heaven, if only to see God wince."Again, a pause. "But he never did. Not once."
The figure stood. The hero did not recognize the sheer bulk of him before. He must have easily stood two stories in height. He turned away, staring off this final platform of his citadel and into the darkness beyond. He didn't seem to pay the hero any mind at all as he spoke. "He looked... *ready*, even. Prepared for the end. I did not expect him to speak, and he did not- by then I knew that the voice of God had run out long before I arrived. Even a word may have rendered me deaf, but he offered none. He beheld me with his meager stance and bowed his head. He had divested me of what was rightfully mine, a glorious final blow to end a war that had been waged for my entire life." The gargantuan figure hung his head and dropped his voice to a whisper. "He surrendered."
Turning to the hero once more, he now locked eyes with the comparatively tiny man. "It took me a great deal of time to understand what had happened in Heaven, boy. To understand my role in all of this. What I had thought to be a war of vindication, of retribution and of power, was just... nature, running its course."
"Do you know what I think, manling? I think the Creator was ready for the end. I think in the endless years of his existence he had grown so weak, and spent so long lengthening his life and lording over it all that he finally realized it was all for nothing. I think he weighed his love for his world against his draining passion and recognized that death was an escape."
"You have heard the stories, boy, of the Creator's first steps- painstakingly molding planets and stars in the void for millions of cycles, bringing forth the world in which his spawn would live. Your religions all recognize this to be true, though they disagree on the reason- love, loneliness, power, it matters not. It was then he created his children, you and I, and all other living things. Some- most- were not born, but they existed in the Creator's mind, ready to manifest when their time came.And though he continued to create, much of what is was then made. For eons we have simply played out the beginning, start to finish. Do you understand?" He took a long look at the hero, whose wrath was waning as he weighed the giant's words.
"Reality stagnates with the death of God- not only because there is not a being to create more, but because we had, in fact, reached the end.All the world was a play, ending with the death of God at my hand. I was created by Him, how could I not be destined to do what I have done?And now, without the guiding hand of the Creator, time spins onward, but nothing new can come to be. Even death is a difficult thing to achieve."Another pause. "This all should have ended a very long time ago."
The giant returned to his seat, apparently exasperated by the time spent standing. "How old are you, boy?"
The hero did not expect the question and answered truthfully. "I was born 236 cycles ago."
The giant smirked. "Does your kind still measure time by the passage of a sun that no longer spins? I suppose there is no alternative." He sighed. "I am old, boy. I wonder if time is not a difficult thing to grasp now. I wonder if you even know how old you are, really- when nothing changes, by what do you determine time? But I know how old I am. I can recount the exact amount of time that has passed since I struck down that horrible old man, waiting for death in his kingdom of slaughtered children. I have lived for millions of years, child. Were God alive, I would have been granted death long, long, long ago. I considered that a gift, once, but now..." He beheld once more the expansive darkness surrounding the citadel.
"It will be over soon, at least."
"Life does not end when change does not exist, man-thing. That you know, and have prepared for. That artifact you wield, you know that when it is used, I will cease to be. You have come prepared for a fight in the hopes of rendering me unable to resist, of rending my body and breaking my bones so that you might finally do away with the Godslayer.Allow me to assure you that no such effort will be needed."
With that, the giant figure left his throne and knelt before the hero. Even at a reduced height, the colossus' head was above the hero's own. He stared at the ground, waiting for the hero's execution. The hero, unsure of what else to do, raised his artifact high, prepared to make a final strike. Just before bringing it down, he considered the colossus' words and spoke. "Why do you do this, beast? Why destroy the Godhead if only to lay down your life in pitiful surrender?"
The giant tilted its head to meet the eye of the hero. There was a moment of thought before he spoke his last words. "Do not take for granted that which you cannot return, child."
The hero tried not to give the words much thought- they were lies, after all, and this demon had destroyed the lives of his people. He swung the artifact and the giant was gone, with no evidence of his ever being there.
The citadel crumbled around him as he departed. This fixed nothing- he was the last child that would ever be born, and indeed the last thing that would ever change. The divine backlog had run dry. What is shall be forever.
The End of a Traveler
By Katherine Cooper
Atraveler was warned of a place. There were rumors that a mysterious city existed, separate from the rest of society. It was the only one of its kind. The modern world had made work effortless. While the world embraced these new technologies, one sorrowful city refused to live in the same way. People claimed that the ruler of this horrid place was cruel and demanded constant labor from his slave-like citizens. There were whispers that if a poor soul were to travel too close, they too would be taken into the city and would remain there for the rest of their days. This place was the city of “Y”; a fitting name for this city, for why would any soul want to go to such a place? Luckily, the town the traveler now entered was no such place.
