Halen
OUR PARENTS WOULD TELL STORIES ABOUT THE DAYS WHEN THEY WERE IN HIGH SCHOOL IN THE HAMPTONS INSTEAD OF Riverside.IcanâtthinkofanythingworsethangoingtoschoolinthefuckingHamptons.Nothingagainsttheplace,buthavingto existwiththemundanewhoknownothingoftheworldIwasbornintosoundslikeafuckingliability
Idraw inadeepbreath.Iâvebeenwaitingthirtyfuckingminutes.Onlytheywouldmakemewaitatall andforwhat?It betterbeagoodreason.Iamtiredashell.Meandthegirlssatupallnightlastnightplanningwhatweweregoingtodo.How itwasgoingtobedoneandwhatkindofcarnagewecouldcreatewiththetimethatwehaveleftbeforetheritual.
Diggingthroughmyhandbag,somethingpinchesmythumbandIsuckitbetweenmylips astheclovers frommybracelet shineagainstthesun âTheseassholesbetterhurryupâ
ElaboratepatternslinethegoldarchwaytothefrontdoorofHayesCastle.IwishIwasjoking.Ourhomeisanexcessive portrayalofmodern-dayregency,presentingadeceptiveimageofperfectionandgold
Leaningagainstthe entrywaytable nexttothe bifurcatedstaircase,Ihear cars pullingupoutside.Doors openandclose, andthenheavyfootstepspoundagainstthemarbleporch.Finally,bothdoorspartopen,andthere,standinginfrontofme,ismy twinbrother.
âDonâtfuckinglookatmelikethat,Halen.Thisisthefirsttimeweârenotallwaitingonyou.â
âFirstofall âItakeasteptowardhim,beforehewidensthedoorfurther,revealingWarandVadenoutonthedriveway âWait,whyareyouallhereandnotalreadythere?â
Warliftshisarmtorestonthedoorofmycar,flashingmeawidesmirk Asidefrombeingpainfullyannoyingallmylife, hehasmadeithismissionfor aslongasIcanremember tomakeeverythingdifficultforme.Healsohasaperversewayof gettingoffonmydemise.
âGetinthecar,Halen.â
Witharaisedbrow,mymouthsnapsclosed.âUhm,Iwasnâttalkingtoyou.â
His tongue glides over his lower lip âOh, youwerenât? Hmmm letme see where Icanfind the fucks Icangive you Maybetheyârebeneathmynine-inchcock.Getinthecar.â
âShutthefuckup BothofyouâPriest akasaidtwinbrother turnshisbacktomeandIwatchashemakeshiswayback downtohis ride.He opens the frontdoor,andItrace the lines ofhis flaredguards.Priestâs S15is the bestyouâdever see. Dumpedalmostonitsassandrollingwithdeepblackrims.Weallhavedifferentcars,buttheyallstickwiththesametheme. EvenourEurosdo
Black.Eventhenumberplatesthatwedonâthavetodisplay.
âPapisaway,youknow!âIcallout,flippingPriestoffbehindhisbackandshoulderbargingpastWaronmywaydown âWannatrythatagain?âWarcallsoutfrombehindhisGTR.Thefactthathe stole theR32bodythatIwantedtobuildwhen wewerefourteen,andworkedittopushovereighthundredhorse,meantthatnotonlydidIneedtoimporttheR34fromJapan, butIthrewinaHakosukaforshitsandgigs.VadenthenmadeamaddashfortheS14,beforeWarwasanabsoluteassholeand tookadamnRX4.Warâs32ispretty,though.Glossblackwithawidebodykitandbronzedeep-dishrims.Andthatâsnoteven mentioningwhatâsunderthehood WeârejustonemassivefamilywithaGodzillacomplex WhichonlymeantRivergrabbed theHondaNSXandStellatheRX7Batty.Priesthasacollectiontoolongtodetail.
IcanalmostfeelthedaggersVadenisshootingatWar âWeârelaughinguntilweârenotandPriestshootsyoubetweenthe eyes.â
âMyaimisbetter!âIcallout,slidingintomy34 Ipushthestartbuttonandbreatheoutasighasshepurrsbeneathmelike awell-groomedbeast.
Thereâs a knockonmywindow. Iflutter mylashes up atmytwinand crankitdown. Our similarities end withour hair color WheremyeyesaregreenlikeMomâs,hisarehoneyhazelandrimmedblack Howhestandsatsix-sixandmefive-fourI
willneverknow.Themathisnotmathing.
âYes,brother?â
âDonâtlookatmelikethatâHeflicksmyforeheadwithhisfinger âYouainâtracingatDevilâsCockpitâMysmilefalls âI meanit,Halen.Youârenot.Ineedyoutohangbackwiththegirlsfortonight.â
âWhat!âIsnap âDoIlooklikeababysittertoyou?âItdoesnâthelpthatIâmtheoldestgirl,evenifnotbymuch Theothers donâtneedadamnbabysitter.ExceptformaybeStella.
âYoulooklikeyouâllbewhateverIwantyoutobeâHeleansdown,tossingamaskontothepassengerseat âItâsFriday thethirteenth.â
âIdonâtwant âHestalksoffonceagain.MywindowclosesasIopenmySpotifyplaylist.Ineedbackup.
I tap my best friendâs number, checking my lipstick in the rearview mirror before directing my car out of the circular driveway.Riversideisasmallertown,withapopulationof13,534.Thepopulationisimportant,becauseanytimeitdrops,we makesureitâsfromnaturalcauses Ifanyonestepsintoourtownandinflictsharm,theyanswertoourFathers,andsoon to us.
âIâmready,buthearmeout â
Islump againstmychair, narrowingmyeyes eventhoughIknow she canâtsee me. No one relied onme to take care of others,butIlikedtoanyway.ItâslikeIwasbirthedwithanaturalflairtoprotectmyfamily,soIâdnevercomplain,butifthey thoughtIwas babysitting, thenmaybetheywouldnâtfindoutaboutwhatwereallydo Sometimes,andImeanmostlyeveryday,weneededafuckingbreak.Tobeawayfromtheglamour andgold,andjust⌠exist Dowhateverthefuckwewantwithoutourbrotherslookingdownonuslikepeskyhousecatsthathadnâtbeenfedintwo hours.
âI donât want to hear youout, Evie!â EvelynPaige has beeninmylife since we were two years old. Mother said we reminded her ofher and her bestfriend Tate. Iwasnâtso sure ifthatwas true. Ilove AuntyTay, butthe bitchis as crazyas Mom.Iswear,weallwatchastheyenableeachotherthroughbaddecisions.Nowitâsshopping,holidays,andpettyrevenge.I canâtimaginewhattheywouldhavebeenlikeasteenagers Evieisnotthat.Notevenclose.
âYoubetterbeready!âItaptheindicatortoturndownherstreet Itâsalittleafterten,soitâsquietwhenIpullmycarupto thecurboutsideherhouse,theRBenginerumblingbeneathmybutt.
Iopenanew texttoher,tuckingmylongchocolatebrownhairbehindmyear.Whenshedoesnâtanswer,Ipeerupather house.
All homes in Riverside are somewhere on the scale of big money energy, and Evieâs dadâs pockets were one of the steepestinourtown Herparentsownedabillion-dollarumbrellacompanyanddecidedtoraisetheironlydaughterhere To be giventhe rightto buyinRiverside, youhave to getcouncil approval, and thatcouncil is the Elite Kings. So, her family either has historytied to one ofthe tenFoundingFamilies, or theycame inbyjumpinginto Dadâs Consideringhis Forbes ranking,Iâdsayitcouldbeacombinationofboth.
The lightontheir patioswitches onanda glimmer ofchestnuthair glows under the light.EvelynPaige was anythingbut basic Shealwayswentalloutwithheroutfits,evenwhenweâdbechilling
Sheleisurelydescendsthewideporchwearingabeigematchingsetthatincludesashortskirt,alittlecroptop,knee-high beigebootsthathavearelaxedfitaroundherlegs,andalongtrenchcoat Shehasherhairinatight,lowbunandiswearing white-rimmedsunglassesthatcoverherambereyes.
Thepassengerdooropens,andsheslidesin,movingthediscardedmaskontothefloor
âYoulookhot, bitch, butare those myshoes?â She leans over the center to scanmyoutfit. Tassel-ripped, high-waisted, wide-bottomjeans withknee tears over the thighs, paired withAir 1s. Ikeptthe top simple witha tied white crop top that tucksbeneathmyboobs
âNo.âIhesitate,slidingintofirstgear.Shit.Theycouldbe.Sinceweallshareasimilarstyle,inawaythatnoneofusare consistent,Idonâtknowwholeaveswhatinmyroom
âIhave your Dolce shoes, anyway.â She shrugs, tappingthe mirror downto checkher lipstick. âFigure youwonâtneed themsince youhave themineveryother color, and besides â Iglare ather fromover myarm And besides what? â you knowpinkisnâtyourcolor.â
Shehasapoint.âTrue.â
âWhatâstheplantonight?â
Itapmyfingeragainstthesteeringwheel,lookingbetweentheroadandtheLEDdashthatilluminatesthetime.
âHales âHervoicebreaksthroughmythoughtsandsheshiftsinherseattofaceme âIknowthatfuckinglook Whatare youthinking?â
âTheKingsaredoingtheirusualtonightandbeingbossywithit.âIâmnotsureifIâmthinkingatall,sinceIâmprettysureif IgetcaughtdoingwhatIâmabouttosuggestwedo,thatitwill endinoneortwoways.Thefirst?Priestwill lockmeinmy roomlike fuckingRapunzel and wonât let me out for weeks, or⌠War. Warâs wrathisnât somethingI particularlywant to
witness.
I pump the brakes whenwe reacha red light, myeyes flickingbetweenthe two signs infront of us. One points to the Riversidetowncenter,andtheothertothehighwaythatleadsstraighttoChevalierHill âImeanâŚâ Evie teases as she removes her sunglasses. Her eyes glistenwithmischiefas she looks betweenme and the sign,rubbingherhandsdownherbrownthighs âThiswouldabsolutelypissyourbrotheroffâ âHeâsnottheoneIâmtryingtopissoff.âIsqueezethesteeringwheel. Eviepauses,raisingaperfectlylaminatedbrow SheknowswhoIâmreferringto âWhatdidhedonow?â Ipushtheclutchanddriveitintofirst.Theyâllbespillingthroughthesestreetsanyminutenowandwhentheydo,Idonât wanttobehere.
Ipunchintheclutchandtaptheacceleratorwithmyotherfoot JustasIhitahighRPM,Ireleasetheclutchandslamthat samefootdownonthebrakesuntilmybacktireslosetractionandsmokeveilsthewindowsofthecar.EvieandIbothbreathe inthefamiliarsmellofhotasphaltandburntrubberasifitâsoursignatureperfume
Droppingitintosecond,Ireleasethebrakesandfloorusforward.IâdnevergotoChevalierHill,butitwouldbefuntosee howfarwecanactuallygountilsomeone,orsomething,stopsus
Firststop:pickupthegirls.
Love was nothing more than a mask used to forgive someone for all the wrongs they did. Love didnât exist. Obsession did.
Myfingerstouchedthetopofthewaterasmyeyesclosed BirdschirpedaroundthecrashingwaterfallasIdugmytoesdeeper intothesand.Iâdwaitedforthismoment.TheelatedminutesthatpassedwhenIknewIshouldnâtbehere.
