âA tremendous act of loveâ
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âA tremendous act of loveâ
Michael Palin has written and starred in numerous TV programmes and films, from Monty Python and Ripping Yarns to A Fish Called Wanda and The Death of Stalin. He has also made several much-acclaimed travel documentaries, his journeys taking him to the North and South Poles, the Sahara Desert, the Himalayas, Eastern Europe, Brazil, North Korea and Iraq. His books include accounts of his journeys, novels (Hemingwayâs Chair and The Truth), several volumes of diaries and Erebus: The Story of a Ship. From 2009 to 2012 he was president of the Royal Geographical Society. He received a BAFTA fellowship in 2013 and a knighthood in the 2019 New Year Honours list. He lives in London.
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The statue of Sir Philip Sidney atop the Shrewsbury School war memorial.
At the gates of Shrewsbury School, where three generations of Palins were educated, there is a war memorial on which stands an elegant likeness of Sir Philip Sidney, poet, courtier, scholar and personification of all the finest qualities of the first Elizabethan age.
He died at the Battle of Zutphen in 1586, at the age of thirty-one.
Listed below are the names of 329 other former pupils of the school who gave their lives for their country. Among them is H. W. B. Palin. He died in the Battle of the Somme in 1916, at the age of thirty-two.
Much has been written about the distinguished life of Sir Philip Sidney. Nothing has been written about the life of H. W. B. Palin. But he was my great-uncle, and I felt his story should be told.
Not â I have to confess â that Iâve always thought that. Throughout my childhood and early adult years I was more preoccupied with the present and the future
than the past, more interested in making sense of the course of my own life than that of anyone else. So far as I was concerned, the past was something to be dealt with by people who had time on their hands. It was a luxury.
So when in November 1971 we received a batch of family documents, including a black leather-backed notebook which contained a travel diary kept by my greatgrandfather, a detailed Palin family tree stretching back two centuries, and five barely legible diaries kept by a great-uncle, Iâm afraid they seemed nowhere near as relevant to my life as trying to earn a living writing and recording material for a new Monty Python series. Oddly enough, my father and mother seemed equally incurious. The whole bundle of documents ended up being set aside in some dusty cupboard.
Six years later I recorded in my diary the arrival at my parentsâ cottage in Reydon, near Southwold, of an Austin 1100, driven by a late-middle-aged lady called Joyce Ashmore, an unmarried cousin of my father. She seemed to be the nearest we had to a custodian of family history, and it was she who had sent the first tranche of documents. Now she had more. âA very capable lady with a brisk and confident well-bred manner,â I wrote. âShe has a rather heavy jaw, but seems exceedingly well and lively. She is down-to-earth and unsentimental about the family, but interested in and interesting about stories of the Palins.â It was from her that I first heard the extraordinary tales of the lives of my great-grandparents and how they had met.
Before Joyce left, she handed over, rather apologetically, a further stash of Paliniana, among which were some photographs. One of these caught my eye. It was of a young man in a military uniform wearing a wide-brimmed hat and throwing a guarded glance at the camera.
I asked Joyce who he was. She was dismissive. It was an unfortunate younger son, she said. Killed in the war. Not much known about him and, by implication, not much worth knowing.
Rather in the same way that being told not to laugh makes you laugh more, her dismissal of this mysterious young man piqued my curiosity. But before I had a chance to do any digging, along came Life of Brian and A Fish Called Wanda and eight televised journeys around the world, and my great-uncle slipped to the back of my mind.
Years later, in 2008, I came across his name again while I was working on a documentary about the last day of the First World War. It was on the wall of another war memorial, this time in one of the Somme battlefields. Just a name, not a grave. H. W. B. Palin. One of many thousands âKnown Only Unto Godâ.
I knew then that I had to know more.
The photograph that started it all: Great-Uncle Harry in the uniform of the 12th Nelson Regiment.
Henry William Bourne Palin, known throughout his life as Harry, came into the world on Friday 19 September 1884.
Consulting the On This Day website I find that no one of particular note was born on that day, and that nothing worth recording happened in the wider world.
Harry was delivered in a spacious upper room at the rectory in the village of Linton in Herefordshire. It looks out across rolling hills towards the Welsh border to the west and the Forest of Dean and the Wye valley to the south. At the time of his birth, his mother, Brita, was forty-two. His father, Edward, the vicar of Linton, was two days short of his sixtieth birthday.
Counting all the servants, upwards of a dozen people would have been in the house to hear Henryâs first cries, and in the mild, dry, early-autumn weather of that month the sounds would have wafted out through open windows to the men working on the home farm.
