WENDY OWENS
CopyrightŠ2024byWendyOwens
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Dedicated to all the women who sometimes have to help a man realize how fuckingly, perfectly, amazing the woman right in front of him is
CONTENTS
Chapter1
Chapter2
Chapter3
Chapter4
Chapter5
Chapter6
Chapter7
Chapter8
Chapter9
Chapter10
Chapter11
Chapter12
Chapter13
Chapter14
Chapter15
Chapter19
Chapter20
Chapter21
Chapter22
Chapter23
Chapter24
Chapter25
Chapter26
Chapter27
Chapter28
Chapter29
Chapter30
Chapter31
Chapter32
Chapter33
Chapter34
Chapter35
CrimsonVows
AbouttheAuthor
AlsobyWendyOwens
Acknowledgments
SilksheetstanglearoundoursweatybodiesasImovewithaprimalrhythmbetweenthetwowomen Theonebeneath me,IbelievehernameisRachelifmemoryserves,moansmyname.Theotherwoman,whosenameInevercaught, clingstomyback,hernailsleavingtrailsofdesireintheirwake
Theintoxicatingscentofpassionbathestheroom,aheadyaromathatmingleswiththethroatysoundsoflustcomingfrom eachwoman. The womenare a welcomed distractionfromthe uncertaintyswirlingaround myplace as the new boss ofthe Kingempire.
Myhandsroamfreely,tracingcurvesandvalleys.Theirbodies,sodifferentyetequallycaptivating,respondtomyevery touchwithachinghunger
Rachelâsvoicetrembleswithpleasureashergaspsfilltheroom,echoingoursharedecstasy.Herfingerstangleinmyhair, pullingmecloser
âOhGod, Vincent, youare fuckingamazing.â Rachel gasps, and a smirktugs atmylips. This isnâtaboutconnection;itâs aboutsatisfaction pure, carnal, and devoid ofcomplications. More complications are the lastthingIneed inmylife right now.
Iuntanglemyselffromthetwowomen,leaningagainstmyheadboardbeforeinstructingthem,âIwantashow.â
Thetwowomenexchangeaglance,theireyesfilledwithanticipation âWhatkindofshow?âthenamelesswomanasks âSurpriseme.â
Theyevidentlyunderstand the rules ofthis game as theybeginto move inperfect synchrony Their bodies swaywitha rhythmthatmatchesthebeatinmychest,theirdanceaseductivesymphony.
Rachel takes the lead,her movements fluidandgraceful.Her bodyundulates withaneffortless sensualitythatcaptivates notonlyme butthe unnamed womanas well Her fingers glide across her skin, tracingdelicate patterns, accentuatingevery curveanddip.Theroombecomesastage,andRachelcommandsattentionwithherdeliberatemotion.
Meanwhile,theunnamedwomanfollowssuit,herbodyamirrorimageofRachelâsinitsenticingdisplay Iwatchasshe letsherinhibitionsgoandembracesthefreedomwithinthismoment.Hermotionsarebolder,moreprimalasifsheâsunlocking ahiddensideofherselfthatyearnstobesetfree
As Iwatchthemwrithe andtwist,ananimalistic hunger grows withinme,fueledbytheir unabashedexpressions oflust. Iâmentrancedbythesheersexualenergybouncingoffthewalls,andIcanâthelpbutstrokemycockinresponse,myeyesnever leavingthetwobeautifulwomenwhoembodyeverythingIcrave
Theirpassionatedancebecomesmorefrenziedwhentheyseetheexcitementtheyhavearousedinme.Theirbodiesmesh togetherastheylosethemselvesinthemoment Rachelâsmouthfindstheotherwomanâsmouth,andtheybeginexploringthem withtheirtongues.TheotherwomanrunsherhandsupRachelâsbody,herhandsclosingaroundRachelâsbreasts,rubbingthem aggressivelybeforehominginonherrock-hardnipples
Rachelâseyeslockwithmine,hergazeburningwiththesamelustgrowingdeepwithinme.MyheartracesasIwatchthe twowomenlosethemselvesintheir interaction.Thesightofthepair writhingtogether,their bodiesmeldingintoone,makes mycockthrob
Pleasure courses throughmyveins,threateningtoconsume me whole.Witha deepbreath,Irise ontomyknees,myeyes neverleavingthetwobeautifulwomen
âEnough,âIsay.âItâsmyturn.Whichoneofyouwantsmetofuckyoufirst?â
Thewomenfreeze,theireyeswidewithanticipation.âStartwithher,âRachelsays.
âFeelinggenerous,arewe?âIsmirk.
Shebitesatherbottomlipbeforeshereplies,âIjustwanttobetheoneyoufinishin.â
âIsthatso?âIspinthenamelesswomantowardmeandspreadherlegs,slidingmyselfintoherwithease.Shewhimpers andmoansinresponseasIstretchoutherwetpussy.âThenwhydonâtyoubeagoodlittleslutandsitonherfacewhileImake hercome?â
Theunnamedwomanâseyeswidenatthecommand,butRacheldoesnâthesitate.Shemovesgracefully,positioningherself above her friendâs face withher legs oneither side of her head As I pump into her, the womaneagerlyopens her mouth, welcomingRachelâspussyasitlowersontoherface.
âThatâsit Youârebothsuchgoodlittlesluts,âIgrowlasIbegintothrustdeeperintothenamelesswoman,enjoyingthetwo ofthemdevouringeachother.
ThewomanmoanslouderasIpumpintoher,buckingherhips,pushingharderagainstRachelâsslickpussy.Sheâsstroking herclitwithonehand,herotherhandtrailingupanddownherbody,caressingherbreastsandpinchinghernipples
âFaster, harder,â Rachel begs as she rocks her hips against the womanâs face. âPlease, baby, make her moan into my pussyâ
Ioblige,pickingupmypace,mythickcockglidingintothenamelesswomanwithwet,sloppysoundsfillingtheroom.The unnamedwomanâsmoansbecomelouderasshelosesherselfinthepleasure Ifeelthefamiliartightening,andthenareleaseof wetnessexplodesaroundme.
âThatâsagoodgirl,âIsayasIpullmydickoutofthenamelesswomanwhoisnowtremblingwithpleasure.âYoulovethe tasteofherpussy,donâtyou?â
âMm-hmm,â the woman moans, still too lightheaded fromher orgasmto formany coherent words. I watch as Rachel dismountsfromherfaceandwastesnotimeleaningovertosuckherfriendâsjuicesoffmycock Shelapsupeverydrop,her eyeslockedwithmineinasilentpleaformore.
âYouwantmetofuckyounow?âIaskasmycocktwitchesinsideRachelâsmouth.
Sheswallowshardandnods,hereyesneverleavingmythrobbingerection.Herhandwrapsaroundthebaseofmyshaft, pullingmedeeperintoherwarmmouth.
I groan, feeling her lips stretch around me as I thrust into her, her throat bobbing with each stroke She hums softly in response,thevibrationssendingshiversdownmyspine.
Releasingmycockfromhermouth,Rachellooksupatmeandwhispers,âPlease,Vincent,Ineedyouinsidemeâ
âNotyet.Iwantyoutobegforit,âIreplyasIclimboffthebedandgrababottleoflubefromthenightstand.Ipouritonto myfingers,andwithawickedgrin,IslidetwointoRachelâspussy,makinghergaspandarchherbackinpleasure.
âThatâsit,baby,fuckmewithyourfingers,âshecries,hervoicefilledwithdesperation.Idonâtjustwantherpussy,though. Iwanthertosurrendereveryholetome.
Iwithdrawmyfingersfromherdrenchedpussyandpushherdownontoherhandsandknees Ileandownandwhisperin herear,âItoldyouIwantedashow.Thatwasjustthebeginning.â
âWhatdoyouwantmetodo?âRachelwhimpers,hervoicetremblingwithanticipationandsubmission
âShowmehowmuchyouwantmetotakeyou,âIreply,myvoicelowandcommanding.âMakemewantyouasmuchasI knowyouwantme.â
Igrabafloggerfromthecorneroftheroom,itstailswhisperingthroughtheairasIbringitdownonherback,causinga flurryofstingingkissesagainstherskin.Icatchsightofherfriendlyingonherside,enjoyingtheshowasshegreedilyfingers hersoakingwetcunt
IwatchasRachelâsbodytensesandrelaxes,eachstrikeofthefloggerasymphonyofpainandpleasure.Icanseethemark ofmydominanceonherskin,knowingeachweltisareminderofmyauthority Atthatmoment,Iwishassertingmydominance overourorganizationwasaseasy.
Istepclosertoher,thefloggerstillinhand.Ibrushmyfingersagainsttheweltsonherskin,feelingtheheatandknowing itâsnotenoughtosatisfymyhungerforpower
âIwanttoseeyoubegforit,âIwhisperinalowandseductivevoice.âIwanttoheartheneedinyourvoice.â
Rachelgasps,herbodytremblingwithanticipation SheknowswhatIwantandthatmydemandscanneverbeignored But sheâswillingtosubmittomyeverydesire,togiveherbodytomewithouthesitation.
She reaches backandgrabs her hips,presentingthemtome âPlease,Vincent,take me however youwant Justmake me yours.â
Ismile,droppingthefloggerandreachingagainforthelube.Thistime,Iapplylubetoherass,spreadingitaroundwithmy fingers,andthenpress againsther tightentrance She whimpers as Iinsertone finger After a few moments,Iinsertanother, slowlystretchingheropen.
âThatâsit,takeit Iâmgoingtomakeyoumine,âIgrowl,myvoicethickwithlust Rachelmoansandthrustsherhipsbackagainstme,eagerformore.Iaddathirdfinger,stretchingherasswide.Icanfeelin thewayshemovesagainstmethatsheâsconflicted.Thesensationsofpainandpleasurehaveconfusedherbody.
Finally, as her bodystarts to relaxand her ass starts to allow me inwithease, I pull awayand positionmyself at her entrance.âAre youreadyfor me totake you?â Rachel nods,her bodytremblingwithanticipation.âIfuckinglove how much
youneedmycock.â
Withadeep,satisfiedgroan,Ipushforward,slidingmycockintoRachelâstight,wetasshole.Shegasps,herentirebody convulsingasIbegintothrustinandout
âThatâsit,baby.Takeit.Youâremine.âMylowvoiceisfilledwithdominance.
Rachelâs bodywrithes underneathme,her hands grippingthesheets as Istretchher ass witheachhardthrust Her friend watchesfromtheside,herexpressionamixofarousalandjealousy.
As I continue to pound into Rachelâs ass, I reacharound and grasp her clit, pinchingit betweenmyfingers as I thrust Rachelâsmoansgrowlouder,herbodybecomingmoreandmoretense.
âPlease,Vincent,donâtstop,âshepleads,hervoicehoarsewithdesire.
Ispeed up mythrusts, the sound ofour bodies slappingtogether all around us Rachelâs sounds become continuous and primal.Herorgasmhitsherhard,herbodyconvulsingaroundmeasshecriesoutmyname.Shetightensaroundmycock,the sensationdrivingmefurtherintoafrenzy
Islamintoheronefinaltime,holdinghertightlyagainstmeasIfillherasswithmycum.Icollapseontothebed,mybreath cominginraggedgasps,mybodytremblingwiththeaftershocksoftheintenseorgasm âFuck âIgrunt,stillpanting
Rachellooksatme,hereyesfilledwithsatisfaction.âThankyou.â
I smile, feeling the pleasure of having completely dominated and pleasured Rachel. âYouâre welcome,â I reply, still breathlessfromtheintensityoftheexperience
Standing,Igotomybathroomandrinseoffintheshower.AsItowelmyselfoff,Inoticebothwomenarestilllyingnaked inmybed,andIpridemyselfontheglowthattheybothseemtohaveaboutthem
Pullingoutapairofboxerbriefsfrommydresser,Islidethemonbeforelookingbackattheladies.
âYoubothseemedtolikethat,didnâtyou?âIask,smilingatthembeforepullingapairofsweatpantsfromanotherdrawer andslippingthemon.