Iopenedmyeyesandlookedovermyshoulder.WherethehelldidRivergo?Ourtowelsweresprawledoutoverthesand asthesoundofMetallicaplayedthroughtheair.Ilovedithere.
WatercontinuedtoswallowmybodyasImoveddeeperanddeeperout.Assoonasthebiteofcoldevaporated,Idipped beneaththewater,holdingmynose MyskinnolongerprickledlikeafurnaceasIpushedupfromthesandyground,surfacing backtothetop.Iswipedmyeyescleanasinkbleddownmyhandsfrommymascara,andIspunaroundtofacetheshoreline onceagain,hopingtofindRiver,onlytocollidewithahardbody Myhandflew andlandedagainsthischest Iknew whoit was. Even without his telling tattoos, Iâd know. The vehemence that followed himeverywhere was trailed by a tongue of flamesthatalwaysseemedtotastemeanytimehewasnear.Oneofthesedayshewasgoingtoswallowmewhole.
Stop, Halen Think Not that Not now.
âWarâŚâ Ishoved myselfawayfromhim, buthis hand snapped around myback, forcingme close. As ifhe knew thatI didnâtwanthimtobenear,butmoreIneededhimto Indarkness,eventheviolentburnofhatredcouldleadyouhome âWhat thefuckareyoudoing?âImanagedtowrithemywayaroundinhisarms,andjustwhenIthoughthewasgoingtoletmeswim totheshoreline,hishandwasonmybelly,pressingmebackagain
His fingers sprawled out over myskin. âStop fuckingtalking.â I bit downonmybottomlip as mybreathcaught inmy throat.Ididnâtfuckingwanttostoptalking Iwantedtobeangryathimfor touchingme.Iwantedtoletthatfireburnuntil it turnedusbothtoash
Hebrushedhislipsagainstthesideofmyneckandfearpebbledovermyflesh.Fear,anger,hatred theywereallcooked withthesameingredientsusedtofueltheoneemotionthatwasabusedasmuchasitwaschased âYouwantthis Stopfucking playing.âHisfingertipsskimmedthelineofmybikiniandmythighsclenchedtogether.âIdonâtknowwhy.AllIâddoisbreak youopenandtearouteverysinglethingthatmakesyougood â
Ipushedawayfromhimandthistimeinsteadofhimholdingmeinplace,heletgo.Iswamthroughthewater,annoyedwith myselffornotfightinghardenough.WhydidIletthathappen?
FuckWar
Andfuckthecasualtiesthathealwaysseemstotakedownwithhim.
âYougood?âStellapeeredatmeoverherPradaglasses,holdingtworedSolocupsineachhand Hermidnightblackhair wasbraidedintotwofancyfishtailsoneithersideofherhead.âWhatâdhedo?â
âNothingâIswipedoneofthecupsfromher IftherewasonethingthatIwasgoodatdoing,thatwasignoringWar
WellâŚno,thatwasonlyahalf-truth.
Passingthepeopledrinkingneartheswingthatswoopsouttothewater,Ifollowedthetrailthroughtheclearing,stepping overbrokentwigsandflowers DevilâsCockpitstartsfromthebedofwaterontheothersideneartheskidpad,butyoucan alsocutthroughthistracktogettotheprivatesandycove.
IhadnâtquitereachedtheendwhenIfelttheinvisibletouchofeyesfrombehind Maybeitwasthesilencebecauseofthe separationbetweenwhereIstoodandwhereIhadtogo,ormaybeitwasthewaythewindcurledaroundmyanklesandthat familiarweightofdreadfilledmystomach.
MyfingersprickledasIspunaround,onlytobemetwithnothing.NothingbuttheemptypathwaythatIjustwalked.Before Icouldoverthink,Icontinuedthroughthetrack.Thatsameweightfelltothegroundwhenashadowsteppedoutfrombehinda tree
Hewastallandlanky,andhadared-and-whitespiralearringhookedfromhislobe. Hisheadtiltedtothesideandmymouthwatered Hewaswaytoooldtobehere.
âYoulost?âMyfeetcarriedmetowherehestood,asthewindtossedaroundtheloosestrandsofmyhair. Ituckedalockbehindmyear.âIâmHalen,I âIpaused. Oh no Hedidnâtanswer.
Isidesteppedawayfromhim,butmyarmbrushedhis inpassing Blindingpaingrippedaroundmythroatas Ifell tomy knees.Icouldnâtbreathe.Theworldbegantocrumblearoundme. Thetrack Thesand.
Thelaughterandsoundsofshreddingtires.
Everythingdissolvedaroundmeashegrabbedmebymythroatandhauledmetomyfeet TheworldasIknewitwasno longer.
TheworldasIknewitwasbleak
MY BEDROOM DOOR CRASHES OPEN AS HALEN SLIPS INSIDE, RESTING HER BACK AGAINST IT WHEN IT CLOSES I STOPPED wonderingwhatthefuckgameshewasplayingatalongtimeago.ShewasHalenHayes.Thegirlgotawaywitheverything.
Literally
âHalen.âPrieststandsfrommybed,spillingweedalloverthecarpet.NotthatDadorMomcaredmuch.PrettysureMom atebrowniesonthedaily âWhatthefuckareyoudoinghere?â
EvenwithJ.ColeandJoynerLucasbeatingthroughthewalls,itdoesnothingtodistractPriest.
âAhâŚlikeIâmnotcomingifyouguysarethrowingaparty!âSheflicksherlongbrownhairoverhershoulder,narrowing hereyesonallofus Shesettlesonme,becauseshealwaysfuckingdoes Myeyesfalltothecupsheâsholdinginherhand.âYoudrunk?â
âHmmm?âShestraightenshershouldersalittletootightly,asiftryingtoappearsober âNo Unfortunatelyâ Vadenwatchesherclosely,hiseyesdarkening.âSheâsoffherface.â
âAw,VadeâŚâShedropsherbottomlip.âWecouldbetyourR35thatIâmnot.â PriestpointsathistwinwitharolledJbetweenhisfingers.âGodownstairs.Now.Iâmtakingyouhome.â
âYoucanât.Youâredrunk.âIpushupfrommybed,holdingherstare.âIâlltakeher.âWeâdbeenavoidingeachothersince herthirteenthbirthday Prettysureshemadeanextraefforttostayawayfrommeafterthat Priest tucks the joint behind his ear, closingthe distance betweenthe two ofthem. He lowers himselfto her eye level, whichismorethanawholefootshorter âYouweresupposedtobeathomeâ
Shechallengeshim.âIwas.AndthenIdecidedthatIwantedtogetdrunk.Luckyforme,youguysmakethateasy.â
âIâlldropheronthewaytoEmmaâs.âThepartyissmallrightnowbecausethenightisyoung.Itâsbarelyninep.m.andshe isclearlyalreadyoffhershit.Inacouplehours,thehousewillbefilledwithdrunkfuckboys,andwellâŚDadsaidnoblood onthecarpet.
Iwaitforhimtoanswer,carefularoundthesubjectofHalen Priestdidnâtgivemuchofashitaboutanything,butwhenit cametohissister,hefolded.Notalways,becauseshelikedtousehispatienceasafuckingjumprope.Heleavesheralonebut make no mistake, heâs always watching her They were called the Shadow Twins growing up She was daylight, he was darkness,andeverywhereshewent,hewouldbethere.Priestwasherveil,andifanyonetriedliftingthatshit,heâdslityour fuckingthroatandwearyourorgansasjewelry.
Priestignoresher,keepinghiseyesfixedonmine âLockherinherroomwhenyougetthereâ
âErrr Iâmrighthere!â she snaps, takinganother step closer to Priest. Igrab her bythe arm, openingthe door withmy otherandhaulingherassdownthehallway
âWar!âshegrowls,hittingmyhandaway,whichonlymakesmesqueezeharder.Idonâtreleaseher until weâredownthe stairs,outthefrontdoor,andIâmthrowingherintothepassengerseatofmyRX4
âYoureallygonnahandlethat?âVadenasksfromtheshadowsonthepatioasIslamherdoorclosed.Heflickshiscigarette ontotheconcrete.âOrdoweneedtogooverhowwedonâtshitwhereweeat?âHeraisesasingledarkbrowatme,takinga carefulstepoutoftheshadows Theglowofthegardenlightsdetailshisface,flauntingoneblueeyeandonebrown âOrhow wealltookanoathbetweenusthatwewouldnâtfuckaroundwitheachother.â
Ifliphimoff,reachingforthedoorhandleonthedriverâsside âYoudonâthavetotellmeshitâThatoathwasbullshit We allknewit.Itwasmadefor me byme. Theyallsimplyagreed.
PriestknewwhyIdidit Hewastoosmartnotto
Iswingthedoorclosedandpumptheclutch.TherotaryenginepulsesbeneathmelikeasongIcouldplayonrepeat,but Halenreaches for the radio anyway. Tensionsnaps betweenus, butshe wouldnâtbe able to stayquietfor long. Itisnâtuntil
weâredownthelongdrivewaythatsheturnsthemusicoffandshiftsherbodyaroundtofaceme.Iknewshewasgoingtosay somedumbshit,butIwasnâtexpectingâŚ
âIneedyoutofuckmeâ
Islamonthebrakesandshefliesforward,onehandonthedash.âWhatthefuck,Halen?â
Her emerald eyes widenonme as her fingers rake throughher hair to pile itontop ofher head âItâs a simple request, War.âSheshrugs,herlonghairnowtiedinahighpony.âPlease?Ineedto âShepausesamoment,hereyesdriftingoffinthe distancebeforeherheadshakesandsheâsbackonme â scrubmyV-cardandIâdrathernotfuckanypeasantsfromschoolâ Mymouthopensandthencloses.Iâveneverbeenspeechless,butofcourseitwasherwhowasthefirsttodoit.
âStopfuckingtalking.âIturnbacktotheroad,shiftingintofirstgear.Iâmabouttoreleasetheclutchwhenherfingerswrap aroundmychinandsheâsforcingmyattentionbackontoher HalenandIhavealwaysbeenanogo Brotherhoodoathaside, Iâdnever doit.Itâs whyIputthe fuckingthinginplace tobeginwith.Ididnâtdoitfor anyone else butmyself.Thenthereâs Priest AndBishopfuckingHayesasherdaddy Yeah,youâvegotabetterchanceofgettinglaidinafuckingnunnerythanme ever hittingthat.
âWar,Iâmseriousâ Myeyes drop toher lips Theyâre onthe puffyside Always lookinglike sheâs beenkissed waytoo fuckingmuch. Theysuit her diamond-cut face. Thicklashes surround emerald greeneyes, and her cheekbones are highand sharp until she smiles. Sheâd always been cute. If cute meant she could also break your nose with her right hook. True fucking story Buttonightwas the firstnightIrecognized justhow muchher features had changed Somewhere betweenthe littlegirlIâdknownallmylifeandthiswomanshewasgrowinginto,waswhoeverthispersonwaslookingbackatme,asking metofuckher Fuck.
IwouldbelyingtomyselfifIsaidshewasnâthot.ButthatdidnâttakeawaythefactthatshewasaHayes. Fuck. That.
