The Boy I Never Meant to Love
Before Everything Changed
The dusty roads of Jamshoro stretched endlessly in the warm morning light as the university buses rumbled through the quiet streets Students rushed toward campus, their bags bouncing, their laughter echoing But among them was a girl who never joined the noise Nida
Soft-spoken, thoughtful, always lost in her books Nida lived in her own world.
For the first three years at the University of Sindh, Department of English Language & Literature, she cared only for one thing education. Not friendships
Not outings
Not boys.
Just books
Her classmates admired her dedication. Some envied her calmness. But no one knew the battles she fought quietly
Every morning she entered the department with determination in her eyes She sat in the front row, asked the right questions, submitted perfect work She didn’t notice who stared at her, who admired her, or who watched her silently.
Because Nida’s world had no space for distraction
Not yet ---
Her Life Was Simple Until It Wasn’t
Traveling to university was always a struggle for students living far away. The university point bus was their lifeline overcrowded, late, and exhausting
Nida never complained.
But one morning, during her third year, everything changed. The point system for her route collapsed Chaos broke out Students argued Teachers got frustrated The transport office became a battlefield
And in the middle of all this destiny quietly opened a new chapter of her life
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The Boy She Never Noticed
She didn’t know his name. His department His voice Nothing.
But she saw him that day
He stood confidently at the center of the angry crowd calm, fearless, simple Not loud, not arrogant… but honest. There was something magnetic about him.
Nida found herself watching him longer than she intended.
He lived in her neighborhood He rode the same point. Yet she had never noticed him
But today, she saw him.
“Who is he ?”
Destiny never asks permission
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The Day Her Heart Noticed Him
The transport office was chaotic. Students were shouting. Nida stood quietly, confused and anxious
And then his voice rose steady, respectful, powerful:
“Sir, please listen! These students deserve a fair chance!”
His courage, his calmness, his sincerity something in Nida’s heart shifted
Her eyes kept returning to him
Her heart whispered something she wasn’t ready to hear.
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The First Invisible Connection
Days passed
But that moment stayed in Nida’s mind like a quiet, lingering echo.
She discovered he lived close to her home
Maybe she had passed him many times without noticing.
Now she couldn’t stop thinking about him
His voice. His eyes
His courage.
She didn’t know his name, but she felt something she couldn’t explain
A Moment She Would Never Forget
That night, her books lay open, but she couldn’t concentrate. For the first time in her disciplined life, her heart wandered
Someone had entered her heart without trying And she didn’t know what to do with it
The First Contact
Days later, she gathered courage.
She asked his friend pretending it was for a university project to get his number.
The friend agreed
He gave her the number
Her hands shook.
She messaged him:
“Assalamualaikum I’m the girl from your point I hope you remember me ”
He replied:
“Haan, I remember.”
Her heart jumped
Then she confessed honestly:
“I like you… since that day. I admire your courage and simplicity.”
Silence…
Then he replied:
“Are you passing time?”
Her heart broke a little. But she stayed truthful
“I’m not here to play. I just wanted to be honest.”
--The Argument That Broke Something
Days later, she asked him:
“If you don’t want me, then delete my number”
He avoided the topic.
She pushed for clarity. He became angry
He blocked her.
Nida stared at her phone with tears in her eyes
She only wanted honesty But she got heartbreak instead.
--The Distance That Hurt More
Every day, Nida sat in the front seat of the point van until one day he said:
“Itna agay kyun bethti ho?”
After that, she quietly shifted to the back And never returned to her front seat again.
A small sentence changed her daily life.
He never realized how deeply his words affected her
She called him “pathar dil ”
He said, “Tum bhi ban jao.”
She whispered, “Nahi main aisi hi theek ho ”
But life made her stone-hearted anyway
Every day she sat at the back, silently watching him from a distance
Love became pain.
Pain became silence
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Silent Pain and Hidden Strength
Even when Ayaan messaged her again after weeks of distance:
“Tume yaad aya tum kaisi ho?”
Her heart fluttered
But she replied politely
She stayed strong
She remained respectful. She learned the strength of patience.
Books became her refuge again.
Her silent strength grew
--Exams and Farewells
University life rushed by
Ayaan became a distant figure noticed, but unreachable
December 2025 approached.
Graduation was near Their worlds were drifting apart.
Nida tried to focus, but memories lingered like shadows
--Reflection
After exams, she looked back on everything she had endured: Love Pain Silence Growth
She realized she had become stronger than she ever imagined
--Lessons from Nida’s Journey
She wrote to herself:
Focus on your education first
Be patient
Be honest
Handle disappointment with grace
Grow silently
Balance heart and mind
“Even if he never sees my truth, I have seen my strength ”