âYes,Vincent.Iâveneverfeltsousedbefore,âRachelreplies,hervoicestillhoarsefromherorgasm.
âOhmyGod,itwassofuckinghottowatchyoutwo,âherfriendreplies
âWell,anytime,ladies,âIrespond.Ipauseandnoticethetwostaringupatme,butneitherstirs.Thisshouldbewhenthey knowthefunhasendedandstartgettingdressed,butthatdoesnâtseemtobehappening Iraise aneyebrow, no longer amused bytheir lackofmovement. âAlright, well, Iâve got a lot to do today. Enjoyyour morning,ladies.â
âMorning?âthenamelesswomanasks.
Ichuckle.âYes,wepartiedallnight.Andnowitâstimeforthetwoofyoutoheadbacktowhereveryoucamefrom.â
They stare at me in confusion, not entirely understanding what Iâmsaying âLet me put it another way,â I say, my tone gentlernow.âYoubothhadfun,butitâstimetogohomeorwherever.â
Rachelfinallyspeaksup âButIdonâtwanttogo Iwanttostaywithyouâ Herfriendnodsinagreement.
âWell, thatâs not anoption,â I answer firmly, slippinga blackT-shirt over myhead, stretchingit over mymuscles and coveringthetattoos Rachelandthenamelessbeautylookupatme,theirexpressionssouredbytheabruptendtoourescapade âComeon,ladies,getdressed.Yougottago.â
âWow,really?Thatâshowitis?âRachelâspoutisasforcedasherindignation
âLook,âIsay,mybreathseveningout,âIlosttrackofhowmanytimesyoubothcamelastnight,soIdonâtwannahearany bitching Yougotwhatyoucameherefor Nowitâstimeforyoutogoâ
Thenamelessonestartstowhine,andwithoutpatienceforit,Istridetomywalletontopofmydresserandpulloutawad ofcash.Itossitather itâscrudebuteffective.âThere.â
âIamnowhore,âshescreams,butherfingerscurlaroundthebillsevenassheshimmiesoffthebedandshovesherlegs intoherskirt.
âCouldâvefooledme,âImutterundermybreath Asharpknockonthedoorcutsthroughtheheatedconversation.âBoss?âMarcoâsvoiceismuffledbuturgent.
âGivemeaminute!âIgrowl,notreadyforaninterruption âSorry,boss,butEvajustcheckedindownstairs.â
âShit.âInstantly,myattentionfractures.EvaMartinezmaybemysisterâsbestfriend,butsheisnâtjustthatanymore.Since myfatherâsmurder,shehasbecomeoneofmyclosestfriends,andthelastthingIeverwanttodoisleaveherwaiting âBuzz herup,âIcalloutbeforeturningmyattentionbacktotheladies.
âYoutwoneedtoleavenow,âIcommand,unhappywiththelackofurgencyintheirmovements
Rachelandthenamelesswomanexchangealook,disappointmentetchedacrosstheirfaces,buttheybegrudginglycontinue togathertheirbelongingsstrewnaboutmyroom.
âEva?âRachelasks,hervoicelacedwithcuriosity.
âNoneofyourfuckingbusiness,âIanswer,annoyedsheevenfeltentitledtoaskthequestion.
âThereâs no reason to be an asshole,â Rachel grunts, pulling her dress over her head and scooping her boots and undergarmentsupintoherarms.
I manage to get them half-dressed and stumbling toward the elevator The one whose name I never caught drops her earrings,andasIhurryheralong,sheenthusiasticallycursesatme.Idonâtcare.Iâvebeencalledworsebybetter.
TheelevatordoorsopenedwithadingtorevealEvaâssmilingface ThewomenshootEvaavenomousglareasshesteps offtheelevator.
âGoodmorning,âEvaoffers,butthewomenonlyscoffinresponseastheystepontotheelevator
âHaveanicelife,ladies,âIquipasthedoorscloseontheirscowls.
âThosetwolookedlikeabarreloflaughs,âEvacomments,archinganeyebrow.
âEntertainmentcomesinmanyforms,âIreply Evaseesmeinawaynotmanydo,butevenherinsighthaslimitations The constantpressureIâmunderrequiresmetofindawaytoletoffsteam.Lastnightwiththesetwoladieswasoneofthoseexact opportunities âNow,whatbringsyouhere,Eva?Or didyoujustwanttoswingbytopassjudgmentonhow Ispendmyfree time?â
âOh, come on, Vincent!Youâre so uptight We all know youâre a huge slut, and we love youjustthe sameâ Eva laughs, shakingherheadatmyjest.âYouneedtolightenup.Howaboutajoke?â
âPleasedonâttellmeoneofyourawfuljokes,âIplead.
âYouknowyoulovethem Whatdidoneelevatorsaytotheother?IthinkIamcomingdownwithsomething!âEvaerupts, laughingatherjoke,andIcanâthelpbutchuckleatherresponse.
âThatâsbetter,âshesaysexcitedly âAnyway,Ameliasentmetopickupafewmoreofherthingsâ
âChrist,âImutter,annoyanceedgingmytone.âWouldnâtitbeeasierifshehadyoujustpickupeverythingallatonce?â
âDid youever thinksheâs drawingthis outbecause she misses you?â Evaâs softvoice is probing. âMaybe ifyouhadnât forbiddenhertocometothepenthouse â
âAmelia made her choice when she married Alexei Ivanov.â I cut her off, my voice colder now. âI may support her followingherheart,butIdonâtknowwhatsheexpectedwhenshemarriedintoarivalfamily IâmtheheadoftheKingfamily now ourinterestshavetocomefirst.â
Evaâseyesholdmine,searchingforsomethingIâmunwillingtogive Shenodsslowly,understandingasalways,yetIcan tellshedisagrees.
âWhateveryousay,âshesaysfinally.âIâlljustgetthethingssheaskedforfromherroom.â âThankyou,âIsay,butthewordstastebitter,likealuxuryboughtatapricefartoosteep.
Eva disappears into Ameliaâs old bedroom, and I make my way to the study. Shaking my head, I attempt to clear my thoughts Isitdownbehindthelargemahoganydeskandtrytoforcetheintrusivethoughtsaboutmysisterfrommymind She madeuphermindwhenshemarriedanIvanov,andnoamountofguiltsheorEvaputonmewillchangethat.
Despitenotbeingabletochangethesituation,onefactremains ImissAmeliaasmuchasshemissesme
sit at my fatherâs desk, fingers tracing the intricate carvings on its mahogany surface His scent, a mixture of expensive cologne and Cuban cigars, lingers. The mountain of paperwork before me seems to grow with each passingsecond, threateningto consume me whole Anxietywashes over me as I ponder the gravityof mynew responsibilities.Ameliamayhavewalkedawayfromherduties,butIrefusetoleteverythingmyfatherbuiltbedestroyedon mywatch.
Thedoorcreaksopen,andEvastepsintotheroom.Herchestnut-browneyesdisplayconcern,herlipspressedintoathin line. She crosses the floor withgraceful strides, the clickingofher heels againstthe marble floor echoingthroughthe silent room Asshereachesme,sheplacesacomfortinghandonmyshoulder,hertouchwarmandreassuring âVincent,âshesayssoftly,hervoiceasoothingbalmamidthechaosofmythoughts.âLetmemakeyousomelunch.â
I lookup at Eva, the turmoil swirlinginside me spillinginto mygaze âI thought youwere here to packup the last of Ameliaâsthingsforher,nottakecareofme.â
Sheshrugsand,inagentlevoice,replies,âCanâtIdoboth?âIsmile,gratefulthatdespiteherbeingmysisterâsbestfriend, Evahasalwaysbeenareassuringforceinmylife.
âI...âMyvoicefaltersasIstruggletofindtherightwords.âIdonâtknowifIcandothis â
Sheshakesherhead,peeringatmewithheroversizeddoeeyes âDowhat?â
âLeadthefamily,âIexplain.âItâssomuch,andI...WhatifIfuckeverythingup?â
Evaâseyessoftenasshelistens,her handonmyshoulder asteadypresence âVincent,âshesays,âyouhavealwaysbeen strongerthanyougiveyourselfcreditfor.ForaslongasIâveknownyou,Iâvewatchedyoudoeverythingyourfatheraskedof you.Theonlydifferencebetweennowandthenisheisnâtheretotellyouwhattodo butyoualreadyknow.Youâregoingto befineâ
Asshespeaks,imagesflashinmymind thelatenightsspentatmyfatherâsside,thecountlesshoursoftraining,andthe strategizingIwitnessed Despitemydoubts,thereâsnodenyingIâveworkedhardtoearnmyplaceatthehelmofourempire, evenifmyfatherlackedfaithinmebeforehisdeath.
âYourresilienceisoneofyourgreateststrengths,âEvacontinues,bolsteringmywaveringconfidence âIhavezerodoubts thatyouwillbeabletogetthroughthis.â
âIwishIhadthesameconfidenceinmyselfthatyouseemtohaveinme,âIadmit.Ourpredicamentdiffersfromthatofany other business when the CEO dies Our family business was different, though Instead of board members, I have capos to answerto.Theymaynothaveknownaboutmyfatherlosingfaithinmeastheunderboss,butthatdoesnâtseemtomatter.With thedeathofbothmyfatherandhisconsigliere,thewolvesareatthegates,andIdonâtknowhowlongIâllbeabletokeepthem atbay.
Evasqueezesmyshouldergently,hertouchgroundingmeinthemoment âVincent,youârenotaloneinthis AmeliaandI, allofus,supportyoueverystepoftheway.Youdonâthavetocarryallthisonyourown.â
Iclosemyeyesbriefly,tryingtounderstandherwords,butthefearkeepsgnawingatme.âIaskedyounottosayhername aroundmeâ
âSheâsyoursister,âEvaremindsme.
âNotanymore SheâsanIvanovnow,âIstate,ensuringmytoneremainsemotionless âIdonâtunderstand.Ithoughtyougaveheryourblessing,âEvapleads.
âIgavemyblessingforhertomarryhimandstepawayfromourfamily,butthatdoesnâtmeanIhavetobeokaywithit.It sureashelldoesnâtmeanIâmgoingtobeafuckingidiotandletherinhereasifnothinghaschanged,âIexplain.âShemadeher choice,andchoiceshaveconsequences.â
âJesus, whydo youalways have to be so stubborn?â Eva snaps, her hands fallingto her side as she steps around to the frontofmydesk.
âIstheresomethingelse?Ihavealotofworktogetbackto,âIhuff,myirritationstartingtorevealitself âVincent,â Eva says softly as she watches me, âmaybe you should be careful. You donât have much family left in this worldâ
I look up at her, eyebrows raised. Her eyes convey concern, so I do my best to steady my anger in response to her statement Shewasnâtwrong Inonenight,IlostbothmyfatherandthewomanwhoIbelievedtobemymother Monthslater, mysister marriedthe underboss ofa rival Mafia family.Besides a half-brother Idonâtreallyknow,Iâmutterlyalone inthis world.Thatmakesitaneasymarkforsomeonewithinourorganizationtomakeamove.âIstheresomethingelseyouneed?â
Shepursesherlipsandpeersatmehopefully âComeon,letâsgotothekitchen Iâllmakeussomethingtoeatâ
Despitetheweightofeverythingonmymind,theearnestwarmthinEvaâsexpressionpullsmetomyfeet,herreassurance cuttingthroughmyreluctance
âAlright,fine,âIagree,pushingbackfromthedeskandstanding.âAbitewouldbenice.â
Ifollow her intothe kitchen,inquiringabouthow itâs goingwithAmeliaâs belongings She explainedthatwhile she was almostdonewiththetask,shewasalsodisappointedthatIwassoadamantaboutnotallowingAmeliaintotakecareofthings herself.