Herlashesfanoutoverhercheeksasshesearchesmyeyes.IdonâtevencarethatIâvestoppedinthemiddleoftheroad andthatthereisachancewecouldbespottedsinceeveryoneknewwhoownedourcarsinthistown,evenourexoticrides âHaloâŚâ
I donât even get to finish my sentence before sheâs sliding over the center, gripping me fromthe back of my neck and loweringherselfontomylap.
Myhandcomestoherthroatoutofinstinct,butinsteadofithelpingmysituation,allitdoesisshowthetattoosonmyhand againsthervirginfuckingskin.
Sheblushes,andjustwhenIthinksheâsgoingtopanicandtellmetolethergo,thecornerofhermouthcurvesupandher teethcatchherbottomlip âOkay,thenletâsplayâ
âFuckmeâŚâIgrowl,mypatiencewaning.Ifthisisallitâsgoingtotakeformetoquestioneverything,thenshit.Ineedto distractmyself Distance Ineedmoredistance
âIâmtrying!âSherollshereyes.Icatchherhipswhenshethrustsagainstme,shovingherbackintoherchair. Herheadhitsthewindow.âOw!â
âStaythefuckthere Imeanitâ
âFine!âShewhacksdownthemirror,fixingherlipstick.âButdonâtsayIdidnâtcometoyoufirst.â
Now
ThatwasalmostsixyearsagoandasmuchasneitherhernorIhaveeverspokenaboutitagain,Ikindofwanttoeverytime sheâsaround,justtotormenther.Havewestayedawayfromeachothersince?Yeah.Itwaseasyenoughtodo,untilwewere alltogether Whichisalmosteveryfuckingday Idonâtthinkanyofushavegonelongerthanaweekfrombeingapart Sowedidwhatwehadto.PeopleinRiversidewouldnâtsomuchas breathenear anyofthosegirls withoutus knowing about it Itâs hard to try and get with a girl whose family is part of the most feared criminal organization known to man Organizationis probablyputtingitlightly. Itâs a order. Awayoflife. Generationthroughgeneration, we have controlled all sectorsofpowerintheworld.Dubbedthemodern-dayilluminatifromconspiraciststhroughouttheyears.Theyârealmostright. Onlytheyârenot
It's kepttheweakawayfromthegirls.Ifyouârenotuptosteppingupagainstus,thenyoudonâtdeservetohavethemon theirknees Itâsawin-win
âYo!âIwhistleouttoVadenasheslidesintohisjacked-upR35.Itossthe Scream maskathimandhecatchesitinmidair asIopenthedriverâsdoortomyR32 Iguttedthefuckingthingfromthegroundup,dumpeditonitsass,anddresseditupwith deep-dish rims. Currently, itâs pushing eight hundred horse, which is nothing if you compare it to Vadenâs new Hennessey Venom,butitâsstillthefastestJDMwehaveandIdidnâtpayacouplemillforit. ThemaskhangsoffVadenâsfinger âThefuck?WhatâswiththecheesyclichĂŠ?Theonlymaskthattouchesthisfaceismy million-dollarCalvaria.â
âPutthefuckingthingonâPriestopensthedoortohis180SX Hepauses,lookingdownatmyJasonmask âTimetoplay
Halen
I REV THE ENGINE LOUDLY OUTSIDE THE VITIOSIS MANOR, AFTER EVIE AND I WENT HOME QUICKLY TO SWITCH OUT CARS THE Hakosukais the favoritechild.Paintedivorywithblacked-outbadges,sheâstheperfectrideordie.Earlyon,wehadtochange theenginebecauseolderGTRsdidn'tcomewiththeRB Butnow,she'saweapon
Whenshetakestoolong,Islidemyassupontothecardoorthroughthewindow.TheVitiosismanoroffersdirectmountain views due to its secluded location. It incorporates modern-day gothic architecture, featuring glass windows, sleek black paneling, and Marquina marble stoneware. Our parents started developing Elite Boulevard, which now extends across the entirelandbehindRiverside,duringtheirpregnancies.
DownElite Boulevard, is Hayes, Vitiosis, and MalumLane The first house youcome across is Hayes Castle, situated betweenMalumand Vitiosis. Brantleyand Saint, Stella and Vaden's parents, decided to build theirs ata safe distance from civilization AlloftheKingshavebeenbuildingtheirownhousesforyearsnow,andlastIchecked,Priestâswasalmostready Wehadn'tseenanyofthembecauseeachhouseishiddenfromview,branchingofffromourparents'land. Naturally.
Thechandelierhangingfromtheceilingcastsaflickeringlightoverthepatio.Theirlaughterfillstheairastheystumbleout thedoor,their tangledlocks achaoticmixofblondeandraven.Stellahas her midnighthair inaponytail,braideddownher back,whileRiver'ssandywaveshavebeenironedflat
River chose a sleekstrapless minidress inblackwithside slits and thigh-highstrapped heels, while Stella opted for a glossy,form-fittingblackstraplessminidressandcoordinatingthigh-highboots
âI said not to make me wait!â I raise a brow at myother two sisters, before slidingbackinto the car and windingmy windowup.
WhileStellapilesinandslamsthedoorclosed,Riverleansforward,herarmbrushingagainstmine.âFirstofall,âherhair fallstooneside,âyouandIbothknowthatwehadtoallwaitforthepackofdemonstogoplaywiththeirtoys.â
âIfeel liketheyâregettingworsewithageâEvietosses thebagofcoketoRiver SinceStellais acoupleyears younger thanus,wemostlytrytokeepherawayfromtrouble.Butsheâseighteen,andasmuchasweâvetriedtoshelterherfromalotof shitgrowingup,sheâsaKing Sheâsgoingtowanttoplay âŚandshedoes.
Evieturnstome.âWell,whereto?NewYork?Please!IwonderifIcanfindthatone â Suppressing a laugh, I steer us around the circular driveway that takes us down the mountain and back onto Elite Boulevard.âHaveyounotbeenonSnapchat?â
EvieshakesherheadslowlyasStellaleansforwardandturnsthemusicup âFighttheFeelingâbyRodWaveplaysthrough the subwoofers. âNo!â she yells, just as her phone lights up. Iwatchas the two little lines that appear betweenher brows slowlydisappearandthecornerofhermouthtwitches âOh,perfectâ
Iturnthemusicdownasmidge.âYup.âMyeyesmeetthegirlsintheback.âIâvebeenthinking.Wecouldstartsomething similar to Devilâs Cockpit, but without thembeing annoying.â I pause, thinking over my next words. Whatever they do on Perditaisinawholedifferentgenreofplaytime Perditaisourmotherisland,andisashortthree-hourflightoffthecoastof Riverside.Theislanditselfisoccupiedbyourownpeople,andcivilianswhoareconnectedtothetenFoundingFamilieswho prefer toliveinalawless society Itâs runbyabitchIhate,andweaponizedbyabunchofboys whohavebeenbredonthe islandforhundredsofyears.TheLostBoys.Onlytheyarenâtboys.TheyâreascalmasRedRidingHood,butashungryasthe wolf
StellapeeksupfromthebackafterscrollingthroughtheprivateSnapchat.âYoustartedsomethinginBayonetFalls?That placeisabandoned,isnâtit?Sincethewarbetweenthey who shall not be named andus.âIchokeonmylaughatStellaâspoor attemptoftryingtonotbringuptheGentlemen
âYeah,butthatâswhyitâsaperfectplacetohavethem.â
âBythem,youmeanraces?Actually,agoodidea.ItâsbetweenRiversideandChevalier Hill,soitâsnotfuckingwiththe treaty,and â
She raises her index finger, flashing her ten-carat radiant diamond ring. Our fathers ice us out with every birthday, drowningusindiamonds Iâmsurethereâsahiddenmeaningbehindwhy,andIâmcertainithastodowithintimidation â mostimportantly, we cando whatever the fuckwe want.â The sweetsmoke ofzaza fills the air as Stella hands itto Evie âYouknowtheythinkweâreallvirginsâ
Myteethcatchmyliptostopmysmile.âOnlybecauseweallowthemto.â
I guide us through the forested landscape of Vitiosis Drive. Riverside may have over thirteen thousand residents, but everyone,includingpeoplewhodon'tlivehere,knowwhoweare
Usgirlscameupwithaloopholewhenwewereyoungtokeeptheboysfromfindingoutaboutanythingwedo.Wewould driveintothecityandhitpartiesthere Itwasafour-hourdrivethereandfour-hourdrivehome,butweusuallyleftonaFriday andcamehomeonaSaturday.
Playingwithlieswaseasy,sincewewereallinitforeachother Deepdown,Iknewnoneofuswantedtobecaught,yetit grantedusfreedom.Freedomtobearoundpeoplethatdidnâtknowus,ourparents,orourfamilies.Atleastnotpersonally,and iftheydidfigureusout,itwaseasytosaythatrumorswerejustthat rumors.
Of course, we donât kill people
No, my pop wasnât the president of the United States of America for two whole terms while also helping run a secret order
No, we donât gather and drink each otherâs blood during a ritual to take over when itâs our time.
TheEliteKingswerenotoriouslyknownamongstcirclesthatwewantedtostayaway from.Wewantednormalcy.Tosnort cokeoffeachotherâs tits andmakeoutwithrandomguys.Thatwouldnever happeninRiverside,or anywherenorthtoward New York. So, we wentinthe opposite direction, hoveringaround smaller cityfolks who are too busyand uptightthatthey donâtcareaboutwhatâsgoingonaroundthem Thestraight-lacedkind
Evie didnât need to be withus since she wasnât a King, but she knew enoughwithout knowingtoo much. She was the populargirlatschool EveryonewantedtobeherfriendbecausethatâshowEviemadeyoufeel Wanted Cherishedandloved Shewasthehumanitytoourfamily,andIthinkherfatherwasthattoDadtoo.
Riverâsflashtoherphoneispoppingoffintheback,beforeshedirectsittowardmeandEvie.Iflipmymiddlefingerup, andEviestickshertongueouttotheside.
Lostinafitoflaughter,Iturnbacktotheroadandhitthevolumeup.
ThemomentwepassthefarewellsignasweleaveRiverside,Idropitintothirdandfloorit Thedeeperyoudriveonthis highway,thecleareritishowverylittlepeoplecomedownit.Itwouldhavebeenyearssincecarsdrovethisroad,sincethe onlyplaceitleadstoisanabandonedtown,andtheonetownthatwehaveatreatytoneversetfootin Thesimplisticstraight roadwithbumpsofhillsandnothingsurroundingusbutwoodlandsoneitherside.
Iâm laughing at River and Stella lip-synching âLow Lifeâ for whatever TikTok trend is happening right now, when somethingrunsoutinfrontofmycar MyskinpricklesandIscream,slammingonthebrakessofastthetiresskidtoahalt Eviehitstheradiooffassecondspassinsilence,andIturn,checkingthembriefly.âYouâreallokay?â
Stella has her handover her chest âYes,butwhatthe fuckwas that?â Itdidnâthelpthatthere are nostreetlights or road lights,soallthatwecouldseewasdirectlyaheadofusthroughtheheadlights.