At that time husbands were kept well away from wives in labour, and as their seventh child was being thrust into the world, Edward would most likely have been down in his study mapping out Sundayâs sermon or hearing tales of hardship from distressed parishioners. But like everyone else inside or outside the house, he would have been
listening out for the sounds from the bedroom above. And not without some anxiety.
By the time Harry made his entrance Brita had had half a dozen children in ten years, the last one being born more than six years earlier. Bearing a child at the age of forty-two was not without risk in an era when so many mothers perished giving birth. For Brita, another pregnancy, so long after the previous one, might well have been something of an unwelcome shock. In any case, of course, she already had a substantial family.
But then, large families were common in those days. With contraception methods limited to abstinence, withdrawal or the rhythm method, itâs not so surprising that the average number of children born to middle-class couples married in the 1860s was far above the two that it is now. Charles and Emma Darwin, for example, had ten.
The impressive stone-walled vicarage at Linton which was the infantâs first home was built in the fashionable Gothic Revival style â part French chateau, part German schloss. It was no ordinary rural rectory, but then Brita and Edward Palin were no ordinary couple. The story of their life together was remarkable by any standards. It was one of achievement, sacrifice and an unrelenting sense of purpose. A Victorian success story of which Henry William Bourne was the latest manifestation.
St Johnâs College, Oxford, where Edward Palin was an undergraduate and a Fellow. A watercolour of the St Gilesâ front by George Pyne, c.1870.
It is the summer of 1859 and Edward Palin, perpetual curate of St John the Baptistâs, Summertown, and Fellow of St Johnâs College, Oxford, is oïŹ on his summer holidays. He is thirty-three years old, a highly successful member of the college, recipient of any number of awards and exhibitions, a lecturer, preacher and since this last summer a Bachelor of Divinity. He takes his teaching seriously and is well respected.
Edward was the older of two children born to Richard Palin, a storehouse clerk from St Lukeâs in Middlesex, and Sophia Freeman. Edwardâs grandfather, another Richard, had come to London at the end of the eighteenth century. Previously the Palins had been a Cheshire family, and, thanks to Edwardâs exemplary record-keeping, Iâve been able to trace them back to a George Palyn of Wrenbury. Born in the reign of Henry VIII, he was a member of the Girdlersâ Company who made enough money to endow exhibitions for âpoor scholarsâ at Brasenose
College in Oxford (something I didnât find out until after Iâd left that establishment in 1965) and almshouses in Finsbury and Peckham in London. The Peckham properties were intended specifically âfor the relief and sustentation of six poor menâ. Theyâve since been rebuilt, but still bear the name Palynâs Almshouses, though youâd have to have around a million pounds to live in one of them now. George also bequeathed ÂŁ500 for one of the bells at Bow, for which he was thanked with the accolade âCheshire made sweet Bow Bells chimeâ. His grandson, Thomas Paylin, was one of the three boys who, in 1651, helped hide the future King Charles II from Parliamentary forces after the Battle of Worcester.
For the next two hundred years the Palin family tree was a little less bushy, a little more obscure. Sadly, Iâve been unable to find out that much about Richard Palin â what, for example, his work as a storehouse clerk involved, or how much he earned â though I do know that he and Sophia had a house in Artillery Lane in Shoreditch and that they were listed as living there with four servants in the 1841 census. I have also discovered that he and Sophia were among the first to be buried in Highgate Cemetery, just around the corner from where I live. Their gravestone is next door to those of the family of Dante Gabriel Rossetti.
Whatever their precise circumstances may have been, itâs clear that Richard and Sophia were determined to give their only son the best start in life. In the mid-nineteenth century itâs estimated that no more than five to six thousand children a year were able to get an education that
fitted them for university, but the couple managed to secure Edward a place at Merchant Taylorsâ School, which specialised in subsidised education for bright pupils from the trading â as opposed to the landed or military â classes. From there he proceeded, via a scholarship, to St Johnâs College, Oxford. Founded within a few years of Merchant Taylorsâ in the mid-sixteenth century, and by the same man, St Johnâs operated something of a closed shop with the school: thirty-seven out of fifty of the scholarships oïŹered by the college were reserved for Merchant Taylorsâ pupils (a situation that would change in the light of the report of a Royal Commission in 1852). Edward began his academic studies at Oxford on 26 June 1843. Around the time his future wife was born.