The traveler stepped into the grand city gates and observed the bustling square. This town was bursting with life. Vendors of all sorts crowded either side of the town’s shopping district. The street was crowded with citizens. The area seemed to explode with constant movement and chatter. Young children clung to their mothers as horses pulled carts filled with various goods.A single musician sang proudly while strumming on an instrument the traveler could not name. Bright banners and displays tempted buyers to come closer. He found himself drawn to one of the shops. It was filled with pottery and trinkets of all patterns and colors. He was amazed by how unique each piece was. No matter how many different artifacts he looked at, there was always something special about each one that made it one of a kind. The traveler spotted the seller sitting on a chair in the corner of the shop. The older woman sensed his gaze and greeted him with a smile. She introduced herself as a learned sculptor and explained that her inspiration came from the city. She continued to say that the town is always changing and progressing, and that she attempts to channel the life and culture of the people in her pieces. The traveler noticed a small dish on an opposite shelf. It depicted a cliff reaching out over the sea. He was about to take a closer look when another buyer picked it up.As the traveler was about to ask to take a look, he was overtaken by an alluring aroma.
As he turned towards the square, he noticed a spirited vendor making what appeared to be a fire-roasted fruit stick of some kind. He walked across the street to observe. The vender noticed his intrigue and offered a small sample. He explained that it was a delicacy of his own creation. Upon closer inspection, the traveler discovered that the fire-roasted fruit was covered in a mixture of sticky-sweet spices. The taste was unlike anything he had sampled from any other land he had previously visited. The traveler was desperate for more, and as the vender happily began preparing another, he spoke with him. The vendor explained that he had once lived in a modern city and worked in an almost fully automated restaurant. The vendor continued his tale as the fruit sizzled over the flames.Asweet-scented smoke filled the air. He explained that he grew tired of the repetitive days of his old city and explored the world. He eventually happened across this town. He talked enthusiastically about the creative fire the town ignited inside of him and credited his dish to the city.As the traveler accepted the now-ready food, he thought of the lady at the previous stand who mentioned the inspiration the city had provided her with. He thanked the vendor and continued into the city towards a less crowded area.
As the traveler finished his food, he wandered out of the dense area surrounding the city entrance. The stone path began to turn to dirt and gravel. The buildings thinned and the rural side of the city emerged. As he walked, he wondered which city he had stumbled upon. If the delicacy he just enjoyed was due to the great city he was in, he must find the name so he could direct others to this wonderful place. The traveler passed fields covered with crops and dotted with cattle. Children played in the fields. They seemed to be recreating a battle scene with sticks and old hats.Ayoung couple walked past, and they seemed to be debating the best material to build a fence for their yard. Whenever he spotted a citizen, they always seemed cheerful. The traveler also noticed that they were also always occupied with a task, be it farm or housework, or something more creative such as painting or gardening. He continued towards the side of the town opposite the city gates. The path began to turn to stone once more and more houses came into view. The quiet of the countryside was slowly overtaken by the sounds of the city. The houses gave way to more shops, busier streets and grand buildings appeared once again. The traveler began to smell seawater and heard gulls screech above him. He concluded that this side of the city must be bordered by the ocean.
The traveler turned and chose to walk on a path that ran parallel to the cliffside. He admired the grand view of the never-ending ocean reaching out towards the horizon. He came to pass a strange land bridge protruding from the cliffside. Its path led out from the city and across the ocean. There seemed to be no end nor island on the other side.As the traveler’s path came closer to the bridge, he observed an older man standing at the entrance. The man seemed to be lost in thought. Slowly, he began to walk out onto the bridge. The waves crashed into the steep, rocky sides and clawed up towards the path. The old man seemed unbothered by this and persisted along the bridge. The traveler watched as he continued, never looking back towards the city.As the minutes passed, the man’s silhouette became smaller and smaller as he continued to walk away. Eventually, when the man was no longer in sight, the traveler continued on his way. He wondered what could be on the other side, but he was preoccupied with more pressing matters. He must see what else the city had to offer before he could leave.
