woman of courage
Wanda E. Brunstetter N ew Y ork T imes B estselling A uthor
woman of courage COLLECTOR’S EDITION
A n Impr int of B ar bour P ublishing, Inc.
Woman of Courage © 2014 by Wanda E. Brunstetter Woman of Hope © 2018 by Wanda E. Brunstetter Print ISBN 978-1-68322-787-8 eBook Editions: Adobe Digital Edition (.epub) 978-1-68322-968-1 Kindle and MobiPocket Edition (.prc) 978-1-68322-969-8 All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means without written permission of the publisher. All scripture quotations are taken from the King James Version of the Bible. This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any similarity to actual people, organizations, and/or events is purely coincidental. For more information about Wanda E. Brunstetter, please access the author’s website at the following internet address: www.wandabrunstetter.com Cover Design: Faceout Studio, www.faceoutstudio.com Cover Photography: Steve Gardner, Pixelworks Studios Published by Shiloh Run Press, an imprint of Barbour Publishing, Inc., 1810 Barbour Drive, Uhrichsville, Ohio 44683, www.shilohrunpress.com Our mission is to inspire the world with the life-changing message of the Bible. Member of the
Evangelical Christian Publishers Association
Printed in Canada.
Dedication To my friend Jean Otto, a woman of courage. Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Ephesians 6:10
Prologue Dansville, New York 1837
A
shiver of excitement ran through Amanda Pearson as she gazed at her mother’s wedding dress lying across the end of her bed. Once more this dress would be worn to honor a new beginning. Tomorrow, Amanda would become Mrs. Nathan Lane, and she could hardly wait. Nathan was all she had ever wanted in a husband. He was attractive, with thick blond hair and pale blue eyes. Nathan owned his own carriage-making business and was doing quite well financially. But it wasn’t Nathan’s good looks or lucrative occupation that attracted her to him. What Amanda found most appealing about her future husband was his confident attitude and good standing in their Quaker church. Everyone said they made the perfect couple. Even Amanda’s father, a widower and preacher, approved of Nathan and seemed quite eager to see Amanda happily married. A knock sounded on Amanda’s bedroom door, halting her musings. “Come in,” she called. The door opened, and Papa stepped into the room. “Nathan is downstairs, Daughter. He wishes to speak with thee.” Amanda glanced at the clock on her bureau, noting that it was half past eight. “Nathan is here now? I didn’t expect to see him until tomorrow evening, when we become man and wife.” Deep wrinkles formed across Papa’s forehead as he scrubbed his hand down the side of his face. “Nathan said it’s urgent.” Papa shifted uneasily, his pale blue eyes blinking rapidly. “I asked if something had happened in his family, but he wouldn’t say. All I could get out of him 7
Wanda E . Brunstet ter was that he wanted to talk to thee and it couldn’t wait until tomorrow.” A tremor of fear shot through Amanda. “I shall retire to my room for now so that thou mayest speak to Nathan privately,” Papa said. Amanda paused in front of her mirror, pinched her cheeks to give them a bit of color, and followed her father out of the room. Downstairs, she found Nathan in the parlor, pacing from the window to the settee. “Good evening, Nathan,” Amanda said, stepping up to him. “I understand thou wishest to speak with me.” Nathan stopped pacing and averted his gaze, looking over her shoulder toward the door. “What is it? Has something happened at home—to one of thy parents, perhaps?” “Mother and Father are fine.” Nathan began pacing again. He stopped beside Amanda and reached for her hand. His fingers were moist. “I—I should have told thee sooner, but I cannot marry thee tomorrow.” Amanda’s spine stiffened as she tried to digest what he had said. “Wh–why not?” she asked in a whispered voice. He took a deep breath, then cleared his throat. “I am in love with someone else.” Amanda quickly withdrew her hand as shock coursed through her veins. She grabbed the back of the settee for support. “Who has stolen thy love from me, Nathan?” “Penelope Goodwin. We have been seeing each other secretly for many weeks.” Nathan placed both hands against his temples, making little circles with his fingertips. “I thought it was just a passing fancy, but as time went on, it became much more.” Penelope Goodwin. The words echoed in Amanda’s head. Oh Penelope, how couldst thou have done this to me? I thought we were friends. “I’m sorry,” Nathan said, “It was wrong to let our relationship go on this long, and I know it’s a lot to ask, but I hope thou wilt understand. It wouldn’t be right for us to marry when I am in love with someone else.” 8
W o m a n of C o u r a g e “No—no, of course not.” Amanda blinked back tears and swallowed the bitter taste of bile in her mouth. He took a step toward her, but she turned away. “There is nothing more for us to say,” she murmured. Amanda cringed when she heard his heavy footsteps retreat. The door clicked shut behind him. She breathed deeply, trying to calm her racing heart. Her dream of becoming Mrs. Nathan Lane lay destroyed. The months during which Amanda had thought their relationship blossomed into something that meant so much had just been ripped away as if they had never happened. Had she been blinded by the truth? Was she a fool for trusting Nathan so deeply? Whatever the answers to those questions, Amanda was certain about one thing: she was destined to be an old maid. As clearly as the full moon beamed through the parlor window, she knew she would never fall in love again.