âIdonâtknow âIwhisper,leaningbackinmychair âIâllcheckâ Imovetoopenthedoor,butEvieâshandcomestomyarmtostopme.âBeforfuckingrealrightnow.Thisishoweveryone diesinevery movie.â
âThis isnâta movie Itâs Riverside Whichmeans itâs worseâ Iopenmydoor and myJordans hitthe pavement Iwalk around the front of my car, where headlights beam toward the endless road of darkness. Someone is curved to the side, clutchinghisstomach âShitâIdropbesidehim,squeezinghisarmtorollhimontohisback
Wearingnothingbuta pair ofripped jeans and boots, thereâs a deep gashover his ribs where blood weeps from. Heâs clearlyunconscious IpausewhenInoticethe Scream mask âJesusâŚdidwehithim?âEvieasks,hereyeswideonhisbody.
Iscanthefrontofmycar.âIfwedid,hewouldhavedonedamage.Oldcarslikethiswouldnâttaketoitverywell.No.I thinkheranoutforhelpâIpushup,pointingtohisbody âStayherewithhim IneedtocallmydadâIrunbacktomycarand leaninthroughthedoor.
Riverclearsherthroatfromthebackseat,flickinghernails âYouandIbothknowwhatthisisâ
âIknow.ButEvieishere,andIdonâtwanttohavetohavethatconversationwithher.Ever.â
âIthinkitâsabouttime.âStellasighs,restingherheadonthewindow.âYoukeptourworldfromherlongenough,andshe knowstheEliteKingsClubexistsandthatourfamiliesarecrooked.Thisisjusta hey, yeah, so on top of that, we also â â Halen!Heâsmoving!â
âWell,atleastheâsnotdead,âRivermumbles.Iknowtheyâreright.Iknowthatbeneathitall,IâvekeptEvieawayfromthe dramaofourworld,notbecauseIdidnâttrusther,butbecauseIdidnâtwanttoputherindanger.Maybedoingthatwasplacing herinthedirectlineofit Priesthasbeenonmyassforyearsabouttellinghereverythingsowedonâthavetotiptoearound her.Sheiswithmeeightypercentofthetime.Itmakesthingsdifficult.
AloudhowlvibratesthroughthetreesintheforestoneithersideoftheroadasImakemywaybacktothem Eviejumps, turningfromlefttoright.âWhatthefuckwasthat?â
âAwerewolf?âIjoke,leaningbackdowntotheguyontheroad Absrippleoverhistorso,hisskinnakedoftattoos Itear offmyjacket,ignoringthecoldbitethatleavesteethmarksovermyskin,andrestitagainstthewoundonhisribs.Hegroans beneaththemask,soIslowlypeelitoff.
Jesus Please donâtknow this guy Please tell me these idiots havenâtfinallytakentheir shittoo far and theyâve actually killedsomeoneonland.ThoughheismovingâŚ
âHey âIslaptheguyâsface,aroundhishighcheekbonesandlargersetlips Thereâsabumpinhisnosefrombeinghitone toomanytimes,andadustingofabeardoverhisjaw.
Hiseyespeelopen,restingonme âDamn â Iraiseabrow.âOkay,playa.Whereâdyoucomefrom?â
Hecoughs,keepinghishandonhistannedstomachashetriestolifthimselfofftheroad.
âHey!StaythereâIforcehimbackdownwithashove Heclearshisthroat.âI Imustbelost.â
Ibringhisfacebacktominebyhischin âIâmHalen HalenHayesâ Hisfacepales.âIâmlost.âClearly.Whatthefuckisgoingon?
IpeerupatEvie,whococksherheadtotheside,lookingbetweenmeandtheguy.Therehavebeentwotimesinmylife whereEviehasfoundherselfinapositiontoaskquestions.Shealwayschoosesnotto.Iâllwaitforthedaywhenshefinally does, and thenIâll allow her to decide what she wants to do. I canhandle that later. Right now, I need to find myfucking brother
âIâmgoingtoneedyoutogetup.Areyouhurtanywhereelsebesidesyourribs?â
âNo Idonâtthinksoâ
Iplacemyhandunderhishead.âEv?Help?â
âAhâŚâ She shuffles onher shoes,lookingbacktothe car.âThis a goodidea? Halen,we donâtknow him,andIgetthat youârethisbigdogandyourfamiliesarealluntouchable,forwhateverreason,buttheyârenothererightnowandhecouldbea killer!â
Theguychokesonhislaugh âThatâsfuckingrichâ âOkay,buddy.Shutthe fuckupandgetup.â Ijerkhimforcefully,andhe finallylets me move himoffthe road,shuffling onto his feet Iwrap his armover myshoulder and directhimto the passenger side ofthe car âEv, getinthe backwiththe girls.â
âHalenâŚâ
âEvie!âIwidenmyeyesather,openingthepassengerdoorwiththehandIâmnotholdingthebleedingstrangerwith âFine.â She moves past us both, jumping into the back seat. I lean down and move the passenger chair back farther, dumpingtheboydownandleavinghismaskonhislap Ishuthisdoorandroundthefrontofthecar,pausingwhenIreachmy side.Laughterandmorehowlstearthroughtheforest,andforamoment,IthinkIseeshadowsmovebehindthetrees.
Irollmyeyes,slidingintothedriverâsseatandturningthekeyover âSadistsâ
âWhatâsgoingon?âEvieleansforward,andwithherliterallybreathingdownmyneck,Iknowthereâsnowayout. âThiswasourbrothers.â
âYeah,Iknowtheydothatweird whatever thingitâscalledeveryFridaynightâ
Thatâs aboutas far as her knowledge will go,the same as everyone else whoattends.The poor idiotbleedingoutinmy passengerseatincluded
âButisnâtitjust,like,ahuntinggameorsomething?â
âOrsomething âRiversnickers
Themoretimepasses,themoreweareallonedgeabouttheritual.Iknow theboysaremoreinvolvedintheworldthan wearerightnow,butthatwasnâtbychoice.Itriedtofightformoreposition,butitdidnâtwork.Mombrokethewayforgirls, orasweusedtoberudelynamed,Swans,butthewaypavedisclearlyonlyforthemenoftheEKC
AmImad?Notreally.Ourtimewillcome,butinthemeantime,theirhobbieshavebecomereckless.Itâsonlyamatterof timebeforeitlandsintheFathersâhands,ortheybecomeaworldwideissue
Theguybesidemeshufflesaroundtofaceme,hisbodyslidingdowntheseat.
âIfyougetbloodonmycustomRecaroseats,ohlostone,Imighthavetofinishwhatmydearbrotherstarted.â
âOhthis?âHegesturesdowntohisside,liftingmyjacketfromhiswound.âWasnâtPriest.â
âOfcourse,itwasnât.âIbatmylashesdownathim.âMybrotherdoesnâtlettheevidencerunfree.âIturnbacktotheroad,
rollingmyeyeswhenIseetheWelcometoRiversidesign.Thiswasagame.Thehighofachase.Theyalllovethechase,but thisonehasWaralloverit.
Justaswepassthesign,Ihookasharprightanddriveusdownthefamiliarroad Voidoflightsandasphalt,wejoltinour seatsthroughthebumps.Itâsnothingbutanarrowdirtroadinthemiddleofaforest.
âFuck Can you slow it?â The guy beside me groans, shuffling further up his seat, and I press the accelerator more, smirking.
Heblanches âOrnotâ
Itfeelsliketheroadgoesonforever,untilwereachtheclearanceandseethewidefield.Thewaterrushesfiercelydown themountainandintotherenownedwaterholebelow,thenaturalpoolsurroundedbylargetrees.Abonfireragesnearbyinthe darkness,wherecarsareparkedandlinedaroundtheedge,markingthestartofDevil'sCockpittrack
People spill out around the space, drinking and laughing amongst each other, but I ignore them all and drive directly forward,breakingupacircleofjocks
Whentheyseemycar,noneofthemcomplain.
âIcanâtbelieveyouârebringingmehere Whatasetup â
âHey.âIleavetheengineidlingandremovemybelt.âNoonetoldyoutojumpoutinfrontofmycarandruinournight.âI reachformyphoneandopenSnapchat,sendingoutamessageinthegroupchatthatwasforthemeetupinBayonetFalls.
âForhelp âHeglaresatme,butthecornerofhismouthcurvesinasmirk âIdiditforhelpâIhatetoadmitit,butheâsa littlecute.Ifthewholewoundedpuppythingdiditforme.
Ormaybeitcould SinceWardecidedtohavehislittletoylanddirectlyonmylap,whynotwindthatbitchupandletit dance?
âEw.Icanâtbelieveourweekendisruined,âRivercomplains,tappingonthepassengerseat.âHurryup,asshole.Getout sowecanleave.â
âYouknow,youguysareallquitecharming.Anyoneevertellyouthat?âHereachesforthedoor,andmyeyetwitcheswhen Irealizeheâllleavebloodthere
âYes,âIanswersweetly.âMydaddydoeseverynightwhenhetucksmeintobed.â
Helaughsbutstumblesout Ishovemysideopenandfollowbehindhim,roundingthefrontofthecar DevilâsCockpitis theRiversidemeetup,whereeveryonewhoattendsRiversideEliteUniversityandRiversidePrepcomeseveryweekend. Thisisthestartingpoint,whichthencarriesonthroughthebackofRiversideagainstthecliffsthatdropouttotheocean, before loopingaround once youhitthe fence line ofElite Kings Estate and comingbackto Devilâs Cockpit. This isnâtyour averagetrack.Itâsrough.Ifyouârenotskilledenough,youdie.Pointblank.
Itâsmoretheirlittlegamethattheyparticipateinbehindtheguiseoftheracesandpartyingthatnooneknowsabout Itâsall adecoyforwhatâsreallygoingondeepintheforest.Idonâtknowmuchaboutitsinceweneverspenttimearoundhere.Infact, wemadeitourmissiontobeasfarawayfromRiversideaspossiblewhenwecould,muchlessduringweekends Untiltheirsubjectjumpedoutinfrontofmycar.
âHalen!â Connor, one ofthe varsityplayers who attends Riverside Elite, nudges his head up atme, while liftinghis red Solo cup I smile but it doesnât reachmyeyes Heâs onlyever bold enoughto sayhello to me whenheâs drunk Bunchof fuckingidiots.Allofthem.AlltooafraidoftheKingstoactuallytalktoanyofus.
IcanâtsayIblamethem
Myheadlightsbeamontowherechoppedlogsaresplayedoutbehindthefire.War,Priest,andVadenareall sittingthere withanarrayofgirlsaround oron them
Priestemptieshisdrinkandshovesthegirloffhislap.Stumbling,sheletsoutayelpbeforehittingtheground.
âHowembarrassing,âEviemuttersbelowherbreath.âIâmgettingadrink.â
âDonâtevenfuckingstartâIglareatmybrotherashegetscloser
People separate farther awayfromus, stumblingand dancingamongsteachother. The music is loud enoughthatpeople canât hear our conversation, but me and Priest fightingis nothinganyone hasnât seenbefore I love mybrother Evenwhen weâre fighting. Evenmore so whenweâre fightingbecause atleastheâs showing something. Ihave to keep himhere, inhis humanity Evenifthatinvolvesrage
âWhydidyoubringhimbackhere?â
âWherethefuckelsewasIsupposedtotakehim?â
âFuckâPriestgrabstheguybyhisarm,forcinghimovertowhereWarandVadenare Iturnslowlytofacethegirls,annoyed.Evieâshidingherlaughbehindherhand.
âAreyoulaughing?â
Herhandslips.âYes?â
âWeshouldhavejustlefthim,âRiver complains,followingPriest.Stellalooks betweenthebothofus,cominguptomy sideandhookingherarminmine.