Edward worked hard and did so well in his exams â which would have been both written and oral (the viva voces ) â that he secured an exhibition, ensuring that most of his undergraduate studies were paid for by the college. He then went on, in the Easter term of 1848, to secure a firstclass degree in Literae Humaniores â âLit Humâ, or âGreatsâ, as it was colloquially known; Classics as weâd call it now. He was clearly a talented and assiduous student. A heavy leather-bound, brass-clasped ledger book, in which from November 1849 onwards he began to record his thoughts, ideas and general jottings, oïŹers a treasure trove of clues as to his character and aspirations at this time. There are passages admiringly and laboriously copied out from Scott, Wordsworth, Shelley and Coleridge, which
reveal Edwardâs interest in and empathy with nature â for example, he has highlighted Coleridgeâs line, âO Nature! Healest thy wandering and distemperâd childâ. There are odd statistics that clearly caught his fancy: âA clergyman writes that a pair of sparrows have been known during the time they were feeding their young, to destroy every week 3360 caterpillars.â There are jokes he enjoyed: âAn undergraduate with a cigar in his mouth is accosted by the Proctor [the university police] and stammers out that âhe was only just finishing a cigarâ. âOblige me, sir,â said the Proctor, âby informing me who began itâ.â And there are oddities he appreciated, such as the inscription heâd seen on a barberâs shopfront: âHair scientifically cut, and mathematically arranged.â
For someone like Edward, who so clearly relished his studies and college life generally, the logical next step, once he had graduated, was to become a Fellow. This would entail making a binding commitment: in an age when higher learning and religion were still intertwined, any undergraduate who sought a Fellowship was required to take Holy Orders within ten years of their graduation. It comes as no surprise, therefore, that in his ledger book Edward should have transcribed ruminations on the nature of God (âA God understood would be no God at allâ), and that he should have included paragraphs with headings such as âPreaching and Prayingâ, âPantheismâ, âScepticismâ and âReïŹections on Anglican and Roman Catholic DiïŹerencesâ, and made notes on the use of wax lights in ritual, and meditations on faith, superstition and immortality.
But there was also another, more intrusive condition for a prospective Fellow. He had to commit to a vow of celibacy. Up until several decades later, only the President of the college was permitted to marry.
Which makes it intriguing, in view of the future course of his life, that I find Edward has taken the trouble to copy out a poem by the Scottish poet Thomas Campbell, entitled âThe Maidâs Remonstranceâ.
Never wedding, ever wooing, Still a love-lorn heart pursuing, Read you not the wrong youâre doing In my cheekâs pale hue?
All my life with sorrow strewing, Wed, or cease to woo.
Had Edward got himself into a similar situation?
Another poem that is constantly revisited in his notebook is âThe Princessâ, a lesser-known work by Alfred Tennyson. Its overall themes are the underestimated strength of women, and the poor provision for their education. But the two passages heâs picked out, about love and loss, suggest that celibacy is not going to be an easy path for Edward.
Dear as remembered kisses after death, And sweet as those by hopeless fancy feigned On lips that are for others; deep as love, Deep as ïŹrst love, and wild with all regret;
O Death in Life, the days that are no more.
And later:
She ended with such passion that the tear She sang of, shook and fell, an erring pearl Lost in her bosom.
This esoteric collection of his thoughts on politics, history, literature, as well as theology, put together between 1849 and 1853, paints a portrait of a young man with a broad mind and wide-ranging curiosity, but also suggests the temptations that he knew he had to overcome as he prepared to dedicate himself and the rest of his life to God and the college.
They show, in addition, that even as he prepared to commit himself wholly to the donnish life, he was still considering other avenues. Reproduced towards the end of the ledger are some twenty references he assembled to help him procure the headmastership of Durham School.
Dr Wynter, the President of St Johnâs, talks of âthe high opinion I entertain of Mr Palinâs merits as a gentleman and a scholarâ. The Revd Warburton, Assistant Inspector of Schools, has âhigh esteem for him as a teacher, which is shared by all those who have come under his inïŹ uence as his pupilsâ. Mr Neate, a Senior Fellow of Oriel, has âformed a very high opinion of his disposition, principle, and more especially of his great aptitude for gaining the respect and aïŹection of the youngâ. The Revd Bellamy, his old headmaster at Merchant Taylorsâ School, recommends his âscholarship, temper, industry and facility for communicating knowledgeâ, while the Revd Mansel
notes the âzealous discharge of his sound but not extreme theological opinionsâ.
Despite this avalanche of academic support he failed to get the job. And that decided him: he would take Holy Orders and remain with the college. The same year, 1853, he was ordained a deacon of the church by Samuel Wilberforce (son of the anti-slavery campaigner William), and two years later, after undertaking the Rites of Ordination, he was admitted to the priesthood.