9
Chapter 1 Three months later in early spring Wyoming Territory
A
manda tried to hide it, but she was tired and out of sorts. She wasn’t used to sitting sidesaddle on a horse for hours on end, but that’s what she had been doing since they’d left Fort Laramie early that morning. Harvey Hanson, the guide Papa had hired for their journey west, said they needed to make as many miles as possible during the daylight hours. He also warned them to be on the lookout for hostile Indians who might already be aware of their departure. When Amanda and her father had first arrived at the post and met up with Harvey, the burly looking man had explained that Fort Laramie wasn’t a military fort, but a trading post established by fur traders in 1834. Its true name was “Fort William on the Laramie,” but most folks referred to it as simply “Fort Laramie.” Just last year the post had become the headquarters for the American Fur Company. Amanda had felt a bit nervous, seeing all the Indians camped in areas outside the post, but Fort Laramie was the central location for trading with the Sioux and Cheyenne. Trading buffalo robes, the fort’s primary commodity, was fast replacing the once-prevalent beaver fur trade. The Indians exchanged the robes and furs they’d brought for tobacco, blankets, powder, lead, beads, and unfortunately alcohol. While those facts interested Amanda, she shuddered, remembering Harvey’s stories about some of the aggressive Indian tribes. He’d mentioned torture such as thrusting sharpened sticks into prisoners, heaping red-hot coals on their bodies, or cutting off their fingers and 10
W o m a n of C o u r a g e toes. While Amanda trusted the Lord to protect them every step of the way, she would keep a wary eye out for enemies. She could never endure such agonizing pain, and knowing what was possible made her feel as if their every move was being watched by some Indian’s keen eyes. Harvey was strictly business. He seemed to be better at barking out orders than engaging in idle chitchat. He spit a lot, and each time, Amanda cringed. But Papa had been told that Harvey was good at what he did, so Amanda was grateful that he was their guide. She could ignore his annoying habits in exchange for a safe, uneventful journey. When Harvey removed his worn-looking beaver-skin cap earlier that morning, she’d noticed a scar on the back of his head. No hair grew in the small area, and Amanda wondered what had happened. Maybe he’d been attacked by a hostile Indian and managed to escape with his life. Or perhaps he had tangled with some wild animal. It was probably best not to know. She glanced over at Papa, slouched in his saddle, seeming halfasleep. As if sensing she was watching him, he sat up straighter, stretched his back, yawned, and slumped once more. This trip seemed to be taking its toll on him. Soon after they’d left the fort, Papa said he felt light-headed and short of breath. Concerned for his welfare, Amanda had suggested they go back to the fort to rest a few more days, but Papa assured her that he would be fine and was determined they continue. Amanda wasn’t surprised. Although blessed with many endearing qualities, her father could be a bit stubborn. Of course, the same could be said about me, she reasoned. But Papa’s really a dear man. She reflected on how he had insisted on coming with her on this trip. After Amanda’s engagement was broken, she’d announced that she wanted to go west and join the Rev. and Mrs. Spalding in their mission to bring the Good News to the Nez Percé Indians. “I will not send my daughter into the wilderness to face unknown dangers alone,” he said. While Papa received no pay for his service as a Quaker minister 11