As he continued his self-guided tour, he found no building with any insignia to determine the name of the grand city: and grand it was. The traveler had not noticed upon his arrival, each building was well kept, and the busy streets were clean and smooth. He passed by several workers cleaning and painting large buildings as well as ordinary homes. Even the most basic of structures were beautiful in their own way. There were fountains, statues, and patches of greenery. He passed by several schools and libraries. It seemed that the people of this town were obsessed with knowledge. The traveler decided that if he wanted to find information concerning this unusual town, one of the libraries would hold the answers. He craved the answer to what this town was and what was on the other side of the land bridge he had passed.
The traveler came across a library that seemed older than the rest. It had tall columns, and a delicate pattern etched around the doorway.As he entered the library, the smell of old books filled his nostrils. He thought to himself that this was what knowledge must smell like. The traveler noticed that unlike libraries of other towns, this one was busy, almost crowded even. He asked a stranger at a table where the history section was located and followed their gesture further into the library. He came across a set of double doors leading into a cozy room. There were shelves on the two opposite walls, and a table and chairs under a window opposite the door.
The books on these shelves surely held the answers he was seeking, as they were obviously old and well-used. The traveler-turned-detective scanned the shelves.As his fingers danced over leather bound spines and titles in many languages, he found no book containing any mention of the land bridge. He turned to the shelves on the opposite side of the room. He continued to search through the titles. There were histories of many lands that he had travelled to. Eventually, he came across a book titled “The History of the city of Y.” He stopped. Could he be in the very city of which he was warned?
He nervously opened the large book and scanned the pages. Indeed, it told of the beginnings of the city and the ruler who reigned. However, this story told of a ruler more ambitious and curious than cruel. This history claimed that the first ruler wanted the answer to life’s questions. The book revealed that the long-dead founder of the city demanded not merely work, but progress. The traveler thought to himself: how is progress any different than work? He read further and discovered that the rulers who followed continued to build on the founder’s goal. They created schools, libraries, gardens, and temples of all religions, all in the search of knowledge. All to answer life’s question of “Why?”.
The history continued. People were given jobs based on talent, not necessity or pay. The people upset with this left for easier lives, and those who stayed helped the city grow astronomically. Citizens were told that to remain in the city, they must learn when they are not working. This was an attempt to come across the answer to life. For this was why the founder created the city. Therefore, the citizens learned about arithmetic, nature, philosophy, the arts, astrology, music, the sciences, architecture, and medicine. There seemed to be an endless number of topics the citizens could learn about. Those that were most educated in architecture became the builders. Those skilled in philosophy and arithmetic sought to be teachers. Those that were talented in medicine became the doctors. The city grew because the citizens were encouraged to learn throughout their lives. The city could constantly progress because the people progressed. That was the greatness of the city: knowledge. The subsequent rulers of the city understood this, and they constantly demanded better of their people because they knew the people could do better. The rulers of the city did not accept what was easy, they expected the best.
The traveler wondered how the citizens could live in this way. He left the library and continued down the path along the steep coast. He came across a group of young adults discussing politics and asked them why they would live in a city with such lofty demands. They looked surprised by this. One of them answered with a question. Why not live in a city that encourages them to be the best that they can be? The traveler thought about this and continued on his way. That man had given him a new view of the city of “Y.” It was not a city of overworked slaves as the rumors had described. It was a city of limitless creation.As he continued his walk he thought back to the woman at the shop and the vendor. He now understood why they valued their city so much. It was the city that allowed them to become masters of their trade. He continued to ponder the wonders of the city. No wonder that when visitors came across the city they never left! With all the knowledge and opportunities in the world, how could anyone go back to simplicity? The traveler continued his tour of the city with newly opened eyes. He viewed the fountains and statues as tests of skill. He thought of the city now as a never-ending list of possibilities for its people.Areoccurring thought then entered his mind. He remembered the question that began his journey. What was his place in society? Maybe the seemingly infinite knowledge of this city could provide the answers.
He decided to stay in the city of “Y.” The time went by quickly as he surrounded himself with knowledge. He was particularly interested in philosophy.As the years went by, the wandering traveler disappeared, and a curious scholar emerged. He dedicated his life to discovering the answers to life’s largest questions. He debated with others, listened to teachers and frequently returned to the many libraries. His search for knowledge was never-ending. He began to share his knowledge with his fellow citizens. It was in doing this that he realized his potential in the city. He became obsessed with teaching and philosophy. He sought out opportunities to help others answer their questions. He took pride in educating others, and his life in the city became a full one.As the years passed, he continued to teach others and spread the knowledge he had gained. He wrote books on the topics he studied and shared them with the library. He visited often to expand their selection.