Fromtheir perspective, itmustseemlike Iâmsimplybeingpettyaboutmysisterâs nuptials withAlexei Ivanov, butIâm doingthisforherowngoodtoo.IfIamseenastoofriendlywithhernowthatshehaschosentomarryintotheIvanovfamily,it couldmakeheratarget
TakingabiteofthesalamiandhamsandwichEvamadeandplacedinfrontofme,Ichewandsmilebeforelookingupat herandstating,âThankyou,Eva.IdidnâtrealizehowmuchIneededthis.â
âSometimes,weallneedamomenttobreathe,âshereplies,hervoicegentleyetfirm. I chuckle. âQuit reading into things. I was just talking about the food.â Despite my deflection, her words resonate, remindingmethatevenasheadofthefamily,Iâmstillallowedmomentsofvulnerabilityandrest âIfyousayso,âshechimesplayfully.
Iopenmymouthtoteaseherinresponse,butbeforeIcansayanything,Marcocomesrunninginfromthesecurityroom,out ofbreath.âVin-Vin âheshoutsthroughgasps.âYougotcompany,âhesaysatlast. Ifurrowmybrow.âWhatdoyoumean?â
Marcocatcheshisbreathbeforeresponding,âTwomenjustarrived,askingtospeakwithyou.â âWhatmen?âIdemand,growingimpatientwithhisvagueness.
âAcoupleofRussians,âMarcocontinues âTheyclaimtobefromtheIvanovfamilyâ MyheartskipsabeatatthementionoftheIvanovfamily.âDidtheysaywhytheyârehere?â
Marcoshakeshishead âNo,justthattheyâreonofficialbusinessandhaveamessageforyouâ âWhatthefuckdoesthatmean?âIgrunt,tossingmysandwichontotheplatebeforeme.Marcoshrugsinresponse.Iglance upatEva.AfterwhatIsabellaputherthrough,thelastthingIwanttodoisgethertiedupinsomesortoffamilymatteragain. âYoushouldprobablygo,âItellher Shelooksatme,concernetchedonherface.âAreyousuretheyârenothereforavalidreason?â Ishakemyhead,ignoringherassertion âMarco,canyoushowMs Martinezout?â
ShescoffsinresponsetohowIformallyaddressherandpullsherarmawaywhenMarcoreachesforit.âDonâtyoudare, Marco,âshesays,glaringatmycousin Inodathim,andhestepstotheside.
Evafocuseshergazeonme.âIâmabiggirl.Icanhandlemyselfjustfine,thankyou.ItoldAmeliaIwouldpackupanother loadfromherroomtoday,andthatâsexactlywhatIintendtodoâSheturnsandexitstheroomswiftly âYouwantmetogether,boss?âMarcoasks.HearingMarcorefertomeinsuchawaystillfeelsforeign. Ishakemyheadandstand,pushingtheplateawayfromme âYouheardher Shedoesnâtwanttoleaveâ I follow Marco back to the security room, watching him open the door. The two tall and muscular men stand at the receptiondesk,withdarksuitshuggingtheirframes ItrytorememberifIsawthematAmeliaâswedding,buttheentireevent wasablur.
âWhatdoyouwanttodo?âMarcoinquires,hiseyesfixedonme.
Iclearmythroat âThoroughlycheckthemforanyweapons,andiftheyareclean,showthemuptomystudyâ Mystudy.ThatfeltjustasawkwardasMarcoreferringtomeasboss.
IstareatthescreensasMarcoridesdowntheelevatorandfrisksthetwoRussiansbeforeescortingthemintotheelevator Igotomystudyandtakeadeepbreathtocomposemyself.Mymindraceswithpossiblereasonsfortheirvisit.Ameliaisat theforefront.Issheokay?
Whentheyentermystudy,Marcoshowsthemtotheseatsinfrontofmydesk.IofferagreetingbutdonotstandasIdonot wishthemtoviewthemselvesaswelcomeinmyhome.
âVincentKing,Ipresume?âthetallerofthetwoasks,hisaccentthick. Inodinresponse.âThatâsright.Andyouare?â
âMynameisDimitri,âheresponds,gesturingtowardtheshortermanbesidehim âThisismybrother,Yuriâ
âIâmsorryifthismaycomeacrossasnotbeingveryhospitable,butcanthetwoofyoupleasetellmewhatthefuckbrings youhere?âIask,hopingtocuttothechase
Dimitriclearshisthroat.âAlexeiIvanovhassentustodeliveryouaninvitation.â
MyheartsinksatthementionofAlexeiâsname Ihadhopedhisfamilywouldnâtinterfereinouraffairs,butmyhopeswere invain.IwouldneverwanttohurtAmelia,butIalsowillnottolerateherhusbandmeddlinginouraffairs.
âWhatinvitation?âIask,mytonelowanddangerousasIleanforwardinmyseat.
Dimitri glances atYuri before reachinginto his pocketand pullingouta square envelope He places itonthe deskand slides it toward me. âAlexei sends his regards and requests that youattend a dinner tomorrow night at his estate. He also wishestodiscussapossiblepartnershipbetweenourtwofamiliesâ
Inarrowmyeyesattheenvelope,hesitatingtotouchit.âAndifIrefuse?â
Dimitrishrugs âThatwouldbeyourchoice,Isupposeâ
âLastIchecked,Alexeiisnâtyourfamilyâsheadyet.Howwouldyourbossfeelabouthissonreachingouttome?âIpose thequestions,hopingtocreatesomeunrestintheranks.
âWeareactingonbehalfofAlexeiandourfamily,âDimitrirespondscoolly,notappearingtoberuffledbymyquestioning âOurbossisnotonlyawareofourvisitbuthassanctionedit.â
Isitbackinmychair andcontemplate myoptions Attendingthe dinner couldbe a trap,butrefusingthe invitationcould alsoleadtoretaliation.ItâsadelicatebalanceImustweighcarefully.ItâsbadenoughIhavetoworryaboutunrestwithinmy ownfamily,butitlooksliketheIvanovswillstillbeasmuchofaproblemasIfeared.
âIâllconsidertheinvitation,âIsayfinally.âButImakenopromises.â
Dimitrinods,standing.âThankyouforyourtime,Mr.King.â
As theyexitthestudy,Icanâthelpthesenseofuneasesettlinginmygut Ifollow thementotheelevator beforehanding themofftoMarcotoescortthemfromthebuilding.
As soonas the elevator doors close, Iturn, jumpingslightlywhenIfind Eva standingdirectlyinmypathwithher arms crossed.
âWhatdidtheywant?âsheasks.
âThatâsreallynotanyofyourconcern,âIanswerfirmlyasIsteparoundher,stridingtowardthestudy.
Shefollowsme,herfootstepsechoinginthehallway.âVincent,Imaynotbeinvolvedinyourbusiness,butIcareaboutyou andyoursister Ifsomethingiswrong,maybeIcanhelpâ
Istopinmytracksandturntofaceher,myeyescoldandhard.âAndthisisexactlywhyIdonâtwantyouinvolvedinmy life, Eva Youmayhave grownup around our family, butAmelia and Ibothgrew up inthe middle ofthis world We know exactlywhatweâregettingourselvesintowithallthis.â
âThatâsnotfair.AllIwanttodoishelpyou.â
Ishake myhead, sure thatEvaâs relationship withmysister makes her a liability âIdonâtneed your help, okay? Please trustthatitâsforyourowngood.â
Shescoffs âHowoftendoItellyouIcantakecareofmyself?Iâmnotsomedamselindistressâ
Inarrowmyeyesather,mypatiencewearingthin.âThatâsnotthepoint,Eva.Thisisnâtsomegame.Icanâtaffordtohave anyoneelseinvolved,especiallynotsomeonelikeyouâ
âWhatdoyoumean,someonelikeme?âsheasks,hereyesflashingwithindignation.
âYouknow exactlywhatImean,âIsnapback.âYouâretooinnocent,toopure.Ourworldwill eatyoualive;thatâswhyI needyoutostayawayâ
Shestaresatmeforamomentwithherlipssetinatightline.Suddenly,herexpressionhardens.âFine.Butyoumightwant tobecarefulhowmanytimesyoupushmeaway,Vincent Youmightonlyisolateyourselffromeveryonewhocaresaboutyouâ Iwatchasshewalksaway,feelingapangofguiltinmychest.ShedidnâtdeservethewayItreatedhereventhoughIknow thisisforherowngood Shedoesnâtunderstandthedangeroftryingtogetclosetome
âGohome,Eva,âIsayovermyshoulder,butsheignoresmeasIreturntomystudy.PickinguptheenvelopeDimitrileft,I carefullyopenit and pull out the invitationto Alexeiâs dinner. I read throughit, analyzingeveryword and everypossible meaning
Takingadeepbreath,Ileanbackinmychair,mymindracingwiththepossibilities.Icanâtaffordtomakeawrongmove, notwhenthestakesarethishigh Ineedtobecautiousbutalsopreparedforwhatevermighthappenatthedinner Ireachformyphone,hopingthatEvaisnâtwrongandIcanstilltrustmysister.IdialAmeliaâsnumber.Shepicksuponthe secondring,hervoicebreathless.
âVincent?Iseverythingokay?â
âI hope so,â I say. âI just had a visit fromtwo of Alexeiâs men. They delivered an invitation to a dinner heâs hosting
tomorrownight.â
ThereâsamomentofsilenceontheotherendofthelinebeforeAmeliaresponds,hervoicetight.
âOhgood,Icanâtwaittoseeyouâ
âIdidnâtsayIwascoming.âIchuff.âWhatâsthisfor?â
Shelaughs âIwouldthinkitâsobvious,butadinnerinvitationisusuallyfordinnerâ Igritmyteeth,frustrationbuildingwithinme.âAmelia,thisisserious.â
âVincent,âshesays,hervoicecalm âIpromise,itâsnothingbad Wewanttohavedinnerwithyouanddiscusssomefamily matters.â
âFamilymatters âIgasp,instantlywishingIhadsoftenedmyresponse.âWhichfamily,theoneyouabandonedorthenew one?â
âIâmyour sister,â she snaps. âWhywould youevensaysomethingso hurtful? Whatdo youthink? Iwould letAlexei do somethingtohurtyou?â
âYoucanâtblamemeforbeingcautious,âIreply.
âWhatever, do whatever youwant Alexei was justtryingto extend anolive branchbecause he loves me,â she exclaims beforeendingthecall.
Ihangup the phone and leanbackinmychair, mymind racing. Despite the gnawingdread inmygut, Icanâtsilence the desire to trust that Amelia would never do anything to put me in harmâs way In the end, I know I will likely accept the invitation.
Thismorning,MarcoâsperplexedexpressiongreetsmeasIopenthedoortomyoffice âBoss,Evaisatthedesk downstairs.ShouldIbuzzherup?âHescratchesthebackofhisneck,assurprisedbyherunexpectedarrivalasI am
Afterourargumentlastnight,Ididnâtexpectherpresencesoquickly,butpartofmeisrelieved.IhatetheideaofEvabeing upsetwithme.IneverimaginedhowlonelythehousefeelsafterAmeliaandAlexeimarried.Ameliaâsabsenceshonealight onhowaloneIreallyamnowthatbothofourparentsaregone.âOfcourse.TellherIâllbeinthekitchen,âIsayasIturnand makemywaythere.
AsIpourmyselfamugoffreshlybrewedcoffee,anideasuddenlylandsinmymind IwillsurpriseEvawithbreakfastas athank-youforallshehasdoneformelately.Shepracticallylivedatourplaceaftermyfatherâsmurder.WhenAmeliawalked downtheaisle,shecheckedinonmeeveryfewdaystoensureIwashandlingthetransitionofmysisterâswedding,nomatter how muchof anass I was. Sheâs one of the most lovingwomenI have known, and while she was mysisterâs best friend growingup,Ihavealwaysconsideredherafriendaswell,especiallyasanadult.
The smell oftoastfills the air as Icrackeggs into the sizzlingpan. Ihumto myself, focusingonthe satisfyingsound of cooking.Mythoughtsareinterruptedbythesoftcreakofthekitchenfloors.
âVincent? Whatare youdoing?â Evaâs voice is full ofamusementas she takes inthe sightbefore her Icansee her eyes widenwithsurprise,thentwinklewithdelight.