Wanda E . Brunstet ter back home, he’d worked as a cabinet maker for a good many years and had saved up some money. Since they didn’t know if or when they would return to New York, he’d sold their home, his business, and all their belongings except for the few things they would need for this trip. Using some of the money, Papa had secured passage for him and Amanda on a steamboat, which took them to Cincinnati. From there, they’d boarded another steamboat to St. Louis, and then a third boat to Liberty, Missouri. Continuing on their journey, they rode in wagons with some fur traders, following the Platte River to Fort Laramie, where they met the man who would guide them to the mission. Harvey had said the rest of the journey would be best made on horseback without taking any wagons over the mountains. Papa’s remaining money would be used for supplies along the way and anything they might need once they got to Lapwai Creek in Oregon Territory, where the Spaldings had set up their mission. Amanda figured their expenses would be minimal once their journey ended and they got settled in. Unlike Henry and Eliza Spalding, who’d gone west under the direction of their mission board, Amanda and her father would receive no monetary support from their church and were pretty much on their own. Amanda shifted in her saddle, trying to find a comfortable position, glancing at her father again. “Art thou alright?” she asked when he met her gaze. “Should we ask our guide to stop awhile so you can rest?” “I’m a little tired, but I’ll be fine,” he said, offering her a weak smile as he pushed his dark, broad-brimmed hat farther back on his graying head. “Please do not worry. There is no need for thee to ask our guide to stop.” Amanda smiled in return, but it was hard not to worry when she saw such a look of fatigue on his pale face. Papa had never been a strong man, but for the last several months he’d taken more naps than usual and slept longer at night. She’d also noticed times when he had trouble catching his breath. At Amanda’s insistence, Papa had seen the doctor for a checkup before embarking on this trip. 12
W o m a n of C o u r a g e He’d returned home later that day, saying everything was fine and that Dr. Stevenson had given him permission to travel. To Amanda’s knowledge, Papa had never lied to her about anything, so she had no reason not to believe him. She figured he’d just been doing too much lately and that the tonic the doctor had given Papa would put the spring back in his step. Truthfully, Amanda was glad he’d decided to go west with her, because she would have missed him terribly if she’d come alone—not to mention having to deal with their uncouth, unfriendly guide. Still, Papa’s pallor and growing weakness concerned her. As they rode, she focused on taking in the scenery. If she thought of other things, it helped her not to worry about Papa or the possibility of a hostile Indian encounter. Tucking in a piece of loose hair under her dark Quaker bonnet, she shuddered as a chill went through her body. Her slender arms ached, and her fingers could hardly bend from holding the reins so tightly. She’d ridden horses before, but not for this many hours at a time. Hopefully, as each day passed, she would become better adjusted to long hours in the saddle. Looking around, it wasn’t hard to realize that they were far from home. Gone were the fertile farmlands and lush rolling hillsides, thick with trees. Here, it was practically treeless and flat, with grasslands and sagebrush. Steep bluffs rose out of the flats where the Great Plains merged with the Rockies. Amanda had never been this far west, and she could only imagine what Oregon Territory might look like. She turned in her saddle and looked ahead at the two pack mules carrying all of their supplies. Harvey had said their names were Jake and Jasper. With the exception of her Bible and toilet articles, which she carried in the reticule tied to her saddle, everything Amanda owned and all their provisions were in the care of those mules.