It seemed that his life was complete, and that he had found the answers he was looking for. Still, he craved more. What lay past the land of the living? What could he accomplish if his mortal life did not hold him back? In his old age, he took a walk along a cliffside path. This was where he pondered his deepest thoughts.As he walked, he came across the land bridge. He stood at the entrance and looked out across the ocean. He could not see the other side. He had never considered crossing before. But he had also not yet encountered this feeling before. He had pursued knowledge all his life, and he shared it with those around him. Perhaps there was something missing that was on the other side.As he walked across the bridge, the waves crashed into the steep, rocky sides and clawed up towards the path. He was unbothered as he persisted along the bridge.As he walked, never looking back towards the city, an onlooker watched from the cliffside.
Noxious
By Dylan Foster
The angry red sun we called Noxious drifted towards the horizon, ever in its haunting pursuit of the pale green moon, Vesper. I crept up to that terrible cliff, a lonesome, jagged thorn on the ochre plains below, and found him there, legs dangling off the edge.
I had known he climbed here most mornings. Though he did not report it, it was no secret, either. Us youth had wondered what he saw with his too-wide eyes, concealed within his breathing apparatus. The rust-colored ruins below were choked with unrelenting sand, their industrial nature obscured by erosion and war.
Henry, his name was. It was a strange name, and he was a strange child. His parents had, too, been strange- wasters that carried objects of the old world. They said the name had come from that old world, as did many others- but we had never heard of a Henry before. It was a strange name.
I spoke when I reached the peak, only a few paces behind him.
"The Workman's Chime has sounded, Henry. You ought know better, chum. Ought come down now, receive infusions with the rest'f us 'nd-"
Henry cut me off. "There's a fire down there, eating up out of the ground. Look."
I peered anxiously past him, over his thick polyester armguards and- indeed, a large, greenish flame tore through the sands. Some gaping maw had opened on the ruined plain, devouring half of one of the old factory floors, the remains of that colossal wreck jutting upwards like fangs. I could only stare for a while.
"It's not like the others, this one." Henry spoke matter-of-factly. He was calm- I now stared at him in wonder. Of course, he knew the risks, of such a thing being so close. It couldn't have been more than a mile away.
"We... we've got t' tell someone, the Hearthmaster or the-"
Again, Henry cut me off. "It wouldn't matter. The fire won't ever go out.And there's nowhere left to hide." He gestured vaguely to the huge expanse of ruin and nothingness around the mountain. "I think it's nice that Noxious kept it out of sight. The mountain hides it from the homestead."
He looked back at me, his pale eyes faintly visible through the large, tinted lenses of his helmet. His voice was curious, unconcerned.
"They won't know until the toxins hit. I don't think we should tell them."
The suggestion felt like acid in my gut as I closed the distance between us. My gloved hands punched forward and grabbed Henry by his protective wear. "Why th'hell not? Who gave you th' right t' decide that?" I snarled, the heat of my breath fogging my own lenses. The heaving in my chest was consuming more oxygen and biomass than it should- valuable resources that should not be wasted. But I couldn't stop myself.
In a flash, I raised a heavy hand shaped into a fist and smashed Henry's face. His lenses broke instantly, the brittle glass being decades out of shape. The feeble metal of the helmet crumbled beneath my savage strike. Immediately blood oozed from Henry's mouth, congealing and blackening upon interaction with the air's poison. Henry nodded weakly on the ground where he had fallen.
"It won't do any good. We made it a long time, but..."
He pointed up at Noxious, its final wrathful embers falling below the horizon.
"...the sun is setting, see? Let them... have a few hours. Go tell jokes. Stories and things."
He dipped a hand into the tear in his helmet and felt the blood pooling at his mouth. I knew he would die soon- through that small hole I could see his skin tightening, his veins undergoing necrosis.
I had killed him.And so, I felt the sting of tears when he smiled.
"I'll watch it awhile. Go and... do as you will. Until the time comes, okay?"
Meekly, he sat up and returned to his spot on the cliff's edge, watching the greenish flames tear up from the sinkhole in the distance.
I stood exhausted, unable to move.
He was right, of course. There was nothing that could be done. I staggered away. Mindlessly, I adjusted the nozzle of my biomass allocator and set it to expend all resources- the small creatures in the tank on my back shrieked as the device began harvesting them en masse. I figured there would be no point, and that I may as well feel truly alive in these final hours.
