I want to begin by saying that I struggle to write up-tempo music. As a composer, I tend to lean toward and connect to slow and emotional pieces. I have always been someone who strives to convey emotional complexity, therefore writing an up-tempo piece had to be purposeful and meaningful.
The inspiration for this score comes from the first time I was able to hear my son's heartbeat in an ultrasound. It was a magical and exciting moment that I will never forget; however, everything leading up to that specific moment had an element of tension. Six months prior to hearing my son’s heartbeat my wife and found ourselves in a very similar situation with a different ultrasound. We arrived at the hospital excited to meet our child only to find out that we had miscarried. I had never felt so deflated and aimless in one sudden moment. It was as if I was a boat, drifting, with no direction in my life.
Fast forward to this ultrasound with my soon-to-be son, you can imagine the excitement and fear I felt all at once as th