q
After what seemed like an eternity, Harvey finally announced that it was time to stop for the night. They made camp in a small clearing by a wide stream. After stretching her tired, aching limbs, Amanda went down to the stream to wash up, while her father tended to his needs, 13
Wanda E . Brunstet ter and Harvey built a fire and put up a canvas shelter for them. Amanda didn’t look forward to sleeping on the ground, but at least they had several blankets to rest upon. And it would give her a break from the monotonous motion of the horse, not to mention the uncomfortable saddle. Harvey, a rugged-looking, brown-haired man in his early forties, said he preferred to sleep on a buffalo hide in front of the fire. He’d told Papa that he liked gazing up at the stars, but Amanda had a hunch the real reason Harvey chose to sleep outside was to guard their camp. If a wild animal or enemy Indians should come upon them, he’d be ready and waiting with his loaded rifle. Harvey also said he slept with one eye open so he could watch for bears. While Amanda would never consider using a gun herself, she felt a measure of comfort in knowing they had the protection of their guide. Pulling her thoughts aside, Amanda dried her wet hands on her apron and began fixing their supper over the campfire. When they’d hired Harvey at Fort Laramie, he’d made it clear that he wasn’t much of a cook, so Amanda had readily agreed to fulfill that duty in order to see that they were properly fed. Tonight, she planned to make some corn bread and serve it with a hearty venison stew. Her stomach growled noisily as she cut the dried meat and vegetables and placed them in the pot of water Harvey had set over the hot coals. When that was done, she glanced across the clearing to check on her father. He was seated on a large rock, Bible in his lap and head bowed as though he was praying. Amanda figured as tired as Papa was, he had probably nodded off. He’s not getting any younger, Amanda reminded herself. Papa would be fifty-one next month. They’d have to celebrate his birthday on the trail. She smiled, reflecting on how last year she had invited several friends over for supper to celebrate Papa’s fiftieth birthday. Nathan had been among those who had come. Amanda gripped the sides of her dress. There I go, thinking about Nathan again. She grimaced. I am making this trip to forget about him, and I need to keep my thoughts on other more important things. 14
W o m a n of C o u r a g e Taking a seat on a log, Amanda thought about a middle-aged Indian woman she’d seen at the fort. She wished she’d had the chance to talk with her a bit and perhaps even give the woman a Bible. But Amanda was told that the Indians there were part of a Cheyenne tribe and spoke no English. If she could have communicated with the woman, Amanda would have explained that there were some white people, like her, who wanted to help the Indians. Then too, if they could have talked to each other, perhaps the woman might have given Amanda some insights about the Indians and their customs. Going to the mission without being able to communicate with those she was planning to teach presented challenges; however, Amanda felt sure that by the time she and Papa reached Oregon Territory, the Spaldings would have begun educating the Nez Percé, and that at least some of them would understand a little English. At the very least, she would be able to help Mrs. Spalding with cooking and cleaning, which she’d been doing since she was a child. Although she’d written a letter to the Spaldings, letting them know she and Papa were coming to help out, they’d left New York before an answer had come. Even so, she felt sure the reverend and his wife would welcome their help. Amanda’s thoughts turned to her mother and how she had died giving birth to Amanda. Papa had never remarried or shown any interest in another woman. He’d been devoted to Amanda since her birth, twenty-two years ago, and had made sure, under the tutorage of her aunt Dorothy, that she learned to cook, clean, and sew. Papa had told Amanda on more than one occasion that he wanted her to learn all these things, not just to provide for their needs, but so she could be a good wife someday. Amanda wished she’d had the opportunity to meet her mother and get to know her, the way Papa had for the first four years they were married. But that was not to be. Papa had said Amanda got her beautiful flaxen-colored hair from Mama, but her blue eyes came from him. The only things Amanda knew about her mother were what Papa had told her. So in a sense, she did know her mother a little bit, although it wasn’t the same as if she’d been alive during Amanda’s childhood. 15