I never did return home. I walked off into that painful, dusty desert, and thought of Henry, who saw the end with a smile. I'd never seen him smile before.
Along distance away I found the ramshackle corpse of some great vehicle- nothing like our Striders now, this was a behemoth of steel, its body eaten away at by the razor-sharp winds. I lay with my back to it, far now from the Homestead, and thought of Henry. An ancient whirring in my ear told me my filtration system had finally succumbed. Here, in the starving desert, I found no peace.
The Place of Destruction
By Dylan Foster
The cavern smelt of sweet, rotten meat and salt; his mouth dried at the detection of the overwhelming aura which seemed to cling to every stone. Even in the darkness, he could see thin, towering, white stalks of stone growing from the limestone floor, ascending into some unknown abyss above. He shivered, though there was no chill.
"Abaddon."
The word escaped his lips without his notice. It was an observation that demanded another spasm of the body. From above, a great, lingering voice rang out.
"Yes.Abaddon."
His head yanked about to find the source of the voice. There, high in the chalk-roots, a terrible thing watched him. Its true size seemed impossible to estimate among the widening and thinning stone pillars, but he was certain it was a colossal thing. The cavern seemed to warm when it exhaled- a slow, torturous process that caused a flux of warm air to wash over him. He felt he might tumble downwards, but he stood his ground. He managed a nod- a terrified, shaky nod, an action that brought a creaking sound in his neck that was unusual to him.
"Abaddon. You're him. I know of you."
The creature above was more visible now as it eyed him with tired interest. It was as he had heard when he was young: a great buzzard with crooked bones, eyes that hung from its head and looked all around, great fangs that jutted against all logic from its beak, a great beard-like extension of fur hanging from its wrinkled, elongated neck, and the eyes-
"My gods. They were right."
The eyes were just as he had been told they would be. No bird had eyes as these. They were practically human- cunning, hungry, anxious despite the otherwise relaxed appearance of the thing. Few men possessed the evil to rival these eyes.
"Yes. You know of me. Then you know where you are."
He swallowed. "Hell."
The creature exhaled. "Abaddon. The bowels of Hell. My home. My place of destruction."
He shuddered as the warm breath gusted him once more. The creature continued. "You are to be wiped clean. So great are your sins that mere punishment is insufficient. I would have you know that I have wiped clean so many of your kind so far. I know not their number. Their names are carved here, upon the dead rock." The creature's eyes, hanging and cruel, leered at him through the darkness. "I would have you reveal your name, so that I might save you. So that Hell might remember who it has destroyed."
His mind was not caught up in the conversation. He murmured when he spoke, as if unfocused. "Are you a demon?"
Araucous fit of laughter erupted from the upper echelons of the cavernous space. "Then you do not know me! I was misled." The laughter was cacophonous, ear-splitting as it rattled his skin.After some time- some unknown time- the beast subsided, satisfied with the horrible shrieking bouncing from wall to wall. "I am an angel in hell. Such is my task. Only by my claw can theAbove be assured of the destruction of the most vile souls."
He shuddered, by inches becoming aware of the strangeness of his own form- skin like chalky bark, hands that ended in horrible, clawed things, resembling fingers only in the way that sharp twigs might. He feared what features he might not know of yet and cared not to investigate further.
"Then I am to be destroyed?"
The creature grinned- managed a grin, with its great, menacing razor that served as its mouth. "You have sinned greatly. But first I would have your name."
"In what way have I sinned? I... I did not believe in you, but I was a pious man!Aservant of the law! Even-"
The creature hissed. "There can be no error. You are to be destroyed. Reveal to me your name."
He stood upright- the bark-like skin resistant and unpliant- and spoke clearly. "Longinus. Longinus is my name."
The laughter resumed, this time successfully knocking the soul over. Heated breath swept over him and stung at his skin. That sickly sweet smell overwhelmed him entirely, seeming to permeate directly through his not-skin.
"The spearman! The spearman is at last come! I have longed for your presence greatly, Longinus. I have hungered for you above most else. Yours will make a fine notch for my pillars." Even as he cackled and howled madly, a clawed appendage etched with incredible accuracy into the stone- Longinus took it as his name entrusted to the stone.
"Then there is no forgiveness?"
The clawed appendage stopped in time with the laughter. Somehow this muttered query was heard in spite of the symphony of awful things. Those cruel eyes assessed him yet again.