Privately, though, he admitted in his ledger book that it had not been an easy decision and that he had doubts as to his suitability for the role he had now elected to take on. Contrasting himself with âthe spotless onesâ, he wrote, âI have to thank God who has counted me faithful, putting me into the Ministry who before was a blasphemer and a persecutor and injurious.â âFrom my youth up,â he went on, âthe mercy of God has never left me quite to myself, but in my most distant wanderings has been over me.â He touched cryptically on a three-week stay the previous year at the Ehrenbreitstein Hotel in Koblenz when âreïŹection was forced upon me in moments of an unavoidable seclusionâ. He noted, equally mysteriously, that âillness at Amsterdam threw me upon myself and impressions deepened and resolutions were takenâ.
Now, though, Edward had set his course as a churchman and a Fellow. He had committed himself to a future at Oxford. He acquired a reputation as a tough examiner, earning the nickname âPlough Palinâ â a reference to his merciless sinking of the hopes of those who didnât come
up to standard (palin being the Greek word for âagainâ). And he threw himself enthusiastically into the life of the college and of the university.
A search of Edwardâs battels, the accounts of college expenses, reveals that he lived on the premises right through until 1865. This was probably because he was a more active participant in college aïŹ airs than many of his colleagues, lecturing and overseeing exams and taking on for a while the administrative duties of Senior Bursar. To this end he would have had a âsetâ of rooms, consisting of a bedroom as well as a study for conducting tutorials and entertaining fellow dons. It would have been a congenial existence in what was in many ways more a glorified club than a strict and sheltered community. Among his colleagues would have been tennis players, bridge players, debaters, musicians, card players, actors and, doubtless, a few cads. In a revealing photograph of Edward at Oxford, in which he is shown standing with a group of Fellows in an Oxfordshire garden, he â smaller than most of them and with thick dark hair â looks trim, neat, somehow contained. His dress, and that of those around him, however, is quite informal, with no sign of the long gowns and mortar boards more usually associated with college life.
In 1859, with six celibate years at the heart of college life behind him, Edward set out on his annual walking holiday in Switzerland. He kept an account of his travels in a black leather-covered notebook. From the very first page
itâs clear that he couldnât help noticing what he was not allowed to have.
Heâd barely left Oxford before noting that âat dinner oïŹ Southendâ he âmade acquaintance with two young German ladiesâ. One was a Miss Gebhard, oïŹ to stay with her aunt in Worms. Edward wrote in his diary that she was a very nice person, and spoke English. He didnât catch the name of her companion, which I think he would have liked to have done, as âshe was a tall beautiful girlâ, a governess with a family called Preston, from Lowestoft. Both girls, it seems, were the nineteenth-century equivalent of au pairs.
âThe sea,â he reports, âwas delightfully calm, and everybody seemed to enjoy themselves. I did, I know.â After he had âslept like a topâ, he went up on deck at 5.30 in the morning to an unexpected bonus. âI found my young lady no. 2 already there.â Fog â fortuitously for him, perhaps â delayed the arrival of the ferry. However, eventually the skies cleared and âanother roastingly hot dayâ began. Even so, they were almost twelve hours late docking at Rotterdam.
Edward had booked his passage on a riverboat down the Rhine, as far as Mannheim, but, when he found out how long this might take, âI tore up my ticket and left the boat for the Rail.â This, coincidentally, allowed him time to escort âmy two fair German friendsâ to their accommodation at the New Bath Hotel (previous guests included the architect Sir John Soane, who has left us a sketch of the room he and his wife occupied when they stayed at the hotel in 1835). Having seen them safely installed, Edward set oïŹ, on foot, for the railway station.
Soon another young lady crossed his path. âFound a young person going some distance same way as myself named Goodman â travelled together, she had been a governess in a family at St. Petersburg and was going into the household of an Amsterdam banker with a country house at Ede, two stations from Arnhem.â He took a paternal interest in Miss Goodman. âPoor young thing!â he noted. âShe was in an utterly strange country and seemed badly cast down.â When they reached Ede, she was met by what Edward surmised might be her future mistress. âA woman with a loud voice, but not, I hope for poor little Miss Goodmanâs sake, a hard heart.â
On Edward went, constantly falling in with strangers as he did so. At âBruggâ he met an Englishman, travelling with his daughter (âsuch a charming little maidenâ). As he made his way further into Switzerland he met a young gentleman in the hardware business at St Gall who âexpressed a great desire to see SheïŹeldâ. At St Gall, a group of schoolchildren embarked and âkept up all the way the celebrated Appenzell musical howlâ. Rather than cover his ears, he described it most approvingly: âBesides being singular it was very melodious.â
The further he travelled from his academic responsibilities, the sunnier his mood became. One doesnât have to look far for one source of his rising spirits. At Ragatz, for example, where his lodgings were âpicturesquely situatedâ opposite some ïŹour and sawmills, he was delighted by âa bouncing Swiss damsel by the name of Franciscaâ who âcarries my tub full of water as easily as if it were a featherâ. At other times he drew pleasure from long,