Wanda E . Brunstet ter She cringed. Thinking about Papa’s marriage had drawn her thoughts back to Nathan. Had he and Penelope gotten married yet? If Nathan truly loved Penelope, then he surely would have made Penelope his wife by now. Nathan Lane! Would she ever quit thinking of him? “Oh!” At the sound of her father’s cry, Amanda leaped to her feet and rushed to his side. “Papa, what is it?” Papa’s thin lips contorted as he pointed to his chest. “It—it hurts, right here.” “I shall get Harvey.” Amanda, fearing the worst, started to turn, but his desperate plea stopped her from going after their guide. “No! I must tell thee something,” Papa said, looking up at Amanda through glassy eyes. Amanda went down on her knees beside him. “What is it, Papa?” He blinked several times, as though trying to focus his thoughts. “Give me thy word.” “My word on what, Papa?” “Promise thou wilt go and teach the Indians about God.” She placed her hand gently on his arm. “Of course, Papa. We shall both go and preach the Good News.” Papa clutched his chest. “I should have told thee before but knew if I did, thou wouldst not have made this worthy trip.” A sense of fear coursed through Amanda. She could barely breathe. “What hast thou not told me?” “My heart is failing. The doctor confirmed what I already suspected when I went to see him before we left home.” He reached out a trembling hand and with shaky fingers stroked her cheek. “I need thy word that if I don’t make it, thou wilt go on alone.” Tears sprang to Amanda’s eyes as she gripped her father’s cold hand. “No, Papa! No, I cannot!” “Thou must,” he implored. “The Lord told me in a dream that this is His will for thee. There is nothing for thee in New York. Thy future lies in the west—among the Nez Percé people, and. . .” Papa’s 16
W o m a n of C o u r a g e words were halted as he drew in a shuddering breath. “My work is done here on earth, Amanda. It—it is time for me to be reunited with thy mother.” “No, Papa, not yet!” Amanda clutched his arm, willing him to hang on. “I need thee. I cannot go on without thee.” “Thou must. Promise me this, Amanda. I beg thee to give me thy word.” Amanda nodded slowly as tears coursed down her cheeks. “Yes, Papa, I will go.” Her words seemed to offer the comfort he needed, for he smiled slightly, and then his head fell forward onto his well-worn Bible. “Papa! Papa!” Amanda screamed. No response. She placed her hand under his nose, but there was no breath. She felt no heartbeat in his chest. “No, Papa! No!” Despite her denial, Amanda knew her father was gone. What she didn’t know was how she would go on without him.
17
Chapter 2
A
manda sobbed as she watched while Harvey dug a shallow grave in an area outside their camp and then placed her father’s body within it. As the sound of the digging echoed in her ears, she still couldn’t comprehend that Papa was gone. He just can’t be dead, Amanda told herself over and over again. It had to be a horrible nightmare that she would wake up from in the morning, and they would continue their journey west. But with each shovel of dirt that covered the grave, Amanda began to face reality. Papa’s heart had given out on him. The trip had been too much, and it was her fault. If only she hadn’t decided to embark on this journey, Papa would still be alive. Or would he? Is it possible that Papa would have died even if we’d stayed in New York? If his heart was weak, Papa might not have survived no matter where we lived. “Would ya like to say a few words over your pa before we bed down for the night?” Harvey asked, jolting Amanda’s thoughts. “What? Umm. . .Yes, I. . .I need to do that,” she said, swallowing hard in an attempt to regain her composure. She glanced at the log where Papa’s Bible lay and knew she ought to read some scripture. But before she could make a move, Harvey, as though reading her thoughts, went to get it. When he returned, he handed her the well-worn Bible and said, “I ain’t no religious fella, but even I know that a man like your pap deserves a Christian burial.” Amanda managed a quick nod, and with trembling fingers, she opened her father’s Bible and read from the twenty-third Psalm: “ ‘The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. . . . Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will 18
W o m a n of C o u r a g e fear no evil: for thou art with me.’ ” Amanda paused and drew in a shaky breath. She was sure that Papa hadn’t been afraid of death, for he had died so peacefully. The Lord had been with Papa, offering comfort as he passed from this earth. Now, as she stood looking at the fresh mound of dirt, she consoled herself with the knowledge that her father was no longer in pain and that he and Mama, after all these years, were finally together again. “ ‘Thou preparest a table before me,’ ” she continued to read, as emotion clogged her throat, “ ‘in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.’ ” Amanda closed the Bible, bowed her head, and prayed a simple prayer: “Heavenly Father, we commend my father’s spirit into Thy hands. I thank Thee for the short time I had with Papa. Now, I ask Thee to give me strength to go on without him. Amen.” Amanda thought about her mother’s engraved headstone, nestled between two maple trees in the graveyard behind their meeting place back home. Papa should have been buried there by her side. He too ought to have a nice headstone. But then, she reminded herself, Papa’s spirit is not here—only his body, which will soon become one with the earth. Knowing her father as well as she did, Amanda didn’t think he would mind that his place of burial had no marker. Tears coursed down Amanda’s cheeks as she moved away from the grave and headed back to their camp. It hadn’t really been a proper service; at least not proper enough for a man like Papa. But under the circumstances, it was the best she could do. As difficult as it would be, Amanda knew she must keep her promise to Papa. She would go to Oregon Territory and share the Word of God with the Nez Percé Indians.