âIdidnâtdressforthiskindofvibe.â
âIâll postponeBayonetFalls.âIwidenmyeyesather,andweall follow Priest.MyphoneâsvibratinginmypocketbutI know that if I take it out now, the questions will start. WhenI sayI canât breathe without one of themknowinghow many breathsIâvetakenaday,Imeanit Itâsalmostlikewhenyouhavestrictparents,butallitdoesismakekidsdisobey kindof likethat.Exceptweâvebeensmartaboutitforyearsandtheydonâtknowanything.
Firecracklesthroughtheair,itsflamesstretchingoutintothevacantnight,astheMilkyWayduststheskyinadecorationof starsandthefullmoon.
Priestshovestheguydownontotheground âShutthefuckupandyoumightactuallylivetoseeyourteammatesâHelooks towardsWar,butIresisttheurgetofollowhisgaze.
War isaho.All ofthemare,withtheexceptionofVaden.Priestisselectivewithwhohesleepswith,inasensethathe usuallyjusthoversaroundoneortwogirlsandbouncesbetweenthemboth,butWarhasacollection Tillietoldmehegotit fromNate,andyouknowwhat?Icantotallypicturethat.
âWhyisEmmaonWarâslaplikeshefuckingbelongsthere?âEviewhispersintomyear Idonâtcareenough,nor doIwanttogivehimthesatisfactionofmeseeingit.Over theyears,weâveall beengoodgirls aroundthe families Weâve actedas we shouldinpublic andkeptour messiness behinddoors While the restofthemfreely engageinpromiscuityanddrugs,actingliketheyowneverything. Iâvehatedit.
Riverhashatedit
Stelladoesnâtreallycareaboutit.
AndifDadeverfindsoutthekindofbullshitthattheyâvebeendoingbehindthesepartiesandraces,Iâmprettysureheâs goingtoloseit.
Priestisnothinglikeourdadandalittlemorelikeourpop.MomsaiditâswhatscaresDadthemostabouthimcompletely takingthegavel.
But I thinktheyâre bothwrong. I thinkheâs more like the first Hayes that founded the EKC. Thatâs not what should be worryingthemyet Theyshouldbemoreworriedthatallthreeofthemarelikeunhingedhyenas,andsincetheydonâthaveto playwiththebigdogsyet,theyârekillingtimebyriskingexposureonourownstreets,allforshitsandgiggles.
âPriest?âIglareatmybrotherthroughthewavesofheat âLeavehimaloneâ
Warchokesonhislaugh,andmuchtomyannoyance,myeyesshifttohimjustasheâsmovingEmmaaroundtostraddlehis lap.Histattedhandslandonherasscheeksasheleansforwardanddragshistonguefromthesideofherneck,andacrossher jaw,allwhilekeepinghiseyeslockedonmine.MystomachexplodesintoaballoffireandalltheangerthatIâvekepthidden threatenstosurface.Years.YearsofusallactinglikeplacidlittleKingsthatsitintheshadowsoftheseassholes.Heâsnever donethis,though Thesmallnumberoftimesthatweâvebeenhere,Warhasnâtparadedhisconquestsaroundinfrontofme I donâtknowifthatwasonpurpose,orwhetherthisoneisfor whateverreason butnowIkindofwanttopunchhim.
Straightintheface Itwouldnâtbemyfirsttime
PopSmokestartsplayingloudlyandImovefromthespotIâmattowherethewoundedboyis,loweringmyselfdownto kneelinfrontofhim.âLetmehavealook?â
Hisbrowneyescometomine ItâsthefirsttimethatIâverealizedheâsprobablyalittleolderthanus IfIdomycalculations right,thatisnotgood.âYougotanythingtonumbthepain?â
Myfocusdropstohislipsandmymouthtwitches Ireachintothebackpocketofmyjeans Stepone,boys.Wedodrugs.Justlikeyoudo.
Iflashtheballinfrontofmeandheshufflesuptoresthisbackagainstthelog,onelegstretchingoutandtheotherbent He restshisotherarmonhisknee,cagingmeinbetweenhislegs.Icanfeeltheheatoftheflamesagainstmyback.Itdoesenough tokeepmewarm,sinceheruinedmyjacket.
âHalen? Backthe fuckupâ Warâs icytone sends shivers downmyspine Oh? You did see me here? Betyoufuckingdo now.
Iturnslightly,hidingmysmilefrombehindmyshoulder âHowaboutno?â
Priestemptiestherestofhisdrinkinthefire,comingdirectlyforme.Heleansdowntosnatchthebagfrommyfingers,but Icloseitinmypalm
âPriest,Iâmthesamefuckingageasyou.Fuckyouandgositdown.â
Heglaresdownatme.âIâmtakingyouhome.â
âNo Youâre not Because Iâmnotfourteenanymore none ofus are and since weâve spentthe better halfofour lives partyingintownsawayfromRiversidejusttomakeyoulotcomfortable,Iâmtellingyourightnow âIpause,hatingthatIâm sittingsolowandheâstoweringoverme Heâstallenoughasitiswithoutmebeinginthisposition,butIkindofliketheway Iâmrestingagainst the wounded puppy. Iâmalmost sure heâs allowingme to do it. Who is he and why does he have balls bigger than every other boy in this town?
âWhat?âhesnarls,turningoverhisshoulderslightlyuntilhefindsRiverandStella.IknowIâvegothim,becausethereare rules,andasruthlessastheKingsare,wefollowourrules.Oneofthemjustsohappenstobekeepingourfamilydramaoutof
thepubliceye.Allittakesistherightpersontoseeacrackinourperfectlyconstructedcastleandtheyâllslitherinandtryto demolishthefoundation.
Priestglaresdownatme âWewilltalkaboutthislaterâHeturnsbacktowherehecamefrom,notanotherwordsaid Itâs notlike theyâre completelystupid. Theyâve seenus drunkand acta fool. Before me and the girls decided to dance our way aroundthem,wewerealwaystheirproblem Gettingdrunkattheirparties,dancingaroundtheirfriends,butsoonenoughitwas asannoyingforusasitwasforthembecausetheyâdjustendupruiningournight.
Iturnbacktothe puppy,findinghimalreadytracingthe lines ofmyjaw andface Whyis itthe longer Ilookathim,the hotterhegets?Itdoesnâthelpthatheâsexactlymytype.Ihappentofallfortheprettydamagedones. Whetherthatdamageisself-inflictedornot.
âWhatdoyousay?âIwigglethebaginfrontofhisface,catchingmovementinmyperiphery BothRiverandStelladropto thelogheâsleaningon.Goosebumpsshiverdownmyspine.
Iâmcold Ineedanotherjacket
Ipopopenthelittlebag,keepingmyeyesonhisasItapthepowderontothecreasewheremythumbandfingerconnects. Bringingituptohisnose,heholdsmystareasheleansdownandtakesthehit,clearinghisnostrilonhiswayback âStellaâŚâVadengrowlsfromsomewherebehindme.
Stellafinishestakingherhairoutofherbraid,winkingatmeandflickingitoverhershoulderashereyesswayuptoher brother Theybothhaveheterochromia,onlyflippedopposite Withawidesmile,shesnatchesthebagoffme.
TheguygrabsmywristandIwatchashistonguelapsuptheresidueonmyhand,keepinghiseyesonmine Mybreathing hitchesandIleandown,catchinghischinwithmyfingersandmovingslightlytothesidesoWarcanseethemovement. Hoveringmylipsoverhis,Iwhisper,âKissme.â
Iaccentuatetheâmeâonpurpose.IâmsureWardoesnâtremembershitaboutthatnightyearsago,butjustincasehedoes, andbecauseIâmfeelingpettyashell,Iclimbonhislap.
Hishandlandsonthebackofmyassashepullsmeintohim Hislipsareonmineinaninstantandmymouthpartsforhim enoughformetobeabletosmirk.
HemoveshishandfrommyasstohisstomachandIfeelhimtwitchagainstmylips Irestmyhandoverhis,liftingitfrom hiswound.ItâsnotasbadasIthought.Moreadeepgraze.
Iarchabrowathim.âAlittledramatic,donâtyouthink?â
âHalen.âTheagitationinWarâstoneisnâtmissed.Byanyone,Iâmsure,whichmakesnosensesincehehasalwaysmadeit veryclear alltwotimes thatinnowayeverdoIaffecthimthewayhedoesme. Irollmyeyes,glaringathimfromovermyshoulder âWhat?â
âGetoffthefuckingground.â
âHeâscute,though âIbatmylashesbetweenWarandPriest IleaveVadenoutofitbecauseforthemostpart,heisnâtas badastheothertwo.VadensomewhatallowsStellatodowhatshewants.Hejustmakessuretokeepacloseeyeonher.Why Icouldnâtgethimas a brother,Iwill never know. âCanIkeep him?â Iftheywanttosee me as a problem, Iâll be a fucking problem
OrangehuesfromthefirecastshadowsoverWarâsjaw.Averyclenchedjaw. Withhislipcurledinasnarl,mystomachcoilslikehotwirewhenhiseyesdarkenonmine Whatthefuckishisproblem?
Heflipsthehoodieofhisjerseyoverhisheadtoshadehisscowl
IstillrememberthedayDadsatdownwithmeandtoldmeaboutboys.Well,hetried.AndIlovedhimforitbecausehis messagewasalotdifferentthanMomâs.Whereshewasthestricterparent,Dadwaschill.Hewasgood.Hetoldmetostay awayfromboysuntilIwastwenty-fivebecauseifPriestturnedouttobeaflop,Iâdgettotakethegavel Obviously,mybrother didnâtturnintoaflop.Ifanything,hewill yieldthegavel thesamewayPopdid.Iwas onlyeightor nineatthetime,sothe thoughtofboyswasamajorick,butastimewenton Warchanged Icanâtrememberevernothavingacrushonhim WouldI ever tell him?Hell no.DidIgetdrunkonenightandtrytofuckhim?Yes.Thankfully,hekeptthattohimself.Mostlikelyto protecttheirlittlebrotherhood
Itrynotto thinkaboutwhenexactlyWar turned frombeinga friend, someone Icould always relyon, to this. Probably aroundthetimeIaskedhimtofuckme.
âJesus âEviehandsmeadrinkovermyshoulder âYoureallyjustleftthekiddiepoolanddoveheadfirstintotheadult section.â
ItaketheSolocupfromher,pushingupfromthewoundedpuppyâschestwhilebringingtherimtomylips
âIdid.âIstaynear thegirls.âBecauseIâmover itandIknow Dadwill beonmysidewhenitcomestothis Momtoo. Theyjustdonâtknowhowbadithasbeen,andalso,ifhecontinuestomakeitanissue,Iâllletourparentsknowabouthislittle gamethattheyplayontheweekends.âItakeasipofthealcohol,lettingthecheapvodkaslidedownmythroat.âMaybegivean insightastowhysomepeoplegomissing.â
âWell,âRiverlowersherselfdownontoalog,tippingherheadbacktoswallowherdrink,âIhatetosayit,butIâmpretty surenooneisgoingtocomenearushereanyway,evenifwedidhangaroundmore.â
Stellarecoils âPsh Theywonâtbeabletohelpthemselvesâ
AhandrestsonmyhipandIturnovermyshoulderwhenthewoundedpuppyâsfingersgrazemyexposedbelly,wherethe band ofmyskirtis He keeps his eyes onmine as his hand finds mypocket He takes outmyphone, liftingitto myface to unlockit, and starts punchinginhis name and number. He slides itinside the frontofmyshirtwhenhe finishes, his fingers crawlingtothebackofmynecktospinmearound Helowershislipstomine ThistimeIlethistongueslideinside,turning myheadtogivehimmoreaccess.