âIhopeyouârehungryâIgrinather
âYouârecooking?âsheaskswithdisbeliefinhervoice.
âDonâtsoundsoshocked.IthoughtIwouldmakeyousomefoodasalittlethank-youforeverythingyouâvebeendoingfor melately,âIexplain
Evachucklesandwalksovertothecounter.âButyoudonâtcook.â
Iactoffendedbyherstatement âThisfryingpaninmyhandwouldsayyouârewrongaboutthatâ âTouchĂŠ.Okay,whatcanIdotohelp?âsheasks,steppingupbesideme.
âSmashupthoseavocadosinthatbowlâInodtowardthewoodenbowlinthemiddleofthekitchenisland,returningmy focustotheeggscookinginthepan.âWeâllputthemonthetoast.â
âWow, arenât we fancytoday?â she teases, winkingat me as she grabs a forkfromthe drawer next to me to mashthe avocado Ilaughatherplayfultoneandamthankfulsheâsstillnotannoyedwithmyshortnesswithherlastnight
âOnlythebestformyfavoriteaccomplice,âIreply,flippingtheeggscarefully.Itfeelsgoodtosharethismomentoflevity withEva
Shelooksattheeggsandthenupatme.âHowdoyoumakeanegglaugh?â âOhmyGod,isthisoneofyourterriblejokes?â
Sheignoresmeassherevealstheanswer.âTellitayolk.â
Icanâthelpbutchuckleinresponse.âJesus,thatâsawful.â
Sheshrugs âItmadeyoulaughâ
âIguessitdid,âIsaybeforeadding,âIdidnâtexpectyoubacksosoon.â Evapausesheravocadomashingandlooksupatme,asmallsmileplayingonherlips âAmeliamayhavecalledmeâ âOfcourseshedid.âIrollmyeyes.
âShewantedtoknowifIknewwhetheryouwerecomingtodinnerattheirplacetonight.â
Mygrip onthe spatula tightens involuntarilyas annoyance flares up inside me. Whywould Amelia involve Eva inour familyaffairs?
âWhat the fuck?â I mutter under mybreathbefore shakingmyhead. âIâmsorry. She shouldnât be draggingyouinto our mess.â
âSheâsnotdraggingmeintoanything,âEvareplies,hervoicesoothing âYouârebothlikefamilyâ Iturntowatchassheworkstheforkthroughthesoftchunksofavocado.Shetucksastrandofherraven-blackhairbehind oneear,andIrealizeIâmstaring,butIdonâtlookaway
âBut,âshecontinues,âsinceweâretalkingaboutit,whynotletmeaccompanyyoutonight?Icanbeabufferbetweenyou allâ
âAbsolutelynot,âIretortfirmly.MyprotectivenessforEvaoverridesanyotheremotion. âWhynot?â
âWhatifitâsatrap?â
Evaburstsoutlaughing,andIcanâthelpbutsmileatthesound.âYouthinkyoursisterinvitingyoutodinnerisatrap?âShe shakesherhead,herlaughtersubsiding âYoureallyareoneofthemostparanoidpeopleIhaveevermet YouandIbothknow how muchshe loves you. Did youever thinkmaybe she and Alexei justwantto ensure thereâs no bad blood betweenall of you?â
As muchas itpains me toadmitit,she mighthave a point.Myinstincts tell me tokeepEva far awayfromanythingthat couldexposehertodanger,butmaybethisisanopportunitytomendtherelationshipbetweenourfamilies.
âFine,âIconcedereluctantly âIâllagreetogotodinner,butnopromisesonifIwillactuallygetalongwithAlexeiâ Evatiltsherhead,hereyeslightingupwithamischievousglint.âAndwhattimeshouldIbethere?â
Ilaugh,shakingmyheadatherpersistence âYouthinkyouâresoslick,donâtyou?Ineveragreedyoucouldcomealongâ Shepoutsplayfully,herbottomlipjuttingoutjustenoughtomakemereconsider.âPlease.Pretty,prettyplease.â âAlright,alright,âIconcede,unabletoresistherpleas.âMeetmeinthelobbyofmybuildingatseven.Youcanridewith me.â
âDeal!âsheexclaims,hersmilewideandvibrant. Suddenly,Evaâsnosescrunchesup,andshesniffstheair âDoyousmellsomethingburning?â
Webothturnourheadstowardthetoaster,nowemittinganominousplumeofsmoke.PanicsurgesasIrushover,yanking theblackenedtoastfromitsfierygrave âShit!ItâsruinedâIshoutasIpullitoutandtossitinthesink,runningwateroverthe smokingcharredsquares.
Evaburstsintolaughter,thesoundcontagiousandjoyful.âLikeIsaid,youdonâtcook.â âRealcute,âIhuff.
âHere,letmeputacoupleofnewslicesin,âsheoffers,stillgiggling.
Withonecrisisaverted,Ireturntothestove,onlytofindanotherdisasterwaitingforme âFuck!âIexclaim,annoyedwith myself.âTheeggsareoverdone.âFrustrated,Itossthemintothesinkaswell.
âVincentâ Amusement dances inEvaâs eyes âWill youplease sit downbefore youburnthe kitchento the ground? Iâll finishmakingbreakfast.â
Ioblige,grumblingasIsitatthekitchenisland.IwatchEvaeffortlesslycrackfresheggsintothepanbeforecheckingon the new slices ofbreadinthe toaster She moves withthe grace andskill ofa seasonedchef,makingme wonder how many othertalentssheâshiding.
âPromise me youâll stay close tonight,â I state as I watch her work, my concern for her safety outweighing my embarrassmentovermycookingmishap.âEvenifitâsnotatrap,youneverknowwhatmighthappen,andIneedtoknowyouâre safeâ
âAw,thatâskindofsweet,âshechimesbeforelookingatme.âIpromise.â
Sheflipstheeggswithpracticedeaseandglancesoveratme.
âTherewasactuallyanotherreasonformyvisit,âsheadmits,hervoicesoftandhesitant âUh-oh,âItease.âThatusuallymeanstroublewithyou.â
Asmilepeelsacrossherfaceassheremovesthetoastfromthetoasterandplacesasliceoneachplateontheisland She smears the avocado oneachslice, glancingup atme brieflybefore she continues. âIâve beenthinkingaboutyour issue with beingseenasthenewbossofthefamily,andIhadanideaâ
I laugh, unable to help myself. âEva, you may know more about cooking than I do, but you know nothing about my business.â
âMaybenot,âsheconcedes,âbuthearmeoutâShegaugesmyreactionbeforecontinuing âWhatifyouhostedaparty?You couldinviteallthefamilyassociatesandcreateavisualrepresentationofyoubeingincharge.â
Foramoment,Iâmtakenabackbyhersuggestion Iâvestruggledwithgainingsomecaposârespectintheorganization âAndwhatexactlywouldbeavisualrepresentationofmebeingincharge?âIask,notwantingtoadmitrightawaythata partycouldbetheperfectopportunitytoshowcasemyselfasaleader.
Evaturnsbacktothestove,pullsoverthefryingpan,andsettlesaperfectlycooked,over-easyeggontopofeachsliceof avocadotoast.Iwatchasshecrankssomesaltontopofeachpieceandthenslidesoneoftheplatesinfrontofme.
âWell,obviously,youwouldbestationedattheheadofthetable,âshesays.âThefood,theatmosphere,allofitwillspeak thatyouareyourfatherâsson.Itwillbeacoordinateddanceofperfection,andattheendofthenight,yougifteachofyourmen somethingthatsaysyouappreciatethemstickingbyyouafteryourdadâsdeathâ âAgift?Likewhat?â
Sheshrugs âIcanâtfigureeverythingoutforyou Youhavetodosomeofthisworkyourself Thatormakemethebossâ Shewinksatmeplayfully.
I study Evaâs face, searching for any sign of doubt or hesitation But all I see is her unwavering determination and confidence inher idea.Dammit,sheâs right.This partycouldbe the perfectopportunitytoestablishmyselfas the new boss. âAstemptingaspassingthereinstoyoumightbe,IthinkIâmgood,âIreply.âButIlovetheidea.â âReally?â
Inod.âAbsolutely,butIâllneedyourhelptopullitoff.Willyouhelpmeplanit?â
âOfcourse,âshereplieswithouthesitation,hereyessparklingexcitedly âIâdbemorethanhappytohelpâ âThank you,â I say sincerely, my eyes meeting hers. âI really appreciate your help. Not just with the party . . . with everythingâ
She smiles warmly. âYouknow how muchImiss Amelia since sheâs beenso busywithher new life. Iâmhappyto have somethingtooccupymytimeandhelpoutafriend.â
TherearenâtmanypeopleIcanbevulnerablewithandshow asoftnessto AsthesonofoneofthemostpowerfulMafia bossesinNewYork,Iknowitâsdangeroustoshowweakness.Evaisnâtpartofthisworld,though.Ihavebeenabletobethe manIwishIcouldbewithothersbutdonâtdare
Asweeat,wediscussplansfortheparty,brainstormingideas.Ifindacertaincomfortintheeasinessofourconversation. âLetâsmakesurethispartyleavesnodoubtthatIâmtheexactmanwhoshouldbeleadingthisfamily,âIsay,takinganother biteofherdeliciousbreakfast.
âAbsolutely,âEvaagrees,herenthusiasmcontagious.âIthinkitâsessentialthatitâscleareveryoneistobeinattendanceso therewillbenomistakinghowmuchsupportyouhaveâ
Ilaugh,teasingher.âDamn,Listentoyou.MaybeIshouldmakeyoumynewunderboss.â
Shesmilesandshrugs âIwould,butIdonâtthinkthatwouldworkoutverywellforyouâ âAndwhyisthat?âIask,myeyesfixedonher.
Sheflashesmeadevilishgrin.âEveryoneissuretolikememorethanyou,andthenwherewouldyoube?Youcanâthave everyonewantingyoursecond-in-commandtobetheoneincharge.â
Ismirk,shakingmyheadatherplayfulbanter.âIthinkyouunderestimatemycharisma,Eva.â
Sheraisesaneyebrow,amischievousglintinhereye âIsthatso?Idonâtknow,Ihavenâtseenityetâ
Ichuckle,enjoyingthefriendlyback-and-forthbetweenus.âWell,ifyoukeephelpingmelikethis,maybeIâllfinallyhave thechancetoshowitoffâ
Evaâseyesshinewithexcitement.âIcanâtwait.â
Aswefinishourmealandcontinuediscussingtheparty,IfeelagrowingsenseofgratitudeforEvaâssupport.Shebelieves inmeandwilldowhateverittakestohelpmesucceed âDowehavethispartyhere?âIask,meetingEvaâseyes.
âAbsolutelyâShenods,enthusiasmlightingupherface âItâllbeawaytoshoweveryonethattheempirenolongerbelongs toyourfather,andyouâreyourownmannow.â
âItâssettled,then Ihaveeveryoneâscontactinformationinmyofficeâ
âIâmsoexcitedaboutthis,â Eva declares,finishingthe lastbite ofher meal.âThere will be noquestionleftinanyoneâs mindthatyouareembracingyournewtitle.â
Itakeinthelastbiteofmytoastandavocadomixture,lettingitlingeronmytongue,itsflavorsmeldingperfectly Ilookat Eva,eagertoexpressmygratitude.âBesidessavingmybreakfastdisaster,youmightberescuingmeagainwiththisparty.â Her eyes soften, and a warmsmile spreads across her face âOh, I amdefinitely savingyour ass onboth counts,â she replies.âButthatâs whatfriends do.Donâtforget,wehavethatdinner atAmeliaâs tonight.Iâll seeyouinthelobbyatseven, right?â
âHowcouldIpossiblyforget?âIstillhavemixedfeelingsaboutattending,butifEvaiswillingtoaccompanyme,itmight notbesobad.âIâllseeyouthen.â
âGreat,âshebeams,risingfromherseatandgatheringthedishesintothesink âIactuallyhavetogetgoing Ipromisedmy momIwouldhelpherwithsomeerrands.â
âAlwaysthelittlehelper,âItease,walkinghertotheelevator Weexchangebriefpleasantriesbeforesheleavesmealone withmythoughts.