q
When Amanda awoke the following morning, she felt groggy and disoriented. She’d had a horrible dream and hadn’t slept well. Glancing across the lean-to, to see if her father was awake, she frowned. He wasn’t there, and neither was his sleeping mat. Maybe he’d rolled up 19
Wanda E . Brunstet ter his bedding and gone down to the stream to wash up. Yes, she was sure that must be the case. Amanda yawned and rubbed her eyes. She needed to get up and fix breakfast so they could be on their way. After she’d stepped out from under the lean-to, she spotted Harvey, poking at the smoldering embers of the fire. “Were ya able to get any sleep last night, missy?” he asked when she approached him a few minutes later. “I did sleep some, but it was a restless kind of sleep. I had a horrible nightmare,” she replied, pulling her arms back to get the kinks out of her limbs. “That’s understandable, under the circumstances and all,” he said, rubbing one finger down the side of his slightly crooked nose. “Where is my father?” Amanda asked. “Is he down at the stream washing up?” Harvey squinted his beady brown eyes. “What was that?” “I said. . . . Oh, never mind. I need to go there myself, so I’ll talk to him then.” Amanda hurried off toward the stream. She heard Harvey call her name but kept going. She felt a desperate need to talk to Papa. Yesterday he’d looked awfully tired, and she’d been worried about him. When Amanda arrived at the stream, Papa wasn’t there. Where in the world could he be? She turned and studied the surrounding area, searching desperately for any sign of her father. Then, as she moved back toward their camp, her gaze fell on a mound of dirt. Two sticks tied together to form a small cross had been stuck in the ground at the head of the mound. A cold chill swept over Amanda as reality set it. Beneath this ugly mound of dirt lay Papa’s body. It hadn’t been a dream after all. Her beloved father had died last night, and she had read scripture over his newly dug grave. Amanda dropped to her knees and wailed, “Dear Lord, why didst Thou take my father?” “Missy, ya ain’t doin’ no good fer yourself like this,” Harvey said, placing his hand on her trembling shoulder. 20
W o m a n of C o u r a g e She looked up at him through a veil of tears, surprised not only by the gentleness in his tone, but also that he had followed her here to the gravesite. Harvey hadn’t been this nice or spoken so kindly to her since they’d left Fort Laramie. “Come on over and get yourself warmed up,” Harvey said, motioning to the fire he’d started. “You’ll feel better once you’ve had some hot coffee.” Amanda shook her head. “I do not drink coffee, sir.” “Well, it’s all I got, and it’ll warm ya from the inside, while the fire takes the early mornin’ chill outta your bones.” Harvey extended his hand. “Come now, missy. It ain’t doin’ a thing for ya to stay here like this.” Dazed, Amanda took his calloused hand and rose to her feet. She followed him silently back to the camp. “Why don’t ya take a seat over there?” Harvey motioned to a log near the fire. “Once we’ve had ourselves somethin’ to eat, we’ll clear up the camp, load up Jake and Jasper, and start back for the fort.” “You mean, Fort Laramie?” she asked, tipping her head as she looked up at him. He gave a quick nod. “We’re only a full day out, so I can easily take ya back.” “Oh no.” Amanda shook her head determinedly. “I have already come a long way, and my father hired thee to take us to the Spalding Mission, so that is where I plan to go.” “Well, if ya do, you’ll be goin’ without me,” Harvey said, narrowing his gaze. “I ain’t takin’ no lady that far by myself.” “Why not?” “ ’Cause it wouldn’t be right. Besides, I never did think it was a good idea for a sickly looking old man and a little slip of a lady, who looks like she might break, to be goin’ on no trek through the wilderness with some dumb idea about preachin’ to the red-skin people.” Amanda squared her shoulders and stared up at Harvey with a renewed sense of determination. “For thy information, Mr. Hanson, I am not as fragile as I may appear. I’m a hard worker with a determined spirit, and I won’t go back on the promise I made to my father.” 21