Hepullsback,asmirkonhisface.âIâlltextyou.âThenhewalksoffandItouchmybackpocket,feelingthemaskheâdleft stuffedinside
Ibitedownonmylowerlipandwatchashisbackmusclesripplewhenhemakeshiswaytoawaitingblacked-outRange Rover
âOkay!âIswingmyattentionbacktothethreeofthem.âWhoisthat,andIâmdefinitelykeepinghim.â
âKeepinghim, huh?â War, now suddenlyfree ofEmma so itâs justour âfamilyâ around this side, glares atme He leans forwardanditâsthefirsttimeIâvenoticedhowangryheis.Warhasalwaysbeenbeautiful,evenasachild.Hisbabyfeatures hardenedover theyearsintoajawlinesharpenoughtosliceyour heartopen,andcheekbonescarvedfromaGreekgod.His featherbrownhairiskeptshorter,justenoughtobeabletorunyourfingersthrough,buthiseyes theyârewhatyoucanâtsee past.Theyârethekindthatburnyourbrainifyoulooktoolong,whichiswhypeopledonât.
Meincluded
Heâsonehundredpercentaprettyboy,andheknowsit.âMaybetryyourfirsttimewithsomeonealittlesofter.Cadenisnât itâŚâ
"Caden,huh?âItiltmyheadtothesideasEviereplacesmyemptycupwithafreshlypouredone.âAndwhosaiditwould bemyfirsttime?â
Hisbodystills,andIwatchtheexactmomentadarkshadow creepsoverhisface Ididnâtknow muchaboutthethreeof themandwhattheydoonPerdita.Theyleave,andtheneverytimetheycomeback,theyâreallonedge.ThewayWarisstaring atmerightnowisexactlywhattheyârelikefreshofftheplane
âHalen,stopbeingafuckingbrat.âPriestkicksdustintothefire.âWeâvegottoheadoutforabit.Canyoubehavewhile weâregone?â
âIâmnotachild!âIscoldhim.Eitherheâsrealizedthereâsalotthathedoesnâtknow,orhehasfinallygivenup.Iâmnothis child.Iâmhissister,andasmuchasIknowhewilldoanythingandeverythingtoprotectmeanddestroyanyonewhosomuch as looks atme the wrongway, he needs to know thatIdonâtneed his help We came fromthe same womb Eventhoughhe doesnâtlikehearingit,Icanholdmyown.
âYeah,fuckno âWarshakeshishead,leaningbackandbreakingeyecontact âWeainâtleavingthemhereâ PriestignoreshimasVadenclearshisthroat.âWehaveto.Theyâllbefine.â
Warâs jaw tenses, annoyance once againflashingover his features. He stares at me like one would anenemy. This has everythingtodowithmeandnothingatalltodowithRiver
I STARE BACKTHROUGH THE CRACKS OF THE TREES, WATCHING AS HALEN MOVES AROUND THE PARTY LIKE SHE FUCKING OWNS IT Everyone seems to be smart enoughto keep their distance, and now I know what Priest meant byleavingthemhere. They wouldbesafeenough Andtheyclearlyare PriestplacesawethandleinthepalmofmyhandandIlookdownatit.Icanâtseeshit,butwhenIrealizeitâsthebonecarvedMalumknife,Idonâthaveto.Blooddripsdownfromthebladewhenhefollowsmyview.Weallhaveafamilyknife, whereitshandleiscarvedfromtheboneofouroriginalancestor.
âItoldyounottoworry.NooneâsgonnatouchRiver.â
Yeah River BecausethatâswhoIwaspissedabout Iswipetheedgeoftheknifeagainstmyjeansandshoveitintomybackpocket.âYougonnahandleCaden?â
âOhyeah?âPriestsnickers,turninghisattentionfullyonme âAndhowamIgonnadothat?Startawar?â Ibitebackmyanger.âWorthit.â
Priestholdsmystare.âYouârestartingtocaretoomuch.â
âHefuckingparadedheraroundonpurpose,toshowthathecouldbecausethetimerwasup.â
Priestmoves the branchawayso we cansee the girls clearer. âLethimhave it. The onlyreasonwhyHalendid itwas becauseshedoesnâtknowwhoheisâ
âAndwhoâsgonnatellthem?â
Vadenstepsupbehindme âWhywestandingherecreepinâ?â
âBecausethisassholewas.âPriestfinallyturnsandwefollowbehindhimashedisappearsfartherintotheforest. Oneofthesedays,weweregoingtogetcaught.Wejusthavetohopethatwhenwedo,itâsaftertheritualandweâvetaken theplaceofourfathers.
IpullintothedrivewayoftheCastle,restingmyheadagainstthebackofthechair.
âJustcrashhere.âPriestrollsoutofthecarasthesunrisesupfrombehindthesharpceilingsoftheirmansion.Theroyals havenothingontheHayes âWar youneedtofuckingsleepâ
Iturnthecaroffandstumbleout.Bloodstainslittermyjeansandhoodieasweclimbtheonehundredstepsittakestogetto thefrontdoor Thehallsechoastheywiden
Bishopisleaningagainstthestairwellwhenweenter,sippinghiscoffee.Heâssuitedalready,thebuttonsundonetoexpose histattoos.Bishopiseverythingyouâdexpectaruthlessleaderofamacabre,prestigiousordertobeasafather.Iâdheardheâs differentthanhisdad.SinceHectorandPriestareliketwounhingedmaniacs,Iâdsaysomethingskippedageneration.
âBusynight?âBishopgesturestobothofus.Hishairâsdamp,andhistierestscasuallyaroundhisneck.
âHowareyouawake?âPriestshutsthedoor,scrubbinghiseyeswiththebackofhishand âIhardlysleep.YourmomandIareheadingtoBrazilthisweekendtopreparefortheritual.â
âYeah,okay Anythingelse?â
Helooksbetweenthetwoofus,runninghishandthroughhisbeard.âDoIneedtobeworriedaboutthishere?â
âNo,sirâŚâPriestanswersflatly.
Ishakemyheadandflashhimagrin.âNah,Unc.Nothingtostressabout.â
âWar.Whoyourfatheris,isexactlywhyIâmworriedaboutthis.âHegesturestoourclothes.Nodoubttheblood. IsidestephimandfollowPriestupthestairs
âDidyouatleastclean?OrdoIneedtocallitin?âHedoesnâtturnwhenheasksthequestions.
âYeah,DadâŚwedid.â
âIneednames,Priest.Wecross-check.Ifanythingisleftbehind,IcancallintheSkullKeeper.â
âIâllsendthemtoyou,B,âIanswerBishopaswehitthetopofthestairs Wetakearight,downPriestâssideofthesecond level.âYouneedtocutyour oldmansomeslack.Hehasapoint.Vadenhavingtogooffanddecompressisenoughtoprove that Abunchoffucked-upindividualsâ
âHell no. Pop said theynever gave hima breakwhentheywere young.â He stumbles into his room, and I stand at the threshold Thislevelisforthetwins HalfforPriest,andtheotherforHalen Theirbedroomstakeupthewholespaceofthis level, so thatâs enoughto know how bigtheyare. Bishop and Madisonstayona differentlevel and whole other side ofthe house. Madisonâs logic whenshe builtthis was to keep themas far awayas possible, since she knew whatshe was infor. Smart Gotta give her that And since their house is a literal fuckingcastle, whenever we throw parties onthis side of the house,theyneverknow.
Notthattheycare
MyheartrattlesmyribcagethelongerIstandhere.Finallygivingin,IturntowardHalenâssideofthehallway,herdoor directlyattheend
Whatthefuckwassheplayingatlastnight,andwhydiditpissmeoffsomuch?Overtheyears,especiallyafterherlittle fuck-me antics whenshe was fourteen, Iâd squashed everythoughtIâd have thatwould surface abouther. Butitwas hard to deny Imean theyall were attractiveyounggirls
ExceptRiver.DistantcousinasideonStellaâspart.
Halenwasabrat,though Shealwaysgotwhatshewanted Exceptme thatnight Ichuckle.ShehatedthatâŚ
âIâmgonnacrashintheLighthouse.âPriestwasalreadyoutbythetimeIclosedhisdoor,andImakemywaybackthrough thehouseandtotheentrance.CrossingthegardentothetowerthatstandsoffthesideoftheCastle,Itaptheelevatorbuttonand stepinside.ItreachesthetopanddingsopenasIstumblethroughthefamiliarspace.
EncasedwithwindowsthatoverlookRiverside,Ipunchbuttonsonthecontrolscreenuntilblindsdroptocovertheglass Mybrainfadesinandoutasfatiguetakesover.
IbarelyhittheCaliforniakingwhenIâmlightsout
Somethingtugsonmyjeans,jerkingmefrommysleep Iflyoffthebed,fatiguegone
Halenstandswithherhandsonherhips,herhairtiedinahighponyandhertightlittlebodyondisplay.Sheâsinasports bra and gymshorts that curve just over the swell of her ass Sweat drips over her body and âAre your fucking nipples pierced?â
âWhat?âShelooksdownathertits.
Iinstinctivelystepforwardwithoutrealizing Shecountersitbysteppingbackward.âStop!â
Nah,hellno Iamnotstopping WhatthefuckissheplayingatandwhydoIfeellikesheâsbeenexistingbehindsmokeand mirrorsallthisfuckingtime?
Ireachforherarm,butshejerksawayagain.
âHalenâŚâItâsanunintentionalgrowl.
âWarâŚâsheparrotswiththesametone,herbrightgreeneyeswide.âDonâttouchme.â
âWhat?âItâslikeaslapintheface SheandIhavealwaysbeenalittlecloserthanmeandtheothergirls evenRiver No oneknewit,butHalenwastheoneIâdtalktolateatnightifIneededsomeone.Butthatallchanged. SometimesIforgetthat
âImeanbecauseyouhavebloodalloveryou!âshescolds,droppingtoherkneesinfrontofmetotugmyjeansdown. Ispreadmyarmswide,workingmyjaw.Whatthefuckisshedoing?OrwhatthefuckamIdoing?Sheâsdoneshitlikethis before especiallywhenIsleep inthe Lighthouse. Halenwould make ither missionto come inand make sure we werenât doingdumbshit.
I groan, wrapping her ponytail around my fist and forcing her head back so sheâs looking up at me frombelow This positionisnâthelpingeither.
âYoucanâtdroptoyourkneesandpulloffmyjeans,Halenâ
âWhy?â She bats her eyelashes up atme and Ifightwitheverythinginside to notforce her onto the bed and fuckall the rebellionoutofher.âBecauseyouâreafraidPriestwillwalkinandthinkweâredoingsomethingelse?âShepushesuptostand butIforceherbackdownbyherhair,tighteningmygrip
âIdonâtgiveafuckwhatitlooksliketoyourbrother,Halo.IfIwantedtofuckyou,Iwouldhavefuckedyousixyearsago whenyouwererubbingyourshitallovermycockandbeggingmetoâ
âFuckyou.â She whacks myhandawayandthis time Ilether upbecause ifthereâs anythinghotter thanHalen,itâs angry Halen.
