Matthew 27:3-4
2022 Lent Midweek
Grace Lutheran Church
What to Remember When You Are Seized with Remorse The words of God before us today are these from Matthew 27: Then when Judas, who had betrayed him, saw that Jesus was condemned, he felt remorse. He brought back the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders and said, “I have sinned by betraying innocent blood.” (Matthew 27:3,4 EHV) Now he gets it?! Now, on Friday morning, Judas suddenly realizes what he has done?! Now he recognizes that he has betrayed innocent blood?! Didn’t Judas know well before then exactly what he was doing? Jesus had told him the night before in Gethsemane that he was betraying the Son of Man. When Jesus said that, Judas didn’t say, “No, no, no! That’s not what I’m doing! I’m simply . . . procuring a product for a buyer!” No! Judas knew very well, already in Gethsemane, that he was carrying out an act of betrayal. He also knew that he was betraying innocent blood. Three years of being around Jesus had made it clear to him that Jesus was not only innocent but also innocent to a degree that no other person had ever been. That’s why, when Jesus asked him, “Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?” (Luke 22:48), Judas didn’t lean into Jesus and say, “Yes. Yes, I am. And you deserve it!” Some have suggested that Judas had this seeming epiphany first on Friday morning, because that’s the first time he realized what the consequences would be. Up to that point, some argue, Judas had figured that Jesus would use his almighty power to escape. Jesus would be none the worse for wear, and Judas would have 30 pieces of silver! When Judas saw that wasn’t happening, he had his epiphany. He realized he had participated in a betrayal that hadn’t gone as he anticipated. That doesn’t seem right though. Jesus had made it very clear to his disciples on numerous occasions what was going to happen to him. He had told them that he was going to go to Jerusalem, where he would not only be arrested and sentenced to death but also die. The other disciples heard what Jesus was saying and understood what the words meant. You might remember Peter responding to Jesus by telling him, “This will never happen to you!” (Matthew 16:22). Even though the other disciples understood what Jesus was prophesying, the details seemed almost impossible to them. Then, when Jesus told them in the upper room on Thursday evening that this would involve one of the Twelve betraying him, the whole thing became even more unthinkable for them.
Except for Judas, because he had already thought to do the unthinkable. Of all the disciples, Judas alone could understand exactly how Jesus’ words would be fulfilled and the role his betrayal would play in it. So, no, Judas didn’t gain some new insight into the impact of his actions at the dawn’s early light that Friday morning. Everything that happened is what Judas should have expected to happen. More than that, everything that happened is what Judas had been told would happen. Judas knew on Thursday night that he was planning the sin of betraying innocent blood—and he went ahead and did it anyway. But in the dawn’s early light, the sin—as sin so often does—looked different. Until then, it looked like the way to get the one thing that Judas wanted more than anything else in the world: money. Until then, it looked like the one thing that would make Judas happy, the one thing that would fill the hole—the emptiness he felt in his soul—the one thing that would make him complete. We know what it’s like to have that one thing. It’s not always the same thing; it changes depending on the moment and the situation. Whatever it is at that moment, it is the one thing. It’s the one thing we need to be happy in the moment. Maybe it’s the one thing we need to cope with the situation. Maybe it’s the one thing we need to do to deal with our anger about what someone said or did to us. Maybe it’s the one thing we need to finally reach a goal. Desires like that don’t go away. They just get worse and worse until it’s just about all we can think about. We are convinced that if we just do that one thing, all will be right in our world. It soon becomes the only thing in our world. Only one thing matters— getting the one thing we think we need. Then comes the dawn. Like Judas, we’re left standing there, having done what we intended to do and gotten exactly what we intended to get. Judas had wanted 30 pieces of silver, and now he was standing there, holding 30 pieces of silver. Even though we now have exactly what we wanted and needed, we’re asking ourselves a question. Our question isn’t “What have I done?” because the answer to that is easy: I’ve done exactly what I planned to do. The question is more like “How could I have done this?” How could I have done it with my eyes as wide open as they were? We know that we weren’t confused about what we were doing, what it would cost, or what we would get. If that were the case, then at least we could tell ourselves that we had made foolish decisions based on inexperience and faulty information. No, we knew what we were doing. We knew it was wrong even before we did it—and did it anyway simply because we wanted to.
We know that makes us bad people. Deep down, even though we can hardly bring ourselves to even whisper such words, we know that makes us evil people. We don’t like feeling that way about ourselves. Like Judas, we are filled with remorse, with regret. You’ve probably heard the term buyer’s remorse. It refers to those who buy something and then, once they bring it home, wish they hadn’t. That’s what Judas had. Although, since he was holding 30 pieces of silver in his hand, maybe what he had would better be called “seller’s remorse.” He sold Jesus and felt remorseful, wishing he hadn’t, but realizing that it was too late. He could give back the 30 pieces of silver, but the Jewish leaders weren’t going to give Jesus back. He probably also felt that he sold his soul as well. Although the Bible says of Judas, “Satan entered into him” (John 13:27), Satan didn’t exactly have to kick down the door. Judas had opened his heart wide for Satan, and he knew Satan wasn’t suffering any remorse that would make him open to reversing the deal. It’s a terrible feeling when we realize that we chose to sin with our eyes wide open, isn’t it? Although we may now be seized with remorse every bit as much as Judas was, all the remorse in the world isn’t enough to turn back time. Even if we are able to give back what we received, like Judas gave back the 30 pieces of silver, the remorse remains because the guilt remains. At least we haven’t betrayed innocent blood. Haven’t we though? Sometimes we have betrayed someone who didn’t deserve it. We’ve hurt a friend, or failed to speak up for a coworker or another student who was being blamed for something he or she didn’t do, or spoken to others, misleading them the way Judas did when he greeted Jesus in a friendly way in the garden (“Greetings, Rabbi!”). So yes, sometimes when we have sinned, we have betrayed innocent blood—but not every time. Yet, since every sin is an offense against Jesus, every sin is committed against his innocent blood. While Judas sinned against the one he called Rabbi, we sin against the one we claim on a regular basis to be our Lord and King—and that is an enormous betrayal. The Bible tells us that Judas was seized with remorse. Remorse had such a hold on him that it became the one thing—the only thing he could think about. The only thing in his world. Guilt consumed him. Don’t let guilt do the same to you. Don’t let it consume you and drive you to despair, even if your betrayals outnumber Judas’ by a hundred. Don’t let guilt consume you, because there is someone who has consumed your guilt. Jesus took all your guilt, all your sin, into his body. Peter wrote, He himself carried
our sins in his body on the tree (1 Peter 2:24). On the cross, he suffered the wrath of God for those sins and all the guilt that goes along with them. Jesus had paid a fearsome price to buy us. That’s really what the word redeem means— “to buy back.” His payment was nothing like the paltry price that had been placed on him. He paid with his own blood. The Bible tells us, you were redeemed…not with things that pass away, such as silver or gold, but with the precious blood of Christ (1 Peter 1:18,19). You’d think that somewhere along the way Jesus might have had buyer’s remorse— especially as he suffered and death grew near. When he died, it appeared that guilt— and the sin and death that go along with it—had seized and consumed Jesus, but on Easter Sunday, Jesus seized control of death and soundly defeated it. There will continue to be times when we get it—when we realize the true nature of our sins, when we realize the true nature of our utter sinfulness. It’s good for us to realize that, but it’s not good for us to let remorse and guilt seize us and lead us to despair. We have a Savior who has seized us for his kingdom and his family, and he will not let us go! Amen. Please Stand as we join in our Confession of Faith—Luther’s Explanation to the 2nd Article of the Apostles’ Creed.