Wanda E . Brunstet ter “What promise was that?” “Before Papa died, he asked me to continue the journey west to minister to the Nez Percé Indians.” She clasped her hands tightly, as though in prayer. “With or without thee, I intend to keep that promise.” Harvey tipped his head back and laughed. “You’re sure a feisty one, I’ll give ya that much.” She made no comment, feeling anything but feisty. Harvey shook his head and muttered, “Women! They’re impossible creatures to figure out.” “What is that supposed to mean?” “You’re either very brave or just plain dumb to all the trials that could come upon us along the way,” Harvey said sarcastically. Amanda folded her arms in an unyielding pose. “I am neither of those, sir. I am a woman of faith who is trusting in the Lord to give her courage.” Harvey spat on the ground. “Is that so?” “Indeed. Now wilt thou continue to act as my guide?” Harvey broke a branch off a nearby tree, snapped it in half, and tossed it on the fire. “I may be loco for agreein’ to this, but yeah, I’ll see that you get to where ya wanna go.” Amanda smiled. “I thank thee for that.”
q
Amanda reached up a slender hand to shield her eyes against the glare of the harsh afternoon sun, while clucking to her horse. “Slow down, Betsy. Thou art going much too fast.” “She’s jest followin’ my lead,” Harvey called over his shoulder. “Hang on tight to the saddle.” “That is what I am trying to do,” Amanda said breathlessly. “It’s hard to stay on the horse when I’m sitting sideways like this.” She bit her lip out of frustration, while opening and closing her stiff fingers. She would never admit it to Harvey, but she really wasn’t cut out for this. What made me believe I could make a journey of this sort when I know so little about survival in the wilderness? Amanda wondered. The words of Ephesians 6:10 ran through her mind: Finally, my 22
W o m a n of C o u r a g e brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. A renewed sense of purpose welled in Amanda’s chest. I can do this. With God’s help I can do whatever He asks me to do. “We can remedy your situation real quick,” Harvey announced. He halted his horse, and the pack mules stopped behind him. Amanda pulled her horse up too. “Why are we stopping, Mr. Hanson?” “I want ya to put on a pair of your pa’s trousers, and then you’re gonna ride that horse like a man,” he said, dismounting. Amanda gasped. “Dost thou expect me to wear men’s clothes?” “That’s right, and I wish you’d stop theein’ and thouin’ all over the place. Can’t ya jest talk like a normal person?” “I am a ‘normal’ person,” Amanda replied tersely as she slid off her horse. “And I would appreciate it if thou wouldst not speak to me in that manner.” Harvey lifted his hand. “Hold your britches, little lady; I meant no offense. It’s just hard to understand when ya talk thataway.” “It is how we Quakers who attend the Friends’ church speak,” she said, trying not to sound so defensive this time. “That’s all well and good, but there ain’t no Friends’ church around here, and I’d be much obliged if you’d say you instead of thee when you’re speakin’ to me.” Amanda wasn’t sure she could abide by that request, as it simply wouldn’t sound right to her. But rather than start a disagreement, she nodded and said, “I shall try.” Harvey grinned; then he pointed to her father’s valise. “When ya find some trousers you can go behind one of them trees and change. In the meantime, I’ll put your pa’s saddle on your horse, and we’ll leave the sidesaddle here on the trail ’cause ya won’t be needin’ it again.” Amanda groaned inwardly. This man surely liked to give orders. Well, as much as she hated to admit it, perhaps wearing Papa’s trousers would be a good idea. It would mean she could sit a little easier on the horse, and it might keep her legs from getting so chafed. She wouldn’t, however, remove her skirt. She would simply put Papa’s trousers on underneath. 23