"There can be no forgiveness. Not for you, Longinus. Not for the Centurion."
He stood there in silence for a time before finding his words again. "I met him once again, you know. I begged forgiveness, for I knew... I knew just when it was too late what I had done. I begged forgiveness. Was that not the promise? Was forgiveness not the just wage of endless nights spent in prayer?"
The hulking buzzard tapped the stone with its immense talon. The impacts threatened to crack the perch it held, but even the stone seemed fearful in the face ofAbaddon. "No. Not for you, spearman. Not for Longinus, the Murderer of God.”
The soul spoke on, nervous. “I did not know who he was, then. I know now. I was told all would be forgiven if I believed, if I asked- they damned me, they bid me out of my place and insisted that I-“
His babbling was cut short by another gust of breath- more forceful than the last. The grotesque buzzard spoke in a low rumbling tone. “You know the answer, Centurion. No forgiveness.”
Summoning to himself some unknown pool of courage and stoicism, he fixed his posture and stiffened against impending doom. "Then it must be so." The Centurion stood and stood tall. As his name was committed to the dead stone of the cavern, he awaited whatever came next. That terrible beast,Abaddon- the cavern and the beast in hand- swung low and snatched his feeble body in a single hulking claw. He had never felt feeble before- but now he was small, diminutive in the grip of final perdition.
This was not his body. He had come to understand now- it was him, something central, essential.And now it cracked beneath the straining grasp of God's executioner. Its skin shattered and chunks of stone splintered and shot off like shrapnel as he was compressed and destroyed.
Longinus' final vision, before Oblivion claimed him, was his own face reflected in those giant, evil eyes- an empty crevasse where his face ought to be, like a tree hollow. Horrified, Longinus was destroyed at last as the integrity of his ethereal form gave way, and his soul was fractured under the incredible weight ofAbaddon, who greedily watched the splinters fade away into the darkness of the cave.
Anonymous Pieces...................................................................pp. 17, 26, 27, 28, 34, 35, 46, 48, 51
Achenbach ’77, Don ....................................................................................................................p. 6
Anderson, Ireland p. 27
Barger, Kierstin..........................................................................................................................p. 37
Beck,Alexa......................................pp. Introduction & Dedication, Back Cover, 9, 16, 38, 46, 48
Blose, Nola.................................................................................................................................p. 11
Cannon,Allison..................................................................................................pp. 7, 17, 26, 46, 47
Canon, Muncie.............................................................................................................pp. 33, 54-56
Cooper, Katherine..............................................................................................................pp. 60-63
Daugherty, Tegan.......................................................................................................................p. 11
Foster, Dylan................................................pp. 21, 31, 34, 37, 39, 41, 43, 52, 57-59, 64-65, 66-68
Gadsby, Josie..............................................................................................................................p. 10
Gill, Emmett p. 16, 41
Hall, Dr. Mary Theresa ..................................................................................................pp. 7, 10, 16
Kavulla,Anna ....................................................................................................pp. Front Cover, 12
Laird, Neira pp. 20, 42, 43
Ludy, Justice ..............................................................................................................................p. 50
Merriam ’04, Jason C.......................................................................pp. 5, 17, 19, 32, 33, 36, 42, 49
McDowell, Kaleb p. 13
McLaughlin, Kendall.................................................................................................................p. 12
Mitchell, Sam pp. 19, 23, 44, 53
Moody, Mariah.................................................................................................pp. 16, 22, 25, 39, 40
Moreno, Kalina p. 9
Mosko, Gracie....................................................................................................................pp. 24, 37
Narby, Ethan ..............................................................................................................................p. 12
Oros ’15, Sean p. 20, 45
Osterberg ’08,Ashlee.....................................................................................................pp. 6, 50, 51
Patterson ’25, Sylvia p. 7
Thompson,Abreanna...................................................................................pp. 6, 24, 42, 44, 50, 52
Triskett, Maddy................................................................................................pp. 16, 19, 26, 29, 31
Tucker, Hayden..........................................................................................................................p. 13
Schroyer, Colin ..........................................................................................................................p. 15
Sobotka, Jordyn pp. 21, 24, 51
Stanley, Maveree........................................................................................................................p. 16
Stitt, Summer p. 18
Rudolf,Alana.............................................................................................................................p. 30
Whaley, Brianna...........................................................................................................................p. 8
Zahner, Isabella..........................................................................................................................p. 14
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