Her shoulders straighten, her eyes onmine âAnd yes, Ido have mynipples pierced, amongstother things â Mybrain short-circuitsbutbeforeIcaninterruptherrant,shekeepsgoing.â andIwouldnâtfuckyoueither,War.ThatâslikeâŚincest.â
âMmmhmm Surething,babygirlâShestopswhenshehitsthedoor,herhandonthebuttontotheelevator ThemusclesoneithersideofherspinetenseandIwatchassheslowlyturnsoverhershoulder.
âWar âShecrossesherarmsinfrontofherself,pushingherfattitshigher Fuck âYouârenottheonlypersonIaskedto fuckmethatnight âMysmirkfalls.â onlydifferencebetweenyouandhim?âThebitchhastheaudacitytolooksmugasshe stepsbackwardintotheelevator.âIsheactuallyhadtheballstofollowthrough.â
RageburnsthroughmeandIlaunchforwardbutshepalmsthebuttontoclosethedoors Itâsthelongestthirtysecondsever bythe time theyreopenand take me down. Sheâs runningthroughthe frontdoor justas Ihitoutside. Ijogacross the field, throughthefrontdoors,andtakethestairstwoatatime Ijustgetcloseenoughtograbherwhensheslamsherdoorinmyface andthesoundofherlockclinkingvibratesthroughthewood.
Isqueezethehandleanyway,jigglingitroughly Littlefuckingbitch
âYouneedtogetonmore,âPriestcallsoutfrombehindmeandmyragehoversinthebackofmybrain.Iactedimpulsively andnowshethinksIgiveafuck.
OnenightofthemkickingitwithusforlessthanthirtyminutesandIâvelostallfuckingcontrol Iturntofacehim.âHuh,tellyoursisterthat.â
Priestâs eyes fall over myshoulder âWhatâs she doingnow?â He opens his bedroomdoor and Imake mywayinto his room,unbucklingmyjeansandkickingthemoff.
âTheusual.Whatthefuckisgoingonwiththegirls?â
Hisroomisaboutasbigasapenthouseapartment.Thebedisstuffedinthecorner,andafloatingfireplacedanglesfrom theceilinginthemiddleoftheroom.
Thereâs a fucktonofrandomshit Like a pool table, a Jacuzzi outonthe patio behind the floor-to-ceilingglass sliding doors,andafuckoffone-hundred-inchTVthatcomesdownfromtheoppositesidesothatifyouâreintheJacuzzionthepatio, youcanwatchit Thebathroomtakesupthespaceontheothersideoftheroom,completewithablackmarblefinish Itapthetouchscreenandturnontherainforestshower.
âDonât know. Iâmguessingtheyâre actingout.â Priest leans against the entry, crossinghis arms infront of himself. âOr maybetheyârenotbullshitting,andtheyâveplayedusallalongandreallyhavebeenlivingsomefuckingdoublelifewedonât knowabout.â
Ishuffle outofmybriefs, holdingmycockbefore slippingbeneaththe hotwater âYeah, well, whatever itis, we gonna handlethat?â
âCanâtâPrieststaresatmeinthemirror,bitingdownonhistoothbrush âWeactuallycanât Halenisright,theyârethesame rankasusandaretechnicallyKings.Wecanâtfuckingdoshitaboutit.âHeleansovertospit,andItapthesoapdispenseruntil foamcurlsintothepalmofmyhand.
âSo,thatâsit?â
Priestshrugs.âYeah,Imeansheâstwenty.Ishouldhaveprobablylaidoffheralongtimeago.Makenomistake,ifanyone hurts themor does themwrong, we know the drillâ Iturnthe shower offand step out, water drippingover the heated tiles Wrappingthetowelaroundmywaist,Priestâseyesfalltomydiscardedclothes.âSheaskaboutthat?â
âAboutwhat?âIignorethebloodyclothes,flashinghimasmirk âNaw,bro Sheknowsbetterthantoaskquestionsâ Adooropensandthencloses.âIfyouârewalkingbackinhereformorebullshit,Halen,mydickisoutthistime.â
PriestshovesmebackwardslightlyandIlaugh,knowingdamnwell Halenisfuckingtoastfortherestoftheday.Thisis herpattern Shestirsshit,andthenbounces Itâsalwaysbeenthatwaywithher
âIâveseenyourdickmorethanIâveseenmyownatthispoint,âVadencallsfromtheroom,andImakemywaybackout, dryingmyhairwithanothertowel Vadenâseyescometomine TheVitiosisduohavealwaysbeenafascinationtopeoplewho seethem.Asidefromtheir Iâll justadmitit attractivelooks,theybothsharean,Iguess,abnormality.Vadenâs righteyeis iceblue,hisleftisbrown,andStellathesame,onlyoppositesides,andwhereStellaâsbrowneyeis,itâsafifthcovered Itâs eightypercentbrownandtwentypercentblue,whereherothereyeiscompletelyblue.
Brantleytoldusstoriesaskids,sayingthatitwasbecausehalfhissoulwasdoomed.TriedtoscareVadenasakid,only nothingcouldscarehim
Notonesinglefuckingthing.
Goodforus;toobadforourenemies
IshoveonapairofjeansfromPriestâsdresser,runningmyhandthroughmyhair.âWeâreactuallyfuckingleavingthemhere whenweleavenextweek.â
The door opens and Aire enters, flippinghis cap backward withSamsonnotfar behind him. Aire falls onto the leather sofa,blowingoutadeepbreath.âFuck.NotsureIaskedforthiskindoflife.Notgonnalie.â
Priestâseyescometomine,beforeflyingtohim.âWell,shit.Youcanalwaysleave?â
Aire moves forward, looking between Priest and I. âFuck no! Iâmjust sayinâ. Why is my last name the one that is in finance? WhycouldnâtmyKinglineage be Nate fuckingMalum, or Bishop motherfuckingHayes, or fuck!BrantleyVitiosis Yâallareiconic.ThisfuckandIarejust â
âBro,shutthefuckupwithyourwhiningâIrollmyeyes,reachingforthecanisterwithweedinsideofit Ipopitopenand sprinkleadecentamountinabluntpaper.âYouthinkourlifeisfuckingeasybecauseofwhoourdadsare?Naw,bruh.Youâve gotittwisted Weâreburningtimerightnow,butoncethatgavelisinourhand,itâsonâ âIdidnâtsayeasier,âAirebrushesmeoff.âIjustmeantnoneofyougotocollege.Westillfuckinghaveto.â Ichuckle,lickingthebluntpaper.
Itâsnothisfault Imean,he,andSamsonhaveneverbeendirectlyinside,eventhoughtheyareinthetechnicalsenseKings ChaseDivitae Latinforwealth isAireâsfather,andCashDitio Latinforpower isSamsonâs.Ourdutiesarenâtquiteon parwiththeirs Throughhighschoolwewerealltight Butafter thefamousdividehadalreadybegun Dadâsgenerationhad allfoundingnames.Throughtheyears,theythinnedouttothefinalthreeoncetheyallbranchedofftotheirrespectfulcallings. Hayes,Malum,andVitiosisarealwaystheonlythreewhogoforwardtothetable âWhendoyouguysheadback?âSamsonasks,watchingasIlighttheendofthejointandtakeahit. Ihandittohimwhileblowingoutathickcloud.âThisFriday.ButsinceHalenandthegirlshavedecidedtothrowdivaâŚâ
âMmm, I was gonna talk to you about that Itâs everywhere that she had her tongue down someoneâs throat at Devilâs Cockpit. Whuddup withthat?â Samsonpasses itto Vaden, loweringdownonthe bed opposite me. Samsonis definitelythe oppositeofAire inagoodway
âHegotloose.âVadencutsdowntheconversationbeforeitcangetfar.Theyknownottoaskquestions. Aireshrugs,changingthesubject.âSowherewerethegirlsevengoing?â
Ifreeze.MyeyesflytoPriestandVaden.ThatwassomethingwehadnâtevenaskedourselvesamongstallthedramaâŚand blood.
Airecontinues,notpickingupontheshiftinatmosphere IâvehadtostopPriestfromkillinghimmultipletimesthroughthe yearsbecauseheâssofuckingstupid.Iâmnotstoppinghimanymore.
âIâdheardofthemmakingappearancesinasfarasNYCâ
âYouheardanddidnâtthinktotellusaboutthis?âInfact,Imightjustkillhimmyself.Unfortunately,Icanâtjustswitchoff tonotgivingafucksoquicklylikePriestcan.Ialwaysreactwithemotion,usuallyaggression.NotthatPriestisnâtunhinged, becauseheis,andusuallyIâmthelogicalonewhenitcomestowhatcounts,butnotwhenitcomestothegirls.
Weâvebeenwatchingoverthemall theirlives.Thatshitdoesnâtswitchoffautomatically,atleastnotforme.Vaden?Eh. Heâsacoldmotherfuckeranyway Priest?NotenoughinvolvementwiththeEKCforhimtocare IfHalenisgettingintheway ofanythingtodowiththeclub,heâllscratchherout.Bloodornot,theEliteKingsClubandkeepingtheenginesteamedisall thisfuckercaresaboutreally outsideofHalen
âWehavenâtbeencatchingupasmuch âAirebites,butnotenoughtopissmerightoff.Heâssmart.HeknowsIâdfucking layhimout.
Ileanbackagainstmychair,flickingtheZippobetweenmyfingers âTheywonâtbedoingthatanymore,sincetheywereso carelesswithtellingus.Itmeanstheyhaveanewplacetoactafool.â
ThereâsaknockonthedoorandSamsonthrowsthejointonmylapasitopens Bishopandmyoldmanstandonthethreshold,castingaquickglancearoundtheroom.Ipluckthehalf-smokedbluntfrom mylap,glaringatlittlebitchSamsonbeforeplacingitbetweenmylips Isquintaroundtheveilofsmokeasmypapâseyesland onme.
Drawinginalonghit,IflashhimasmirkasIblowsmokerings.âSup,Daddy.â "Shitheadâ
Ipuckermylipsinakiss,kickingmyleguptorestontheedgeofthebed.âWhatcanwehelpyouelderswith?â âYeah?âMydadmirrorsmysmirk,hiseyesdarkening âWhydonâtyouaskyourmommyifIfucklikeanelder?â Ifliphimoff.
Priestleansagainstthepoker table,shovinghishandsinsidehispockets HeandBishoparetight Kindoflikebrothers, onlysomehow worse.Idonâtthinkanyofourdadsreallyweredads.Theyall hadtoputthefamilyfirstandthenbeafather second.
AKingdoesnâtneedlove Wejustneedloyalty
âWhatisitandwhydoIthinkIâmnotgoingtolikethisshit?â
âBecause youâre notâ Bishopturns over his shoulder,checkingDadbefore comingbacktome âMeetinthe Cave inan hour.âTheCaveiswheretheyconductalltheirmeetings.Goingforward,prettysureourswillbetheLighthouse. âYouârecallingameet?âVadenasks,leaningbackonhiselbow.
âYeah. Bran will be there â He pauses, looking around the room. The corner of his mouth twitches. âAs will your sisters.â
âWhat?âIleanforwardanddubouttheblunt.