Chapter 3
A
s Amanda and Harvey mounted their horses the following day, the sunlight filtered through the tree branches overhead, casting rays of misty splendor. Amanda winced, despite the beautiful morning. A few more days in the saddle and she was certain she’d be permanently crippled. She thought by now that she’d be used to it, but even wearing Papa’s trousers and sitting in a regular saddle hadn’t helped that much. She was beginning to feel a sense of bitterness about this trip and the inconvenience of sleeping on the ground every night. Riding on the back of a horse that wouldn’t listen to her for hours on end didn’t help either. There were times when Amanda wanted to throttle the mare, and more often than not, she would end up hollering, “Slow down, Betsy!” or “Get going, Betsy!” The sturdy quarter horse, with a medium brown coat and a white patch between her eyes, definitely had a mind of her own. It was enough to test Amanda’s patience. How can I minister to the Indians if I continue to feel this way? Amanda asked herself. Perhaps I should have turned back when Papa died. She clenched her teeth and squared her shoulders. If I’d gone back, it would have been admitting defeat, and I am not a quitter. “You’d better stay alert, and keep that horse of yours right beside me,” Harvey warned. “We’re travelin’ through Blackfoot territory now, and I aim to be extra careful.” “Didn’t thou sayest the Blackfoot people can be quite hostile?” Amanda asked with a tremor in her voice. “Ya got that right, missy,” Harvey replied. “Some of ’em go to the tradin’ posts and Rendezvous to barter and trade their goods, but there ain’t a one of ’em that I’d trust as far as I could throw ’em. They’re not like some of the other tribes that are a mite friendlier.” 24
W o m a n of C o u r a g e Amanda swallowed hard and gripped Betsy’s reins. “Why are they called ‘Blackfoot’?” “I’ve heard that it’s ’cause of the dark moccasins they wear on their feet,” he replied. “Dost thou think we will see any Blackfoot, Mr. Hanson?” He shrugged his broad shoulders. “You sure do ask a lot of questions, and I don’t rightly know if we’ll see any Injuns, but I’ll be ready for ’em if we do.” “Ready? What dost thou mean?” she asked with a feeling of trepidation. “Well, I ain’t gonna start shootin’, if that’s what yer thinkin’. I weren’t born yesterday, so I ain’t stupid enough to take on a whole tribe of Injuns. Some of them redskins will kill just for the sport of it.” Harvey gave his gun a tap. “Now, if it’s just two or three hostile red men, then I’ll give ’em my best shots.” Amanda’s face warmed. “Oh dear. I hope we will not have any bloodshed on this trip.” “There won’t be none if I can help it.” Harvey turned and looked over his shoulder at the two pack mules following, along with Papa’s horse, which was now carrying some of their supplies. “We’ve got plenty of goods and a few trinkets we can trade to the Injuns, so I’m countin’ on that to save our hides, should the situation arise.” Amanda drew in a quick breath to help steady her nerves. She hoped the Indians she’d be ministering to at the Spalding Mission weren’t hostile. “What dost thou know about the Nez Percé Indians?” Amanda asked, feeling the need for a change of subject. He frowned. “I told ya before to stop usin’ thee and thou. I’d rather you’d just say the word you when you’re speakin’ to me.” “I can’t make that promise, but I shall try.” “I appreciate that. Now about the Nimiipuu. . .” Amanda blinked. “Who are the Nimiipuu? Is that how you say it?” He nodded. “But I thought we were talking about the Nez Percé Indians.” 25