WithEva gone, Iturnmyattentionto more importantmatters. Withthe change inleadership, there has apparentlybeena rumblingamongthecaposthatIsimplycanâtallowtogounanswered.Thequestionis,howdoIbestsendamessagewithout upsettingthealreadydelicatebalance?
AsIstepbackintomyoffice,IsitatmydeskandpulloutmyfatherâsaddressbooksoIcanmakeacopyforEva. Evamayhavebeenjokingwhenshementionedherbeingtheunderboss,buttherewassometruthinwhatshesaid.Thereis strengthinhavinganinnercircle Iwastheunderboss,andmyfatheralsohadhisconsigliere IthoughtAmeliawouldbemy underboss,buthermarriagetoAlexei endedthatidea.IfIhopetokeepthewolvesatbay,Ineedtonamebothanunderboss andaconsigliere IthastobemenItrust,andthecaposwillaffordtherespecttheydeserve AsmuchasItrytothinkofsomeone,theonlynamethatcomestomindisAmelia.Maximjustturnedeleven,anddespite beingmyhalf-brother,thetruthisIbarelyknowhim Ontopofthat,aftermyfatherâsmurder,Maximâsmotherpreferstokeep himasfarawayfromthisfamilyasshecan,andIdonâtblameher.
AsIthinkitover,myeyeswandertothephotoofmyfatheronmydesk,apangofsadnessandangerhittingmychest.He leftmewiththismess,andIhavetocleanituponmyown Iknowthisisnâthisfault,butIcanâthelpbuthatehimforcreating somuchself-doubtinmyself.Ishakemyhead,tryingtoclearmythoughts.Ineedtofocusonthepresent,onwhatIcancontrol.
ThemomentIwalkintothelobby,myeyesfindher Evastandsatthefrontdesk,thesoftglowofthechandelier above castinganethereal halo around her. Her cocktail dress hugs her curves, radiatinganaura ofelegance.
SheâschattingwithMarco Hisbrowfurrowsasifheâsconcentratingoneverywordfromhermouth âBuonasera,Eva,âIsay,approachingthem.Sheturnstowardme,her lipscurvingintoasmile,sendingfamiliar warmth throughme.
âVincent!âsheexclaims.âYoulookdashing.â
âGrazie,andyoulookwonderful.âMygazelingersonher,takinginthesightbeforeme.EventhoughEvahasbeenafamily friendforaslongasIcanremember,IwouldbelyingifIsaidIâdnevernoticedhowbeautifulsheis IturntoMarco,whohasbeenapprehensiveaboutourdinneratAlexei IvanovâsplacesinceItoldhimaboutitearlierin theday âHey,boss,âhesays Iâmstillnotusedtohimreferringtomelikeheusedtorefertomyfather âAreyousureIcanât convinceyoutoletmetagalongwithyoutwotonight?â
âMarco,everythingwillbefine.Trustme.âItrytoreassurehimeventhoughIâmnotconvinced.
âGoingtoAlexeiâsalone...itdoesnâtsitrightwithme,âMarcoadmits,concernetchedonhisface.
âIwonâtbealone.IwillhavethebeautifulMs.Martinezonmyarm,âIsay,smilingather.Shedropsherchin,andIseeher slightlyblushinresponse IlikethatIelicitthissortofreactionfromher
âDonâtworry,ifanyonemesseswithhim,Iâllcometohisrescue,âEvachimes.
âOfthat,Ihavenodoubt,âMarcosays
âWeâvehandledfarworsesituationsthanadinnerwithmysisterandherhusband,âIreplyfirmly.
âYes,sir,âMarcoreluctantlyagrees,understandingthesituationhasbeendecided.
âShallwe?âIask,turningmyattentiontoEvaandextendingmyarmtoher Shedelicatelyplacesherhandonmyforearm, andweapproachtheexit.IsilentlytellmyselfthatifEvabelievesinthegoodintentionsofAmeliaandAlexei,perhapsIcan too atleastfortonight
Aswewalktowardthetowncarwaitingatthecurb,Evaâsgriponmyarmtightens.âVincent,thankyouforattendingthis dinnerwithsuchanopenmindâ
MymindraceswiththoughtsofwhatAlexeimighthaveinstoreforme,butknowingthisiswheremymindiswillserveto donothingbutmakeEvaworry.Inodwithatight-lippedsmile,hopingshewilldropthetopic.
Shedoesnât
âIâmcertainthatAmeliaandAlexonlywantamazingthingsforyou,âsheinsists,hergazeunwaveringasshelooksintomy eyes
âIfthatâs the case,there wonâtbe anyproblems,â Isay,tryingtosoundmore confidentthanIfeel.Iopenthe door tothe towncar,andweslideintothebackseat Nico,themandrivingfor theevening,pullsawayfromthecurbafter Igivehima silentnod.
Evashiftsgearsandstartsdiscussingthepartypreparations,andIâmrelievedtotalkaboutanythingotherthanmysisterand her new rival-Mafia-ganghusband âSo Iwas thinkingabout the music for your party, and Ithinkyoushould do something differentfromwhatyourparentsalwaysdid.IgetthatyourdadwasintosomeoftheItalianclassics,butmaybeitisimportant toshoweveryonewhocomesthattherewillbeayouthfulchangewithyouincharge Whatdoyouthink?âThequestionhangs intheair,butIcantellsheâstryingtolightenthemood.
Ishootherasmall,appreciativesmile.âItrustyourjudgmentwhenitcomestothesethings.â
âDidyouhaveachancetogetaguestlisttogether?âshepresses,determinedtokeeptheconversationgoing.
âIdid.Maybeyoucanswingbytomorrowandpickitup.â
âSoundsperfect,âshesays,visiblyrelievedtoseemeengagedintheconversation.
Aswecontinuediscussingthepartypreparations,asenseofcalmwashesoverme.Evaâspresencehasalwaysaffectedme, andfornow,itâsenoughtokeepmymindofftheuncertaintiesthatawaitusatAmeliaandAlexeiâshome
DespitemybesteffortstofocusonEvaâsquestionsabouttheupcomingparty,mymindwandersbacktowhatAlexmight want with me Itâs frustrating I want nothing more than to be present and enjoy this moment with her, but the weight of responsibilitysitsheavyonmyshoulders,refusingtobudge.
âVincent?âEvaâsvoicepullsmebacktothepresent,anoteofconcernlacingherwords âSorry,âIapologize,tryingtodispelthelingeringthoughts.âWhatdidyousay?â
âIaskedifyouhadanythoughtsaboutthemenu,âsherepeatspatiently,hergazeneverleavingmine.
âAh,rightâImullitoverforamoment âFood IthinkitwillbeperfectaslongasitisdeliciousandItalianâ
âOfcourse,âsheagrees,asmileplayingatthecornersofherlips.âIwouldnâtdreamofhiringanythinglessthanthebest formydearfriendâ
âMuchappreciated.âIchuckle,butmylaughterfeelshollowtomyownears.Evamustnoticetoo,becauseherexpression softens,andshestudiesmecloselyforamomentbeforelaunchingintoananecdote
âYouknowhowwetalkedaboutwhatmusictohaveearlier?âShegiggles.âDoyourememberthatonetimewhenwewere teenagers, and Amelia convinced us all to formour ownband?â she asks, a mischievous glintinher milk-chocolate brown eyes
Icanâthelpbutlaughatthememory.âOhGod,howcouldIforget?Iwasstuckonthedrumswhileyoutwotriedtosing.â âHey,wewerenâtthatbad!âEvaprotests,feigningoffense âSure,âIteased,smirking.âIfbyânotbadâyoumeanâcompletelytone-deaf.ââ âAlright,somaybe we werenâtdestinedfor musical greatness,â she concedes,laughingwithme.âButitwas fun,wasnât it?â
âDefinitely,âIagree,theweightonmyshouldersfeelinglighterasthelaughterbubbleswithinme.âEvenwithhowfuckedupthingswerewithmyfamily,westillmanagedtohavesomegoodtimes,didnâtwe?â
âAbsolutely.âEvanods,hergenuineandradiantsmilewarmingmefromtheinsideout.âItwashardtoeventhinkstraight inmyhousegrowingup TherewasneveramomentofpeacewithallmysiblingsexceptwhenIwasoverattheKingsâhouseâ Ichuckle,wonderinghow anyonecouldthinktheKingsâhomewasapeaceful retreat.Fornow,though,Iallow myselfto getlostinthememory,holdingontothecomfortitbrings.
âHereâstomoreunforgettablemoments,âIsay,raisinganimaginaryglass.
âCheerstothat,âEvaagrees,clinkingherinvisiblegobletagainstmine.Andforabitlonger,Iletmyselfenjoythewarmth ofhercompany,pushingtheshadowsofuncertaintytothebackofmymind Evapausesandleansbackinherseat,lookingmeupanddown.
âWhat?âIask,curiouswhatshemightbethinking Shesmiles.âNothing,Ijustcanâtgetoverhowwellyoucleanup.â
Ilookdownatmysuitbeforeglancingbackather.âThanks,butthisisnothingcomparedtoyou,Eva.Youlookabsolutely stunningtonightâ
Hercheeksflushabeautifulshadeofpink,andIthinkhowluckyanymanwouldbetohavesomeonelikeherbyhisside. Maybeoneday,IâllfindsomeonewhocanoffersupportwhenIneeditmost âAlright,donâtgettoocarriedawaywiththecompliments,âEvajokes,playfullyrollinghereyes.
ThecarslowstoastopoutsideofAlexeiâsbuilding Itakeamomenttosurveytheexterior,myprotectiveinstinctskicking in.âSeriously?âIscoff.âAlexeicouldnâtfindasaferplaceforAmeliatolive?Thisisjustbeggingfortrouble.â Evalaughs,shakingherhead.âAreyoukiddingme?Thisisoneofthemostexpensiveareasinthecity,andthisbuildingis amazingâ
âButthereâsnosecurity,âIargue. Shesighs,givingmeaside-eyedglance âNoteveryonewantstoliveinafortresslikeyoudoâ âIâmjustsaying,youâdthinkhewouldwanttodoeverythinginhispowertokeephiswifesafe,âIpointout. Evasmilesatmebeforesheadds,âAmeliaseemstobeperfectlysafehere Theimportantthingissheâshappy,right?â âIsuppose,âIgrumble,knowingthatdeepdown,Evahas avalidpoint as muchas itpains metoadmitit.Iâvealways wantedmylittlesistertofindhappiness.Ineverimagineditwouldbeinthearmsoftheenemy.
Thecoolnightairwrapsarounduslikeashroudasthebuildingloomsaboveus,itsshadowswallowingthestreetbelow AsmuchasIwanttotrustEvaâswords,Icanâthelpbutfeelthegnawingapprehensiontighteningmychest.Unfortunately,every situationIfindmyselfinsincemyfatherâsmurderhasfeltlikedangerlurksjustbelowthesurface IinstructNicotoparkandtellhimhecanwaitoutsideAlexeiâsflat,incasethingsgosideways.