âSonâŚâDadstaresatme.Doesnâthelpweârealreadyaroundthesameheight.âSeeyouinanhour.â
Iâmstill glaringatthe door after theyleave whenPriesttaps mylegwithhis âWhatthe fuckis your problemwiththem comingin?Youknewitwasgonnahappen.Makessenseitâsnowsinceweâresoclosetotheritual.â
âIdonâtknow Ithoughtwhentheywereolderâ
âThey are older,â Vaden interrupts, flicking the army knife between his fingers. âHonestly, I thought it would be done beforenowâ
Priestdisappearsinthecloset.âYouknowtheyneededtimetofigureshitoutbeforetheycould.â
IshuffleonashirtandapairofJordans,headingoutoftheroom.âIâllmeetyoudownthere.â
IslamthedoorclosedandkeepmyeyeslockedonHalenâsroom MyfingersflexinmypalmwhenIthinkbacktothelast conversationwehad.
Whothefuckhasshefuckedandwhythefuckdoesitbothermesodamnmuch?
Halen
I STARE BLANKLYAT MY DADâS OFFICE DOOR
Noises bang around and the lump in my throat grows bigger the longer time goes on. What will he do? What will they do? Does he know? I am not sure The house smells of freshly baked cookies and I take the steps away from the Cave so I wonât be tempted to force myself into his space and tell him all of the things that have been eating me up since, but I collide with a hard body
I spin around, my hand flying out to whoever it is, when it lands on a tatted chest. My panic turns into a frown. âYou basically live here.â
War flashes me a dimpled smirk I hate when he does that because it is hard to hate him He is a constant reminder of everything I was born into and love.
I love War
I love Vaden.
I love all of them, even when they are annoying and cruel
âAre you asking me to move in?â He raises a perfectly curved brow. âYou know Iâm your mom â s favorite.â I shove him out of my way but his hand catches mine before I can take another step. âHowâs your hangover? Remember anything from Friday night?â The lump in my throat grows as I try to swallow everything Iâve fought hard to forget
Only I am sure that one day, it is going to choke me.
I fold my arms in front of myself, ignoring the way my cheeks burn Well, I am doing terrible at this âNo Nothing important anyway. Why?â
His eyes narrow I know what heâs asking me Itâs obvious, but aside from him being a complete asshole for mentioning it, I am not surprised âReally?â
I shrug, stepping backward to go back to the kitchen. I need to see my mom. I just⌠need her. And anyway, not that we have a no-partying rule in the house, but I did come home drunk enough for her to stay up all night to watch me sleep They left for a forty-eight-hour trip to Europe the next morning, so I didnât get a chance to see her after.
âHalen?â War calls out, and I pause my steps but donât turn âWhat will you do without us at college?â
âOh God, I donât know, War.â I turn and start walking backward. âWhatever we want?â
As soon as heâs gone, my face falls Mom reaches into the oven, dropping a baking tray on top of the stove and tossing the dishcloth on the counter âFuck Maybe Iâm not a bakerâ âCorrect!â Aplastic smile melts onto my face. I vow to never remove it. âBut itâs okay, because dad is.â
Istare atthe patterns onthe walls as Iwait. Satinblackpaintis licked over the ceilings and walls, and a single chandelier spiralsdownthecenteroftheroombeforebloomingintoarayofcrystals.IâveneverbeenintheCavebefore.Itwasalways forEKCmeetings.Thiswasmynorm.Iknewmydadwasnâtagoodman.
Iknewmyuncleswerenâteither
Hell,IwouldnâtevencrossTillie,Warâsmom.Iâdheardstoriesabouthertoo.Butbeinginherefeelsdifferent.Likeallthe storiesIhadheardovertheyearswerenâtonlytrue,becauseIknewtheywere,butthattheyfelt right Justified Dadmakeshiswaytome,leaningbackagainstthetablewhilefistingtheedge.Itâsjustusinherefornow,butIknowthat isnâtgoingtobeforlong.Forone,hecalledthismeeting.
âBabygirl â His hand rests onmycheekand Iexhale a nervous breath Ilove mydad He is the rockofnotjustour family,buttheorder as awhole.Peoplelookuptohim,worshiphim.Iâmworriedaboutwhatthatmeans for Priestoncehe takes thegavel,andtheyshiftthatpower thattohim Whatwill hedowithit?Heâs sensibleandwill always maketheright
choicesfortheEKC,butmybrotherissoulless.Whathappenswhenhehastomakethehardchoicesandotherlivesareonthe line?
Jesus
Iknewwhatourfamilymeantandthecovenantbehindit.IknewthatDadwas,inshort,anundergroundgod.Hemadethe rulesandeveryonefollowed Every.Single.Person.
Wedidnâtneedtocallitamafiabecauseitwasnât WeweretheorderoftheEliteKingsClubandthatinitselfheldmore weightthananyothertermyouâdfindinthedictionaryunder bad motherfuckers.Ourhistoryispure.Ourlineageunwavering. Weneverprocreatedwithanyoneoutsideofourworld,butevenifwedid,theyhadaconnectiontoit.
âLookatmeâ
Dadstartles meoutofmyreverie,andmyeyes travel uphis blacksuit,pastthetattoos onhis chest,andcontinueuntil I meethisgaze Heâdalwayskepthisbeardshort,butrecentlyheâsbeengrowingitoutlonger Thicker Itonlymakeshimlook scarier.
Hetouchesthesideofmyhead,brushingmyhairbehindmyear "Warisgoingtogiveyoushitaboutthis Maybeevenyour brother.â
âIdonâtcare.âIblinkpasthiswords.âIdeservetobehere.Wedeservetobehere.â
âYoudo Youall doâHenods,smilingjustenoughforthewrinklelinesaroundhiseyestodeepen Eviegoesonandon aboutthedadsandhowhottheyare.Iâvehadtostopmyselffromslappingheronmorethanoneoccasion.Peoplehavespread ridiculousrumorsaboutherandPriest,butreally,thetruthisthatwecanâttrustheraroundourdads Sheâsnotinterestedinour brothers.âTheydonâtknowaboutyougirlstraining.Weneedtokeepitthatwayfornow.Idonâtwanttobombardyourbrother withtoomuchtoofast.Saveitforaftertheritual.â
âItâs notso muchPriestthanitis WarâŚâ Iroll myeyes and relaxinto the chair. âHeâs gotthis weird complexaboutus beingaroundbecauseofRiver.â
Dadraisesabrow
âWhat?âIscowl.Heâsalwaysdoingthis.Opensentencesandcrypticcomments.IdonâtknowhowMomtoleratesit. âYouthinkthatâswhyWaristhewayheis?â
Dadpushesoffthetableandsauntershiswaytothefront.
âWhatâsthatsupposedtomean?âIaskashecontinuestopourafingerofwhiskeyintoanemptyglass.
Hebringsittohislips,keepinghiseyesonmine.âItmeanstheappledoesnâtfallfarfromthefuckingtree.âHeshootshis drinkbackandIwatchastheamber liquiddisappearsdownhisthroat.BeforeIcanaskhimonceagaintoexplain,thedoor opens and the other fathers pile in Nate takes the spot to Dadâs right, Brantley opposite, and before I say anything more, someoneelsewalksin.
UncleEli
MysmilewidensandIshootupfrommychair,flyingacrosstheroom. Hecatchesmewithahug.âHey,princess,âhewhispersintomyhair,kissingmyhead.
âYounevercomearoundasmuchanymore!âIscold,andIfightwithmyselftonotjutoutmylip Hisarmstightenaroundme.âIknow.YouknowyoucanalwayscometoSpain âHepausesamoment.â shit.â âIgetitâIstepbackfromhim,stillgiddy âYouguyshaveallbranchedoutandaredoingGodâswork IhavenâtseenLilith orLunaforsolong!â
Hechucklesdeeply,directingmebacktomychairandtakingtheonebesideme UncleEliwasthefunone Foryears,heâd playgameswithme,takemeoutwithLunawhenwewerelittle.
âOkay,holdup!âNatecallsout,hishandsraised.Morepeoplearecomingthroughthedoor,butIalreadyknowwhoitwill be âWhydonâtIgetahuglikethat?Thefuck!IthoughtIwasthefavoriteuncle?â
âYoustill are.â I roll myeyes witha smile, winkingat Eli and Brantley. âSo. Lilithand Luna? How are they?â I ask, loweringdownontothechair LunaisEliâsdaughterthathehadwithoneofthebaddestchicksIknow,asidefrommymother andTills.Sheiswild.NotwildlikeAuntyTate,whotookmetopiercemynippleswhenIwassixteen,butstillwild.Eli,from oneoftheFoundingFamilies,isalsoinathrouplewithKyrinandLilith,whoarepartofanadult-stylecircuscalledMidnight Mayhem.
I hadnât seenLuna since we were little. Whentheyall separated and decided Midnight Mayhemwould no longer be a traveling circus, but homebound, all of themspread throughout the world to go international Eli, Kyrin, and Lilith chose Lâembruix,avillagesnuggledinthevalleysofSpain.Iâdseenphotosanditlookedhaunting,yetsomewhatromantic.
âTheyâregood Luna âElipausesandturnstofaceBishop AlookpassesbetweenthetwoofthemandifIdidnâtknow better,Iwouldhavemissedwhateveritwas.
ButIdid.Enoughtoknowthatthereâssomethinggoingon.
Ahardthighbrushesagainstmineandmybreathcatches.Idonâthavetolooktoknow whoitis.Idonâtknow whyithas started to bother me more thanusual. War and Iwere the closestoutofus all throughour childhood, to the pointwhere we
wouldfinisheachotherâssentences.
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Dadleansbackinhischair,acigarrollingbetweenhisfingerandthumb Adarksmileplaysacrosshislips.âYes.Soplaynice.Youknowyoursisterisagoodshot.â
Forgiveness wasnât a currency Iâd ever spend. If you crossed me, Iâd simply make you pay.
ChurchbellsranginthedistanceasIshadedmyeyesfromthesun Thefamiliarsculptofthebuildingpeekedoutthroughthe greentreesandbushes.
Itookastepforward,butahandcametomybelly.Itwasaghostofatouch.Physicallyunfamiliar,spirituallyeverything Iâdeverknown.
Thewordsthatcamefromhismouthscribbledpoetryovermyskin.âHaloâŚâ IpulledawayfromhimandbeforeIcouldthinktwice,Iran
How could he? Why was he?
IransofastthatIdidnâtrealizewhenthesoftbladesofgrassbeneaththesolesofmyfeetturnedtoshardsofgravelthatcut throughmyskin.
IdidnâtstopwhenIflew throughthedoorstothebuilding,tearsstreamingdownmyfaceandclothesdrenchedinwater. Four peoplestoodatthebottomofthestaircasetothemainroom,all dressedinblack.Theyslowlyturned,justas thedoor slammedclosedbehindme.
MyhandsshookasIdippedthemintothestoupandcrossedmyselfwithwater thatwasanythingbutholy Thiswasnâta church.Thiswashell.
Theirfaceswerecoveredbyblackhoods,butIknewwhotheywere Mybottomliptrembledandmyheartfracturedinmy chest.
âIdonâtwant âSomeonegrabbedmefromthebackofmythroatbeforeforcingmyfaceintothestoup.Idesperatelytried topushaway,breakfree MylungsburnedeverytimeItookinwater,butitwasnouse Nothingwasofuse
MymusclesgavewaybeforeIdid.
Theycouldtakeme Allofme