âOhmyGod,willyoujustcomeon,âEvasays,takingmyhandandpullingmeawayfromthecar.âCanyoutrytoenjoythe evening?IhavebeendyingtocatchupwithAmelia.ItfeelslikeInevergetmorethantenminuteswithherbeforesheâsbeing pulledinsomeotherdirection.â
âWhatdidItellyou?Shealreadycanâtfindtimeforthepeopleshesupposedlycaresfor,âIsayasweapproachthelobby. âVincent,stop.Imeanit.Everythingwillbefineifyouâllquitbeingsuchasourpuss.â
IchuckleandglanceatEva,thelightfromthelobbycastingabeautifulglowonherbronzeskin âSourpuss?â Shehuffs and,releasingmyhand,wraps her armaroundme,squeezingittightly.âJusttrytobe onyour bestbehavior in thereforme Okay?â
Igive Eva a playful smile, appreciatingher effortto lightenthe mood. âAlright, for you,â Iagree, squeezingher armin return âButonlybecauseyouaskedsonicelyâ
WhenweenterthelobbyofAlexeiâsbuilding,itâsnothingliketheluxuryofthebuildingwegrewupin.Inourbuilding,a grandchandelierhangsfromtheceiling,castingasoftglowonthemarblefloorsofourlobby.Here,though,everythinghasa modernandminimalistfeeltoit Thewoodtonesarewarm,butthefeelisforeigntome Eva guides me toward the elevator. Her warmand reassuring touch grounds me, and for a moment, I allow myself to believe her to hope that tonight might onlybe anordinarydinner withfamily evenifIknow better thanto let myguard downcompletely.
Whenweentertheelevator,IlookedaroundasEvapullsabadgecardoutofherpurseandswipesit Whenthelightonthe boxturnsgreen,shepressesthebuttontothetwenty-firstfloor.IscoffatwhatIsee.
âWhat?âsheasksdefensively.âIâmherbestfriend.Ofcourse,Ihaveabadge.â
âIdidnâtsayanything ButIamherbrotherâ
âYouâretheonewhoinsistsonnotmakingnicewithherhusband,âEvaargues,andIhavenodefense.
âWhatever Iftheyârehandingoutbadgestojustanyone,thereâsnowayinhellAmeliaissafehereâ
âJustanyone?Firstoff,Iâmnotjustanyone,andyouknowthat.Second,itâsavisitorbadge.Itonlyworksiftheyapprove itsuseinadvance.Nobodycanaccessanyoftheupperfloorswithoutasecuritybadge.Sheâsfine.Youâllhavetoacceptthat keepingyoursistersafeisnotyourjobanymore.ShehasAlexeiforthat.â
HerwordsstingmorethanIbelievesheintendedthemto.âYeah,well,evenwithallofmyfatherâssecuritymeasures,he stillendedupdead,murderedinhisownhomeâ
Her eyes search mine, unwavering. âIâm sorry But . . . â She hesitates before continuing. âThatâs exactly my point. Securitydoesnâtguaranteesafety Yourdadthoughthewasuntouchable WhynotjustappreciatethatAlexeibringshappiness toAmelia?â
âAlright,âIconcede,swallowinghardasmystomachchurns.âForAmelia,Iâlltrytoseethegoodinhim.Butdonâtexpect toomuch.Iâmrarelywrongaboutpeople.â
Evasmiles.âNoted.â
As we ascend, Iglimpse myreflection, the weightofmyresponsibilities etched into everyline onmyface Iwonder if Ameliawillseetheweightofmynewresponsibilitieswhenshelooksatme.
Theelevatordings,andthedoorsslideopen,revealingapairofstern-facedsecurityguardswaitingforus Iclenchmyjaw astheyfallinstepbesideEvaandme,theirheavyfootstepsechoingdownthecorridor.AsweapproachAlexeiâsdoor,oneof theguardsholdsuphishand.
âMaâam,weneedtopatyoudown,âhesaysgruffly,reachingforEvaâspurse âHere,âshesays,handingitoverwitharesignedsigh.Butbeforetheguardcantouchme,Isnap. âFuckoff,âIsnarl âIâmnotcominginwithoutprotection Nobodyistouchingmygunâ âVincent,âEvamurmurs,hereyespleadingformetostaycalm.Buttheangersimmersbeneathmyskin.
âTheyinvitemehereandexpectmetowalkinwithoutanyprotection?Comeon,weâreleaving,âIcommand,motioningto Eva.
âSir,wehaveourorders,âtheguardinsists,butIdonâtbackdown.Weârelockedinatensestandoffwhenthedoorswings open,revealingAmelia
âVincent!â she exclaims, her eyes lightingup withjoy. She throws her arms around myneck, momentarilydefusingthe tension âIâvemissedyousomuch!â
âAmelia,âIsaytightly,âtheywantmygun.Iâmnotcominginwithoutit.â Shelaughs,shakingherheadatmystubbornness Turningtotheguard,shesays,âHeâsfamily,andfamilygetstocarryâ The guard starts to argue, butthenAlexei appears behind Amelia. His voice is firmas he reminds the men, âSheâs Mrs. Ivanov,andwhatshesaysgoes.â
Theguardfallssilent,andIâmenviousoftherespecthecommands Idesirethesamefrommymen,butIcanâtbesureitâs authentic.âVincent!Welcome!Iâmmakingrisottotonight.Ameliasaiditwasyourfavorite.â
âDoyouevenknowhowtocook?âIretortskeptically,eyeingAlexeiupanddown
âVincent,âEvachidessoftly,herexpressionpleadingformetoplaynice.âBenice!Itâsreallythoughtfulofthemtodothis. Andbesides,doIneedtobringupyourrecentadventureswithcooking?â
âWhatâsthisaboutyoucooking?âAmeliagaspsindisbelief.
âNothing,âIreply,eyeingEva.
Alexeichuckleswithaglimmerofamusementinhiseyes.âItâsalright.Ilikeamanwithdiscerningtaste.Imaynotbeas skilledasyoursisterinthekitchen,butIliketothinkIwonâtdisappoint.â
Iraiseaneyebrow,stillskepticalofhisabilities âWeâllseeaboutthat,âIsaywithahintofchallenge
Amelia grabs Alexeiâs armas we move into the apartmentdecorated withsleekfurniture and modernartpieces. âHeâs beingmodest,âsheannounces âHisrisottorivalsanyIâvehadinthecityâ âGreat,âIaddflatly.âSowhydidyouwantusheretonight,anyway?â
âCanwe save business until after dinner?â Amelia asks, exasperated She releases Alexei before linkingarms withEva andmeandguidingustowardthediningroom.âIâvemissedyoubothsomuch!Letâscatchup,okay?â
Aswesettleintoourseats,Alexeiemergesfromthekitchen,hisarmsladenwithsalad,bread,andsteamingrisottobowls. Hesetsthemdownonthetablebeforeus,beamingwithpride âAmeliaandIaresoexcitedtohaveyoubothasourfirstguests sincethewedding!âhedeclares.
Thegenuinehappinessinmysisterâseyesmakesmebitebackanyfurthersnarkycomments
âIâmso excited to tryyour cooking,â Eva says as Alexei serves eachofus. âThis looks and smells amazing.â Iwaitfor Alexei to sitand have the firstbite before Itrymine The risotto is surprisinglydelicious, and Ienjoythe meal despite my earlierreservations.
âTellmeeverythingthatâsbeengoingonwithyoutwo,âAmeliasays,shiftinghergazebetweenEvaandme.âIâvemissed somuchsincetheweddingandhoneymoonâ
âMaybebecauseyoutookathree-monthhoneymoon,âIgrumble,scoopinginanotherhealthy-sizedbiteoftherisotto.
IgruntwhenIfeelEvakickmeunderthetable,andshedeliversaside-eyedglareinmydirection âIknowI,forone,am jealousyouspentsomuchtimeinItaly.Ibetitwasamazing.â
âMaybeforAmelia,butAlexei probablymissedhishomeland.Iwassurprisedthetwoofyoudidnâtspendsometimein Russiaonyourtravels,âItaunt,staringatAlexei.
âIt reallywas beautiful,â Amelia beams, ignoringmystatement completely. âBut I was prettyhomesickbythe time we leftâ
âAmelia,Iâvemissedyousomuch,âEvagushes,her facelightingupjoyfully.âIcanâtwaittohear all aboutyour lifeas Mrs AlexeiIvanovâ
Thementionofthatnamecausesaslighttwitchinmyjaw,butwhenIcatchEvaâsknowingglare,Iswallowmyprideand forceasmile.âYes,Amelia.Dotellushowmarriedlifehasbeentreatingyou.â
âLetâssee,âAmeliabegins,twirlingastrandofhairaroundherfingerasshethinks.âWell,itâsdefinitelyanadjustment,but agoodone.Iâmstill gettingusedtobeingcalledMrs.Ivanov.ButAlexei has beenwonderful.Heâs caringandattentive.He makessureIhaveeverythingIneedâ
Alexeiâseyesarefixedonmysisterwithanadoringgaze.âAmeliaismyrock,âhesays,hisvoicefilledwithsincerity.âI donâtthinkanyoneelsecouldeverunderstandwhatitâsliketocomefromtheworldwelivein,yaknow?âHelooksupatme whenheasksthequestion.
âIdoubtourlivesarethatsimilar,âIreplyfirmly.
Alexeiâssmilefaltersmomentarily,butheshrugsitoff âIthinkyouâdbesurprised,âhesayscasually,sippingwine Inarrowmyeyesathim,suddenlyfeelingasurgeofsuspicion.âIdoubtthat,âIreply,myvoicelacedwithskepticism. Ameliaplaces ahandonmyarm,her voicegentle âVincent,please Weâreheretoenjoyameal together,notantagonize eachother.â
Irritatedbyhowquicklyshecomestohisdefense,Iignoreherplea,leaningbackinmychairandcrossingmyarms âFine, Iâllplaynice,butdonâtthinkforasecondthatItrustyou,Alexei.â
He chuckles softly, seeminglyunaffected bymywords. âTrustis earned,â he replies calmly. âAnd Ihave no intentionof betrayingAmeliaâstrustoryoursâ
Ireluctantlyexhaleadeepbreathbeforeadding,âIfyousayso.â
Amelia shifts inher seatawkwardly âOhmyGod, Vincent, Itold Alexthe storyaboutwhenwe were younger, and we wentwithDaddyoverononeofhistripstoItaly.RememberthattimewesnuckintooldmanGrimaldiâsvineyard?âsheasks, laughing uncomfortably as she attempts to change the subject âWe thought we were so clever, stealing his grapes I was convincedwewouldcollectenoughgrapestotakethemhomeandsmashthemtomakeourownwine.â
âUntilhecameafteruswiththatshotgun!âIadd,unabletostopmyselffromlaughing.
âIâveneverrunsofastinmylife!âAmeliaexclaims âWhatdograpessoundlikewhentheycomplain?âEvainterjects.
âWhat?âIask,lookingatherwithaconfusedstare
âItâsajokethatoneofthewomeninmyunitatworktoldme.Yourstoryremindedmeofit,âsheexplainsbeforerepeating. âWhatdograpessoundlikewhentheycomplain?â
Ichuckle.âIdonâtknow.Whatdotheysoundlike?â
âWine,âsheanswers,beamingasmilefromeartoearasshelooksaroundthetable.Weallbegintolaugh.
âSee,sheâssodangadorable,âAmeliasays,lookingoveratAlexei.âIsnâtshe?â
âHowaboutthetimeweconvincedEvatotryherhandatpickpocketing,âIinterject,smirkingatthememory.
âOh,Iâvegottohearthis,âAlexeichimes
Evashakesherhead,asmirkhidingbeneaththesurface.âYoutworeallyaresuchterriblefriends.HowisitInevercame tomysensesandstoppedhangingoutwiththebothofyou?â
âShewas sonervous,sheendedupgrabbingtheguyâs walletandthenhandingitrightbacktohim!âAmeliaadds as we bothstartlaughingharderatthememory
âHey!â Eva protests,feigningindignation.âYoutwosetme up!Iknew Ishouldâve never listenedtoyour schemes.â She turnsherattentiontoAlexei.âTheytoldmethatbecauseIdidnâtgrowupinafamilyliketheirs,Icouldonlyhangoutwiththem ifIcommittedacrime Thatway,theycouldtrustmebecausetheywouldhavedirtonmeâ
âIstill canâtbelieveyouboughtthat,âItease,feelingthetensionfromearlier dissipate.For amoment,Iforgetaboutthe weightofmyresponsibilitiesandthedangerthatlurksaroundeverycorner,perhapsevenatthisverytable
Theclinkofglassesstillechoesinmyearsasweleavetheremnantsofastraineddinnerbehindus Thetransition fromthediningroomtothelivingroomfeelslikesteppingfromonebattlefieldintoanother.Icansensetheshift inmood thewallsofthisnewsettingaresteepedinexpectation,theairthickwithunsaidwords
âShallwemakeourselvescomfortable?âAmeliaâsvoiceisasoothingmelodyagainstthedissonanceofourgathering.She andEvaaretheonlytwopeoplewhohaveeverbroughtoutthesoftersideofme.
Igruntinresponse,trailingthegroup.Alexeitakesthelead,Ameliaathisside,theirshouldersbrushingoccasionally a silentaffirmationoftheirunity.Ilag,mystepsheavy,mymindheavier.Icanâtshakethefeelingthateachsteptowardthesofas islikewadingdeeperintoquicksand
âVincent,comesitnexttome,âEvasuggests,pattingthecushionbesideher.
âThanks,IthinkIâllstand,âImutter,positioningmyselfwithmybacktothecoldmarbleofthefireplace Fromhere,Ican watchthemall Alexeiwithhisbackstraight,poisedwiththatdamnassurednesshecarrieslikeashield;Amelia,herdelicate handsclaspedinherlap,hereyeswideandexpectant.
âIseverythingalright,Vincent?âAmeliaventures,anoteofconcernthreadingthroughherwords.
âFine,âIsnap,sharper thanIintended.Iquicklyglanceaway,fixingmygazeonanabstractpaintingabovethemantel anythingtoavoidlockingeyeswithAlexei Myarmscrossovermychest,abarrierIerectwithoutthought Ineverintendedto letmyguarddownasmuchasIalreadyhave.
âYouknowthisisasafespace,âAlexeisaysjokingly,hisever-so-slightRussianaccentwrappingaroundthewords,giving themanedgeIfindgrating.
âIâll keepthatinmind,âIreply.Itâs notthatIdonâtwanttotalk.Iâmafraidofwhatmightspill outifIstart.Hetookmy sisterfromme,andwhileIagreedtoallowit,itdoesnâtmeanIhavetobehappyaboutit
âHeâsjusttryingtobenice,âEvachimesin,hervoicesoftbutfirm.
âNice,âIecho,lettingthewordhangbetweenus âComeon,Vin.Donâtbelikethis,âAlexeiimplores.
âLikethis?âIscoff âAndwhatdoeslikethisexactlymean?âIpushofffromthefireplacetoclosethedistance,butnotthe gapbetweenus.CatchingEvaâsdisapprovingglare,Isitbesideher,oppositethem,mybodystillcoiledtight,readytospring intodefenseorattack.
âDinner was so nice Letâs notruinit, okay?â Amelia pleads, reachingouther hand ina gesture ofpeace Icansee the trembleinherfingers,butherfaceremainsacalmmask.
âWhatever,âIsay,keepingmytonelevel Iâmawhirlwindofthoughtsandsuspicions,wonderinghowmuchofthisunityis afacade.
Thesilencehangsheavyintheair,atangiblecloakthatsuffocateseverycorner ofthemodernlydecoratedlivingroom I leanback,mygazesweepingoverAlexeiandAmelia,whosittogetherlikesomeunifiedfront.Evasnugglesinnexttome,her warmthcontrastingwiththechillthatâssettledinsideme.
Ilistenasthesmalltalkintheroomcontinuesuntil,finally,myimpatienceoverwhelmsme
âAlright,âIsay,myvoicecuttingthroughthechatterwiththeprecisionofaswitchblade.âIappreciatethedeliciousmeal, butitâsprobablytimewediscusswhyyouaskedmehere PerhapsyouladiesshouldexcuseAlexeiandmesowecandiscuss whateverbusinesshewantstodiscusswithme.â
Alexei meets myeyes brieflybefore lookingaway, butAmelia doesnâtflinch. Thereâs steel inher spine, a resolve Iâve seenweather manystorms.Her followingwords comeoutsteadyandunflinching.âThereâs noreasonfor Evaandmenotto stay.Wewerenâtexactlyahundredpercentupfrontaboutwhatwewantedtotalktoyouabout...â
Myfingers tightenagainstthe seatâs leather, nails nearlypiercingthe material. âAnd here we go.â Myvoice drips with arrogance.Iknewtherewasmoretothismeetingthantheyhadinitiallydisclosed.
Ameliashakesherhead âItâsnotlikethat,bigbrother Webroughtyouherebecausewewantedtotalkaboutourfamilyor atleasthowyouwillplayintowhatourfamilywillbe.âThewordechoesthroughtheroom,bouncingoffthewalls.
âWhatareyoutalkingabout?âIdonâtbothertoshieldmygrowingimpatience IwatchAmeliaandAlexeilookateachotherandthenbackatme.âWeâvedecidedwereallywanttostartafamily.Butwe donâtwanttobringababyintothesamekindoflifethatweallgrewupinâ
Igrimaceandshrugatmysister.âAndwhatthehelldoesanyofthishavetodowithme?â
Ameliaâs eyes softenwithamixofsadness anddetermination.âVincent,youârefamily.Andwewantyoutobeapartof this Wewantyoutobeinvolvedinourchildâslife Wewantyoutobetheiruncleâ
Iscoffatherwords,myskepticismnolongercontained.âWhatexactlydoyouwantfromme,Amelia?Youmarriedtheheir toarivalfamily Youmadethischoice,notmeâ
Ameliatakesadeepbreath,hervoicesteadybutlacedwithemotion.âIunderstandyourangerandresentmenttowardAlex. Itâsnotyourfault Ourfatherraiseduswiththathatredâ
âDonâtyoudarespeakaboutourfather.HewouldberollingoverinhisgraveifheknewyouchosetheIvanovsoveryour ownfamily,âIwarn.
âIdidnâtchooseAlexoveryou,canâtyouseethat?âshecries âIknowitâsnoteasyforyoutoacceptthis,butAlexandI bothloveyou.â
Ileanforward,andthefirecracklessoftlynearby,mirroringmyturmoil âWhydoesanyofthismatter?â
Ameliaâseyeswellupwithtears,butshemaintainshercomposure.âBecausewewantyoutobeapartofourchildâslife. Wewantourchildtoknowtheiruncleandconnecttotheirrootsdespitethedifferencesinourpaths.â
Ishakemyheadindisbelief.âThisismadness.Youâreaskingmetoembracethefamilywhohasbeenourenemyforyears. Howcanyouexpectmetodothat?â
Ameliaâsvoicetremblesasshespeaks,hervulnerabilityseepingthroughthecracksofhercomposedfacade âIknowitâs hardfor youtounderstand,butAlexisnothisfamilyâssin,justlikeIamnotours.Wewanttobreakthecycleofhatredand buildsomethingbetterforourchildâ
Istareather,grapplingwithconflictingemotions.Myheartyearnsforreconciliation,forunitywithinourfracturedfamily, butIcanâthelpbutthinkhownaĂŻvemysisteris.
Butdeepwithinme,asmallpartofmysoulstirswiththepossibilityofredemption.Maybe,justmaybe,mysisterisonto something. Perhaps there is a chance to mend the broken bonds and rewrite the narrative that has plagued our family for generations
Itakeamomenttoconsiderherwords,togazeintohertear-filledeyesandseetheflickerofhope.Slowly,Iunclenchmy fists,releasingthetensionthatconsumedmemomentsbefore âAmelia,âIsay,myvoicesofternow,âIcanâtpromisewewill everbeonebighappyfamily.Butifyoutrulybelievethatthischildwillmakeyouhappy,Iwilldomybesttofigureoutwhatit mightlooklikeformetobeapartofthatchildâslifesomehow.â
Ameliaâs face lights up witha mixture of relief and gratitude She reaches out and takes myhand inhers, squeezingit gently.âThankyou,âshewhispers.âThatâsallweâreasking.Honestly,ItoldAlexthatifyouwerehell-bentonthisseparation continuingbetweenthefamilies,IwasnâtsureIwantedtogodownthepathofhavingchildrenâ
Herwordsstiradiscomfortinme.âDoyoureallythinkthisisallaboutwhatIâmokaywith,Sis?âItrytokeepmyvoice frombetrayingthesurgeofemotionsclawingatmyinsides
Ameliawhimpersinresponse,andAlexeiplacesaprotectivehandoverhers.âYes,âhesays,hisvoiceresonatingwitha convictionthatfillstheentirespace.âWebothbelievewecanchangethefutureofourfamilies.Wecanstartoverandbreathe newlifeintowhatitwasâ
âNew life . . . â Mythoughts spiral, consideringalliances, legacies, and the countless dangers lurkinginour existenceâs shadows Ichuckle,butnotatthehumorofthesituation âDoyoutwounderstandtheweightofwhatyouâreproposing?â âOfcoursewedo,âmysisterinsists.
Ismirk âIsthatright?Thereissomuchshitgoingoninmylifethatyouaresofuckingcluelessaboutâ
âWhatdoyoumean?âAmeliaasks.
âWere youaware that thereâs talkamongthe capos that Icanât be trusted to be incharge ofthe familybecause ofyour marriage?â
âWhat?âAmeliagasps,clearlysurprisedbytherevelation.âThatâsridiculous.â
Inod,myexpressionsolemn âItseemsmydearbrother-in-law isnotaswell-likedamongourranks Therearewhispers thatIamnotfittobeinchargebecauseofmyaffinityforyou.â
âThosearejustrumors,Iâmsure.Noneofthecaptainswoulddaremoveagainstyou.Notafter everythingDaddydidfor them.â
Iraiseaneyebrow,asparkofbitternesscoursingthroughme.âYouthinkloyaltyisguaranteedinthisworld,Amelia?You
thinktheywonâtseizeanyopportunitytoexploitweaknessorunderminemyauthority?âMyvoicegrowscolder,theweightof mypositionpressingagainstmywords.âIamwellawareoftheirallegiancetoourlatefather,buttheirtrueloyaltyistotheir income potential The power dynamics withinour organizationare tumultuous atbest, and your marriage to Alexei has only addedfueltothefireofdissent.â
Amelialooksatme,herexpressionamixofconcernanddetermination âIhadnoideaâ âWhywouldyou?Youleft,âIremindher.
Alexei interrupts,hisvoicefirm âVincent,youknow Irespectyou,butAmeliaismywife,andIwonâtletyoumakeher feelbadforfollowingherheart.â
InarrowmyeyesatAlexei,asurgeofprotectivenesscoursingthroughme.âFollowingherheart,yousay?Youbothseem tohaveaknackforthat,âIretort,unabletosuppressthebitternessinmytone
Evareachesoutandplacesahandonmyarm,softeningmyanger.
âPlease try to understand We didnât choose this path to spite you or the family We chose it because we believe in a differentfuturethatisnâtdefinedbybloodfeudsandvendettas,âAmeliaimplores. Itakeadeepbreath,mymindracingasItrytomakesenseofthesituation âIfyoutrulybelieveinforginganewpath,then youhavetobepreparedfortheconsequences,âIsay,myvoicefilledwithcaution.
âAlltheyâreaskingforisyoursupport,âEvasays.
Andthereitis Thecruxofitall support Inourworld,thatâsnotjustapatonthebackoracongratulatorytoast Itâsthe promiseofprotection,ofallegiance.Itâscommittingtoguardanewlifewitheveryresourceatmydisposal.
âSupport,âIagree,thewordnowavow,evenasIgrapplewiththeenormityofwhatIâmagreeingto âAtwhatcost?â AmeliaandAlexeiexchangeaglance.âWhatdoyouwantustosay?âAlexreplies.âAtsomepoint,weallmustbewilling topayaprice.â
âThatâseasytosaywhenyouârenottheonepayingtheprice,âIreply.
ThetruthisIwouldlovetobeanuncle.Iwanttoembracehappiness.Idonâtseethepathforwardbeingastransparentas AmeliaandAlexeiseemto Cantheirchild,bloodofIvanov,evertrulyfindahomeamongKings?
âAlexei.âMyvoiceissteadydespitethequiveringdoubt.âYouknowwhatbeingpartofthisworldentails.Thesacrifices. Thedangerâ
âTheIvanovheritage,âhesays,noddingsolemnly.âIunderstandyourconcern,butwebelieve â
âBelief.âIinterject,amirthlesschuckleescaping.âBeliefdoesnâtshieldyoufrombulletsorbetrayalsinourworld.Look atwhathappenedtoourfather,orhowaboutyourbrother?â
Alexeiâsfacetightensatthereferencetohisbrother.âIknowtherisks,âhesays,hisvoicebarelyawhisper.âButIrefuse toletfeardictateourlives Wecanâtletthesinsofthepastdefineourfutureâ
âOfcourse,familyiseverything,âIsayslowly,choosingeachwordlikepickinglocks.âButinnocencehasnoplaceinour dealings Ifyoubringachildintothis,theyinheritnotjustyourlovebutalsoyourenemiesâ
âWhichiswhyweneedtofixwhatâsbroken,âAlexeiinsists,hisstareunwavering.
âFixingwhatâs broken.â Iruminate onthe concept. Itâs a luxuryfew inour line ofworkcanafford. âAnd ifit canât be fixed?âIask,alreadyknowingsomeriftsaretoowidetobridge
âThenweatleasttry,âAmeliasays,convictionstealingherusualwarmth. âTrying,âIrepeat,lettingthewordhangintheair
âVincent,â Alexei says, a hint of pleadinginhis baritone voice, âweâre askingfor more thanjust your blessing. Weâre askingforyourhelpâ
âHelp,âImurmur,thewordsettlinginmychestlikeastone.TheKingâsworldisnotoneofforgivenessorsecondchances. Itâsonewhereeveryfavorisadebt.âRightnow,Iâmbarelyholdingontothefamily.Icanâtmakeanypromises.â
âVincentâEvaâsvoiceslicesthroughthestillness,alifelinethrownamidthebrewingstorm âYouhavealottoprocess Maybeweshouldheadout,andyoucantalkmoreaboutthislaterafteryouhavetimetoprocessit.â
IturntoEva,gratefulforhertimelyintervention âYouâreprobablyright,âIreply,myvoicelacedwithweariness Amelianods,hereyesshiningwithdetermination.âWeunderstand.Weârenotexpectinganythingtocomeeasy.â Iofferherasmallsmile
Aswemakeourwaytotheexit,Evaslipsherhandintomine,providingagroundingforceamidtheuncertaintythatrages insideme.Iâmsuddenlyincrediblygratefulforherpresence.
In my mindâs eye, I see a child with Ivanov eyes and Kingâs determination, a blending of legacies that might heal the woundsofourfamilies.Fornow,though,allIonlyhavethecapacitytothinkabouthow ImoveforwardasheadoftheKing family RelinquishingthecrownisnâtsomethingIamwillingtodo,atleastnotaslongasIhavebreathinmybody Thenext generationwillhavetowaituntilIsecurethelegacyforthisgeneration.
The car pulls up to the high-rise that slices throughthe skyline myurbanfortress I glance at Evaâs soft and thoughtfulsilhouetteagainsttheleatherseat.âComeup?âIask,notwantingthisnighttoendtangledinsilence.
âOkay,âshereplies,unbucklingherseatbeltandsmoothingoutthefabricofherdress
Weridetheelevatorupinacomfortablequiet,thenumbersclimbingalongwiththetensionknottedinmychestasIreplay theeveningâseventsinmymind.Onceinsidemyapartment,Iflickonthelights,andthevastspacefloodswithagoldenhue.
Evafollowsmeintothemainlivingroombeforesheperchesontheedgeofthesleeksofa,twistingastrandofhairaround herfinger.âIthinktonightwentprettywell,donâtyou?âsheasksasIpourmyselfadrinkandofferherone,towhichsheshakes herhead
Ipacetheroom,thefrustrationbubblinginsidemelikeashakenchampagnebottle.âIfyousayso,âIanswer,sittingatthe otherendofthesofa
âWhatâsthatsupposedtomean?âsheasks,irritationunderthesurfaceofhervoice.
âWhileourempireisunderthreat,sheâsdreamingofnurseriesandnames,âIanswerwithahuff.
âAreyouseriousrightnow?â
âWhat?â
âLook, Iunderstand sheâll always be your sister, butsheâs also anIvanov now Itâs onlynatural for her to wantto build somethingofherown,âEvaanswers.
I pause before asking, âAnd what about me? I canât just forget everything our father worked to give the two of us I understandsheâsoneofthemnow,butsheisnâteventhinkingaboutwhattherestofusaregoingthrough.Itâsallaboutthemand startingtheirnewfamily.â
âOf course it is! Theyâre newlyweds Havenât you ever thought about it?â Her question catches me off guard âAbout havingafamily,Imean.â
âThoughtaboutit?âIscoff Theideaseemsabsurd âIhaveenoughtroublewithoutaddingdiapersandsleeplessnightsinto themix.â
âYoudonâtsee yourselfever gettingmarried? Havingkids?â Her eyes searchmine,lookingfor somethingIâmnotsure I possess.
âFamily...âIshakemyhead.âComplicationsIcanâtafford.â
Eva sighs, leaning back against the cushions, her gaze drifting toward the skyline outside the large floor-to-ceiling windows.Icantellshedoesnâtunderstand,butthenagain,how couldshe?Shehasnâtbeenhardenedbythesamebattles,the samelosses
âAmeliahasstartedanewchapter,âshesayssoftly,almosttoherself.âWhoareyoufightingforifitâsjustyounow?â âMe?â I echo hollowly in the expanse of my penthouse âIâm fighting for survival This life itâs about power and maintainingorder.Somethingyouwouldneverunderstand.â
Herlipspressintoathinline,andIseetheflickerofannoyanceflashacrossherfeatures.âJustbecauseIwasnâtborninto thislifedoesnâtmeanIâmblindtoitandwhatitdoestothoselivingit IâvewatchedAmelia Iâveseenmorethanenoughto understanditscost.â
âIfyoureallyunderstood,thenyouwouldgetthatwhatAmeliachosetodobymarryingAlexeiwasnâtanoptionwehad TheKingempireisnâtapicketfencedream.Itâsalegacy,onethatdemandseverythingfromyou.â
âEvenyourhappiness?âHerquestionlingersintheairbetweenus,andforafractionofasecond,Ifalter.
âEmpiresarenâtbuiltonhappiness,âIretort,clenchingmyfistsatmysides.âTheyâreforgedinsteelandblood.â
âDoyourealizewhatanassholeyousoundlike?Everythingyoujustsaidsoundslikeabunchofbullshittome.Itmakesno
sensewhyyouwouldnâtwantthepeopleyoulovetobehappy,nomatterwhatbringsthemthat.â
Herquestioncutsdeep,anddespitetheangerboilinginsideme,IremindmyselfthatasmuchasEvathinkssheunderstands thislife,Iknowshecanât
âThatstatementjustshowsyourignoranceaboutthewholething,âIstatecoollybeforetakinganotherswigfrommyglass. âButour conversationhas beenhelpful Itâs made me see Imustface the danger threateningme head-on Iâmgoingto call a meetingwiththecapwhoseemstobestirringupshitaroundhere.IâmgoingtoconfrontAnthonyCasalettoandalltheserumors head-onâ
âI donât know how in the hell thatâs what you got fromour conversation,â Eva snaps. âIâmtrying to tell you that you deservetobehappytoo.CallingoutoneofyourcaptainscouldnâtbefurtherfromwhatIâmtalkingabout.â
âItâs exactlywhat youâre talkingabout Whenyouaskme if I deserve to have a family, thatâs exactlywhat this is The empiremyfatherbuiltforusismyfamily.â
âSoundslikeyouhaveadeathwishtomeâ
âDo youactuallythinkIwantthis throne soaked inmyownblood?â Myheartis a drumbeatechoingthe furythatboils insideme Butshedoesnâtbackdown,doesnâtcower Itâsoneofthethingsthatbothinfuriatesanddrawsmetoher
âSometimes Iwonder,â she admits, her gaze unwavering. âYouâre so focused onprovingyourself, onkeepingthis . . . I donâtknow legacyintactthatyouâreblindedtothefactthatitcoulddestroyyou.â
âThenletitdestroyme!â The words escape before Icanreinthemin, barbed and bitter âIdonâtknow how manyother waysIcansaythis.Iwonâtletmyfatherâsworkcrumblebecausesomeassholewhosworeallegiancetothisfamilythinkshe canchallengemeâIcanseethehurtflashinhereyes,butthisisnotthetimeforsoftness
Evasighs,thefightleavingherassherubshertempleswearily.âIâmtired,Vincent.Ishouldheadhomeforthenight.â
Thesuddenshiftthrowsme,theheatofmyangercoolingintoconcern.âWait,âIsay,myvoicelosingitshardedge.âDidI upsetyou?Ithoughtyouwantedmetobehonest.â
Sheshakesherhead.âOfcourseIdo.Ihavetoworkashiftattheassistedlivingcentertomorrow,andIshouldprobably getsomerestâ
SometimesIforgetEvaisnâtlikeus.Shecomesfromablue-collar family,all ofwhomworkregular jobs,includingher. Her dad owns his own company, and despite my father helping himland some contracts over the years, they do not live extravagantlybyanymeans.
âAreyoustillplanningtohelpwithmyparty?âIask,tryingtothinkofareasonforhertostay.
âIsaidIwould,âshereplies,exhaustionliningherfeatures.âIâllcomebackandhelpwithwhateveryouneed.â âThankyou,âIsay,softernow.âThatmeansalot.â
Shenods,collectingherpursefromthecouch,hermovementsslowanddeliberate Apartofmewantstoreachout,totell hertostay,toadmitthatmaybe,justmaybe,sheunderstandsmorethanIâvegivenhercreditfor.ButIremainsilent,following herassheretreatstotheelevator
âVincent,âshesays,hesitancelacinghertone,âifyouâregoingtotalktoyourcaptain,promisemeyouâllbecareful.â Icanâthelp butsmirk, evenas the weightofour earlier disagreementhangs betweenus. âDonâttell me youâre worried aboutme,Eva?âMyteasingisanattempttolightenthemood,butapartofmeachesforhergenuinecare
âOfcourse,Iâmworriedaboutyou.âShestepscloser,andforamoment,Iâmcaughtoffguardbytheintensityofhergaze. âAmeliamightbemybestfriend,butyou IcarejustasmuchforyouâHervoiceisasoftwhisper,butitpunchesthrough thetensionlikeabullet.
âThankyou,Eva,âIsay,sincerityseepingintomyvoice âThatmeansmorethanyouknowâ Shegivesmeasmall,bravesmile,thenslipsintotheelevator,leavingavoidwhereherwarmthoncefilledtheroom. Thesecondtheelevatordoorsshut,IreachformyphoneanddialMarco.Assoonasheanswers,myvoiceisallbusiness, everytraceofhumorgone
âIneedyoutosetupameetingwithCasaletto.âMywordsareclipped,eachonesharpenoughtocut.
âUnderstood,boss Whenandwhere?â Marcoâs voice is calmandcollected the response ofa manwhohas weathered manystormsbesideme.
âTomorrow,âIreply âIwantitdiscreetandsecure Youknowthedrillâ âWilldo.Anythingelse?â
âMake sure everyoneâs onalert.Idonâtknow whattoexpectfromthe meeting.â Iendthe call withoutanother word,the finalityofthebeepechoinginthesilence
Istandalone,surroundedbyshadowsthatseemtocreepcloserwitheverypassingsecond.Evaâswordslingerinmymind, mixingwiththeadrenalinethatcoursesthroughmyveins
Imovebacktothelivingroomandpourmyselfanotherdrink,theliquidamberfireagainstthecrystalglass.Thefirstsip burnsallthewaydown,areminderthatIâmverymuchaliveandeverymoveImakefromhereonoutneedstobeaspotentas thiswhiskey.
âStartafamily...âTheconceptfloatsthroughmythoughts,astarkcontrasttomycurrentreality.Ipushitaway,irritation